•I Almost Do - Taylor Swift•

•C h a s s i d y•
The thunder rolled and the lightning struck – the bright light lighting up my room, the sheer curtains could never block it out. It was in nights like this that I wanted to be in his arms, by this side – feeling as if nothing could harm me while I was with him. But lately, it seems, the chances of that ever happening again are slim.
But instead of crying over it tonight, I just sigh. As I lie on the mattress with the covers bundled around me, I clutch my phone in my hand – praying to God that one day it will ring, and it will be him. That day hasn’t happened yet, it’s been four years. I’m beginning to think that day won’t ever happen.
My lip starts to quiver, a feeling inside my body I’m used to. Crying and sobbing is something I do more than I breathe, it appears to me like that at least.
I unlock my phone and open my messages. If he couldn’t help me right now, I know someone who can. This person means a lot to me – not as much as Harry does – but enough to be my closest friend. I type up the message and send it without hesitating at all.

Sent: Can you come over?

I patiently waited for his reply, knowing and assure I will get one in a few moments. Of course I’d rather receive Harry’s reply than anyone else’s, but sometimes you have to go with the next best – well, in my mind that’s how it works.
I smile gently to myself as a message pops up, I thank God in my head as I read the reply. I’m glad someone cares enough to send me a response..

Received: Yeah. On my way, love.

I don’t ask for much in life – I never really have – but to have someone care enough to get up in the middle of the night to come comfort me.. well, that’s called a friend, and that’s all I needed right now.



Fifteen minutes had past and I began to worry. Liam was never the one to fail me, unlike his friend. Harry and Liam knew each other far longer than I knew either of them, Harry’s the reason Liam and I met. He moved to Orlando a few years ago and we became really close, and still are to this day. Liam wouldn’t leave me without another word spoken, someone else would.
Like Harry’s father, Liam’s was and still is a crime agent, I have no clue what exactly he does, I mean gosh I don’t even know what my own father does so yeah..
I was about to pick up my phone and call him, but then I heard the common sound of the window creaking as it was being pushed up. I sigh in relief as I look over and see him climbing through the window, the lamp on my bedside table giving me enough light to see him across the room.
‘’I was.. worried.’’ I say with a sigh as he comes over to me, a light smile on his face.
‘’Sorry love, I searched for an umbrella for ten minutes.’’ He laughs a little as he pulls the cover back.
Liam turned around and shut off the lamp, the room going completely dark. But then I look up to the ceiling and see those colorful glow-in-the-dark stars Harry put up there for me ages ago – I’m surprised that they still glow strong and bright, I sure do love them though. Not because they distract my eyes from the dark, but because they remind me of Harry.
Finally, I feel safe as Liam lies down beside me and pulls me close, putting his arms around me and holding onto me tight. He knew how to make me feel better, Harry was the best at it though.
It grew quiet between us as he rubbed circles into my back. I was feeling drowsy, now that I know everything was somewhat okay.
“Li..’’ I mumble against his chest, feeling the nice warmth he gave off.
‘’Hmm?’’
“Do you think.. Harry ever.. wonders about me?’’ I ask him with a sigh, knowing that he would know.
He talks to Harry all the time. I continuously get him to ask if Harry would speak to me for once, and he always tells Liam no. He even demands that Liam is to leave the room so I couldn’t hear his voice as they talked.
It hurt my feelings at times, but I mostly just wanted to speak to the only damn person I loved – so I usually put aside the annoyance and accepted it. At least he knew I am there..
“I don’t think, I know he does.’’ Liam assures me.
“Does he.. ever talk about me?’’ I ask curiously, hoping the answer is yes.
‘’Yeah, all the time.’’ Liam mumbles.
“Li.. how come.. how come Harry.. won’t talk to me?’’ I ask in a whisper, squeezing his torso tight – for some reason, even after asking, I didn’t want to hear the reason why.
‘’Chassidy, it’s hard to.. to explain why, it’s a long.. it’s a long story.’’ Liam says, I know he hopes that will be an okay answer for me, but that’s not enough for me to process – I asked why, so I want to know why.
“I have time, Liam. Just please, please tell me.’’ I beg as I bite the inside of my cheek, ready to take the news hard – if it was bad or not.
“Listen to me when I say this Chass, all I know.. is that Harry hasn’t come back yet because he has himself convinced you’re way better off without him-‘’
‘’That’s stupid.’’ I cut him off with a sigh, tightly shutting my eyes trying to understand why.
‘’Let me finish.’’ He asks in a sigh.
I nod lightly to him, knowing that if I let him continue on I will get a better understanding of everything – at least I hope so. I’ve never wanted anything in life, except to know the reason Harry doesn’t return to me, why he doesn’t call, why he doesn’t text or email, why he doesn’t want me anymore..
“But he knows that you want him to come back, and he knows you miss him. He loves you more than anything, Chassidy, and I assure you that one day.. one day, he will come back to you. But for now, he just wishes you would move on and relax, he wants you to be happy and stay happy. Find something to distract the thought of him, he will be back one day, but until then, just carry on. Harry wants you to find yourself before he can come back. He just wants your life to be complete, to know you are happy with yourself and that you do what you love.. He loves you, but he knows you, and he said he knows good and well that all you think about is him.. And he wants you to worry about college now and focus more. He loves you, he always tells me to tell you and I always do.’’ Liam says as he presses a kiss against the top of my head.
I didn’t reply, that was good enough for me to live with for a while. Harry is all I think about, but I guess he’s right – I need to move on to distract myself and just relax for a while, knowing he will truly come back for me one day.

How can I distract myself from thinking about him when it's so distracting thinking of him?

Notes

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