For Your Eyes Only

Waking up to in Harry’s arms was something I could easily get used to but then again I feel the same when it comes to Niall. Today though I need to push Niall out of my mind and focus on Harry it’s our day today. I had no idea what he had planned for today but honestly I couldn’t care less I just wanted to spend time with him. He was still softly snoring so I took this moment to take in his beauty. Hair just pretty much everywhere, soft pink lips just so kissable whilst staring I didn’t notice the eyes that were all of sudden watching me.
“Morning you done staring yet?”
“Just about, sorry couldn’t help myself”
“I don’t mind now my sweet today I was thinking”
“You didn’t plan anything did you?”
“Now hang on I did I just wanted a nice relaxing day so how does just hanging here sound”
“You know what sounds perfect, pool, films, food the perfect day”
“Glad to hear it, I just didn’t want to go out anywhere because it half term week and I didn’t want people picking up on us”
“Are you ashamed of me?”
I saw the panic spread across his face and all I could do was laugh, I knew what he meant by not wanting to be pick up on. I mean it would just complicate things a hell of a lot more.
“You know Olivia you have the cutest laugh”
“Oh please don’t start, now how does the pool sound I mean it’s already 11:30”
“Pool sounds great... race ya”
“You’re on”
Harry ran out of my room heading for his to get in something to swim in and I did the same. I quickly picked up a purple bikini and then headed on down running as fast as I could but I was too slow.
“Suck on that OliviaI beat you”
“And you don’t win anything so it sucks to win”
“Well I class spending the day with you a pretty good prize”
“Oh dear how cheesy”
“Haha just get in already”
I did as he said and jumped in to the pool, no not elegantly I bombed in to the pool cause a splash soaking Harry in the process. Re surfacing I couldn’t help but laugh at the face Harry was pulling totally sulking. The rest of the time in the pool carried on with just laughing and a lot of touching. It was brilliant I really found that today I was getting incredibly close to Harry.
“Harry I want food”
“Ok, I will cook us something yeah?”
“Urmm yeah ok”
“Trust me I can cook I won’t poison you”
“Hmm yeah we will see abut that”
Getting out of the pool we dried ourselves quickly and then headed on in to the kitchen.
“So what do you feel like babe”
“Urmm surprise me you said you wanted to cook”
“Ok no pressure then”
“Relax Harry I’m happy with anything”
I walked over towards him turning him around so he was facing me, leaning up I placed a little kiss on to his lips. Well it was meant to be a little kiss instead it may off gotten a bit heated next thing I knew I was being picked up on to the kitchen counter. Our lips never parted but our hands were wondering over each other’s bodies. He was truly driving me crazy and I needed him more than anything right now.
“Shall we go somewhere more suitable?”
“What’s wrong with in here Harry”
“I guess... oh fuck it”
With that he pulled down his shorts and it wasn’t long until he was inside of me. We didn’t last long but it was what we both needed just a quick little fuck to get rid of most of the tension building up between us.
“So Olivia food, how about a sandwich”
“Sounds perfect to me”
After eating we soon just crashed out in the cinema room watching Paper Towns with that Cara Delevingne. Such a great film cuddling up with each other we laughed and just enjoyed each other’s company.
“You know Olivia I have had a great time today”
“So have I it’s been a nice relaxing day with you was just what I needed”
“Good but I’m afraid it will be ruined shortly as everyone is on their way home so”
Without another word I leaned in and placed a kiss on to his lips bringing our little date day to a close. Hearing the front door go I decided to go and take a shower first before socialising with everyone else. I didn’t take a long shower and soon I was out walking down towards the kitchen but I stopped as I heard two voices, it was Harry and Niall.
“How did it go today then?”
“Really well actually”
“So you think she will pick you”
“I don’t know but we really connected today, Niall don’t get so worried”
“But I am you get any girl you want”
“So do you you’re just picky”
“Picky no I’m not I was just waiting for someone who I really connected with I told you it was Livy and then you set your eyes on her”
“Look I can’t help that I like her as well”
“I know it’s just shit”
“If she does pick me how you going to act Niall”
“I don’t know I really don’t know anymore”
“So we told her we would be fine but now you don’t know”
“For fuck sake Harry shut up I love her and you just lust for her”
“How can you fucking decide how I feel?”
“I’m not deciding I just know”
“Well you are wrong completely wrong it isn’t just lust”
“What you love her to?”
“Well I don’t know if it’s love how can you even be so sure you love her?”
“Because I just know”
“How about we flip a coin whoever wins gets Olivia it’s just fair”
The shouting increased and I knew right there and then what I was going to do I just knew it was going to break me inside.
“How about I just don’t see either of you”
Both of them were soon quiet and looking over to me I managed to keep the tears in but it was getting harder the way they were looking at me.
“Livy please”
“No you two listen I know this has been strange and wrong of me to date both of you I shouldn’t of. I shouldn’t have fallen for either of you and I am sorry I caused this argument between you to. We should... just forget anything happened and.... Just...”
I couldn’t speak no more the tears were fallen they both began to walk towards me but I just ran away out the house and in to my car. Locking the doors I sat for a while and by the time I went to drive away Harry and Niall were standing in front of the front door. Turning my car around I didn’t know where I was going I just needed a place to stay tonight. Soon I realised the one person who I could go and see Fred my brother. It wasn’t long until I got to the front of his house luckily his car was there and so I knew he was home. Wiping my eyes I got out of my car and walked up to his front door, I haven’t been here once but it felt more welcoming them home already. Knocking on the door I took a step back and heard shuffling coming from behind the door, soon Alice was there looking a tad confuse.
“Olivia hi what’s wrong you’ve been crying”
“Oh nothing really I just....”
I couldn’t keep it in the tears began to slip through again Alice brought me in to a hug and it wasn’t long until I was on the sofa opening up about everything. Fred was soon with us listening to what I was saying and as soon as I was finish I wiped the last few tears away and waited for one of them to speak.
“Sounds to me you got a bit carried away their sis”
“Yeah”
“Look you can stay here tonight but you need to go back home and just face it I don’t want to sound harsh I would love you to stay for longer but this is just something you need to do”
“I know”
Soon we were interrupted by a little cry in the distance and I couldn’t help but smile.
“Can I go see to her?”
“Of course you can just rock her slightly and if that doesn’t work there is a bottle on the side”
“Okay Alice and thank you two again”
I jumped up Fred showed me the direction of where little Rosie was, walking in to her room I just felt so happy to see her. Picking her up in to my arms I took a seat in the chair available and started rocking her in my arms.
“Hello little Rosie it’s your favourite Auntie Olivia here, now let’s try and get you back to sleep. Hmmm singing to help when you stayed with me... would you like me to sing... ok let’s think ahh this song was thought up by your Nanny and I wrote it for her last piece of music... hope you like it little one...
If I could fly, I’d be coming right back home to you, I think I might give up everything just ask me to.
Pay attention I hope that you listen ‘cause I let my guard down, Right now I’m completely defenceless.
For your eyes only I’ll show you my heart, for when you’re lonely and forget who you are. I’m missing half of me when we’re apart, now you know me for your eyes only”
I finished signing and Rosie was fast asleep, placing her back in her bed I turned around to see Fred standing there looking at me.
“You’re singing”
“Yeah”
“You wrote that song it was beautiful”
“Thank you”
We headed towards the spare room I was staying in and I knew right away we were about to have another chat.
“Olivia your back to you again do you see it in yourself”
“I kind of do I’m just... scared”
“Scared of what”
“They are famous and they can have anyone they want why me I just don’t get it and for Harry to prefer me to fucking Kendall Jenner a supermodel I mean it just scares me”
“You are most probably the only one who hasn’t treated them like they are any different from anyone else and plus you have actually gotten to know them for who they really are”
“Yeah and now I have ruined it all”
“Maybe you are just going to have to take a step back you have just become you again be you and then invite a boy in your life”
“Yeah maybe look I’m sorry for coming here”
“No problem at all”
“I think I might head home though you don’t need to crying babies here”
“Haha well you’re right one is enough”
“Thank you anyway you are the best brother ever”
“I thought Liam would have taken that title”
“Fred no Liam is a great brother to me but you are and always will be my big brother who I will always count on and go to if Liam did take that title I wouldn’t be sitting here now would I”
“I guess you have a point there, Love you Livy”
“Love you Fred”
With that I got up and left heading back home to two boys who I have completely fallen for but can’t pursue with either of them. Decision time has come I just didn’t realise or want this to be the outcome, no more me and Niall or me and Harry the worst thing is I still don’t know who I would have picked out of the two. Maybe this is a sign its fate I’m not meant to be with either of them I just needed them to bring me back. Heartbroken and devastated I drove back home the one thing I knew I was making the right choice there is no way I would risk their friendship with one another for a relationship. Their band is way more important than me and if that means I have to leave the picture then that is what I will do.

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