Categories (Louis Tomlinson Punk)

Chapter 8 – Extra

Louis and I woke up late in the morning so we were running around. I got dressed in my jeans and a plain white t-shirt. I noticed when Louis was getting changed he had scratches on his back. I ran my fingers over them, “I think you like it last night,” he smirked. I smiled, “I think you did too,” I say as I pointed to my neck. Louis kissed the mark lightly, “you know I'm going to cover it up?” I questioned. Louis shakes his head, “but how are people know your mine then?” he pouted. I kissed him, “I know, but Harry thought I went home last night tho,” I tell him. Louis smiled, “but he said that he doesn’t care what we get up to tho,” Louis pointed out. I smiled, “I know, but he will ask questions why I didn’t go home last night. I can’t tell him that my mother is a bitch,” I say. Louis hugged me, “ok. I understand,” he tells me. He kissed me before letting me go to the bathroom as he finished getting dressed. When I came back out he was wearing black skinny jeans and a red t-shirt like the first day I met him. He quickly goes into the bathroom to do his hair as I sat on his bed, “remember we still got to go to my house,” I tell him. He comes back out with his hair styled and red tips like also the first day I met him.

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Louis dropped me off at school after we got my school stuff from home. He told me that he had to go do something and he’ll be back. I met up with Liam, “where Louis?” he asked me. I shrugged my shoulders, “he said that he had something to do, but meet me in class,” I replied. Liam hugged me, “wanna have a smoke before class then?” he wondered. I nodded as I started going through my bag. I pulled out my smoke packet and turned it around. I saw that Louis wrote on it and it said ‘my strong my Lilly Belle’. I felt my cheeks go red, “you two are strange,” Liam says. I pulled out a smoke, “no we’re fucked up,” I tell him. Liam smiled as he lit up my smoke for me before lighting up his own. I put my smoke packet back in my bag, “so how is business studies going?” I asked. Liam shrugged his shoulders, “how physics with Louis? He must be making it hard for you,” Liam smirked.

“Good and he not making it hard,” I replied. Liam laughed, “so you’re telling me Louis is doing work?” Liam smiled. I nodded, “why does everyone laugh at him about doing school work?” I questioned. Liam took a drag of his smoke, “last year Louis just passed and I really mean just passed,” Liam tells me. I took a drag of my smoke, “why? He’s smart,” I wondered. Liam looked around, “last year was a bad year for him,” he replied. I nodded my head, “so are you and Pear alright now?” Liam asked to change the subject.

“Yeah. I just overreacted,” I tell him. Liam looked down, “I’m alright,” I added. I could tell he wanted to talk about it, “so what cake do you think Niall want?” I asked. He looked at me as he thought for a second, “I’m going to say chocolate, because you can’t go wrong with that,” he smiled. I smiled back, “what about choc vanilla?” I wondered. Liam nodded his head, “do you want it to look like something?” I asked. He shrugged his shoulders, “you can do whatever you want. Just don’t make it girly,” he tells me.

We finished our smokes and went to class. Louis was still not there as Mr Thrones started the lesson. I looked down at the table as the classroom door opened, “Mr Tomlinson you’re late,” Mr Thrones tell him. I looked straight at Louis, “and is the flower for me or your girlfriend?” Mr Thrones added. Louis smiled as I noticed he was holding a rose, “sorry it for my girlfriend. I’ll bring you one in next lesson,” Louis tells him. Mr Thrones smiled as Louis walked over to me. He sat straight down next to me, “happy one week babe,” he smiled as he held the rose up. I shake my head as I kissed him, “happy one week,” I smiled. I take the rose off of him as Mr Thrones put a glass full of water on the table, “bring it back at the end of the day,” he tells me. I smiled at him as I put the rose in it, “thank you,” I say. Louis kissed the side of my head, “who would have thought he have a romantic side,” Louis says. I looked at him, “who would have thought you’ll have one,” I teased. Louis pulled me to him as Mr Thrones started the lesson.

The Lesson went quick as Louis and I started our project together. I met Harry in history, “how was dinner last night?” I asked him. Harry shrugged his shoulders, “alright, but I heard about you last night,” Harry smiled. I shrugged my shoulders, “I just had a temper yesterday,” I tell him. Harry laughed a little bit, “but I don’t think uncle Omar will talk to me again,” I added. Harry noticed my rose, “who gave you the rose?” he wondered. I looked at it, “Louis,” I replied. Harry looked a bit shocked, “it for our one week,” I explained. He smiled, “I didn’t think you’re the girl that cared,” he says. I started laughing, “I’m not,” I tell him.

Half way through the lesson I kept looking at the rose Louis gave me. I wondered why he got it for me. I know we known each other for a week, but we started this thing tomorrow. Harry poked me to get me out of my thoughts, “you alright?” he wondered. I nodded my head, “you sure? You only wrote a paragraph and I wrote a whole page,” Harry pointed out. I looked down at my page, “just not with it,” I smiled. He smiled back, “are you over thinking the rose Louis gave you?” he asked. I nodded my head, “don’t. Just be happy about it. Try not to think that he wants something,” Harry tells me.

For the rest of the lesson I managed to focus on my work. I got over a page of notes before the bell rang for break. Harry and I met up with everyone at the wall after I put my rose in my locker. Everyone was smoking, “hey,” Perrie smiled. She hugged me, “hi,” I say. Everyone hugged me as I left Louis last, “where the rose?” he whispered. I kissed his cheek, “in my locker,” I whispered back. He kissed the side of my head, “so Lil we know you for a week now,” Niall says. I smiled at him, “and what a week it has been,” I say. Everyone laughed as I got my smokes out of my bag. I covered up Louis note with my hand, so no one would see it. Liam noticed what I was doing, “Lou have you gone soft?” Liam asked him. Louis looked at him as I lit my smoke up, “why do you ask that?” Louis asked back. Liam smirked, “just something I saw this morning,” he replied. Harry smiled, “I know you have changed,” Harry teased. Louis looks between them both, “um babe what going on?” Louis questioned.

“I saw the rose you gave Flower,” Harry tells him. Everyone was looking at Louis, “he gave her a rose too,” Liam smiled. Harry looked at Liam, “I thought that what you were talking about,” Harry says. Liam shakes his head no, “hang on. Louis gave Lil a rose?” Zayn questioned. I nodded my head, “but what is Liam on about?” Harry asked. I shrugged my shoulders, “don’t be like that my strong Lilly Belle,” Liam teased. Louis smiled as he shook his head, “only Lou calls Lil, Lilly Belle,” Perrie points out. Liam laughed to himself, “I know,” he says. I just stood there smoking not saying a word, “wow Lou you have turned soft,” Perrie says as she realized. Everyone looked at her, “that cute leaving her messages,” she added.

“It was on her smoke packet,” Liam tells her. I felt my cheeks go red, “yes I wrote it on her smoke packet. I wrote it after the weekend we had together since she told us what happened,” Louis tells them. I smiled at him, “when did you write that?” Harry wondered. I looked at Harry, “when I picked her up this morning,” Louis lied to him. Harry smiled, “Lilly Underwood?” I heard someone questioned. I looked around to see a face I haven’t seen in years. I recognized his brown eyes straight away, “Josh Devine?” I questioned back. I looked him up and down since the last time I saw him was the last time I saw Harry and Marcel. He changes from a brown haired scrawny kid to a buffed man with blonde hair. I dropped my smoke and ran over to him. I hugged him tight, “oh my god it is you Lilly,” he says. He hugged me back, “I missed you,” he added as he kissed my cheek.

“I missed you too,” I say. I stepped back, “wow look at you. You’re not a little girl anymore,” he smiled. I smiled back, “look at you. When did you get so buff?” I wondered. He flexes his biceps, “got to stay fit to play the drums,” he replied. I laughed a little bit, “you still play?” I questioned. He nodded, “that why I’m here. I help in music and my main student is Harold,” he tells me. I turn around to see everyone looking especially Louis, “I’m guessing you know everyone,” I say. Josh nodded as he wrapped his arm around me. We walked back over to them, “so I already see that you know Josh,” Niall points out. I nodded, “yep. I met Josh when I was six. His dad was friends with my dad. Josh used to stay at my house,” I tell them. Harry hugged him, “why didn’t you tell me that Lilly went here?” Josh asked Harry as he pushed him. I looked at Harry, “I wanted it to be a surprise for the both of you,” he smiled. He greeted everyone else, “so Josh have you met Lil’s boyfriend Louis?” Zayn asked. Josh looks at me then at Louis, “what? No way,” Josh says. Niall laughed, “no. not my baby sister,” Josh added. Harry puts his hand on his shoulder and whispered something in his ear. Josh looks at me, “it still no Harry. I can’t believe you’re alright with it,” Josh tells him. I could tell Louis was not liking what Josh was saying since he feared Harry would say it. I looked at Josh, “you’re still the same Josh. Scaring all the boys away. I still remember when you wouldn’t let Marcel or Harry near me,” I remembered.

“That because you need to marry a prince,” he smiled. I shake my head, “what about a superhero?” I asked. I noticed Louis smiling, “if they were real,” he replied. I wrapped my arm around Louis, “fine you can have Louis if that what you want,” he tells me. I nodded as Louis kissed the side of my head, “he soft with her. Giving her flowers and leaving her sweet notes,” Niall teased. Louis just smiled at him, “I don’t care. You’re just jealous that I get more than you,” Louis tells him. Niall raised an eyebrow as he shook his head, “yeah second base,” he says sarcastically.

“Only second base?” Josh questioned. Louis and I nodded our heads, “Lil still a virgin,” Zayn tells him. Josh smiled big, “good to hear and it going to stay like that for a while,” he tells Louis. I smiled as Louis nodded his head, “definitely,” Louis says. I told Josh why I started at Eden, “I don’t know how I'm going to tell dad,” he says. I gave him a little smile, “so it just you and your mother now?” he questioned. I nodded my head as the bell rang.

When we got to English Louis sat next to me, “so is anyone else we going to meet from your past?” Louis joked. I shrugged my shoulders as I got my English stuff out. Louis gets his stuff out too, “so Josh used to stay at yours?” Liam questioned. I nodded, “his dad was in the air force,” I replied. I noticed Liam and Louis looked down, “so did you have a thing for him?” Perrie asked. I shake my head no, “did you have a crush on anyone?” she wondered. I smiled, “there was a boy when I was eleven and he was twelve,” I admitted. Perrie smiled, “what did he look like?” she questioned.

“He had brown hair and eyes. He was always playing football too,” I replied. Louis and Liam started laughing, “you just described Josh and maybe Liam,” Louis points out. I looked at him, “babe it ok if you have a crush on Josh. It even ok if you got one on Liam,” he added. I kissed his cheek, “so I can date Liam?” I asked. Louis shakes his head, “I said crush nothing about dating,” Louis reminds me. I laughed a little bit, “so did you have a crush on Josh?” Perrie wondered. I shrugged my shoulders, “he was the older boy and he used to sleep in the room across from mine,” I say. Louis raised an eyebrow at me, “so was there anyone else you used to have a crush on?” Perrie asked. I nodded my head, “there was this boy his father travelled a lot but he originally came from Australia. He had dirty blond hair and these hazel brown green eyes. His name was Ashton but we called him Ash,” I confessed. They all look at me in shock, “you lot at the back. Get to work!” Mr Dew shouted.

“We are!” I shouted back. Everyone in class looks at me as Mr Dew went back to what he was doing. Perrie and Liam turned around as everyone went back to what they were doing, “fighting back babe,” Louis whispered in my ear. I smiled, “it such a turn on,” he added. I felt Louis hand on my thigh, “if I was you I’ll get to work,” I playfully snarled. Louis kissed me, “babe you know how to make my pants tight,” he smirked. He kissed me again, “guys I would stop the foreplay before Mr Dew kills you,” Liam tells us. Louis and I looked a Mr Dew and he was glaring at us. Louis smiled at him as he opened his book.

After English it was lunch time and Louis brought me lunch again. I sat next to him as Perrie sat next to me and Liam on the other side of Louis. We were the only ones at the table, “where is everyone?” I questioned. We all looked around and saw none of them, “they should be here,” Perrie says. Niall comes out of the canteen and sat down next to Liam. He started to eat his lunch as we watched him, “what?” he asked with a mouth full of food.

“Were Zayn and Harry?” Perrie asked him. Niall looked around as he swallowed the food in his mouth, “I don’t know,” he replied. I could see Perrie was getting worried as she got her phone out. She messaged Zayn, “maybe they got stuck in class,” Louis reassured her. She smiled as she got a message, “Zayn and Harry are in the Principal’s office for fighting,” Perrie tells us. We all looked shocked at her, “fighting who?” Liam questioned. She looked down at her phone, “Brian,” she replied. I looked at Louis, “what did he do?” Louis asked. Perrie looked around, “I don’t know,” she sighed. Louis put an arm around my waist as I noticed Amy. She smirked at me, “I have an idea why,” I say. Everyone looked at Amy as I noticed Sophia was sitting with them. She looked out of place and unhappy as they were talking about something. I was about to get up, but Louis kept me down, “don’t babe. I don’t want you in trouble too,” he tells me. I sighed, “I was just going to talk to her,” I say. I could tell Louis didn’t believe me, “sure babe. Just ignore her,” he tells me. I went back to eating my lunch, “they got detention, so they won’t be out for lunch,” Perrie tells us.

After I finished my food I just sat there staring at the table, “so Lil are you still coming to dance?” Perrie asked. I looked at her, “I’ll give it ago,” I smiled. She smiled back, “you need to wear either track pants, yoga pants or leggings and comfortable shoes,” she tells me. I nodded as I looked down at my jeans, “so it looks like I’m going home on my free,” I say. Louis kissed the side of my head, “I’ll take you,” he tells me. I nodded, “remember you two need to be back before the end of the school day. So no long make out sessions,” Niall smirked. I stood up and kissed Perrie forehead, “it going to be alright,” I reassured her. She smiled at me, “I’ll be fine. You just be back in time please,” she begged. I smiled at her, “tell it to that one,” I say as I pointed to Louis. She started laughing, “we will be back in time. I’ve got music,” he smiled.

I got my rose out of my locker and returned the glass to Mr Thrones. We took Louis car to my house so we didn’t have to walk. My mother wasn’t home as I went into the kitchen to get a glass of water for my rose, “where dose your mother work?” Louis asked me as we went into my room. Louis sat on my bed, “she works at the shops near here,” I replied. I started to go through my clothes, “remember yoga pants or leggings,” Louis smirked. I shake my head, “or track pants,” I tell him. He started to pout as I pulled a pair of leggings out, “but my good track pants are at your house,” I added. I saw Louis face turn into a smile as I got out a long blue tank top. I threw them on my bed next to him, “I might have to skip music, so I can watch you dance,” Louis says. I walked over to him, “I won’t go if you did that,” I smiled. Louis wrapped his arm around my thighs just under my bottom, “I’ll go to music,” he tells me. I kissed the top of his head, “what do you do in music?” I asked. Louis kissed my stomach, “we learn how to play music,” he replied. I pulled his head back so he look at me, “I mean you,” I tell him. He smiled at me, “I sing and play piano,” he tells me. I smiled, “you sing?” I questioned.

“Yeah and so does the rest of the boys. We’re in a band together,” he tells me. I kissed his nose, “that just makes Liam hotter,” I teased. Louis squeezed my bottom, “but Liam doesn’t touch you like I do,” he smirked. Louis pulled me onto his lap so I straddled him, “and Liam likes Sophia,” I pointed out. Louis smiled as I ran my hand down his face, “I’m proud of you,” I tell him. I kissed him, “why?” he wondered. I kissed him again, “that we can joke about this sort of thing,” I replied. Louis kissed me, “that’s because I know you have no interest in Liam. Now Josh on the other hand,” Louis started. I shake my head no, “Josh knows what my mother like” I tell him. Louis looked shocked, “he was the only one that stayed at my house part from you. I always went to Harry’s,” I added.

“So four of us know your secret,” Louis says. I played with Louis t-shirt, “I think Liam knows something. He brought me my phone when my mother was calling me and I got bitch after her name. He looked at me weird,” I admitted. Louis nodded, “he might think something more up with my note,” Louis says. I played with the back of his hair, “so what with the note and the rose?” I wondered. Louis smiled at me, “I thought about doing something nice for you. Why don’t you like it?” he questioned. I smiled, “I like it. It just you’re the first guy to give me a flower. You’re also the longest relationship I ever had,” I confessed. Louis kissed me, “I thought I was the only one?” he smirked. I nodded as I kissed him, “how much time we got before we have to go back to school?” I asked. Louis pulled his phone out of his pocket, “about an hour,” he replied. Louis threw his phone next to us before he stood up still holding me. He laid me down on my bed as he hovered over me. He threw my clothes for dance on my desk without knocking over the rose. I smiled as he started to kiss me until I heard the front door open, “Lilly,” I heard my mother call. Louis sighed, “time to really meet her,” I say as Louis got off of me. I get off my bed and walked out of my room with Louis behind me.

We found my mother in the kitchen, “there my beautiful daughter,” she says. She noticed Louis behind me, “and who is this?” she asked. She looked Louis up and down, “I’m Louis. Lilly boyfriend,” Louis tells her as he held his hand out. My mother looked shocked as she shook his hand, “Bec Underwood,” she tells him. She smiled at him, “so your Lilly boyfriend?” she questioned. I felt sick how my mother was being nice, “yeah we met through Harry,” Louis smiled. My mother looked at me, “why didn’t you tell me you had a boyfriend?” she asked me.

“Well we both haven’t been home much last week,” I replied. I don’t know why I was keeping the act up since Louis knows the truth, “so how long have you two been dating?” she wondered. Louis played with his lip ring, “about a week now. I asked her out on her first day of school since we have lessons together,” he tells her. My mother walks away to fill the kettle up, “would you like a cup of tea?” she asked us. I shake my head, “um we need to go back to our assignment,” I tell her. She smiled at me, “I think you have time for a cuppa,” she tells me. Louis wrapped an arm around me, “ten minutes won’t kill us,” he smiled. I nodded as we sat down at the kitchen table. Louis put his hand on my knee so my mother wouldn’t see it, “how many sugars sweetie?” she asked Louis.

“Three please,” he replied. I looked at Louis as she had her back to us. Louis kissed me lightly, “it going to be ok,” he whispered. I smiled at him, “so Louis how old are you?” my mother questioned. Louis squeezed my knee, “I’m seventeen. I turn eighteen in December,” he tells her. She turned around as she waited for the kettle to boil, “do you have milk?” she asked. Louis nodded his head, “please,” he smiled. I knew Louis was having a hard time being nice to her. My mother finished the cups of tea and put them down in front of us, before she spilt mine on me, “I’m so sorry,” she says. I put my hand on Louis shoulder to tell him not to do anything. I got up, “it alright I have to change anyway,” I say.

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I quickly ran off to my room to get changed into my dance clothes. When I came back out Louis and my mother were talking about school, “I’m impressed that your daughter got five main lesson. Everyone else only got four. She also going to do dance and football,” Louis tells her. I smiled as I walked in, “I’m trying dance, but I am doing creative writing tomorrow,” I tell him. I knew Louis was more into what I was saying than my mother. Louis smiled at me, “but if you’re going to fill up every day. How are you meant to spend time with your hot boyfriend?” she smirked. For some reason I wrapped my arms around Louis shoulders from behind, “frees, football, before and after school, lesson, break, lunch and weekends,” I tell her. She raised her eyebrows at me as Louis grabbed my hand, “what about your studies?” she asked. Louis moved his hand up and down my arm, “that what we were doing before. Lilly my physics partner and we also got a P.E assignment together. Harry making sure she keeps her studies up too,” Louis tells her. I saw my mother’s lips turn into a thin line, “part from Harry and your hot boyfriend. Have you made any other friends?” she wondered. I nodded my head, “Perrie, Zayn, Niall, Liam and I saw Josh today,” I tell her. She looked surprised, “Josh Devine?” she questioned.

“Yep. He’s the school’s drum teacher,” I smiled. She shakes her head, “that boy was always drumming to a beat. Making lots of noise when he stayed here,” she started. Louis grabbed both of my hands, “Lilly father Brad always said he had rhythm, but I thought he was being a little shit,” she continued. Louis smiled as he kissed my hands. I think he was waiting for my mother to say something bad about me, “Lilly was little shit with him,” she finished. I felt Louis move a little, “how was she a little shit? She nothing but good at school,” Louis asked her. I knew Louis was trying to push her buttons, “they stayed up late, eat all the food and were so loud all the time,” she replied.

“That’s what kids do,” Louis smiled. She gave him a fake smile back. I knew my mother couldn’t keep this act up for much longer, “well you better get back to your schoolwork,” she tells us.

Louis and I went into my room and I shut the door. Louis threw himself face first onto my bed, “that was hard,” he mumbled. I sit next to him, “I know and thank you,” I say before I kissed the back of his head. Louis turned around so he was on his back, “I feel sick,” I whispered. Louis pulled me to him, “I know that was revolting for you,” he smiled. I nodded, “but you were trying to push her buttons,” I tell him. He smiled at me, “and you know she could walk in any minute now,” I added. Louis smiled bigger as he kissed me, “maybe we should continue what we were doing before then,” he smirked. I shake my head as I got up, “we have forty five minutes,” he added. I go over to my bag and grabbed my smokes out, “how much I’ll like too. I need to stop that remember,” I reminded him. Louis sits up, “so we need to talk than,” he says. I shrugged my shoulders, “but smoking is also not the answer too,” he added. I opened my window before sitting down on the ledge. I pulled a smoke out and offered it to Louis. He shakes his head no as he got his own out. I light my smoke up as he does the same. He sits down next to my feet, “so you wanna talk?” he wondered. I ran my thumb over his note on my smoke packet, “can I ask you something? It alright if you say no,” I asked. Louis put his chin on my knees, “go ahead babe,” he says. I looked away from him to outside, “um,” I started. Louis placed his hand on my thigh, “I’ll stay here tonight,” he tells me. I looked at him, “how did you know what I was going to ask?” I questioned. Louis kissed my knee, “because it something you have never asked me. I’ve always done it like last Tuesday. I also know that you don’t want to be left with your mother tonight,” Louis tells me. I gave him a weak smile, “thank you,” I say.

“It alright. Babe just ask me. The only time I would say no to you if something was going on at home and I mean something bad,” he reassured me. He kissed me, “what if something going on with the others?” I wondered. I took a drag of my smoke, “it depends what that something is. Like if they wanted to hang out I would take you with me or take you to Perrie’s. But if it something bad and you didn’t want to stay here. I would take you to my place or Perrie’s,” he started. He takes a drag of his smoke, “you know I’ll be there for you, because I know how it feels to be low,” he admitted. I grabbed his hand, “and I’ll always be there for you too,” I promised. He smiled, “I only know you for a week, but I don’t want you to feel low or unwanted,” he says. The way he said if felt like he couldn’t believe it himself. I couldn’t believe how much we looked after each other so much, “same,” I smiled.

After we finished our smokes we decided to go back to school. I put my runners on and put my hair up before we left. We got near the front door before my mother stopped us, “you leaving Louis?” my mother asked. Louis turned around, “yeah Mrs Underwood, but I will be back after we go to Liam’s,” he tells her. She smiled at him, “why are you two going to Liam’s?” she questioned. Louis puts his arm around me, “he’s have a barbeque for him getting a job,” Louis replied. I knew he was lying, “then we be back to finish our assignment for physics,” he added. I pulled him outside to his car as my mother stood at the front door watching us. We got into his car, “let’s get back to school,” Louis smiled. I started laughing as he turned his car on, “never thought I would hear you say that,” I smiled. We put on our seatbelts, “same,” he says.

We got to school with half an hour before our extra lesson’s started. We got out of his car and walked around until we saw Liam, Niall and Zayn on the football pitch. They were kicking around a football, “wanna join them?” Louis asked. I nodded my head as I ran over to them, “I thought you two would be on second base right now,” Niall says. Louis comes up next to me, “my mother came home,” I tell them. They started laughing, “nothing like being cocked blocked by a parent,” Liam says. I nodded, “it put you right out of the mood,” I smiled. Zayn looked at me, “so Louis met your mother now?” Zayn asked.

“Yep,” Louis tells him. Niall looked at us funny, “I thought you did on Friday,” Niall remembers. We smiled at him as we shook our heads, “you lied. So I was right about you two were on top of each other,” Niall smirked. I kicked the ball from his feet, “yes you were,” I tell him. I looked at Zayn “why did you and Harry have a fight with Brian?” I asked him. Zayn looked down, “he talking shit again about you and Lou, but this time he brought Perrie into it. He was going on about how Louis fucks you both. I just lost it,” Zayn tells me. I nodded as I kicked the ball over to Liam, “how about we play two on two and I’ll stay in the goals?” Liam suggested. We all agreed, “ok Lil and Zayn in a team and Louis you are with me,” Niall tells us. Louis pouted, “come on hunny it will be fun,” I smiled. Liam moved to the goals as I stood to one side with Niall. Louis and Zayn were on the other side. Liam threw the ball down the middle of the filed. Niall and I ran after it, “your shoe lace is untied,” Niall says. I ignored him as I got the ball and kicked it straight to Zayn. I ran back down to the goals as Louis was blocking Zayn. I moved so Zayn could kick it back to me. Once I got the ball back I kicked it into the goals. It went passed Liam and straight in.

We played until the bell rang for the end of the school day. Zayn and I won, “that not fair. I was distracted by Lil’s boobs bouncing,” Niall pouted. Louis pushed him, “what have I said about that? But you were right,” Louis smirked. I laid down on the grass, “fuck I got dance,” I sighed. Louis sits down next to me with his legs out, “Harry coming with some water,” Liam tells us. Louis pats my stomach, “maybe you shouldn’t tried so hard then,” he teased. I smiled at him, “I always play hard when it comes to football,” I tell him. I moved the side of my head on to his lap, “or maybe someone was hoping to hurt themselves, so they didn’t have to go to dance,” Louis says as he put his arm around me. I rolled over to look at him as he kept his arm around me, “I can’t do that to Pear,” I tell him. Louis smiled, “so you are doing this for her. You know you don’t have too,” he tells me.

“I know, but I said I give it a try,” I reminded him. Louis smiled, “here,” I heard Harry say. I looked at him as he hands Louis and I a bottle of water. I sit up and have a big drink of it.

Louis dropped me off to my dance class, “you came,” Perrie smiled. She hugged me, “yep,” I say as I hugged her back. I look around and there was about seven girls and four boys. Perrie drags me over to a girl, “Lil this is May. May this is Lilly,” Perrie introduced us. May had long brown hair and eyes. She was shorter than Perrie and I, but it suit her with her petite build. She hugged me, “nice to meet you,” I smiled. I hugged her back, “no. it nice to meet you,” she smiled. So this is the girl Niall likes and had sex with, “did you know we have English and history together?” she wondered. I nodded my head, “I got to say you got some balls to answer back to Mr Dew. Normally you would have been kicked out of his class for what you and Louis did,” she tells me.

“Why do people think I got balls?” I laughed. Perrie laughed too, “because you don’t take shit or keep your mouth shut,” Perrie tells me. Then a man with bleached blonde hair and dressed in eighties clothes came in. He looked familiar like I’ve seen his face before, “Perrie darling,” he says as he hugged her. I could tell he was gay from the way he talked and acted. He greeted May with a hug, “now girls who is this lovely lady?” he asked.

“This is Lilly,” May tell him. He hugged me and I hugged him back, “I’m Leeroy Payne,” he tells me. That where I have seen his face before. He looks like Liam, “I don’t know if you know my nephew Liam?” he questioned. I nodded my head, “his my friend,” I replied. He smiled, “she Louis Tomlinson girlfriend,” May tells him. Leeroy looked shocked, “aren’t you a lucky girl. Getting the schools bad boy,” he smirked. He walks away from us, “so Lilly have you done dance before?” May asked me. I shook my head no, “what is she doing here,” I heard Amy spat. I looked at her and she was with her friends. She was dressed in short shorts and a crop top, “because I can,” I spat back. She rolled her eyes at me as she walked away. I couldn’t help but notice Sophia looking un-happy with them again. May and Perrie started laughing, “why didn’t you tell me that she was going to be here?” I whined. Perrie shrugged her shoulders, “I thought she was not doing it,” Perrie admitted.

“Why does she hate you?” May wondered. I smiled at her, “she wants Louis,” I replied. May started laughing, “Louis don’t like her since she best friends with Eleanor,” May smiled. I looked at Perrie, “who Eleanor?” I asked her. Perrie looks down, “Lou ex,” she tells me. I nodded, “alright everyone over here!” Leeroy called. We all go over to him, “welcome to your first dance lesson. I see some new faces and some old ones,” he started. I felt eyes on me, “today we are going to see what you got. So get into groups of four please,” he tells us. Perrie grabbed my hand, “can I stay with you two?” May asked us. We both nodded as I looked around the room. I noticed Sophia was left out with Amy and her group, “what about Sophia?” I questioned. Perrie smiled at me, “I’ll go get her,” May says. May ran off and brought back Sophia, “hi,” she says. Sophia looked uncomfortable, “this is Perrie and Lilly,” May tells her as she pointed to us. Sophia nodded, “I know,” she says. I think she was scared of what Amy say since she was with us. I smiled at her, “we have art together,” I say. Sophia smiled a little, “yeah and P.E,” she added. Perrie squeezed my hand, “so are you going to try out for the football team?” Sophia asked me. I nodded, “I am too. I’m defender,” May tells us.

“I’m a midfielder like you Lilly,” Sophia tells me. I looked over at Amy, “it ok she won’t join. She be afraid to break a nail,” Sophia smiled. I started laughing a bit too loud and Amy looked over at us, “Sophia what are you doing with them?” Amy snarled. Sophia looked scared, “I asked her since you got your bag of bitches,” May spat. Amy gave May daggers, “Sophia leave there group and join another or I’ll make your life a living hell,” Amy tells her. I looked at Sophia and I knew she was going to listen to Amy, “what is your fucken problem?” I snapped. Amy looks at me, “you,” she spat. I smiled as I shook my head, “all because you can’t get what you want. Louis doesn’t want a loose bitch like you. So why don’t you just fuck off,” I tell her. Everyone eyes were on me, “what you’re not loose yourself,” Amy laughed. I smiled at her, “no. I’m a virgin,” I admitted. I heard some oo’s, “yeah right. Louis doesn’t do virgins. He likes some fun and leave,” she tells me. I shake my head, “then why is he still with me after a week when all we done is kiss?” I asked her. Amy looked shocked, “I thought so. You don’t know nothing about Louis and me. You just want him so I can’t have him even when he don’t want you. Louis would prefer not to have sex with me for years. Then go anywhere near you,” I smirked. Amy came towards me and I was ready for her, but to my surprise Sophia pushed her, “you will regret that Sophia,” Amy snarled. Amy went to attack her and I stood in front of her. Amy slapped me across the face, “what was that? It felt like a fly,” I smiled. Amy was about to hit me again, but a boy pulled her back. She was trying to get out of his grip, “I think the truth hurt more than your slap,” I say.

“Amy cooper get out of my class right now!” Leeroy shouted. Amy leaves with her friends, “Lilly watch your mouth,” Leeroy tells me. I nodded as he smiled, “alright class get to know the people in you group and see what they can do,” Leeroy tells us all. I looked at Sophia, “I’m sorry,” I apologized. She smiled at me, “no thank you,” she tells me. I smiled at her, “and thank you,” I tell her. She poked my cheek, “does it hurt?” she wondered. I shake my head no since my mother can hit harder than her. Sophia hugged me, “thanks for protecting me,” she says. I hugged her back, “that what friends are for,” I smiled. Sophia stepped back, “you want to be friends with me?” she questioned. I nodded, “well if you want to be friends with us,” I tell her. She nodded, “what about you May?” Perrie asked her. May smiled, “sure, but I can’t be seen with you outside dance. I need to keep my good girl rep,” May joked. We all laughed as we started talking about ourselves.

When danced finished I learnt that May and her boyfriend have been together for three months. I also learnt that May and Perrie have drama and home economics together. Sophia also takes home economics with them and that she single. Sophia told us that she never wanted to hang out with Amy, but she didn’t know how to make friends.

When Louis and Zayn picked up Perrie and I Liam was with them. I noticed Sophia looking at Liam, “May and Sophia. Meet Louis, Zayn and Liam,” I introduced them. They waved at them, “hi,” Liam smiled. Sophia smiled back as May looked disappointed. I wonder if she was hoping Niall would be here, “so how was dance?” Louis asked. Perrie laughed, “were do we start?” she smiled.

We all told the boys what happened with Amy, “what did I say about Amy babe?” Louis questioned. I smiled at him, “but it not her fault. I pushed Amy before she could hit her. Then Lil stood in front of me so Amy couldn’t hurt me. Amy just a bitch and needs to be put into place,” Sophia tells Louis. He smiled at her, “but now I got to watch my back,” she added. I looked at Liam to say something, “she won’t touch you when we are around and I’ll make sure someone is always with you,” Liam promised her. I saw Sophia blush, “really?” she wondered. Liam nodded, “so with that said how you are getting home?” he asked her. Sophia smiled at him, “my boyfriend is picking me up,” May replied. I noticed she was not really paying attention to us, “I’m walking,” Sophia tells him.

“Would you like me to walk you home?” Liam asked her. Sophia blushed a deeper red, “that be nice,” she smiled. Liam and Sophia leave us, “there my boyfriend,” May says as she ran off. I looked at Perrie, “was she disappointed that Niall was not here?” I asked her. Perrie smiled, “I think so, but she might be trying to make him jealous tho,” she tells me. I nodded, “well at least Liam walking Sophia home,” I smiled.

We walked outside to our cars, “so see you two tomorrow,” Zayn says. Perrie hugged me, “happy one week,” she smiled. Louis and I got into his car, “so are we going back to mine or somewhere else?” I asked Louis as I put on my seatbelt. Louis started his car, “somewhere else,” he replied.

We drove to a park, “I thought we could go for a walk,” he smiled. We get out of his car and it as cold, so I wrapped my arm around me, “how about a run since I’m cold,” I say. I felt Louis put something over my shoulders, “or you could put on my jacket,” he tells me. I put my arms threw his denim jacket which was a bit big for me. I noticed when Louis came a stood in front of me he had a black hoddie on. Louis started to roll up the sleeves on the denim jacket for me. I watched him, “don’t look at me like that. I used to do it for my sisters,” Louis admitted. I smiled at him, “you miss them don’t you?” I wondered. Louis nodded as he looked at me. He grabbed my hand as we started walking, “so how was music?” I asked him. He shrugged his shoulders, “it was mainly getting to know the new people. Not like you fighting with Amy. You also made two new friends with the girls Liam and Niall like,” he smiled. I looked down, “sorry about fighting with Amy, but she was telling Sophia what to do and I could not let her,” I apologized. Louis pulled me to his side as he wrapped an arm around my waist, “I know and I’m proud of you for sticking up for her and yourself,” Louis says. I wrapped my arm around him as he kissed the side of my head, “but did you really call her a loose bitch?” he questioned. I nodded, “and did you tell everyone that you’re a virgin?” he wondered. I nodded again, “is there something wrong with that? Did I damage your rep?” I rumbled. Louis shakes his head no, “just letting you know that the whole school is going to know. So just watch out please,” he tells me. I smiled at him, “are guys going to throw themselves at me?” I joked. Louis nodded his head, “like I told you before some guys just take a girl virginity and not care about the girl. It like a prize for them,” he reminded me.

“Is it a prize for you?” I wondered. Louis shakes his head no, “I could wait years for you,” he smiled. I kissed his cheek, “Louis?” I heard a man question. Louis stopped and so did I, “dad?” Louis questioned back. I looked at the man and he didn’t look anything like Louis, “haven’t seen you for a while,” the man smiled. Louis walked over to him and hugged him, “how have you been?” the man asked him.

“Good and you?” Louis asked back. Louis seemed happy to see him, “alright. So is this your girlfriend Lottie been telling me about?” the man wondered. Louis pulled me over to them, “yep. Lilly meet my dad Mark,” Louis says. I was confused as I held my hand out, “come on give me a hug,” he says as he pulled me to him. I hugged him before standing next to Louis, “how have the girls been?” Louis asked him.

“There been good and they can’t wait for the new babies to come,” he smiled. Louis dad looked at his phone, “sorry to cut this short, but I’m meeting someone. Talk to you soon Lou. It was also nice meeting you Lilly,” he tells us. We hugged him goodbye and he left. Louis wrapped his arm back around me and I did the same. We started walking again, “I know you got questions. So I give you the run down. Mark my dad is not really my dad. My real dad that I live with left when I was only a couple of days old. My mum met Mark before I was one and got married when I was about two. So my mum changed my last name from Austin to Tomlinson since Mark was raising me,” Louis explained to me as we were walking.

“And Lottie is one of your sisters?” I questioned. Louis nodded his head, “and you told her that I’m you girlfriend?” I added. Louis blushed a little bit, “yeah,” he smiled. I kissed his cheek, “can I ask why?” I wondered. Louis shook his head, “ok,” I say. Louis kissed the side of my head, “now let’s talk about something else. So are you really doing creative writing?” he questioned. I played with my bottom lip, “you know I am and why don’t you want to tell me why you told Lottie that I’m your girlfriend?” I asked. Louis plays with his lip ring, “because I knew she tell mum and it make me look good. It makes me look like I can commit to something, but it also made me feel like I’m using you,” Louis admitted. I kissed his jaw line, “I don’t mind. I told you that I would help you with your mum. If saying that I’m your girlfriend helps then I’m ok with that,” I tell him. He kissed me, “thank you,” he smiled. I smiled back, “but back to your question about me doing creative writing. Is it because what my mother said about me spending time with you?” I wondered. Louis shakes his head, “it just that you have five main lessons and you also got football and dance. I just don’t want to see you burnt out, because you’re doing so much,” he confessed.

“If you think I’m going to burn out make me drop dance then,” I smiled. Louis laughed a little bit, “so that first. Then what?” he wondered. I bit my bottom lip, “I don’t know,” I admitted. Louis kissed the side of my head, “I’ll take you away and we won’t come back until your normal,” he tells me. I laughed, “but never near exams tho,” I tell him. Louis kissed the side of my head again, “I know, but I can do stuff to you near exams tho,” he smirked. I shake my head, “are you always thinking about sex?” I wondered. Louis plays with his lip ring, “not all the time,” he replied. Louis sat down near a pond as I sat down between his legs. He wrapped his arms around me, “you know we didn’t talk about your mother,” he pointed out. I looked down, “because there is not much to talk about. That she only going to be nice to me when you’re around and that I got to act like that we are nice to each other. It makes me sick and the way she called you my hot boyfriend. Also she spilt the tea on me on purpose which was hot by the way. I don’t trust her with you, because I’m scared that she’ll take you away from me. I can take the nasty names and the hitting, but I can’t handle if she did something to you,” I confessed. Louis pulls me face towards him, “she can never take me away from you. No matter what she tries,” Louis reassured me. He kissed me, “you promise?” I asked.

“I promise,” he promised. He kissed my forehead, “but you know you have me and the others to help you deal with your mother?” he wondered. I looked down, “but it really not your problem. I dealt with it all my life,” I tell him. Louis shakes his head, “it bit late for it not to be my problem. I also think Zayn and Perrie won’t forget about it too. So you’re stuck with us,” Louis smiled.

We sat there as Louis hummed a tune I haven’t heard before, “what song are you humming?” I wondered. Louis smiled, “it a song me and the boys wrote together. It called story of my life. It not finished yet,” he tells me. I smiled at him, “and it be a long time before you hear it,” he added. I pouted, “just like you it needs to be finished,” he smiled. Louis looked at the time on his phone, “I have an idea,” he started. I looked at him, “we go get something to eat. Then I drop you off at home and then I jump through your window,” he tells me. I nodded, “since it nearly seven already and I am hungry too,” he added. We get up and head back to the car, “so what would you like for dinner? I’m buying too since you left everything at home,” Louis asked me as we got to his car. I smiled at him, “and don’t say that you’re not hungry,” he tells me sternly. I kept smiling as Louis pins me against his car, “if you don’t tell me what you want. I won’t touch or kiss you for a whole week,” he tells me. I moved my face in closer to his, “I don’t think you could last, but I would like chicken,” I smirked. Louis kissed me, “good girl,” he smirked.

We got dinner and drove back to mine, “I’ll come in with you to get my bag so we can open the window. Then I’ll park up the street. Then I’ll run back and jump through your window,” Louis explained to me. We get out of his car and went inside, “your finally back,” I heard my mother say. When she came into the hallway I noticed she changed into a skimpy night gown. She looked Louis up and down, “yeah, but I’ve got to go home now. I’m just grabbing my bag,” Louis tells her. My mother smirked, “that alright sweetie,” she says. I pulled Louis to my room, “um how do I un see that?” Louis laughed. I shake my head as I opened my window, “I know,” he smirked. He pulled me to him and kissed me. His hands travelled up my stomach to my breast. I stop him from pulling my singlet down, “later since you have to go back out there,” I tell him. Louis kissed my neck, “promise?” he smiled. He kissed the other side of my neck, “promise,” I tell him.

We walked out of my room to find my mother waiting by the front door. She had a smirk on her face still, “you got everything?” she asked him. Louis nodded, “well don’t be a stranger,” she tells him. She hugged him and Louis hugged her back as he pulled a face. I walked outside with him, “I’ll see you really soon,” he smiled. He kissed me, “just remember that you’re strong and what she tells you is not true,” he reassured me. He kissed me again before getting into his car and driving up the road.

I went back inside, “so when were you going to tell me about your boyfriend?” my mother questioned. I shrugged my shoulders as I walked passed her, “you know he will leave you if you don’t put out or that he finds out your crazy. I know the type of man he is. He the root and boot type,” she smirked. I ignored her as I went into my room and shut the door. I noticed Louis sitting on my bed and I pointed for him to get under it. He looked at my funny until he heard my mother coming. He hid under my bed as my mother came into the room, “don’t walk away from me. You know I’m right about him,” she tells me. I sighed, “why do you care?” I asked. She smirked at me, “because you’re a slut and he get bored of you quickly. Especially when he finds out that he’s not the only one,” she replied. I just shrugged my shoulders, “when he does get bored I’ll find him and show him what a real woman can do,” she added. I really wanted to laugh or even smile at what she just said, but I just stared at her. She smiled at me, “just remember that everyone gets bored of you,” she says as she left my room and slammed my door.

I waited until I heard another door slam before sitting on the floor near my bed. Louis comes out from under my bed and kneels in front of me. I wrapped my arms around him as he hugged me tight. I was not crying I just need him, “she wrong,” he started. He rubbed my back, “I don’t think I could ever get bored of you,” he added. I smiled a little, “Lilly I’m going out!” she yelled. Then I heard the front door slam, “good!” Louis yelled back. I looked at him, “sorry had too,” he smiled. I smiled back, “thanks,” I say. Louis kissed me, “are you alright?” he asked me. I nodded, “really? You can tell me if you’re not,” he questioned. I kissed him, “I am really fine, because she knows nothing,” I tell him. Louis kissed me, “what going through your mind?” he wondered. I placed one of my hands on the side of his face, “just that my mother wants you,” I admitted. I kissed him, “and that I’m fine,” I added. Louis smiled, “so we get the house to ourselves now,” he points out.

“I know,” I say. Louis laughed a little bit, “and it our week anniversary too,” he smirked. I ran my hands down his chest, “yep and I’m going to have a bath,” I tell him. Louis pouted, “what am I going to do?” he asked. I ran my hands down to the top of his jeans, “join me,” I smirked as I undid his button. I pulled his fly down, “you know I have seen your bath and it is small. So you be on top of me naked which I really have no problem with,” Louis says. I started to rub him threw his boxer, “but right now I’m going to have my way with you on your bedroom floor,” he added. Louis turns me around so I laid on the floor, “you been making my dick twitch ever since you put on these dam leggings,” he growled in my ear. He kissed down my neck, “I’ll be back,” he tells me. He ran out of my room and comes back with a wet wash cloth, “make-up taste bad,” he smiled. He puts the wash cloth in his mouth as he pulled me up. He takes off his jacket that I had on and my singlet. He lays me back down before gently washing the make-up off my neck. He ran the wash cloth over the top of my chest down between my breasts. He throws the wash cloth next to us before he kissed down my neck again. He started sucking on my sweet spot as I grabbed his t-shirt. I pulled him closer to me as he braced himself on his arms next to my head. He kissed along my neck to the other side as I pulled his shirt up. I felt him smirk before he leaned back to take his jacket and t-shit off. I sit up and ran my hands up his chest, “you know after last night. I think I my turn,” I smirked. I pushed Louis back until he hit my bed, “are you going to ride me babe?” he wondered. I straddled his lap, “is that what you want?” I asked him.

“I want a lot if things from you,” he smirked. I started rubbing him threw his boxers slowly, “tell me what you want,” I demanded. Louis kissed me, “what I’m thinking we are nowhere near,” he tells me. I get slower as I rubbed him, “so still tell me. I want to know what you want me to do to you,” I admitted. Louis bit his bottom lip, “only if you promise not to run and get faster with rubbing me, because this is painfully slow,” he begged. I got a little bit faster, “I promise I won’t run,” I tell him. Louis placed his hands on my hips as he took in a deep breath, “I want your lips around my dick. I want to fuck you everywhere and anyway I can. I want to eat you out until you can’t take no more and even then I won’t stop. I want to play with you at school,” Louis rambled. I got faster with his member, “fuck,” he groaned. I felt Louis get harder as I kept rubbing him. He pulled me to him as he kissed me hard. He unclips my bra and I let it fall to my hands. I throw it off before I stuck my hand inside of his boxers. I wrapped my hand around his member and started pumping him. Louis stopped me so he could move me off of him. He pulls his pants off with his boxers as he kicked his shoes off with his socks, “need more room,” he says. I kneeled in front of him as I wrapped my hand around his member again. I started pumping him, “you know you look hot just in your leggings and shoes,” Louis winked. I felt my cheeks burn, “straddle me again babe,” Louis tells me. I straddled his lap and left room, so I keep playing with his member. Louis ran his hands down my back to the top of my leggings. I got faster with his member as he squeezed my bottom. I kept going until I felt his member twitch in my hand, “fuck,” Louis moaned. I started kissing his neck as I kept going with his member. I could tell that he was trying not to cum yet, “let go babe,” I whispered in his ear before I kissed under it. Louis grabbed my hips as he came swearing uncontrollably. I kept going until he came down from his high. He kissed me softly over and over again. I couldn’t help but smile into the kisses. Louis hand travelled into my knickers and he started to rub me. He starts kissing along my jaw to my neck, “I really do turn you on,” I felt Louis smirk.

“You know you do,” I whispered. Louis pulled my leggings and my knickers down a little bit with his other hand as he kept rubbing me. Louis ran his hand down my leg to my shoe. He takes off my shoe before pulling my knickers and leggings down to my knee. I moved my leg as Louis stopped rubbing me, so he could hold my hip. I moved out of them before Louis took of my other shoe off. He pulls my leggings and knickers off. We were both naked and it felt really different. I know we showered and had a bath together, but this felt different. Louis noticed I was thinking, “babe is everything alright?” he wondered. I bit my lip, “this is going to sound stupid, but were both naked. I know we did this last night and Saturday, but,” I started. Louis stopped me, “but you’re naked on top of me and really close to my dick,” Louis says. He grabbed my singlet and covers his member up with it, “is this better?” he questioned. For some reason it was and I don’t know why. I nodded my head, “come here,” Louis says as he pulled me closer. He kissed me, “do you want to continue?” he asked. I nodded, “yeah,” I says. Louis kissed me again as his hands travelled down my back to the front of my hips. He starts to play with my button until he earned a moan from me. One of his fingers play with my entrance. I gave him the ok, so he slowly puts a finger in me. He moves it in and out really slowly, “please faster Lou,” I begged. Louis smiled as he got faster, “not nice is it babe,” he teased. He hit my g-spot and I dug my fingers into his shoulders, “can I use two fingers?” he wondered. I nodded yes as he pulled his finger out and put two in. it hurt a little bit but not like last night. Louis waited a moment before he started moving his fingers. He kept going as he hit my g-spot every time. I didn’t last long as I came onto his fingers moaning his name.

We decided to have a quick shower instead of having a bath. Louis made sure I was close to him the whole time in the shower. Even when I moved away from him. He would come closer to me for some reason. I thought it was cute, because I think he was worried about what happened half way through what we doing.

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When we were back in my room I noticed Louis brought a bag with him full of clothes. I got dressed in a simple white baby doll night gown with matching white knickers. Louis just put on a pair of blue boxers, “babe can we talk about something?” Louis asked as he dried his hair. I nodded as I was also drying my hair, “it about when we were both naked and you kinda panicked,” he started. I finished drying my hair and I put my towel on my desk chair. Louis comes over to me and does the same, “what were you think?” he wondered. I looked at him as he wrapped his arms around me, “I don’t know. It just felt different,” I admitted. Louis moves his fingers backwards and forwards on my back, “what do you mean different?” he questioned. I hid my face into his chest, “I was scared,” I mumbled into his chest. I looked at him, “I was scared that I might actually break all the promises that you made to me. That I was going to give in and not be a virgin anymore,” I confessed. Louis looked shocked at me, “Lilly are you afraid to lose your virginity?” Louis questioned.

“I am for some reason,” I admitted. Louis kissed the top of my head, “are you afraid that it would hurt or won’t be what you thought?” he asked. I looked down, “yes, but I also think that I wouldn’t be good enough for you since I don’t know what to do,” I tell him. Louis pulled my chin up so I would look at him, “your first time is not about me. It all about you,” he tells me. He kissed me, “you know I’m afraid that I’ll hurt you too much or that your first time was not how you pictured it. I’m scared that I’ll screw it up and it something that you can’t get back,” Louis admitted. I kissed him, “but I have nothing pictures for my first time. I haven’t really thought about it until today. All I know is that I don’t want to be drunk or high,” I tell him. Louis smiled, “I would never take it when you’re drunk or high. I want you to remember it,” he tells me. I liked it when Louis and I had these moments like this. It made me believe that we are more than friends, but I knew Louis doesn’t think the same way.

We had a smoke before Louis got on my bed, “so another day of school tomorrow,” Louis sighed. I sit next to him as I leaned into his legs, “yep and you’re going to geography in the morning,” I tell him. Louis pouted, “that not going to work,” I added. Louis smiled as put his hand on my thigh, “fine I’ll go, but you’re staying home and I’m coming back after my lesson,” he tells me. I shook my head, “no. I’m going to the library and working on history. I’m already behind,” I tell him. Louis laughed a little bit, “how far behind are you?” he wondered. I smiled, “about half a lesson,” I replied. Louis laughed harder, “is that all babe. I already missed one lesson of geography,” he smiled. I shake my head, “can I ask you something?” I wondered. I lean on the side of him as he nodded his head, “Liam told me this morning that you just passed last year. Can I ask why?” I questioned. Louis looked away, “I just don’t like school,” he tells me. I kissed his shoulder, “did Liam tell you anything else?” Louis asked. I could tell he was annoyed, “um just that last year was a bad year for you,” I say. Louis groaned, “that all you’re going to know,” he snapped. I moved off the bed and out of my room to leave Louis alone.

I walked into the kitchen and filled the kettle up. I started making a cup of tea from myself until I felt a pair of arms around me. Louis kissed the top of my head, “I’m sorry for snapping,” he apologized. I ignored him as I moved his arms from around me. I continued making my cup of tea, “Lilly I’m sorry!” Louis shouted.

“Don’t shout at me Louis. I heard you the first time,” I snapped. Louis looks down, “all I did was tell you what Liam told me and you snapped at me,” I added. Louis looks at me, “I know,” he sighed. Louis looked like he was lost, “I know you don’t like to talk Louis. I just wish that you’ll stop getting angry at me, because I care,” I tell him. Louis headed back to my room and I followed him. He got a pair of jeans out of his bag and starts to put them on, “where are you going Louis?” I asked him. Louis didn’t say anything, “Louis please talk to me,” I begged. Louis looked at me, “I need to go, before I do something,” he spat at me. I was confused and hurt, “what are you talking about?” I wondered. I looked at him closely, “please Lilly,” he begged. I walked closer to him and slowly touched his bicep. Louis looked at me, “Louis are you getting angry?” I questioned. He placed his hand over mine, “I am and I don’t know what I’m going to do. I don’t want to be angry at you, because I know you did nothing wrong. It just me. I’m fucked up Lilly,” Louis admitted. I kissed his shoulder, “how about we go to bed?” I suggested. Louis nodded his head before he took his jeans off. I get into bed as Louis went to turn off my bedroom light. He gets in right next to me, but left room between us. I wrapped my arm around, “you feel better?” I asked.

“Yea,” he whispered. He pulled me to him, “I am sorry,” he apologized. I smiled at him, “I think it something I’m going to have to get used to,” I tell him. Louis kissed my nose, “thank you,” he says. He started to draw circles on my back, “but you know it something that you shouldn’t have to get used too. I should really learn how to control it,” he tells me. I ran my thumb over his cheek, “but until then I’ll be here for you,” I promised. Louis kissed me, “even when I scare you?” he wondered. I kissed him, “I’ll try my best, but I’m not going to lie you do scare me,” I admitted. Louis looked down, “but you do put up with a lot of my shit. So I think I can put up with you,” I added. Louis smiled a little bit, “that true,” he says. His kissed my nose, “but I don’t want to scare you when I get into one of my fucked up moods. You have enough with your mother. You don’t need my shit on top of that,” he tells me. Louis pulled me closer to him so there was no room left, “but I only care about your shit. My mother can go get fucked,” I smiled. Louis didn’t say anything as he rubbed my back.

We laid there for a while, “babe you need to sleep,” Louis tells me. I shake my head, “not until you go to sleep,” I tell him. Louis kissed my forehead, “why do I have to go to sleep first?” he wondered. I bit my lip, “are you afraid that I’m still going to leave?” he questioned. I nodded my head, “I’m not going anywhere,” he promised. I smiled at him before I rested my head the crook of his neck.

The next morning my mother still wasn’t home. So we got ready for school and I didn’t bother to cover up my hickey, “why aren’t you covering up the hickey?” Louis wondered. I put on my shoes, “because last night was our one week and everyone knows that I was with you,” I tell him. Louis ran his fingers over the mark, “I think next time I’ll go easy on ya,” he says.

When we got to school I sat in the library doing my history work as Louis went to geography. When he was done him, Niall, Harry, Liam and Sophia joined me. They were working on their own subjects, “who would have thought that we would be studying,” Niall says. We all laughed at him, “well it better than doing it all the night before it due,” Sophia says. Liam smiled at her as Louis leaned into me, “it took them half an hour to walk ten minutes yesterday,” he whispered in my ear. I smiled, “but he still hasn’t asked her out,” he added. I looked at Louis, “well were all not as fast as you,” I tell him. Louis laughed a little bit, “Louis back away from Flower,” Harry tells him. Louis and I look at Harry, “why?” I asked. Harry points to the mark on my neck, “I don’t want another one of them,” he replied. I covered my hickey with my hand, “lighten up Harry it was there one week anniversary yesterday,” Liam tells him. Harry looked at him, “but he didn’t have to mark her like that,” Harry says. Louis wrapped his arm around me, “so they had fun,” Liam tells him. Harry looks straight at Louis, “he already said that he’ll go easy on me next time,” I tell Harry. He smiled, “he better,” Harry says.

On break we met up with Zayn, Perrie and May, “how was study group?” Zayn teased. I noticed Niall and May looking at each other, “fun,” Harry tells him. Niall and May were still looking at each other, “we had a big orgy,” Liam joked. Zayn laughed, “is that where Lil got the nice hickey from or was that from Louis last night?” Zayn questioned. Everyone laughed, “she got that from Louis last night,” Sophia replied. Zayn raised his eyebrows, “so you got a rose, a cute note and a hickey from Louis for you one week anniversary,” Zayn says. I nodded, “not bad,” Perrie says. Louis pulled me to him as he kissed the side of my head. I noticed Sophia and May smiled at me and I remembered that they think Louis and I are in a real relationship. I also noticed Niall looking at Perrie and I like he wanted to scream at us. So I moved next to him, “is everything aright Ni?” I whispered. He shook his head no, “why is she here? You know I kinda like her. It like telling me I can’t have my guitar, but I have to watch someone else to play it,” Niall admitted. I looked down, “hey guys I like you to meet my boyfriend Mark,” May tells us. I noticed a boy next to her with brown hair and blue eyes, “nice to meet you all,” he smiled. He looked nothing like Niall. He had no tattoos or pricings. I put my hand on Niall’s back, “hi,” I say. We all introduced ourselves and Niall was nice to him. I knew Niall wanted to punch him, “well I’m going now since drama was my only lesson for the day,” May tells us. We all said goodbye to them, “you and Perrie don’t talk to me right now,” Niall spat. He walked away, “I’ll go with him,” Harry tells us. He ran after him, “what did we do?” Perrie wondered. I smiled at her, “just something,” I replied. Perrie gave me a small nod as we all got a smoke out part from Sophia. Liam looked at his smoke before he lit it up, “so what lesson you got next?” Sophia asked. I knew she was just asking Liam, “I have a free,” Perrie replied. Sophia smiled at her, “I also have a free like Louis,” Liam tells her. Louis plays with my back, “what are you doing?” I asked him. He smiled at me, “nothing,” he says. I shake my head, “so Sophia what did you do last week in art?” I asked her.

“I’m actually doing design, but last week I painted my breakfast. What did you and Zayn do?” she asked back. Zayn smiled, “I drew Perrie and Lil drew Louis,” Zayn tells her. Sophia looked shocked, “I’ll show you when we get to class,” Zayn added. When he said that the bell rang to go to class. Perrie hugged me, “is Niall not happy about May?” she whispered in my ear. I nodded, “I think he really likes her,” I whispered back. I gave Louis a kiss goodbye before heading off to class with Zayn and Sophia
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When we were in class Zayn and I showed Sophia our art work, “wow you two are amazing artist,” she smiled. I noticed a girl waving Sophia over, “well I see you at lunch,” she tells us. She goes over and sits down next to the girl, “don’t we feel used,” Zayn joked as we sat down. I laughed a little bit, “I don’t mind. I like it when it just us two,” I admitted. Zayn smiled, “which means you have something to ask me,” he pointed out. I nodded, “ok class. I’m going to talk to you about your first major. If didn’t know that the tasks I set you are only a little bit of your grade,” Mr Lambert started. I looked at Zayn, “there are also two majors and two SA’s you got to do. So I set one major and one SA a semester with ten little tasks,” he continued. Zayn was so into what Mr Lambert saying, “now your major is about anything you want to do. You just got to show progress with it in another sketchbook I need to see ideas, progress, technique and a finished design. Your art work can be a big painting to a vase for art students. Design students can be from a new football team to a fashion line,” he finished. Zayn smiled big, “already got an idea Zayn?” I wondered.

“Yep,” he replied. Mr Lambert hands us a new sketchbook. Zayn opens it straight away and starts writing in it. I watched him as he started sketching small pictures, “Lil what your idea?” Zayn asked me. I looked at my new sketchbook, “I don’t have one,” I say. I felt a hand on my back, “you’ll think of something,” he reassured me. I moved my new sketchbook aside and grabbed my old one. I started working on my favourite quote as Zayn went on with his major.

After a little bit I noticed Zayn not doing anything, “stuck already?” I asked. He shakes his head no, “just need to get stuff,” he smiled. I loved how Zayn loved art, “I thought that I’ll have a break. So what did you want to talk about?” he wondered.

“Um was Perrie scared about you taking her virginity?” I asked. Zayn looked confused at me, “Lil did something happen last night between Lou and you?” he questioned. I felt uncomfortable, “Mr Lambert. Lil and I going to go get art stuff,” Zayn tells him. Zayn started packing up and so did I. We walked out of the class, “can we do that?” I wondered. Zayn smiled at me, “they don’t give a shit,” he tells me.

We get to his car, “so are we really going to get art stuff?” I questioned. Zayn nodded as we got into his car, “what would Perrie and Lou say?” I asked. Zayn started his car, “if they trust us everything will be alright,” he tells me. I put my seatbelt on, “were are they anyway?” I wondered. Zayn started to drive, “I know Perrie helping her brother move. So Lou and Liam probably with her,” Zayn tells me. I nodded, “what you don’t trust Perrie with Lou?” he teased. I shake my head, “just Liam. He may act all innocent, but I’ve seen the way he looks at Louis,” I laughed. Zayn laughed, but then he turned serious, “to your answer in art. Perrie was scared, but it was because she thought she wasn’t good enough for me. Have you told Louis that you’re scared?” he asked.

“Yeah we had a talk about it. It just I wasn’t scared until last night when were doing something,” I admitted. Zayn nodded, “so it normal to feel like that? I really wish I didn’t. I never did,” I rambled. Zayn smiled, “maybe you and Perrie should have a girl’s night,” he suggested. I nodded, “that be fun and scary,” I say. Zayn laughed a little bit, “so can I ask what were you doing when you got scared?” he questioned. I felt my cheeks blush, “um,” I started. Zayn quickly looked at me before look back at the road, “it ok you don’t have to tell me. I can see it was something good from that hickey,” he smiled. I bit my lip, “I got the hickey Sunday night,” I admitted. He looked shocked, “I thought Louis took you home Sunday night,” he says.

“I stayed at his. He didn’t want me to go home after the day we all had,” I tell him. Zayn smiled a little bit, “I am sorry about Sunday. I even had fight with Louis on the way to his,” I apologized to Zayn. He stopped at a red light, “but you’re alright now?” he wondered as he looked at me. I nodded my head, “Louis and I trying this new thing called talking and it seems to be working for both of us,” I tell him. Zayn smiled as he started driving again, “if I didn’t know you two like I do. I would think you two are in a real relationship,” he says.

We got to a hardware store, “um what are we doing here?” I questioned. We got out of his car, “getting stuff for art,” he replied. I nodded as we went in and straight to the spray paint. He started picking out colours until the floor around him was covered. I got him a trolley to put it all in, but I knew he wasn’t finished yet. While Zayn was still picking colours I went over to the paint colour wall. I started picking colours that I liked until I ended up with a hand full. I put them in my pocket, “done,” Zayn smiled. I noticed that the troll was half full of different coloured spray paint. I smiled at him, “please tell me this is for art and you’re not going to tag a wall or something?” I wondered. Zayn looked at all the spray paint, “not going to lie most of it for art and some of it is to cover up a tag near my house,” he admitted. I shake my head as we went to go line up, “I noticed you looking at the colours. So do you have an idea for your major yet?” he asked. I shake my head no, “you’ll think of something,” he reassured me again.

After he paid and put them all in boxes we were putting them in his car, “can I ask why Niall not happy with you and Perrie?” he wondered. I handed him a box, “he likes May,” I replied. Zayn looked shocked, “and she got a boyfriend,” I added. Zayn put the last box in his car, “that got to suck big time for him. When Niall falls he falls hard and it don’t happen all the time,” Zayn tells me.

“Well I didn’t know that May would become my friend. I walked into dance and Perrie was talking to her. My goal was Sophia,” I tell Zayn. We got into his car, “well maybe Niall should have told May how he felt instead of fucking her,” Zayn says.

We drove back to school to see Perrie, Louis and Liam waiting for us, “hi,” I smiled. I went straight to Louis and hugged him. He hugged me back as he kissed the top of my head, “where did you and Zayn go?” he asked. I smiled at him, “to go get some spray paint,” I replied. Louis smiled, “where did you go?” I asked him. Louis kissed me, “helping Perrie brother,” he tells me. Zayn handed me my bag and Louis grabbed it.

We sat down at the wall, “you know you still got twenty minutes left,” Liam tells me. I shrugged my shoulders, “it not like I was doing anything,” I tell him. Harry joined us, “what are you doing out of class Flower? You know my rules,” Harry questioned. I pointed to Zayn, “went with him to get art supplies,” I tell him. Harry smiled at me, “so you didn’t skip,” he says. I lean my head into Louis shoulder. Louis wrapped an arm around me, “is everything alright babe?” he asked me. I nodded my head, “just thinking about what to do in art,” I tell him. Louis kissed the top of my head as him and the others started talking about something. I was still thinking about what to do in art. It was the first time I didn’t have anything and it was bugging me. Louis started to rub my back, “Lil back to earth,” Liam says. I looked at him, “are you and Lou going to tell Sophia and May about your fake relationship?” he asked. I looked at Louis, “not yet. Remember Sophia was friends with Amy. I know she didn’t want to be and she stopped Amy from hitting me. I just want to wait a couple of weeks until I tell her. With May I don’t know,” I tell him. Liam nodded, “I understand,” he says. I stand up, “I’m going for a walk,” I tell them. I stopped Louis from getting up, “I need to be alone right now,” I tell him. I kissed him before I left.

I started walking around the school trying to work out what to do for art. I still had nothing as the bell rang. I saw Niall come out of one of the classrooms, “hey,” I say. He hugged me, “sorry about before,” he apologized. I hugged him back, “it alright. I understand,” I smiled. Niall laughed a little bit, “what were you doing all by yourself?” he wondered. I looked down, “just needed to go for a walk,” I replied. I looked at him, “do you wanna continue that walk with me?” he asked. I nodded since I don’t think I spent that much time with Niall.

We walked to another part of the school that I haven’t been too. It was between the gym and a building, “is everything alright? You haven’t been the same since the weekend,” Niall questioned. I noticed some spray paint on the wall, “yeah,” I replied. The spray paint was a football player kicking a ball, “Zayn did this,” Niall tells me. I smiled, “I think he got another plan,” I tell him. I felt my phone vibrate, so I got it out. I had a message from Louis:

Louis Tomlinson
Where are you? Are you alright? Xo

I sighed as I put my phone back in my pocket, “Lou?” Niall wondered. I nodded, “why does he think something wrong when I want to be by myself?” I questioned.

“Because I know that he knows you been low,” Niall says. I looked at him in shock, “Lil I worked it out. What you went through is something you might never forget. I see no scars anywhere, so I’m guessing you overdosed like me,” Niall admitted. I looked him up and down, “why?” I asked. He looks down, “when I lived in Ireland. I grew up in a warzone and I got caught up in it. I’ve seen things that I wish no one would ever see. I’ll still see it,” he confessed. I can see why Harry told me to never ask Niall about Ireland, “we all deal with trauma differently, but now what happen to you is effecting you and Louis. You might not know it, but it is,” Niall tells me. I looked down, “I hope you’re wrong,” I tell him. Niall hugged me, “so do I, but you know you can talk to me? I know I can be dirty bastard sometimes,” he started. I looked at him, “ok most of the time, but you can talk to me,” he continued. I nodded, “you can talk to all of us. I know you talk to Zayn when you’re in art,” he finished. I smiled, “thank you Ni,” I say.

We got to the lunch area to see everyone sitting down eating. I sat down next to Louis, “did you have fun on your walk?” Louis asked me. I nodded as I kissed him, “I’m sorry I didn’t message you back. I was talking with Ni,” I tell him. Louis looked at Niall, “what did you talk about?” Louis wondered. I looked at Niall, “just something that I went through and something Lil went through,” Niall replied. I think Louis got what Niall was talking about, “ok then,” Louis says. He pulled me closer to him, “and thank you Ni,” he added.

We finished eating lunch as the bell rang. We all went straight to the changing rooms to put on our P.E clothes, “so Sophia,” I say. She looked at me, “call me Soph and what do you want?” she asked. I smiled at her, “you and Liam are getting along,” I pointed out. I saw Sophia blush, “yeah so,” she says. I raised my eyebrows at her, “do you like him? Because I heard that it took you half an hour to walk ten minutes,” I questioned. Sophia looked around, “you know I won’t tell him. I keep to the girl code that Perrie taught me,” I reassured her. Perrie came over and stood next to me, “what about me and the girl code?” she wondered.

“I was asking Soph if she likes Liam and that it never leaves this room,” I tell her. Perrie looked at Sophia, “so do you like him?” she asked. Sophia started to play with her fingers, “I do, but I don’t know if he feels the same. I want what you guys have with Louis and Zayn,” she admitted. Perrie and I both smiled, “put it this way. Liam got his full attention on you,” I tell her.

We met the boys at the football pitch, “now Mr McKain said if we finished all the test. We can play a game of football,” Harry tells us. I got out my notebook and pen out before putting my bag down. I noticed Liam walking over to Sophia, “babe remember your my partner,” I heard Louis say. I looked at him, “and remember you got to behave,” I reminded him. Louis smiled at me, “I know,” he says.

We started the task and Sophia was Liam partner. I was doing my test on balance with the stork stand, “babe you been doing that for a minute now. You don’t have to show off,” Louis tells me. I smiled as I put my foot down on the ground. I take the timer and my notebook off of him, “your turn,” I smiled. Louis tried to do it, but failed, “let me help,” I tell him. I put my notebook down before helping Louis. I put my hands on his waist before moving them to his bottom, “babe what happened to behaving?” he asked. I smirked at him, “I told you to behave. I said nothing about me,” I pointed out. Louis shakes his head as he pulled me closer to him. He kissed me, “but if you’re not going to behave. Then I’m not,” he tells me. He kissed me again, “Louis and Lilly get back to work!” Mr McKain shouted. Louis gave him the thumbs up, “that the second time this week we been told that,” I say as I moved away from Louis.

“Are you still going to help me babe?” he pouted. I put my hands on his waist as he got back on one foot. I held him until he got his balance before I started the timer. He only last about fifteen seconds, “how do you do it?” he pouted. I wrote his time down, “practise,” I smiled. Louis wrapped his arms around me, “that right you’re a nerd,” he teased.

We all finished the test with half an hour left of the lesson, “ok. I want two teams which I’m going to pick. I’m also going to pick the captains and the vice-captains,” Mr McKain tells us. On my team was Liam, Niall, Sophia, three other girls and four other boys. Mr McKain picked me as captain and Sophia as vice-captain. Louis got captain of his team as Zayn got vice-captain. I managed to get my team into places quick after we lost the coin toss.

The first half was one all and that was thanks to Niall, “ok. We got great defence. We just need to attack more. We need to get the ball without giving away free kicks. Use whatever talent you have on the field or even try something new. We work as a team and we can win this,” I tell my team. They all smiled and nodded at me as I looked at Sophia, “all I got to say it lets kick there arses and win this shit,” she says.

When we were back on the field Sophia and I were in the middle with the ball, “you know you should go for captain tomorrow,” she tells me. I shake my head, “I like to take orders,” I smiled. Mr McKain blew his whistle and Sophia passed the ball to me. I kicked it straight to Niall and he runs down the field with it. Louis blocks him so one of the girls on my team gets the ball off of him. I told my team to move up near the goals and they listened. I had Brian try to stop me as Sophia got the ball, “shoot!” I yelled. Sophia shot for goal and it goes straight in.

The rest of the game was scoreless, so we won. Sophia comes up and hugged me. Then the rest of the team does, “you know no one has ever beat Louis team,” I heard someone say. I looked at Louis and he was smiling, “don’t take this wrong, but I thought you didn’t know what you were doing,” one of the boys tell me. I shake my head, “so Lou how does it feel to lose against your girlfriend?” Niall teased. Louis puts his thumbs up as I ran over to him and hugged him, “Lil you don’t need that loser. You have us winners,” Liam says. I shake my head, “I want you,” I tell Louis. I kissed him, “how did you win tho?” Louis wondered as he wrapped his arms around me. I looked at my team, “I told them to work together and use what they got,” I replied. Louis smiled, “and that worked?” he questioned. I nodded, “well we did just beat you,” I smiled. Louis laughed a little bit, “shower and then you can go,” Mr McKain tells us.

After I had my shower and got dressed I met Louis in the hallway, “so you got creative writing now? And do you want me to come over tonight?” he asked. I shake my head no, “I’ll be fine tonight,” I tell him. Louis smiled, “you sure tho?” he questioned. I nodded, “I won’t be back until late and I just do some school work tonight,” I tell him. Louis kissed me, “and if I remember you go to the gym tonight with the boys,” I added. Louis nodded, “but I can always come after,” he suggested.

“Lou I’m going to be fine,” I reassured him. Louis looked down, “are we spending too much time together?” he asked. I sighed as he looked at me, “I think we are,” I admitted. Louis kissed my forehead, “I do too, but I just want you to be safe,” he confessed. I kissed him, “if you change your mind call me or message me. I’ll be straight there,” he tells me. I smiled, “you know you could do the same to me,” I tell him. Louis grabbed my hips, “um did Niall tell you about Ireland?” Louis wondered. I nodded my head, “he also told me about him trying to,” I started.

“Kill himself,” Louis interrupted. I nodded, “you know we all thought about it at one point. Only you and Niall have tried,” Louis admitted. I looked down, “Louis are you worried after today and the weekend that I might think about it again?” I questioned. I looked at him as he bit his lip, “I am,” he tells me. He pulled me to him and I wrapped my arms around him, “I’m really fine. The only thing that got me down today is art, because it the first time I don’t have an idea,” I tell him. Louis kissed the top of my head, “I know you’ll think of something,” he reassured me.

Louis walked me to creative writing and left. I walked in to the class to see Sophia, “hey again,” I smiled as I sat down next to her. She smiled back, “is there anything you don’t do?” she asked. I laughed a little bit, “a lot of main lessons,” I tell her. She laughed, “and I’m only doing dance for Perrie,” I added. She smiled at me, “well if you didn’t join dance I wouldn’t be her talking to you. I would be still stuck with that bitch Amy,” Sophia smiled. I smiled back, “now class,” a women in her thirties started. She had blonde hair and blue eyes, “my name is Olivia Baker. I’m the creative writing teacher. In this extra lesson we going to write stories, poems, songs and other stuff,” she continued. We all turned around when the classroom door opened. Niall walked in, “Mr Horan what can I do for you?” Mrs Baker asked. Niall smiled as he sat down next to me, “I’m here for the class,” he tells her. Mrs Baker looked confused, “really? You’re not here to chat up the girls?” she questioned. Niall shakes his head, “these two are taken by my mates. I’m here for the class,” he smiled. Sophia and I looked at each other as Mrs Baker went back to explain the class.

Our first task was to write a short story on our lives. I looked down and realized that I’m going to have to lie. When she was done talking Sophia and I looked at Niall. He smiled at us, “yes I’m really here to do the lesson. Yes it my first year. I just like to write about stuff,” he admitted. I smiled at him, “Niall. I’m not Liam’s,” Sophia tells him. I looked at her, “who said I was talking about Liam? I could have been talking about Harry. Don’t you have home ec and law together? He is also your partner in home ec,” Niall pointed out. Sophia blushed, “looks like I’m going to have to break Harry’s heart,” Niall joked. I laughed a little bit, “did you tell him?” Sophia asked me. I shake my head, “Niall works things out himself. Trust me. He knew about Louis and I before anyone,” I tell her. Niall smiled, “I’m good at reading people,” he says. Sophia looked at him, “um,” she started.

“Liam likes you too,” Niall interrupted. Sophia blushed a deeper red, “so what you going to do about it?” I asked her. She shrugged her shoulders, “I can’t make the first move,” she admitted. I smiled at her, “how did you do it Lil?” she asked. I rubbed the back of my neck, “Louis asked me,” I tell her. I looked at Niall, “if you want I can talk to Liam for ya. I won’t tell him that you know,” Niall suggested. Sophia smiled at him, “really? That means so much to me,” Sophia beamed.

We all started our short stories about our lives until it was time to go home, “would you two lovely ladies like a lift home?” Niall asked us. Sophia shakes her head no, “my mum picking me up, but thanks,” she smiled. Niall looked at me and I nodded yes. I got into to Niall’s car with him, “I know it nothing like Louis, but I’m also a category three like you. It just my category one stands out more,” Niall admitted. I smiled at him, “so some people at our school have more than one category?” I questioned. He nodded, “some have all three,” he tells me.

Niall drove to my place, “have fun at the gym and see you tomorrow,” I say. Niall smiled, “see you tomorrow,” he says. I walked into my house to find my mother wasn’t home. So I went straight into my room and sat at my desk. I got my new sketchbook out and just looked at it for a while. I threw it on my bed in frustration as I yelled. I leaned back on my chair as my phone went off. I grabbed it and it was a message from Louis:

Louis Tomlinson
How was creative writing? Xo

I smiled a little as I messaged him back:

Good. Niall and Sophia are in my class. How the gym? Xo

I put my phone down as I looked at my sketchbook, “I hate you,” I mumbled. My phone went off, so I picked it up again:

Louis Tomlinson
Really Niall in your class? I just got here xo

I laughed a little bit:

Yes Niall is really in my class. He said that he likes to write stuff xo

Louis Tomlinson
I know he likes to write songs so maybe he thinks the class could help him. I’m so going to poke fun at him for it xo

I shake my head:

Don’t you dare. I think he didn’t do it last year or the years before that, because he was afraid of what you boys would say

Louis Tomlinson
Someone protecting Niall and what happened to my xo? Are you made at me, because I teased Niall?

I shake my head again as I put my phone down. I got up and walked over to my bookcase and got one of my old sketchbooks out. I sat back down at my desk as I started to go through it. I looked at my phone and wondered what I could say to Louis. I was kind of mad at him for picking on Niall about doing creative writing. I picked up my phone:

Yes

I went back looking through my old sketchbook and found an old drawing of a girl as a warrior. She kind of look like Perrie with her blonde hair and blue eyes. Then it got me thinking about Perrie and how brave she is. I grabbed out a notebook and started writing about the picture in my sketchbook and how it reminded me of Perrie. My phone went off as I finished writing. I grabbed it and it was a picture message from Louis. The picture was of him shirtless in the mirror at the gym:

Louis Tomlinson
Still mad at me? ;) Xo

I shake my head as I thought about how to get him back. I stood up as I took my top off with my bra. I covered my chest with my arm as I took a photo. I screwed my face up as I looked at it since I hated pictures of me. I sent it to Louis:

;)

I put my top back on as I sat back down. I looked over my notes I just did as I waited for Louis to reply to my picture. Then I got an idea of what to do for art, so I grabbed my new sketchbook. I started writing in it as I got a message back:

Louis Tomlinson
Babe don’t ever do that to me in public. I got a boner in front of the boys and Niall saw the picture xo

My face went read as I got another message:

Louis Tomlinson
P.S it my new phone wallpaper ;)

I hid my face into my hands and started to wonder why I did it. I never done anything like that in my life:

Maybe I should just send it to Ni ;)

Louis Tomlinson
Don’t you dare babe or I will come over there and smack your arse. But before I do I will have to beat the shit out of Niall. Your choice babe

I knew Louis was serious about it:

Clam down Lou. That picture is just for you xoxo

Louis Tomlinson
Better be and I see I get xo again. Makes me think you got a thing for Niall since you keep protecting him xo

I might have pushed Louis than:

No. I only have a thing for you and I’m sorry for pushing you than xoxoxo

Louis Tomlinson
You didn’t push me. I knew that you were playing with me and it turned me on ;) xo

I blushed and I was glad Louis couldn’t see me:

Louis Tomlinson
And I beat I made you blush than xo

I looked around my room to see if he was here watching me:

Do you have a camera in my room? And aren’t you meant to be working out? Xo

Louis Tomlinson
Kinky babe. Already thinking about making sex tapes ;) and I’m running on the treadmill as I messaging you xo

I am really starting to think Louis has sex on his mind all the time:

OMG you can multitask xo

Louis Tomlinson
I can do a lot of things at once ;) xo

Yep I was right. He does have sex on his mind all the time. I sighed as I put my phone down since I started to think I was no good for him again. I tried to stop thinking about it, but maybe my mother is right about he’ll get bored with me. I put my head on my desk as my phone started ringing. I looked at the caller id to see it was Louis, “hello,” I say. I could tell Louis was still running on the treadmill, “hey. I thought it be easy to call you since I nearly tripped over,” he tells me. I smiled a little, “so you really can’t multitask than,” I teased. I heard Louis laugh a little bit, “you sure about that babe?” he tells me. I knew he was talking about sex again and for some reason I hung up on him. He called me straight back, “babe why did you hang up on me?” he questioned.

“I didn’t” I lied. Maybe I should just talk to him what going through my head right now, “you’re lying to me. Babe what wrong? Am I talking about sex to much again?” he wondered. I sighed, “it ok. I started it,” I tell him. I looked around my room, “I started it babe and don’t say that you started it in P.E. You were just having fun than. I know I talk about sex a lot and I know I shouldn’t,” he started.

“Can you come over?” I interrupted. I can’t believe I just asked him that after I said that I didn’t want him to come around tonight. I heard Louis drop his phone and then a thud. He picked his phone back up, “you alright Lou?” I asked. I could hear Louis catching his breath, “yeah. Just fell off the treadmill and are you sure babe?” he questioned. I looked down, “yeah I am. I know I told you I’ll be fine, but for some reason I need you. I don’t know why, but I do,” I confessed. I could hear Louis doing something, “you can come after. I don’t want to ruin your boy’s time at the gym. I’ll be alright for a while. I got an idea for art to get started,” I tell him. I heard Louis sighed, “you sure babe? I can come now,” he questioned.

“I’ll be fine. My mother not home so I can put some music on,” I replied. Louis sighed again, “ok. I’ll be there in an hour,” he promised. I could hear Niall and Liam in the background saying something, “thank you. See you soon,” I say. I could tell Louis was trying to shut up the boys, “see you soon babe,” he says. I hung up my phone and played my music as I started on my art major.

About forty five minutes later my phone went off:

Louis Tomlinson
Open the door for me xo

I put my phone down and ran to the front door. I opened it and Louis hugged me straight away, “is everything alright babe?” he wondered. He started to kiss me all over my forehead as I hugged him back tight. I shrugged my shoulders, “I’m just really confused at the moment,” I admitted. I looked at him, “get your stuff. You’re going to mine tonight,” he tells me. He kissed me softly before letting me go. He shuts the front door as I went into my room. I grabbed my school bag and put my English stuff in it and made sure my history stuff was in there too. Louis grabbed my purse and phone charger for me, “I got some of your clothes already,” Louis tells me. He grabbed my school bag for me, “come on lets go,” he smiled.

When we got to Louis I couldn’t help but feel strange, “babe you alright?” Louis questioned. I gave him a small nod as I got out of the car. We went inside and straight up to his room, “sit,” Louis tells me. I sit down on his lounge and he sits next to me. I take off my shoes before I crossed my legs. Louis puts his hand on my knee, “I’m sorry,” I apologized. Louis pulled me to him so I sat between his legs. He didn’t say anything as he drew circles on my thighs. I rested my head on his shoulder, “don’t be sorry just tell me what wrong,” he tells me. I closed my eyes, “is it me and all my sex talk?” he wondered. I looked at him, “kinda. It got me thinking about what my mother said,” I started.

“I told you not care what your mother says to you. She wrong about everything about you,” Louis interrupted. I could tell he was mad, “it was more about us and how you’ll get bored of me if I don’t put out,” I tell him. Louis groaned, “I told you that I wouldn’t. Why are you listening to her now? After all I said to you,” he questioned. I shrugged my shoulders, “I don’t know. I all I know that she in my head now,” I admitted. Louis was thinking, “Lilly do you know that you had a nightmare last night?” he wondered. I shake my head, “I woke you up, but you went straight back to sleep. You were screaming stop it Matt. Is Matt the guy that attacked you?” Louis asked. I nodded as I felt tears in my eyes. I hid my face into the crook of his neck as he hugged me tight. I think Niall right about how what happened to me is effecting Louis and me. Louis kissed the top of my head, “hey it alright. Everything going to be alright,” he cooed. I let my tears fall, “maybe that why you’ve been having a bad day,” he says. I looked at him, “Niall said what happened to me could be effecting us without us knowing. I told him he was wrong, but now I think he might be right. I think after telling everyone on the weekend has made the memory come back. Even when I thought I pushed it away,” I admitted. Louis kissed my forehead as wiped my tears away, “we will get through this,” he promised.

We just stayed there for a while not saying anything, “Louis,” I started. Louis looked at me, “I don’t want to stop what we are doing with the touching. I like it,” I admitted. Louis bit his lip, “maybe we should try not do it every day,” he suggested. I nodded, “and I try to ease up on the sex talk,” he added. I smiled a little, “can you do that?” I teased. He laughed a little bit, “I can try for you,” he smiled. I kissed him, “I think shower and bed,” he tells me.

We had a shower together and Louis held me the whole time we were in there. It was nice as we just stood there as the water was coming down on us. We didn’t even say a word to each other. We just kept placing small kisses on each other once in a while.

When we got out Louis made me wear his singlet and pair of his boxers. The singlet was bagging, but it covered me. I sat on his bed as he was still walking around in his towel, “can I ask why you’re not dress yet?” I wondered. He bit his lip, “um I like to be naked after I go to the gym,” he tell me. I smiled at him, “just drop the towel Lou. I’m alright with you being naked,” I tell him. Louis smiled as he walked over to me and sat down next to me. He looked me, “don’t worry I won’t touch you,” I smiled. Louis moves in closer to my face, but then pulled back, “get into bed babe,” he tells me. I looked at him confused, “why it only eight thirty?” I wondered.

“Because I said shower and bed,” he reminded me. Louis gets up and got into bed leaning against his headboard. He took his towel off under the blanket and threw it on the floor. He turns on his bedside lamp, so I got up and turned his bedroom light off. I walked over to him and straddled his lap, “I’m sorry for being needed and crazy,” I apologized. Louis wrapped his arms around me, “don’t be babe. I knew something was wrong today and that why I suggested that I stay over. But when you told me that you’ll be fine. I wanted to believe you and I didn’t want to push you. I was still going to come over after gym anyway,” he tells me. I kissed him, “Lou why do we care so much about each other? We just started week two of knowing each other, but we act like we know each other for a long time,” I wondered. Louis looked down, “I think it because we are both broken people Lilly. I think we get each other better than normal people do. I think we understand each other and know what the other person is going through. I think if I didn’t know about your mother or what happened to you. I don’t think you’ll be sitting right here in front of me. I think you’ll be sitting at home in a world of hurt and the scares me. That you’ll be all alone with no one there to even hug you and tell you it alright. I’m scared of all the bad thoughts that go through your head and mine,” Louis confessed. I kissed his forehead, “I lied to you Lilly about you and Niall were the only ones to try. I tried this summer,” he started. Louis showed me his wrist and I looked closely at it. I could see a scare under a tattoo, “I was just done Lilly. I had enough of everything life gave me. That why I just passed last year. I gave up,” he admitted. I kissed his wrist, “do the others know?” I questioned.

“Just Harry. He the one that found me. That why I think he just wants us to be happy. I think he knows that you don't live the happy life at home. Harry not that stupid,” Louis tells me. I looked down, “I know, but why doesn’t he say anything then?” I wondered. Louis put his hands on my thighs, “maybe because he don’t want to believe it or he don’t really know how bad it is. But he knows something wrong,” Louis tells me. I gave him a small nod as he pulled me close to him, “since we are being serious. Can we talk about me taking your virginity?” Louis wondered. I know he wanted to change the subject. I moved back to look at him, “I thought we not going to talk about sex,” I pointed out.

“I know, but I’ve been thinking about it today. I know you’re scared about it. It just I want to know when and what you want?” he asked. I shrugged my shoulders, “I haven’t thought about it and you said we are a long way off from that. So why are we talking about it now?” I questioned. Louis looked down, “well when I found out that you’re scared. It got me thinking about the weekend when I tried to end us again. When you were telling me about that you keep your promises. Lilly you were going to rape me,” Louis started. He stopped and realized what he said, “um sorry about that word,” he apologized. I gave him a small smile, “it ok,” I say. Louis grabbed my hands, “um back to what I was saying. I was just wondering how can you go from that to last night?” he asked. I squeezed his hands, “I think on the weekend I was so scared of losing you. That I would just like one more thing from you before you left me,” I admitted. Louis smiled a little, “you know I think your right we do care so much about each other and I like it. I like this thing what got going on between us,” Louis confessed. I smiled a little as I kissed him, “Lou if I told you I want you to take my virginity tonight or even this weekend. Would you do it?” I asked him. He shakes his head no, “than when do you think we will be ready?” I questioned. Louis bit his lip as he was thinking, “I can’t answer that. Only you can,” he tells me. I looked down, “what if I told you that I am?” I wondered. Louis pulled my face up to look at him, “I know you’re not babe,” he says.

“How do you know?” I questioned. Louis looked a bit shocked, “maybe I just want it over and done with so I can stop thinking about it,” I tell him. Louis shakes his head, “then go for it, but I’m just going to sit here and do nothing,” he tells me. I grabbed the hem of my singlet and started pulling it up slowly. To my surprise Louis didn’t stop me as I got it over my head. I threw it on the floor as Louis went into his bedside table to get something. He pulled out a condom, “you’re going to need this,” he says as he held it up. I take it off of him and looked at it, “babe I know you don’t want to do this,” he tells me as he takes the condom back. He puts it back in his draw before pulling me close to him, “you’re still upset about everything and this won’t make me want you more. I want you because you are you,” he reassured me. He kissed the top of my head a couple of times, “I only brought your virginity up, because I wanted you to really think about it. What if I told you I wanted to take it in my car or at school. Would you let me?” he asked. I shake my head no, “see I need to know these things,” he says. I looked at him, “it ok. I would never take it like that. It just I really do want you to think about it tho. Like do you want me on top or do you want to be on top? Do you want standing or doggy?” Louis questioned.

“Louis stop please. I don’t even know what you’re really talking about,” I tell him. Louis looked down, “do you want me to explain it to you or just leave it for now?” he wondered. I kind of did want to know what he was talking about, but I was scared that he might take it too far. I gave him a small nod, “just don’t go too far please,” I replied. Louis kissed me lightly, “well you know when we dry humped and you on your back as I grinded against you? Well that me on top. Also Sunday night when you on top of me. That you on top. Standing can be you against a wall or me behind you. Doggy is me behind you and you’re on all fours,” Louis explained to me. I nodded feeling embarrassed that he had to tell me sex positions, “they are a lot more tho, but there the basics,” he added. I nodded again, “I want you to be on top,” I tell him. Louis gave me a small nod, “and I want to be in a bed in a room where no one can interrupts us,” I added. Louis smiled a little, “anything else. Like do you want to go to dinner before or be somewhere far away from everyone where it just us two?” he asked. I smiled a little, “why do you want to make it special?” I questioned.

“Because it is. I want to make it something that you’ll never forget,” he admitted. I lean my head onto his shoulder, “I told you what I want. The rest can be up to you,” I tell him. I felt Louis smile, “ok than. You know we have another level before we get to that?” he wondered. I nodded my head, “because what we do now and next. Will all be used that night,” Louis says. I smiled a little, “I thought it was about me?” I joked. Louis laughed a little, “I didn’t say anything about me. I’m going to make sure it all about you,” he tells me. I smiled bigger as Louis ran his hand up and down my bare back. I kissed his shoulder, “I might be pushing it with the sex talk right now, but when do you think we get to the next level?” I wondered. I looked at him, “I think a little while,” he tells me. I give him a small nod, “so I have time to work out how to give a head job,” I say. Louis laughed a little bit and I hit him lightly, “I’m sorry. I just thought it was cute that you want to learn before we get there. You know I might like other things than what you learn. So you might still learn a thing or two from me,” he smirked. I shake my head, “like I have to learn what you like. Everyone different babe,” he added. Louis moved me to next to him, “I’ll be back,” he tells me before kissing me. He walked into his bathroom.

When he came back he picked his singlet up off the floor and threw it at me. I shake my head as I threw it back to him. Louis nodded as he threw it back to me. I threw it back before I crossed my arms. Louis comes over to me and leans over the bed, “sex, sex, sex,” he kept repeating. I pushed him, “stop it,” I giggled. Louis smiled, “then put the singlet on,” he tells me. I shake my head, “why? When you’re completely naked,” I pointed out. Louis looked down at himself, “fine I’ll go put some pants on then,” he tells me. I grabbed him, “why are you making me put the singlet on?” I wondered. Louis bit his lip, “because all the sex talk and you half naked is turning me on. When I said that we should ease up on the playing,” he admitted. I grabbed the singlet and put it on, “better?” I smiled. Louis kissed me, “thank you,” he says. I pulled him closer so he would get on the bed properly. He laid down on his front next to me, “what going through your mind babe?” he asked me. I moved down as Louis pulled me to lay in front of him. I put my head on his arm as he wrapped his other arm around my hips. I kissed him, “that I need to work things out with myself,” I admitted. Louis kissed me, “and I’ll help you,” he tells me. Louis moved so he could cover himself and my legs with the blanket.

We talked about random stuff until Louis fell asleep on my stomach. I ran my fingers threw his hair as he snored lightly. Louis gripped me tighter as I moved a little bit. I smiled a little at how peaceful he looked. I know Louis hasn’t been sleeping properly lately and I think it my fault. But I do think he’s happy right now, because we really talked about things. I felt bad that Louis is putting up with my problems all the time. When he got his own to deal with, but when it just us two here in his bed the world seems to disappear. I really don’t think I could go to sleep without him anymore. Which is going to be a problem since he does have a life without me.

Notes

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