Right Now (repost)

I would have never thought that I would fall in love like this. For me love was always something pure and passionate. The way I fell in love was different though. I really don’t know how to explain it but it more than pure and more that passionate. Sure it was hard; damn it was hard as hell. There were sometimes I wanted to rip my hair out, sometimes I wanted to punch someone but when it all fell into place everything was perfect. Now, I still get those feelings from time to time but I’ll never stop loving her. I’ve made it my life mission to love her as much as anyone has ever loved somebody. She is my everything I don’t want to lose that. For she is the only reason that I live.


Chapter 1
Lauren’s P.O.V
Ah last day of senior year! Finally I have waited so long for this day, I couldn’t even tell you how many times I dreamed about my last day in this hell hole. Don’t get me wrong school has been fun, I have my friends, and I’ve made some crazy memories. Learning and going to class everyday is something I surely wont miss. I’m sure a ton of people can agree with me on that one. As I turn into the familiar parking lot my phone starts ringing.
“I just pulled in, where are you?” I asked my best friend Ariel. Ariel and I have been best friends since the eighth grade, we are inseparable. After school we plan on meeting up with our friends and leaving for our trip. We decided to take a trip to California for a month just because we can and it will be fun.
“I’m in the Math hallway. I will see you.” She answers.
“Okay see you!” I say into my phone as I park my car. Today is going to drag like never before, I think to myself. The last day of school is always so pointless especially for seniors. We have already taken our exams and everything but we still have to show up. I grab my purse and sling it over my shoulder as I exit my car. As I’m walking inside I spot my ex Cameron. It pains me to see him with another girl but I have to get over him. He’s just so perfect with that dark hair and tan skin, “NO SNAP OUT OF IT!” My conscious yells at me. Cameron and I had a terrible breakup and I was convinced that I loved him or still do, I’m not entirely sure. He’s a jerk anyway and I’m better off it just takes a lot of time for me to accept that. I walk by him and give him a small smile as he glances over at me. Awkward. I make my way to Math hallway and spot Ariel.
“Hey babe! You look great.” Ariel says sarcastically because I’m wearing gym shorts, Nikes, and a hot pink shirt. My hair is in a messy bun and I have glasses on.
“Hey it’s the last day, I don’t have to try.”
“I was just kidding around. Okay so I already got us early release slips for today and I texted Kristabel and Monique and they got some too. That way we can leave here and never come back!” Ariel says the last part dramatically and we both laugh.
“Thanks so much! You are great!” I say to her. We spend the rest of the morning just talking before its time to get to class. I say bye to her and enter my first period, journalism. As I take my seat Cameron walks in.
“Last day, this is great huh?” He asks taking a seat right next to me.
“Yeah I can’t wait for it to be over.” I say. Part of me wants to grab his hand and just be a couple again but another part of me wants to slap him across the face. Its quiet as everyone comes in. All of a sudden I feel his hand on my arm.
“Hey can we talk outside for a moment?” He asks with sadness behind his eyes. Something I’ve only seen in him a few times.
We don’t really have a teacher so I just get up and follow him out.
“So what do want to talk about?” I ask him kind of annoyed.
“I just want to say sorry. For everything that I did to you, I know I’m a jerk. Hell, I’m a complete asshole but that doesn’t make up for everything I did to you. This whole breakup is my fault. I just wanted to tell you that I know it’s my fault. I really am sorry Lauren.” His hand rubs my arm softly and I close my eyes not wanting to cry. I want so badly to forgive him for everything but I can’t. What he did will always be in my mind and I can never forgive him for that.
“Thanks for that, it means a lot. I don’t really forgive you for what you did but I appreciate that you realize it’s your fault. I also appreciate you not yelling at me.” I look into his eyes as I say the last sentence. He just smiles and pulls me in for a hug.
“I love you always remember that.” He says into my ear and I almost give in but I remember to stay strong. We break away from the hug and go back to class. Neither of us say another word to each other; hopefully it will stay that way. I really hope that I never see him again, even though I have a feeling that’s not true.

Finally its time for Ariel and I to bolt out of this place. “You’re not eighteen though, I can’t let you leave.” The lady in the office tells me. It is so unfortunate for me to have my birthday during the summer.
“Yes but she is and she is taking me home, so I don’t see the problem. You know we are seniors so you wont ever see us again, I suggest you just let us leave or I will call my dad who just happens to be one of the best lawyers in Arizona. Its really up to you, take your pick.” The lady gives me a look that says, ‘Alright please don’t get me fired.’ Honestly I find funny as hell.
“Alright have a nice summer.” She says blankly and takes our slips. As we walk out if the office Ariel and I both start laughing.
“Wow you are great! That was so believable.” She says throwing her head back with laughter.
“Seriously I thought she was going to eat me or something and honestly she was making me mad.”
“Right? Oh my gosh we finally get to leave here!” Ariel says as we walk toward to the parking lot.
“I know yes!” I say throwing my hands in the air. We spilt up and get in our cars. I drive to her house so she can get her stuff and then we go get Monique and Kristabel.
As soon as everyone is in my car we head straight for Cali. The whole ride is filled with laughter, singing, and talking about boys.
“So did you talk to him today?” Monique asks me about Cameron.
“Um… he actually apologized for what he did.” I say kind of changing by peppy tone. Cameron is a subject I choose not to talk about from this day forward.
“Wow! I can’t imagine him doing that.” Kristabel says in shock. We all laugh and the subject is quickly changed.
“Okay so when we get there I want to go to the beach first!” Ariel says really excitedly. I think we all were thinking the same thing. I just really hope that this trip can clear my head and take my mind off what I’ve been through in the last two months. I have a feeling something good is going to happen but I just don’t know yet. After about an hour Monique and Kristabel dozed off in the back and its just Ariel and I.
“Dude I am so ready to get there. I just need to forget about everything and relax.” Ariel says.
“I couldn’t agree more. I have a good feeling about this trip, like that something is going to go right in my life for once.”

In two hours we have finally arrived in California. It’s about 8p.m. and I am exhausted, all I want to do is sleep. We arrive at the hotel and I immediately crash onto the bed.

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