Cams POV I was just sitting on the couch at the guys house thinking about stuff I have been kinda deppresed lately thinking about my future because all I've ever wanted to be since I was little was a Artist but I know I can't do that now I miss the colours I remember when I was little I would look at the sunset every night because I loved the colour and now I can't do that all I see is darkness I heared someone sit down next to me and it was Louis "what's wrong cupcake" Lou asked ( Lou has started calling me that for some reason) " Nothing" i lied he could tell i was lying though but let me be I can't sleep at night also so i have to start taking sleeping pills my nightmares have been getting worse i always wake up screaming. ALWAYS