Tamales

Harry POV
After Louis told me all of his feelings towards me, all our memories we shared together rushed through my mind like a montage of pictures put together in a 6 second video. It all makes sense.
“Oh… Uh… Well. What am I suppose to say?” I say. When huge turning points like this happen, every inch of my body is paying attention, in alert, watching out and preparing for every step from every word Louis says as it could change my perception of the world even more.
All of this came out of the sudden, I don’t know how to react.
“I don’t even know.” He says as he turns away and stares onto the view. I study the way he turns to look at the view. He sighs and turns, facing me. I can see the want of me in his eyes. “I didn’t plan what to say after. I just want you to know…”
“Oh so you’ve planed this? Haha.”
Don’t change the subject, Harry. Louis is being very serious and honest with his feelings.
“What did you hope to happen after that?” I ask.
“I don’t know, I just thought it had to be said.”
“Well, you are a nice guy and all but…”
“I don’t expect us to be-” Louis says.
“I don’t like labels.”
“Oh?” His facial expression changes all of the sudden with surprisement and possibly joy.
I’ve never really gotten along with any girl compared to Louis…. Could this be real? I think it’s a bit too soon to ask myself if he could be the one I’m destined to be with.
“This is just a whole new feeling I haven’t felt before.” I say. Maybe that’s because I have never been in love.
“Well I mean we cuddled last night with boners. If this does become into something it could be like a friendship but with kisses and affection. Nothing new to us.” Louis says, blushing.
“Yeah I know. I do like you as a friend very much.” I say
“Well the feelings are real…”
“Yeah that’s true… So you wanna like… date?” I ask.
“No we can things slow. I can’t imagine how weird this is for you.”
“It’s not weird. It’s just something completely new that I haven’t even thought about. But yeah we can take things slow…” I say as we’re both looking back to the view, silent.
“By the way, what do you want out of this?” I ask.
“Honestly…I just want you here with me. Like how I pictured it so I don't have to keep imagining.” It’s like the script was written and I could not change a thing. I have to be real just like he is.
“And I hope one day I can come into your world and get it right.” I reply.
“Fuuuuck Harry. I didn’t know you we’re this romantic.”
“I didn’t either but you have this effect on me.”
He gets closer and I bring him closer to me.
“I could kiss you right now.”
“Then do it.”
I go forward to Louis and plant my lips onto his. The kiss felt different than kissing a girl. It was like the kiss sent an electrical shock to my brain and heart. Louis is moving his lips too much I don’t know how to react.
I pull out and ask, “Was this your first kiss?”
“Uhuh.” He says, shyly.
“Nice, I was your first.” I say. I feel like we’re killing the mood by sitting far away. “You know, you can sit next to my seat if you want. We’re awkwardly far apart.”
“Haha okay.” Louis replies.
He unbuckles his seat belt and sits next to me and I put my arms around his waist.
“I thought you wanna take things slow” Louis says.
“Just shut up and don’t ruin the mood.”
We’re both silent looking back to the view, with my arm around his with a warm at my heart that is like no other.
Louis actually smells good too. His cologne smells so wonderful. Normally this wouldn’t turn me on but this is different. It smells like a cologne a surfer guy would wear to dates. Hahaha what the heck? How would I know this?
“Can I ask you something?” Louis says.
“Yeah of course.”
“I thought you’re straight…”
“Trust me, I did too. After you told me everything, something told me that this could be turned into something more than friends.” Something Great.
“That was your heart. Your heart wants what it wants.” Louis says, almost crying.
“Are you about to cry Lou?”
“Yeah I’m sorry it’s just… I’ve never had anyone like me back. I’ve been on so many dates with guys back home and there was like no connection. It was awkward. I never was able to open up the way they did.”
“For example?”
“There was one guy named Carlos. Oh god, he kept on talking and talking about his flute and how he likes contemporary music and I was so bored. I didn’t have any interest in it. And when he asked me about my hobbies, I was able to talk about it in 5 minutes. But I desperately wanted to be in a relationship. We went on two dates and he later confessed he thought he liked me but he doesn’t. I was very upset. I asked myself, thought? Why thought? I blamed myself for everything I did and said.” He said looking out to the clouds. It’s almost as if he’s reflecting on what he said.
“But when you said you liked me back… It felt good to finally have somebody like me back-”
“For who you are.” I said, completing his sentence.
He smiled and sighed, saying,”Yes. Back home I felt like Hannah Montana. But instead of having the best of both worlds I had the worst of both worlds. The openly gay world of mine, nobody liked, and the stuck inside the closet side of me, nobody like me either, knowing they wouldn’t like me for who I am. But then again, I’m in a different country with a whole fresh new start with a guy that likes me back-”
“I love the United States too.” I say completing his sentence.

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