Harry noticed what he did... and how scared I was. He staggered out of my house. I felt so... what's the word... used. It was only a kiss. But I could see the lust in his eyes. The same lust Braxton had... and it scared me so much to see the same look in Harry's eyes. Braxton had beat me. Now, anything that reminded me of him made me wanna bawl. I slammed my door and got so confused. Why did Harry do that? How was I going to tell Niall? Do I have to tell Niall? Niall??? Yes. Yes I do. Alyssa satyed at my house tonight while Jenessa stayed in a hotel room. My poor bestie... "How should I tell Niall?" I asked. "You shouldn't. You'll ruin them." She stated. "I know, but, like, I just can't live with this. Harry scares me, Alyssa!" I said. I started to cry. "Why it was only a kiss?" She asked. "He had the same look. The same look Braxton had when he, yah know." Wait, no she didn't. That was the only thing she didn't know. "WHAT? WHAT THE HELL DID BRAXTON DO???" Alyssa asked. She was outraged, I could tell. "he raped me..." I had felt so little. So meaningless. So, empty. "WHAT?! HE'S A DEAD MAN!!!!!!!!!!" "Calm down. The boys live up the street. Niall can't know." Tears streamed down my face. "Niall doesn't know? How much are you keeping from him?" That only made me sob harder. Harder, and harder. "Oh Kierstin, it's okay." I heard a knock on the door. "I'll get it, okay? You stay here." This is why Alyssa never knew. She always pityed me... "Kierstin, it's Niall." Alyssa said. I stripped tears from my face and stopped the oncoming ones. Time to face the music. "Kierstin. Harry told me what happened..." He said. "Oh..." That's all I could say. What if Harry lied to him and blamed it on me? "Why did you kiss him?" He did. "THAT FUCKING DOUSHEBAG!!!!" I yelled tears, once again, streaming down my face. "What?" He asked. Aylssa explained what happened, especially leaving out the Braxton part, and Niall looked furious. "Kierstin, I'm sorry. I just thought... yah know... that Harry was ... telling .... truth..." He seemed mad but yet sooo sorry. "It's okay. People lie. People hurt each other. They've done it all my life!" I said. I had no idea I was yelling until I saw Niall's face. Oh shit... "What?" Niall asked. "Nothing, nothing, it's nothing, really. Swearz." I said. He could never know. "Kierstin, we just started dating... I want to know sooner or later." He said. He was hurt. Just great. "Later. You'll know later, okay? I just don't want to cope with it right now..." I said. "Okay, love. When your ready. I've gotta split but I'll text you, okay?" He said. "okay" I muttered. He must've heard me because he pulled me into a long Horan hug, pecked my cheek, and ran off up the street. "I'm sorry Kierstin..." Alyssa said. I whiped the tears off my face and said, "For what, silly?"

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