Torn

Everyone sits around a fire Ashton started with his lighter. Morgan's holding her chin up with her hands, sitting next to Michael. About three feet away from Michael is Callie, sitting next to Luke, wrapped up in a blanket with him. Across from Morgan and Michael is Jess and Ashton. Ashton has his arm around Jess's neck, and her head is resting on his shoulder. Then, across the fire, from Callie and Luke, are Sara and Calum, also sharing a blanket, while Calum's arm is around her waist.

CALLIE'S POV

I bite my lip a little. I can see Calum through the flames, which make his face all wavy. I've always kept loving him, but I don't know, it's like those feelings I've been burying are just getting bigger now. I hate it. I hate feelings. Especially ones I shouldn't have.

SARA'S POV

I swear Callie has been looking at Calum for like, ten minutes. Out of complete and pure jealousy, I cup Calum's face, and slowly kiss him.

CALLIE'S POV

I mentally frown, but try not to show it that much. He's happy, Callie. Let it go. Heh, I haven't let it go for two years. That's just sad.

CALUM'S POV

After Sara finishes kissing me, I turn to Luke. I hate him. Look at him! He's sitting there, sharing a blanket with Callie. It's disgusting. He doesn't deserve her. No, I'm not JEALOUS, I'm just saying this as a friend. She could do better.

ASHTON'S POV

Is it just me or does Callie and Calum have some kind of chemistry going on right now? I thought they were over two years ago. I feel Jess shift slightly, and next thing I know, I can feel her soft lips on my neck. I close my eyes.

MICHAEL'S POV

Me: ew can u see ash and jess.

Morgan looks up at them.

Morgan: oh my lord. get a room.

Me: Right cx

Morgan: Speaking of, wanna go do stuff?

Me: What kinda stuff?

Morgan: Whatever kinda stuff you please ;)

I take Morgan's hand and she giggles as we stand up, "We'll be right back!" I yell as we run down the beach.

LUKE'S POV

Yeah I know Calum hates me. That's fine, I don't really care. I mean, I have Callie, that's enough.

CALLIE'S POV

Calum's eyes meet mine. I bite my lip. He doesn't look away from me. I've completely melted in his eyes, when I glance quickly after at Sara, who does not look happy. Oops. Oh shit! I'm like, eye flirting with her boyfriend!

He was my boyfriend first.

WOW, CALLIE. Don't say that.

My eyes meet Calum's again.

"Uhm. I'll be right back." I say to Luke mostly, and get up. Speed walking down the beach, I'm trying to get so far away from Calum so fast, I almost trip a couple of times. I can't like him. No, that's an understatement. I can't love him again. It took me MONTHS to recover from when he broke up with me. Then, it took a year to be able to stand seeing him with Sara. He is why I don't like feelings. I felt to much, let me guard down, and what happens? I get hurt.

I collapse behind a huge boulder covered with sand. What do I do? Cry. I cry with my head tipped back, to face the black sky, with countless stars.

"This isn't fair." I sob quietly to myself, "This isn't fair, this isn't fair." I whisper to my knees. I lift my head again, "He was mine." I sob, "How is that even possible? To leave someone so easily? To move on so EASY?" I look down at my feet, "I loved him. The ONE person I've ever had REAL feelings for. And he broke me." I pause, "Why? Why the fuck do I need to still do this to myself? He's moved on, Callie. So have you. You have Luke now. Move on." I shut my eyes, "Luke isn't Calum, though." I try catching my breath, and star at the sky, "I just wanted Calum. I don't care what it takes, I just want Calum again." I whisper. I sit there, behind the over sized rock for about a good ten minutes.

"Hey." Calum says softly. I look up at him.

"Uh, hey." I smile a little... Despite the crying about him just a few minutes ago. He sits down beside me, which makes me tense.

"I just came looking for you, because you were gone for a while." He explains. I nod. He cares about you. Stop, stop it!

"Well, thanks. I was just. Um." I bite my lip.

"I-It's okay. I know what you were doing." He says softly.

"You do?" I turn to look at him. He nods slowly. "How?"

"I've known you for a really long time. We know each other better than everyone else does, somehow." He shrugs, "I can just.. I dunno. I can feel that you were.. Cr-"

"Don't, say it." I laugh a little. It's quiet for a bit.

"So I found a video on my phone." He starts, I look at him, my lips parted a little. He's even more gorgeous under the moon, "We were in freshman year, and I was taking a video of you, and you kept on yelling at me to stop." I already remember. "Then we.. Kissed.. And I started filming you again, and you yelled at me, while we laughed about it. Then you chased me down the street." He smiles in memory.

"We..." I look at him, "Really haven't changed." I smile.

"No, we haven't." His voice is so soft and quiet. It's silent for a minute, just us looking at each other. I look at his soft, kissable lips, and then back at his eyes. Oh, his eyes. He does the same to me, and I swear, I promise you, I can feel electricity between us. It has gotten a lot warmer out here, that's for sure. We really slowly lean in, and then I remember what I'm doing. I open my eyes.

"We should probably get back." I say, standing up. He follows this movement.

He clears his throat, "Uhm, yeah, we should." He dusts the sand off of his pants, and walks with me back to everyone. Luke puts his arm around me, and kisses me lightly. I know... I shouldn't compare the two... But Calum, does not kiss lightly. If he's going to kiss someone, he's going to mean it, and show it.

JESS'S POV

I swear. I swear something happened with those two.

CALUM'S POV

Sara pokes my shoulder, and I look at her, "Hm."

"Was she okay?" She asks. My mind is blank, and silent, yet so loud.

"Y-Yeah, she was fine." I smile. Then I look at Callie, who's smiling cutely at Luke, and my smile fades. What have I done?

MORGAN'S POV

We walk back to the group and sit down, sweaty as hell.

"Ew." Ashton cringes.

"What?" I ask.

"You just had sex, huh?" Jess laughs. I roll my eyes.

"Shut up." Glares Michael. I just look at him. Why the fuck doesn't he understand I like him.

* the next morning, still at the beach *

CALLIE'S POV

I wake up, instantly remembering last night. Calum. Oh my god. M-Maybe I was just tired. I realize I'm lying on something that isn't a blanket or sand, and lift myself up. Oh shit. I seem to be lying on top of Calum. How did I fucking get HERE? He breathes a deep breath, and his eyes flutter open. Wow. This is awkward.

"What are you doing?" He whispers, to not wake anybody else up.

"You tell me, I just woke up here." I whisper. He looks around for a second, then back up at me.

"It's okay, it's fine, you probably just rolled over here or something." He whispers. Even if I did, that would mean in my sleep, I felt the need to cuddle him, and he would have had to pull me on top of him. Fuck, fuck, fuck.I realize I'm still lying on top of him.

"Oh, uh, I should probably get up now, huh?" I smile.

He smiles softly at me and tucks a piece of hair behind my ear, "Probably." Shit. That's something he always did when we were together. Mental sigh. I get off of him, really not wanting to. I sit over like four feet away from him. Sara groans and rolls over next to him, wrapping an arm around his torso, and adjusting her head onto his chest. He hesitantly puts an arm around her. I pinch my bottom lip together, looking at them like that. That used to be me. He looks over at me, and I smile in a friendly way. But I don't know, he looks almost like.. He'd rather it be me? No, no. That's completely insane. I'm just making up shit to make myself feel better. I'm delusional.

R-Right?

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