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Nothing Without Love

I'm Losing it.

Josie's POV

I'm bored. It's Monday night, Niall's mum got here this afternoon and I've been basically pushed away for the next three weeks. I have this job that I get paid for and yet I feel like I've hardly worked at all. Not that I'm complaining, I still get paid.


Ophelia is working late, Adam has been getting on my nerves so I don't really want to hang out with him. I have other friends, of course, but only one best friend and one brother. Dad is always always at the gym so I know if I called him to see what he was doing all he would say was that he was there. Training, working out as per usual. I spent enough time at the gym on Saturday when I beat Louis. I still feel bad about that but what can you do? I am thankful that Louis kept up on his promise and told Niall and Erica. It wasn't awkward, they were busy yesterday and today preparing for Maura to visit.


So here I sit, on my like seventh glass of water for the afternoon. When I'm bored I either eat or watch mindless tv so I've been replacing the idea of snacking with water. And that's not always a good habit. I purse my lips and decide to just bite the bullet. I pick up my phone and ring Louis. We need to learn more about each other anyways.


“Hey Josie. What's up?” He asks, I don't know where he is but I can hear what I assume is a door shutting.


“Can you take me to the movies?” The request surprises even my own brain. Did I just basically demand for Louis to take me to the movies?


“The cinema? Sure. What do you want to see?” The background noise is quiet now, I can just hear him.


“I have no idea, I just really want movie theater popcorn and something funny.” I tap my feet on the table, pulling my laptop out from under the pillow next to me.


“Okay, well I'm just wrapping up in the studio, why don't you get ready and find something for us to watch, I'll be there in a half hour.” I can hear him smiling through the phone. I can already feel my stomach in knots, he always seems to do this to me. And now apparently he can do this to me over the phone. I'm losing it.


“Oh, well you don't have to take me, if you're busy then you're busy.” I shrug. I never noticed how much I shrug until Louis pointed it out to me. I try to stop myself but it's not that big of a deal, it's just a gesture.


“No, Josie, we're done here, trust me. I'll be by in a bit.” He hangs up and I sit silently on the couch, still holding my phone. I need to calm myself before he gets here, I don't think he likes me like I like him, he doesn't need to know that. I roll my eyes at my own thoughts, I feel like I'm back in the ninth grade, worried about the first boy I know that liked me back.


I groan and slap my thighs, getting up and picking out clothes from the bedroom. I don't want anything that is too dressy, I don't want something that says I don't care either. So I settle on jeans and a simple striped shirt, cheap flip flops. I haven't looked at the movies playing, I don't even know if I know what's out at the moment. When I'm scrolling through the list, for some reason I keep thinking if Louis will like the movie or not. I shouldn't care but here I am again, caring.


A knock at my door makes me realize that the time has flown by. I grab my bag and head down the steps, no need for Louis to come up as I just want out of here. I feel like I've been stuck here all day, I have been stuck here all day.


“Hi.” I smile at him, grabbing a jacket from the closet at the bottom of the steps. The weather has taken a turn, it never really gets cold her in LA but it gets chilly when the sun goes down.


“Hey. So what are we seeing?” He asks, rushing to get in front of me as he rounds the car and opens the car door for me. It's always a sweet gesture, I never know what to even say. He's always been chivalrous as compared to what I'm used to. Opening doors, holding doors, pulling out chairs for me. It's not always something I'm used to. Sure my father and brother do those things, but that's different.


“Thank you.” I murmur before he closes the door for me, I at least need to be nice. He gets on my nerves like nobody's business but we have to be nice for the sake of this deal that Louis has made. I'm still waiting for him to give me something for this deal. But he is paying for everything. And as Ophelia has said, of course I would say yes because subconsciously I like him and just won't admit it out loud. Fairly typical of me.


We drive to the local cinema in silence, it will be an early movie, as it's just after five, but I've noticed I can't watch those late movies anymore. I get too tired. I remember when I would go to the movies that wouldn't start until ten or eleven. Now I'd rather be in bed by then.


Louis parks and rushes out to open the door for me again, I've learned to just sit and wait because he's told me he'd rather me just wait in the seat for him to open it. I smile to myself realizing what situation I'm in. I'm sure from other people that see us they'll think we're together but that's the idea, for people to think we're together, to play it off as much as possible.


We get to the front to look at the movie selections. “Pick a number, one through five.” I suggest to him, I could watch at least five of these movies and I don't really care either way.


“Lets go with four.” He looks over at me smiling, his hand still on his chin.


“So the new Tom Cruise movie wins!” I throw my hands up in the air as I pull him forward to the ticket counter. “Is that okay?” I suddenly realize that he might not like the movie.


“Yeah, that's fine.” He smiles as he takes the lead and buys tickets for us.


“You didn't have to do that.” I purse my lips. “This was my idea.” I remind him.


“Doesn't matter, this is my plan, remember?” He hands me my ticket as we pass by the man that rips the ticket and directs you to the right theater. “So popcorn?” That smile he gives me is something that can just make your heart fall into your stomach. Sometimes I just want to stare at him, look at his smooth skin, his smile, just read his body language but I don't want to be too obvious so I can't. I don't want to mix my feelings with this slight business relationship.


As we start to walk towards the theater with a large bucket of massively buttered popcorn and and soda Louis takes my hand. It startles me at first, a noticeable gasp coming from my lips.


“Sorry, we just have to get used to this. You can't have a noticeable reaction like that when we're around Stan and Sam. They'll know something is up.” He squeezes my hand as I pull away slightly and braid my fingers with his. For some odd reason it doesn't feel wrong. It doesn't feel forced. It feels natural. And I like it. My shy smile creeps out and I turn away, a giggle escaping from my lips.


We find our seats together as Louis pulls the arm rest up that separates us, pulling my legs up on his lap, without me even asking but I don't mind. The movie previews begin and we sit in silence, this movie has been out for a little while, and with it being a Monday, there is only four other people in this place. I cozy into the seat as he starts to rub my feet, this moment bringing me back to last week when he asked me about his crazy plan. Here we are in public, he's rubbing my feet, I feel like we've been together for what seams like ages. Like this is all so natural, because it is.


I take this time in the darkness to study him. The way he slowly eats and enjoys his popcorn, how his chuckle is low and slow, almost like he doesn't want anyone to know he's laughing. He literally screams sex in this place.


God, Josie, just stop. I want to just smack my forehead but I turn my head back to the movies just as Louis turns to look at me. He paid for the movie I should at least pay attention to it, it was my choice to go to the movies.


When he grabs my hand again, I don't pull away, I don't react, I just let it happen. His palm so cold against mine, it's soothing. I'm getting far too used to this. I should stop, I should tell him I can't do this at all, I can't get into this situation because I have a feeling it will just end badly for me. But I'm already in too deep. I already know I am.

Notes

Getting so excited for you all to see what's coming next! :) Hopefully it lives up to expectation! We still have a long ways to go so stick with me! Hope you liked Josie's erratic behavior/thoughts, it's not just Louis!

Already a beautiful day out, hopefully it is where you are too! Thanks for being amazing and reading, commenting, voting, and subsccribing! Love you all!!

xoxoxox

Comments

Love all your stories hope you keep going on this one

This was so cool! Love it. So lovely. They are too cute.
Sending inspiration. We love you. I wish you finish this in a way you want and wish and I can't wait to see what you have in mind for future of these two :)

This was so sweet! When they get so sweet my drama alarm starts chiming!!! Sorry I didn't read it yesterday, I didn't log in until today! Happy Halloween!!!

Love the update!