Nothing At All
Chapter Fifteen
“So you mean to tell me that Chad isn’t Chad but Will,” Delilah said after I explained my background story with the girls.
“Yes,” I said, “As crazy as that is, it’s true. I do bet that he did change his first name but his last name is still probably the same. I highly doubt that he’d keep his last name if he was moving countries.”
“He might of,” Eleanor said.
“We’ll see I guess,” I sighed looking at the girls.
“So what did the doctor say about your leg?” Gemma asked quietly.
“It’s just a really bad sprain,” I said looking at my black blue leg, “it’s not broken but I’m supposed to stay off of it for like a week. I’m only allowed to walk from the bed to the bathroom and back.”
“Well you’re going to hate that,” Perrie said.
“Tell me about it,” I sighed, “We’ve been in this room an hour and I’m already antsy to move.”
“Things will work out Rose,” Gemma said, “but my mum and I want to thank you for doing what you did. Without you getting us out of there, we’d still be there and Chad would’ve done god knows what to us.”
“Don’t worry,” I said, “I wasn’t going to let him touch either you or her mother. I would’ve taken a bullet for you two.”
“But you barely know us,” Gemma said.
“That’s the thing with Rose,” Delilah started.
“If you’re important to someone who is important to her,” Eleanor added.
“She’ll make sure you’re taken care of,” Danielle finished.
“She’s been that way since she was little,” I heard my mom’s voice say and I immediately looked up to see her and Anne standing in the doorway.
“We brought snacks since the boys are all still in a meeting,” Anne said brining in a tray full of comfort food.
“Moms are awesome,” I grinned as they joined us and we all talked about boys and girlie things.
We were all talking and giggling and I was feeling a lot better when the door opened and all the boys came in and my stomach dropped to my feet. Harry was covered in blood and was limping. Everyone stopped talking and I quickly got out of bed.
“What in the hell?” I asked shocked.
“Don’t worry about it,” he said as he limped to the bathroom.
I made eye contact with my mom, Anne, and Gemma and they nodded their heads. I quickly limped into the bathroom and looked at Harry who was sitting on the bathroom seat and I sighed.
“You go over to the house?” I asked and Harry just looked at me.
“Do you really care about me or are you just acting?” Harry responded which threw me off guard.
“What kind of question is that?” I asked a bit upset that he was questioning everything I’ve ever told him.
“Are you yes or no?” he asked.
“No Harry,” I said, “I am not acting. I do care about you.”
“Then how come you told Chad you love him,” Harry said, “And that I didn’t mean a thing to you.”
“I never said those words,” I said and Harry pulled out a recorder and pushed play.
“I’ve never loved Harry, Will,” my voice on the recording said, “I’ve only loved you.”
He then pushed stop and glared at me with so much hatred and anger that I felt my world spinning.
“You should just leave,” Harry said standing up and starting to clean off the blood, “You’ll get a head start.”
“From what?” I asked.
“Simon’s men coming after you,” Harry said in all seriousness.
“Well whether you believe me or not,” I said, “I’ve always cared for you Harry and no matter when I’ll see you. I’ll still love you.”
I then spun around and walked back into the room. I shoved my shoes in my boots and grabbed a heavy jacket and scarf and made to the stairs. Everyone was sitting in the living room and I made a quiet getaway. I had made up my mind after about an hour and a half of just mindless wandering. It wasn’t too late probably six at the latest so I made my way to the nearest store to buy a pad of paper, an envelope, and a pen and wrote what would probably be my last letters.
My Dearest of Friends,
If you are reading this, this means I’m no longer in the house that you consider protection. Chad, Will, whatever you call him has manipulated this situation yet again and has you believing that I have used every single one of you. Sadly I can’t not change the evidence that I heard or what he has shown you since he has connections everywhere. I can offer something he cannot, which are words.
Delilah. You my friend have been one of the roots of my life here in England. You’ve been with me through thick and thin and have never once judged me. I am happy for you and Niall on your relationship. You deserve to be happy and I can truly see that Niall has done that for you. You smile just a little bit wider when he’s near and you have a sparkle in your eye that I have grown to love. Please don’t cry at this because you my dear friend will see me again. Whether it been tomorrow or later on, I will always be with you no matter what. Don’t forget that.
Eleanor. My dear, dear, shopaholic friend, Eleanor. You are a gift to the people you meet. You bring them joy and happiness and I am so proud to call you my friend. You have been one of my most cherished friends and I will never forget you. You seem to give everyone energy and I don’t know where you get it from. Maybe from your childish boyfriend Louis. You two have a special bond that I’ve grown to love watching and I know one day you two will have the perfect wedding have fun tons of mini Eleanors and mini Louises running around. Don’t give up on your dreams my dear Eleanor. You will become that supermodel you’ve always wanted to be. You’re too damn beautiful to not see.
Danielle. My groover. You my beautiful friend will make it as a dancer. I have no doubt in my mind that you will. You have the technique and the drive to make it in that world. I have grown to love watching you dance over the past two years and I can’t wait to see what you do for yourself. You have so much potential that I know with the support of everyone, especially Liam, you’ll make it far beautiful. Don’t you ever give up on yourself because I would never give up on you.
Perrie. My oddly colored hair friend, I just want to say I was so jealous of your hair. I wish I was able to pull off the purple, pink, blue, red, and every color in between that I’ve seen you in the past two years. You’re going to go far in the world of singing I just know it. You have so much potential that you’re going to make it. I wish I could be there to push you to be your best but our roads must diverge and I must travel a different path away from everyone else but remember this one piece of advice from my favorite author Dr. Seuess, “Be who you are and say what you feel because those you mind don’t matter and those you matter don’t mind.” I’ll always be cheering for you.
Niall. My leprechaun friend. Never let go of Delilah. She’s the best thing that has ever happened to you and someone you can always count on. She’s one hell of an ally and one hell of an enemy you just make sure you chose the right side mate. I see the way you look at her and I see the way she looks at you. You two have something people die, dream, kill, and desire for. You two have love. Don’t ever let go of that because I know you will regret it someday and I don’t ever want to see you sad. You’ve become another brother for me and I will not tolerate stupidity just ask John Michael. I love you fake blonde haired friend, don’t you ever forget our Nando adventures together and my black card is tucked under my bed it’s all yours so get good use out of it.
Louis. My childish best friend. Don’t you ever lose your energy. That’s one of a kind and something I don’t think you should forget. You’re just like El. You’re the light at the end of the tunnel and the one who can keep this family together. Don’t ever forget that. You eleven people make one hell of a family and you make sure you’ve always got each other’s back, no matter how dumb or stupid they are. Family is family and you stick together. I’m going to have to say I’ll miss your contagious smile and laughter the most my dearest friend. Those were the two things that could bring light of any serious situation we’ve ever been in and trust me El and I needed your help a lot. Don’t lose El ever Lou. I’m serious, she’s your one and she’s going to make you happy for a very long time.
Liam. Daddy Figure Liam. Don’t ever stop being the voice a reason. You are the one person who can make everyone sit and think about their situations before they act out their next step. You’re the one who can make everyone see logic. Those are great traits to have and ones to never give up. One piece of advice I have for you is to pay a bit more attention to Dani. She supports you all the way just make sure you show your support every once in a while too. Now before you get defensive on me, I’m on the outside looking in. I see you at her performances but you don’t actually watch them. If you did you would know that your girl is an amazing dancer and has so much potential for becoming famous for it. She is trust me. Would I ever lie to you? Stay straight kid. Drugs and alcohol are bad for you!
Zayn. My serious and quiet friend. You are the one who has surprised me the most. Ever since I started hanging out with you guys, you were the one who did a complete 360 on me. You do not ever shut up! You just go and talk about anything and everything which left me stump the first time I had ever talked you. That was also because you were a bit buzzed and high but that’s beside the point. You are the one guy who seems to make me smile when Niall or Louis can’t and that’s not very often but I give you mad props for that. Also don’t let go of Perrie. She’s good for you and brings you out of your shell some. She makes you the crazy, goofy, loveable Zayn I’ve grown to adore and love.
John Michael. Double Trouble. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for always being there. You are a true friend I will love you forever baby brother. You are my baby brother by 2 minutes and 53 seconds. You are the one who has always dusted me off when I’ve fallen, always been the one to set me back on track when I’ve fallen off. I have done so much to you that I don’t deserve to be even called your twin sister. You are a wonderful person and I hope that Katy is your soulmate. You deserve the best Johnny and I wish she is all of that and more to you. You are my best friend, my brother but you will always be my confident. Hold onto all of my secrets and never tell a soul or I will come back to haunt your ass. Don’t think I won’t. I’ll be all weird and everything too. I promise. I love you John Michael don’t you ever forget about my sisterly love. Both the good and the bad because without both one would seriously overpower the other and that’s not a good thing at all.
Harry. The boy who will forever hold my heart. They say that goodbyes are one of the hardest things to write or say and as I sit here in a corner of a coffee shop I would say I have to agree. You were the one who has truly helped me. You are the one who put my broken heart back together and gave me reason to continue living. I owe you so many thank yous that this letter won’t ever seem enough for me. I love you Harry Edward Styles. I love your laugh, your smile with your dimples, your unruly curly brown hair, your beautiful green eyes, your dangerous look you have about you, your flirtatious smirk you always used to give me when you wanted something. I am just going to miss you period. I always kept your letters with me wherever I went and when I was down and feeling alone I would read one and feel better about myself. You are such a gift to the world and I hope you find someone who can give you what I could never give. I thank Mrs. W for making us partners in class for forcing us to get to know each other and finally see past our titles in school. I could go on forever about how much you mean to me but I can’t continue writing without making this page an utter mess from all the crying I have done. I love you my street rat don’t ever forget it.
With all my love,
Rosemarie Siege
I wiped my tears as I put the letter in the envelope and sealed it. I wrote an individual letter to my mother, Anne, Gemma, and Simon thanking them for individual things and explaining myself. I quickly stood up and was glad with my decision. I was going to end this feud with Will once and for all. If he was going to take away the life I was finally enjoying, I was going to take his away as well.
“Yes,” I said, “As crazy as that is, it’s true. I do bet that he did change his first name but his last name is still probably the same. I highly doubt that he’d keep his last name if he was moving countries.”
“He might of,” Eleanor said.
“We’ll see I guess,” I sighed looking at the girls.
“So what did the doctor say about your leg?” Gemma asked quietly.
“It’s just a really bad sprain,” I said looking at my black blue leg, “it’s not broken but I’m supposed to stay off of it for like a week. I’m only allowed to walk from the bed to the bathroom and back.”
“Well you’re going to hate that,” Perrie said.
“Tell me about it,” I sighed, “We’ve been in this room an hour and I’m already antsy to move.”
“Things will work out Rose,” Gemma said, “but my mum and I want to thank you for doing what you did. Without you getting us out of there, we’d still be there and Chad would’ve done god knows what to us.”
“Don’t worry,” I said, “I wasn’t going to let him touch either you or her mother. I would’ve taken a bullet for you two.”
“But you barely know us,” Gemma said.
“That’s the thing with Rose,” Delilah started.
“If you’re important to someone who is important to her,” Eleanor added.
“She’ll make sure you’re taken care of,” Danielle finished.
“She’s been that way since she was little,” I heard my mom’s voice say and I immediately looked up to see her and Anne standing in the doorway.
“We brought snacks since the boys are all still in a meeting,” Anne said brining in a tray full of comfort food.
“Moms are awesome,” I grinned as they joined us and we all talked about boys and girlie things.
We were all talking and giggling and I was feeling a lot better when the door opened and all the boys came in and my stomach dropped to my feet. Harry was covered in blood and was limping. Everyone stopped talking and I quickly got out of bed.
“What in the hell?” I asked shocked.
“Don’t worry about it,” he said as he limped to the bathroom.
I made eye contact with my mom, Anne, and Gemma and they nodded their heads. I quickly limped into the bathroom and looked at Harry who was sitting on the bathroom seat and I sighed.
“You go over to the house?” I asked and Harry just looked at me.
“Do you really care about me or are you just acting?” Harry responded which threw me off guard.
“What kind of question is that?” I asked a bit upset that he was questioning everything I’ve ever told him.
“Are you yes or no?” he asked.
“No Harry,” I said, “I am not acting. I do care about you.”
“Then how come you told Chad you love him,” Harry said, “And that I didn’t mean a thing to you.”
“I never said those words,” I said and Harry pulled out a recorder and pushed play.
“I’ve never loved Harry, Will,” my voice on the recording said, “I’ve only loved you.”
He then pushed stop and glared at me with so much hatred and anger that I felt my world spinning.
“You should just leave,” Harry said standing up and starting to clean off the blood, “You’ll get a head start.”
“From what?” I asked.
“Simon’s men coming after you,” Harry said in all seriousness.
“Well whether you believe me or not,” I said, “I’ve always cared for you Harry and no matter when I’ll see you. I’ll still love you.”
I then spun around and walked back into the room. I shoved my shoes in my boots and grabbed a heavy jacket and scarf and made to the stairs. Everyone was sitting in the living room and I made a quiet getaway. I had made up my mind after about an hour and a half of just mindless wandering. It wasn’t too late probably six at the latest so I made my way to the nearest store to buy a pad of paper, an envelope, and a pen and wrote what would probably be my last letters.
My Dearest of Friends,
If you are reading this, this means I’m no longer in the house that you consider protection. Chad, Will, whatever you call him has manipulated this situation yet again and has you believing that I have used every single one of you. Sadly I can’t not change the evidence that I heard or what he has shown you since he has connections everywhere. I can offer something he cannot, which are words.
Delilah. You my friend have been one of the roots of my life here in England. You’ve been with me through thick and thin and have never once judged me. I am happy for you and Niall on your relationship. You deserve to be happy and I can truly see that Niall has done that for you. You smile just a little bit wider when he’s near and you have a sparkle in your eye that I have grown to love. Please don’t cry at this because you my dear friend will see me again. Whether it been tomorrow or later on, I will always be with you no matter what. Don’t forget that.
Eleanor. My dear, dear, shopaholic friend, Eleanor. You are a gift to the people you meet. You bring them joy and happiness and I am so proud to call you my friend. You have been one of my most cherished friends and I will never forget you. You seem to give everyone energy and I don’t know where you get it from. Maybe from your childish boyfriend Louis. You two have a special bond that I’ve grown to love watching and I know one day you two will have the perfect wedding have fun tons of mini Eleanors and mini Louises running around. Don’t give up on your dreams my dear Eleanor. You will become that supermodel you’ve always wanted to be. You’re too damn beautiful to not see.
Danielle. My groover. You my beautiful friend will make it as a dancer. I have no doubt in my mind that you will. You have the technique and the drive to make it in that world. I have grown to love watching you dance over the past two years and I can’t wait to see what you do for yourself. You have so much potential that I know with the support of everyone, especially Liam, you’ll make it far beautiful. Don’t you ever give up on yourself because I would never give up on you.
Perrie. My oddly colored hair friend, I just want to say I was so jealous of your hair. I wish I was able to pull off the purple, pink, blue, red, and every color in between that I’ve seen you in the past two years. You’re going to go far in the world of singing I just know it. You have so much potential that you’re going to make it. I wish I could be there to push you to be your best but our roads must diverge and I must travel a different path away from everyone else but remember this one piece of advice from my favorite author Dr. Seuess, “Be who you are and say what you feel because those you mind don’t matter and those you matter don’t mind.” I’ll always be cheering for you.
Niall. My leprechaun friend. Never let go of Delilah. She’s the best thing that has ever happened to you and someone you can always count on. She’s one hell of an ally and one hell of an enemy you just make sure you chose the right side mate. I see the way you look at her and I see the way she looks at you. You two have something people die, dream, kill, and desire for. You two have love. Don’t ever let go of that because I know you will regret it someday and I don’t ever want to see you sad. You’ve become another brother for me and I will not tolerate stupidity just ask John Michael. I love you fake blonde haired friend, don’t you ever forget our Nando adventures together and my black card is tucked under my bed it’s all yours so get good use out of it.
Louis. My childish best friend. Don’t you ever lose your energy. That’s one of a kind and something I don’t think you should forget. You’re just like El. You’re the light at the end of the tunnel and the one who can keep this family together. Don’t ever forget that. You eleven people make one hell of a family and you make sure you’ve always got each other’s back, no matter how dumb or stupid they are. Family is family and you stick together. I’m going to have to say I’ll miss your contagious smile and laughter the most my dearest friend. Those were the two things that could bring light of any serious situation we’ve ever been in and trust me El and I needed your help a lot. Don’t lose El ever Lou. I’m serious, she’s your one and she’s going to make you happy for a very long time.
Liam. Daddy Figure Liam. Don’t ever stop being the voice a reason. You are the one person who can make everyone sit and think about their situations before they act out their next step. You’re the one who can make everyone see logic. Those are great traits to have and ones to never give up. One piece of advice I have for you is to pay a bit more attention to Dani. She supports you all the way just make sure you show your support every once in a while too. Now before you get defensive on me, I’m on the outside looking in. I see you at her performances but you don’t actually watch them. If you did you would know that your girl is an amazing dancer and has so much potential for becoming famous for it. She is trust me. Would I ever lie to you? Stay straight kid. Drugs and alcohol are bad for you!
Zayn. My serious and quiet friend. You are the one who has surprised me the most. Ever since I started hanging out with you guys, you were the one who did a complete 360 on me. You do not ever shut up! You just go and talk about anything and everything which left me stump the first time I had ever talked you. That was also because you were a bit buzzed and high but that’s beside the point. You are the one guy who seems to make me smile when Niall or Louis can’t and that’s not very often but I give you mad props for that. Also don’t let go of Perrie. She’s good for you and brings you out of your shell some. She makes you the crazy, goofy, loveable Zayn I’ve grown to adore and love.
John Michael. Double Trouble. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for always being there. You are a true friend I will love you forever baby brother. You are my baby brother by 2 minutes and 53 seconds. You are the one who has always dusted me off when I’ve fallen, always been the one to set me back on track when I’ve fallen off. I have done so much to you that I don’t deserve to be even called your twin sister. You are a wonderful person and I hope that Katy is your soulmate. You deserve the best Johnny and I wish she is all of that and more to you. You are my best friend, my brother but you will always be my confident. Hold onto all of my secrets and never tell a soul or I will come back to haunt your ass. Don’t think I won’t. I’ll be all weird and everything too. I promise. I love you John Michael don’t you ever forget about my sisterly love. Both the good and the bad because without both one would seriously overpower the other and that’s not a good thing at all.
Harry. The boy who will forever hold my heart. They say that goodbyes are one of the hardest things to write or say and as I sit here in a corner of a coffee shop I would say I have to agree. You were the one who has truly helped me. You are the one who put my broken heart back together and gave me reason to continue living. I owe you so many thank yous that this letter won’t ever seem enough for me. I love you Harry Edward Styles. I love your laugh, your smile with your dimples, your unruly curly brown hair, your beautiful green eyes, your dangerous look you have about you, your flirtatious smirk you always used to give me when you wanted something. I am just going to miss you period. I always kept your letters with me wherever I went and when I was down and feeling alone I would read one and feel better about myself. You are such a gift to the world and I hope you find someone who can give you what I could never give. I thank Mrs. W for making us partners in class for forcing us to get to know each other and finally see past our titles in school. I could go on forever about how much you mean to me but I can’t continue writing without making this page an utter mess from all the crying I have done. I love you my street rat don’t ever forget it.
With all my love,
Rosemarie Siege
I wiped my tears as I put the letter in the envelope and sealed it. I wrote an individual letter to my mother, Anne, Gemma, and Simon thanking them for individual things and explaining myself. I quickly stood up and was glad with my decision. I was going to end this feud with Will once and for all. If he was going to take away the life I was finally enjoying, I was going to take his away as well.
Notes
Sorry about the wait with the update everyone. I was trying to come up with something when @EmeraldDragon left a comment which gave me an idea. I hope you all like it!Thanks @EmeraldDragon for the comment!
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10/27/13