For Life Or Longer *ON HOLD*

Braylynn's POV

I was wrong. Dead wrong. I had one job. Stay focused.

I pulled the duvet from my body and shivered at the November cold, forgetting to turn on the office heater. I made my way to it and turned it on high and began warming myself.

I glanced up at the clock on my wall seeing it was 10:30 pm. I cursed myself silently and grabbed my over night bag I had. What? can't a workaholic live at her job? Actually don't
answer that.

I grabbed my sweats, socks, and long sleeve shirt. Not thinking to clothes my door, for it being 10:30, assuming I was the only one here.

I stripped from the days work clothes and slipped on my sweats and was reaching for my shirt when I heard someone clear their throat. I cursed myself and took the cotton cloth covering my chest and turning around. Seemingly surprised my boss was standing there.

I sighed and mentally face palmed.

"Yes, can I help you James?"

He closed the door and locked it drawing the blinds. My heart began pounding in my ears as he sauntered over to me. His ocean blue eyes turning dark.

"Why did I ever let you go Bray? Why did I marry her and try so hard to forget you?"

He cupped my face, me still speechless. His eyes filled with lust, sorrow, regret, anguish. He took the black cotton from my hands leaving me in just my bra and sweats. Not really like I was covering much anyway.

He brought his lips down to my neck. Never forgetting my weakness. I got lost in it. Lost in my head. Losing my morals. My head clouded.

'get yourself together' I thought. I muster up some strength and place both of my hands flat on his chest pushing him back somewhat.

"James. I can't. You can't. We can't do this. You're married. You're happy, remember?"

"That was eight years ago Braylynn. Never, did I dream we would meet under these circumstances again."

"It doesn't change the facet you're married."

"Unhappily."

"James please."

He took my hand and placed it on his southern region. I gasped at the affect I still had on him after all of these year. I pulled my hand away and looked up at him. The height difference hot and intimidating.

I took his hand in mine leading him over to the couch. I know, a married man. Yeah, well, i've been waiting eight years for this moment. and i've decided to not let it slip through my fingers again. Though, it fucked me up so damn much the first time.

I motion for him to sit down. I stand between his legs and he places his hands on my hips gently tugging so I straddle his lap. I do as his hands guide and settle into a position i'm comfortable in.

I place one hand on the side of his face and run the other through his hair. Still so soft. I know I seem obsessive. Is that a bad thing?

I stare into his eyes and place both hands on his neck using my thumb to stroke his jaw.

"James, please tell me i'm not gonna wake up and this moment isn't going to be a dream."

"Kitten, I promise this is not a dream. I wish it would've happened so much sooner but I was so stupid about it all, about everything I said to you."

I leaned forward and pressed my lips softly. Savoring a moment that may never happen again. and I may even regret this one. I pressed deeper into the kissing our tongues tangling together in the heat of overdue passion being released.

His hands roamed down my back, slightly leaving marks until he was down to my bum giving it a slight squeeze making me groan. I leaned back from the kiss using my hands to undo his button down and slide it from his arms.

I placed it on the floor, my hands grazing his skin until I reached the promise of this night. I undid his belt him kicking his shoes off meanwhile. He brought his lips to my skin causing me to arch into his lips. Something so unfamiliar for me.

I placed my hands on his shoulders and lifted up so he could slide off my pants leaving us in just our undergarments. My heart still pounding. My head still shouting at me to say 'no'. I just couldn't do it. I couldn't refuse him. Especially since I wanted this.

He brought his hands up my back softly and gently to unclasp my white basic bra. He slipped it down my arms and placed it, somewhere unknown. I rubbed my hips into his earn a small hitched breath and slight squeeze of his hands on my thighs.

I pressed my lips against his once more as he lifted his hips so I could pull his under wear down his legs, pulling mine off in the process. He placed his hand on my cheek and i leaned into him. He grabbed my waist and flipped us so we were laying on the couch with him hovering over me.

He placed a soft gentle kiss on my forehead easing himself into me.

"And then two became one." I whispered. not particularly to anyone. just to the air.

His movements were slow. Not as if this was a one night stand, but as if it were two people in love committing themselves for the first time. He buried his head in the crook of my neck and shoulder placing light kisses as he did so.

I moaned with each thrust and tried to catch the breath escaping in pleasure. I closed my eyes. Savoring the bliss and this moment in time.

He hitched my leg onto his hip going deeper soliciting a moan and causing me to arch my back. His pace sped up each time a sound escaped my dry lips. He leaned up and looked at me. His eyes never leaving mine. I put my hand on the back of his neck pulling him down to kiss his ever so soft and loving lips.

Bliss. Paradise. I couldn't describe this moment.

"I'm almost there baby." I whispered.

"Me too Kitten."

A few more strokes and I hit my high the time he did. We rode them out back down to Earth. He pulled out and lay on top of me as I grabbed the duvet placing it over our heated, blotched bodies. He placed his head on my chest leaving a chaste kiss and closing his eyes.

Nothing but our breathing filling the room with the sound of the heater. He looked up at me through his lashes his chin on my chest. I ran my fingers through his hair once more, smiling at the boy I knew I would always love. that is, if this actually works out.

Notes

I swear to you his eyes really are so freaking blue. Oh my god, If I still had the opportunity I would drown in them. He still makes me weak in the knees.

Also, I would love suggestions! so please comment and/or message those!!!! I know I said every night I would try to update but. Im in Madrigals Choir and with 7 pieces of music to learn in just 4 weeks. I'm very busy. I hope to find a normal schedule soon. Hopefully in just a couple weeks! So, I decided a very long chapter was worth it.

And also, I think this will turn out to be a love triangle. Who do you ship? Brarry? or Brames?

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