For Your Eyes Only

Work today was full of meetings with new agent managers wanting to rent out studio booths for their new superstar. Liam didn’t bother to stay long he just decided to write some music which was fine by my me; I got to stay occupied all day. The day went by quickly and I was soon back home which for the first time was completely empty, there was no cars out front and no one indoors just a message left on the side.
‘ Olivia we have gone out for Louis mates birthday so don’t wait up would of invited you but we know you have work we love you’
I sighed but was actually quite happy to have my home back to myself; no maids were around either so I was completely alone. I got changed in to some joggers and a crop top and made my way to the music room. Sitting behind the piano I pulled out the scrap paper with my piece on it followed by my mum’s song book. Playing the piece I knew I had to start thinking of some lyrics to go with it, all I was writing down was ‘For your eyes only’ I needed something to add on to it. I thought back to what my mum wanted for the song and just played around with a few words before sighing and cursing. I knew it was going to be hard but I didn’t think trying to connect with my emotions would be so difficult. I decided to just close my eyes and really start to think, I thought about Niall and how I felt with him and then did the same with Harry. Well Harry sort of just popped in to my mind when I was thinking of Niall. I placed my fingers on the keys and played the tune whilst singing along with a few lines that popped in to my head, and there you had it I had the first line to my chorus.
‘For your eyes only, I gave you my heart’
I tried to think of a few more things and it was starting to stress me out, I forgot just how hard lyrics can be especially when I am trying to do my mum proud I mean it was her idea. Then something clicked I played the tune again and started to sing as well.
‘For your eyes only, I gave you my heart
I’m missing half of me when we’re apart’
I shook my head knowing that didn’t go right I needed something in between the two lines for it to work. Thinking over everything I could I decided to think more about myself and how I felt, I felt lonely and that was the truth and I was lost with who I was. I tried to think of something to sound right I tried a few arrangements but nothing was working until.
‘For your eyes only, I gave you my heart
For when you’re lonely and forget who you are
I’m missing half of me when we’re apart’
I smiled to myself happy with what I had written it sounded good to me it was working, what I wasn’t expecting was a clapping sound coming from the door way. I jumped out of my skin before I could even turn around to see who it was there was a body sat down next to me.
“I told you that you could do it”
“Harry, what are you doing here I thought you were at Louis party”
“I didn’t feel like going so I stayed in”
“Oh you could have shouted hello then to me when I walked in”
“Well I was asleep and besides if I did that you wouldn’t have started this”
“I might of”
“Bullshit”
“Ok I wouldn’t off” I went to start packing my stuff up but Harry stopped me making me take a seat back down.
“It’s sounding really good”
“Thanks but I only have a few lines so”
“Yeah but it’s sounding good, is that the chorus?”
“Yeah”
“Well let’s finish the chorus then”
“What?”
“Well might as well try to finish the chorus now as you’re in the moment”
“Ok”
I turned back around focusing on the piano rather than Harry, I looked over the lines I had already and just couldn’t think of anything that could work. I didn’t want to overdo it that’s when Harry signalled me to play the piano like he had something.
“Go for something simple, you sing it and I will just join in at the end I have an idea”
“Harry I”
“Look it’s your song I can go if you want?”
“No I mean I just haven’t sung in front of anyone for a long time”
“Well you have a great voice don’t be nervous it’s only me”
I nodded I don’t know why but it was somehow calming just hearing him saying ‘it’s just me’ it made me feel so comfortable in this moment right now.
‘For your eyes only, I gave you my heart
For when you’re lonely and forget who you are
I’m missing half of me when we’re apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only’
“Simple but effective don’t you think?”
“Yeah that works really well thank you Harry”
I gave him a hug and as we pulled out of it our eyes were locked on each other, without even thinking of anything we started to lean in to each other. Our lips wasn’t far from touching when I realised what was going on and I think he did to, we both froze and didn’t move from the position we were in.
“I really want to kiss you Olivia”
“Same here Harry”
“I can’t though can I”
“I won’t tell”
A smirk appeared across his face and he just chuckled moving away from me, I was slightly relieved I mean I don’t think I would have been able to stop myself if he kissed me. I chuckled as well moving back and picking up my pieces of paper and book, I turned to see him just watching me with a slight frown on his lips.
“Harry have you eaten anything”
“Urmm no actually”
“Do you want a takeaway?”
“Yeah sounds good”
“We can watch a film in the cinema room as well”
“Sure I can sort the food if you want to pick a film this time”
“Sounds good to me Harry”
“Good, Pizza sound good to you”
“Perfect I will just have a margarita”
“You plane Jane”
“Yep now hurry I’m Hungry”
We both laughed as we separated paths, and I headed on towards to the cinema room. Walking in I grabbed the blanket from the corner of the room and placed it on the sofa, I then made my way over to the DVD collection we had. I must have been looking for a while as I felt two hands soon grab my waist making my jump out of my skin turning around expecting Harry; I was shocked to see Niall standing there.
“Niall, what are you doing here”
“Well hello to you to”
“Sorry hi just you did just scare me”
“Sorry we left the party early as it was getting boring having every girl over us not letting us actually have a good time”
“Oh that sucks well if you find Harry we were just getting a takeout”
“Oh don’t worry we got that covered”
I heard more voices and looked over Niall’s shoulder to now see Liam, Louis, Zayn and Harry walking in everyone had a smile apart from Harry who looked slightly upset.
“Food is on its way you picked a film yet”
“No not yet”
Whilst everyone sat on the sofa including Niall, Harry made his way over to me sighing as he stood next to me.
“Why the sigh?”
“Just was looking forward to spending time with you, well more time with you”
“Well there is always another time now which film”
“How about something funny”
“Hmm, DeadPool my dad got the early realise of it”
“Really hell yeah, GUY we are finally getting to watch DeadPool”
Everyone sort of cheered and just as I was starting the film the door went and food was here perfect timing. I was sat between Harry and Niall then it was Louis crashed out on the floor and Liam and Zayn just cuddled up to each other. Now and then Niall would squeeze my leg and then Harry would do the same, with a bottle of wine I was really getting confused with what was going on I even had the thought of just having a threesome to get it out of the way. I chuckled at the thought and got a few weird looks but focused back on the film eating my pizza and drinking wine. The film soon finished and I excused myself heading on up to bed with a new bottle of wine.
“Olivia can I join” I turned around to see Louis standing there with a hopeful look on his face.
“Yeah sure come in”
“Thanks Niall has gone to sleep so I’m not cock blocking I promise”
“Ha-ha it wouldn’t matter anyway Lou come sit”
He laughed along and took a seat next to me on my bed; I took a swig from the bottle and focused on to Louis once again.
“I, urmm well I’ve been seeing Roxy but I don’t like her so I dumped her but Zayn and Danielle are like in love and I hate it”
“But do you love Danielle?”
“No, I just I don’t know where I was really going with this but”
“It’s okay sometimes it’s could just to talk even if it doesn’t makes sense”
“Your right”
Taking another sip from the bottle Louis slowly took it out of my hand and placed it on the side, I looked at him weirdly but saw a smile just grow on his face.
“I know you have teased Niall and Zayn now I’m single can I get in on the action”
I was shocked with what I was hearing but was not going to turn this down I mean Harry hasn’t come and seen me and Niall was asleep so might as well have some fun.
“Sure why not”
“I heard you give the best blow jobs I mean I have never actually cum from one before”
“Well the girls you have had doing are clearly shit so lay back and relax”
He did as I asked and laid there I undid his jeans and pulled them down along with his boxers, his pride and joy was revealed and I was pleased with the size. I kept eye contact with him as I took him all in my mouth with a few tongue tricks and sucking motions he was soon pulsing inside my mouth with one quick movement he was exploding inside of me. I didn’t think twice I just swallowed his load and moved away from him grabbing my wine to wash it down.
“Whoa, that was great and you swallowed”
“Well yeah it’s not very attractive spitting”
“True thanks for that I am going to sleep now maybe I can come back another time”
“You know where I am night Lou”
“Night”
He walked out and I just sat happy with myself but I really couldn’t get Harry of my mind. I couldn’t even think before my legs were taking me on over to his room next to mine. I knocked on his door and heard a quiet voice allowing me in; taking a deep breath I opened his door and stepped in.
“Olivia I wasn’t expecting you?”
“SorryI can go if you want”
“No its fine come join me”
He pulled his covers back showing of the rest of his body as he was only in a pair of black boxers. Walking over I took a seat next to him cuddling in to his side as he pulled me in closer.
“So Harry I just wanted”
Before I could finish his lips crushed on top of mine, I wanted to pull away but I didn’t at the same time. Kissing him was giving me the same butterflies I got with Niall, it felt weird but I loved it. I soon pulled apart realising what was going on and I couldn’t carry on I mean I was cheated on I know he has a girlfriend I really am not any better than my ex.
“I’m sorry I just”
“No Harry I wanted that I did but I can’t I’m sorry you have a girlfriend and I just feel bad I mean I was cheated on and it broke me I can’t”
“Shh don’t worry I’m sorry”
“It’s ok maybe we should cool it between us”
“No please”
“Harry you have a girlfriend I’m sorry”
“You know what your right I’m a terrible boyfriend but at least I am not like you just sleeping with anyone that pays you attention I mean Niall might really like you and you have shagged Zayn his best friend, teased me two of his best friends yeah he may seem cool but it must sucks”
“What the fuck”
“At least I have some standards”
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing I jumped out of his arms and stormed out of his room, heading to mine I got changed and grabbed my phone and keys heading to my car. I jumped in knowing I shouldn’t really drive but I needed to get away I headed for the studio, unlocking the building and locking it back up behind me I walked in to my office and just broke down in tears. Why would he say that to me, how could he I was single I can fuck who I wanted. More importantly why was I bothered by what he was saying to me I mean it shouldn’t matter what he thinks right?

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