Self Control
A new date ?
[ Hey guys . I am so so so sorry for any mistakes during this chapter because i have been writing like crazy . Seriously i got faster than even in my life :P . And i had Puppy-Lowe telling me for all these days to update but i haven't because i had the flu and now she got the flu so... we're all sick :P ]
No one's P.O.V
The white room held no emotion's at all . Not joy ....just sadness . The only thing that you could hear were Angie's sobs that filled the room where only she and Sabrina were . Angie never like hospitals ...i mean who does ? Every time she would step in a hospital it would remind her the last days with her mother . The way they talked together , the way she whispered to her " Don't worry mommy is gonna be fine" . She truly wanted to believe that but she j-just couldn't .
The disease had progressed until it completely took her mother away from her . Angie looked up to see if Sabrina had woken up but ...no . She just stayed there ....like she was sleeping . Like a sleeping-beauty . Her face was pale and a few hairs were sticking out in every direction of her face . Angie held her hand closely in hope that soon enough she would open up her eyes . That's the only thing she would do .... take her hand , cry and hope for the best . She placed her head in the bed and started to cry .
"Angie you need some rest " She felt a hand being placed in her shoulder . She looked up to meet Niall's eyes . Although the idea of the warm bed in her own room was tempting ...she couldn't leave Sabrina . Angie looked from Niall to Sabrina .
"I- i just can't leave her alone "
"Please go and take some rest , you have been here for 3 day and you haven't had sleep at all " Niall recurred her rubbing her back lightly .
"Promise you will take care of her " Angie said getting up and wiping some tears that still managed to go from her eyes . He nodded carefully before he turned his attention to Sabrina . He took the place in the chair Angie was sat before . His fingers removed some stray of her hair and placed them behind her ear . To him even in sleep she was the most beautiful girl in the world .
Angie's P.O.V
I closed the door and i immediately let my tears falling . I sat on the floor and brought my knees to my chest . Some random people passing by looked at me with pity and to be honest i feel like that . Why...why me god ? You took everything i wanted . My mom , my real dad ...not Sabrina too! You can't hate me that much , can you ? I closed my eyes and lowered my head so no one could see me crying .
Since young i have faced with the world by myself and ..gosh , i'm tired . I can't do this ! I can't have all the people next to me ...dying and suffering for me !
"God Angie you OK ? " I looked up to meet Harry's eyes . I immediately stood up and turned around to wipe my tears . I don't know why i am doing this ! I heard his footsteps coming closer and a hand being placed on my shoulder .
"You don't have to be strong for everyone , let me see you " He said and turned me around . All i could think about was my family and my loved ones that died during this years . His hand came to wipe my tears .
"You know Sabrina will be fine " I know he said that to comfort me but i only cried more . The next thing i know i am in his arms , hugging him like he is my only way to save . He kept whispering in my ear " Shh " or " It will be OK " And i hope ...i hope from the bottom of my heart that it's true what he said . That Sabrina will be next to me again and i would be able to laugh and cry with her in my next days of living .
"Come on let's take you home " Harry said and grabbed my hands to lead me out of the hospital .
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Luke's P.O.V
" I think you have fallen for this girl " Michael said as he cleaned his gun . I sighed before i turned around to meet his gaze .
"And what makes you think that "
" You keep mentioning that girl Angie ... i know she is hot but come on , you know Harry likes her and now i think you are starting to like her more...." He continued .
Is it true though ? Do i like her . Maybe i do , or i don't . I just know i have to get close to her ...and i know exactly how . I just smirked at myself of the idea . I picked my coat and made it to the front door .
"Where are you going "
"That's none of you'r business " i said through gritted teeth . The car made it's noise as i got in and made my way...somewhere .
Maybe Michael is true . Maybe i'm falling for her . She reminds me of ......her . I find myself stooping only to look where i am . The house is dark except of one window . Angie's....house . Man i look like a stalker but she ...she has this effect on me that no one has ever done .
Angie's P.O.V
I stared at my own reflection in the mirror . I look like bloody-Mary ..even worse . I removed the towel from my hair and let them fall over one shoulder . While i was seeing myself in the mirror i looked the curtains behind me that were open . Odd i never leave them open . I made my way to close them and then something caught my eye . A black vehicle was standing outside facing my house .
I have never seen it before so i continued looking at it . Just like that its engine started and the car started to move in the other direction . I decide to leave that like it is .
-------------5 Days later----------
"Here grab my hand " i said screeching my arm out for her . She just looked at it and looked away in a childish way . I watched going out of the car still holding to it .
"Sabrina stop being a baby and hold my shoulder "
"Oh thank you for your offer but im afraid i'm gonna have to say no "
"Fine suit yourself you stubborn " i said going at the truck to take her belongings . I watched her looking at the house weirdly before she started walking . Ehh that girl will kill me . I said as i started to walk behind her . Just as we were about to enter the house she started to stumble but i grabbed her arm .
"So how about that offer ? " i said grinning at her . I watched as she connected out arms for support .
Sabrina's P.O.V
Ahhh home sweet home! I Sabrina Irwin promise myself that i will NEVER be a feisty girl in front of a gang . End of it ! Ow my back hurts ! . I watched as Angie placed the bags on the floor and making her way to the kitchen . I just took a long trip around the house .
Hey is that new ? No Sabrina calm down . Now that is new ! I moved to the table holding a bouquet of red roses on . I admired the roses .
"Hey Ang who are these roses for ? " i screamed so she could hear me . I watched her frame in the view . She held a confused face on .
"Maybe they are for you from any member of your family ? " she asked . I shaked my head telling her 'no' . I got closer to the beautiful flowers as i saw a card to them . I turned it and it read Angie .
I smirked as i showed the card to her still holding it on my hands . Her eyes widened as she tried to grab the paper from me . I tried to remove it but she took it from me . Aww man i wanted to read that !
Angie's P.O.V
"Just give it to me " i said grabbing the paper from her hands . I watched her face form a pouts face to which i laughed . I opened the card and i started reading it .
" Even when you are not here i always dream of you . May i have the honor of meeting you today at the park at the 8:00 pm ? " - Luke -
Luke ...............Luke .............Who the hell is Luke!?
"Who's Luke " Sabrina asked me . Oi did i read that out loud !? Now i just have to think who is Luke . It reminds me of someone but i just cant figure out who . Luke ....Wait that Luke ? How the hell does he know where i live !? I need to have a talk with that guy . I barely even know him and he sends me ...well this . I turn around to see Sabrina . To my surprise she had a glare towards me .
"What ?" i asked her .
"You are cheating on Niall !? " she yelled that part . Ph yeah c'mon Angie invent another lie because to her you and Niall are "dating" .
"Listen i don't even know this guy I've only meet him once but i'm going to meet with him to tell him to stop " i looked at her . It's true though i will meet with him . I watched Sabrina sighting as she relaxed . I went to her to give her a hug which she gladly accepted .
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Why now ! Who are all these people ! Harry and Niall had *punch* to *punch* come *punch* and *punch* ruin * punch* my *punch* life!* punch *
"Whoa hold on tiger " i stooped hitting the punch bag i had in front of me to to look at Harry smirking at me . I just glared at him before i went to hit the bag again ..only more harder . Harry looked at me confused as he came behind the punching bag holding it while i started to punch it faster .
"Are you OK ? " he asked removing the bag from me . Just when he released it i p[punched it harder that it almost flew . I turned around to face him .
"I hate my life ! " i yelled at him . He looked taken back from my reaction .
"Just *punch* leave * punch* me *punch* alone *punch* "
"Hey calm down " he said coming behind me to stop my actions .
"Harry stop acting like you care ! Seriously what are you doing here ! " i said punching him a little in his chest .
"Seriously Ang you need to calm down "
" I was fine before you and your friends came to my life ! " i yelled going to punch him again but he quickly dodged it . I tried to hit his chest again but he came behind me grabbing my hands and placing them behind my back . I started to kick my legs onto the air .
"Shh just relax " he whispered in my ear . With that i felt myself relaxing more as i cached my breath .
"Better ? " he said releasing my arms but just as he left i shoved him . Harry just chuckled at my reaction .
I started to hit the bag once more . It hurt like crazy especially since i wasn't wearing my boxing gloves . My life is like a window crack . Just when i think of how much it has changed since i meet Harry .
Why had he to come in my life !? In my heart ?
"You are feisty but you will get hurt if you continue like that " i heard Harry saying behind me . I just ignored him as i started to hit more . That was until i heard a cracking noise . I stooped punching as i released a screaming . I looked at my hand to see that it was all red .
"Here let me see " Harry's hands came to grab mine but i avoided .
"It's fine just a little scratch " i said avoiding eye contact with him . It's not fair . One minute mine's and Sabrina's life are easy and we are having fun and the next minute she and i were at a hospital .
"C'mon give me your hand " he said grabbing my hand . I released a long sigh as i relaxed myself and watched him examining my hand . I watched him intensly . How come one minute i wanna kill him and the next one i wanna kiss him so badly . No ! No ! No ! You are not like that . You don't do that to friends so close like Sabrina .
"It will get better , you feeling better ?" he said massaging them softly . I only nodded unable to speak so i just closed my mouth and my eyes and held my head down . Soon after i felt a hand on my cheek bringing my head up . I look up to meet with his green eyes . We stayed there like that and i didn't understand that we were both leading in .
"Uhem guys ?" We both looked away to see Sabrina looking at us . I quickly removed myself from Harry .
"Y-yeah ? " Wow Harry stutter .
" Um Harry i need to talk to you , now " she said before she left the room . Moments past and Harry was still in with me .
"Lis-"
"You'r girlfriend needs you so go " i said still not facing him . I didn't heard anything more just his steps that signalized me that he left the room .
Groaning i looked up at the clock . Shit i'm late !
No one's P.O.V
The white room held no emotion's at all . Not joy ....just sadness . The only thing that you could hear were Angie's sobs that filled the room where only she and Sabrina were . Angie never like hospitals ...i mean who does ? Every time she would step in a hospital it would remind her the last days with her mother . The way they talked together , the way she whispered to her " Don't worry mommy is gonna be fine" . She truly wanted to believe that but she j-just couldn't .
The disease had progressed until it completely took her mother away from her . Angie looked up to see if Sabrina had woken up but ...no . She just stayed there ....like she was sleeping . Like a sleeping-beauty . Her face was pale and a few hairs were sticking out in every direction of her face . Angie held her hand closely in hope that soon enough she would open up her eyes . That's the only thing she would do .... take her hand , cry and hope for the best . She placed her head in the bed and started to cry .
"Angie you need some rest " She felt a hand being placed in her shoulder . She looked up to meet Niall's eyes . Although the idea of the warm bed in her own room was tempting ...she couldn't leave Sabrina . Angie looked from Niall to Sabrina .
"I- i just can't leave her alone "
"Please go and take some rest , you have been here for 3 day and you haven't had sleep at all " Niall recurred her rubbing her back lightly .
"Promise you will take care of her " Angie said getting up and wiping some tears that still managed to go from her eyes . He nodded carefully before he turned his attention to Sabrina . He took the place in the chair Angie was sat before . His fingers removed some stray of her hair and placed them behind her ear . To him even in sleep she was the most beautiful girl in the world .
Angie's P.O.V
I closed the door and i immediately let my tears falling . I sat on the floor and brought my knees to my chest . Some random people passing by looked at me with pity and to be honest i feel like that . Why...why me god ? You took everything i wanted . My mom , my real dad ...not Sabrina too! You can't hate me that much , can you ? I closed my eyes and lowered my head so no one could see me crying .
Since young i have faced with the world by myself and ..gosh , i'm tired . I can't do this ! I can't have all the people next to me ...dying and suffering for me !
"God Angie you OK ? " I looked up to meet Harry's eyes . I immediately stood up and turned around to wipe my tears . I don't know why i am doing this ! I heard his footsteps coming closer and a hand being placed on my shoulder .
"You don't have to be strong for everyone , let me see you " He said and turned me around . All i could think about was my family and my loved ones that died during this years . His hand came to wipe my tears .
"You know Sabrina will be fine " I know he said that to comfort me but i only cried more . The next thing i know i am in his arms , hugging him like he is my only way to save . He kept whispering in my ear " Shh " or " It will be OK " And i hope ...i hope from the bottom of my heart that it's true what he said . That Sabrina will be next to me again and i would be able to laugh and cry with her in my next days of living .
"Come on let's take you home " Harry said and grabbed my hands to lead me out of the hospital .
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Luke's P.O.V
" I think you have fallen for this girl " Michael said as he cleaned his gun . I sighed before i turned around to meet his gaze .
"And what makes you think that "
" You keep mentioning that girl Angie ... i know she is hot but come on , you know Harry likes her and now i think you are starting to like her more...." He continued .
Is it true though ? Do i like her . Maybe i do , or i don't . I just know i have to get close to her ...and i know exactly how . I just smirked at myself of the idea . I picked my coat and made it to the front door .
"Where are you going "
"That's none of you'r business " i said through gritted teeth . The car made it's noise as i got in and made my way...somewhere .
Maybe Michael is true . Maybe i'm falling for her . She reminds me of ......her . I find myself stooping only to look where i am . The house is dark except of one window . Angie's....house . Man i look like a stalker but she ...she has this effect on me that no one has ever done .
Angie's P.O.V
I stared at my own reflection in the mirror . I look like bloody-Mary ..even worse . I removed the towel from my hair and let them fall over one shoulder . While i was seeing myself in the mirror i looked the curtains behind me that were open . Odd i never leave them open . I made my way to close them and then something caught my eye . A black vehicle was standing outside facing my house .
I have never seen it before so i continued looking at it . Just like that its engine started and the car started to move in the other direction . I decide to leave that like it is .
-------------5 Days later----------
"Here grab my hand " i said screeching my arm out for her . She just looked at it and looked away in a childish way . I watched going out of the car still holding to it .
"Sabrina stop being a baby and hold my shoulder "
"Oh thank you for your offer but im afraid i'm gonna have to say no "
"Fine suit yourself you stubborn " i said going at the truck to take her belongings . I watched her looking at the house weirdly before she started walking . Ehh that girl will kill me . I said as i started to walk behind her . Just as we were about to enter the house she started to stumble but i grabbed her arm .
"So how about that offer ? " i said grinning at her . I watched as she connected out arms for support .
Sabrina's P.O.V
Ahhh home sweet home! I Sabrina Irwin promise myself that i will NEVER be a feisty girl in front of a gang . End of it ! Ow my back hurts ! . I watched as Angie placed the bags on the floor and making her way to the kitchen . I just took a long trip around the house .
Hey is that new ? No Sabrina calm down . Now that is new ! I moved to the table holding a bouquet of red roses on . I admired the roses .
"Hey Ang who are these roses for ? " i screamed so she could hear me . I watched her frame in the view . She held a confused face on .
"Maybe they are for you from any member of your family ? " she asked . I shaked my head telling her 'no' . I got closer to the beautiful flowers as i saw a card to them . I turned it and it read Angie .
I smirked as i showed the card to her still holding it on my hands . Her eyes widened as she tried to grab the paper from me . I tried to remove it but she took it from me . Aww man i wanted to read that !
Angie's P.O.V
"Just give it to me " i said grabbing the paper from her hands . I watched her face form a pouts face to which i laughed . I opened the card and i started reading it .
" Even when you are not here i always dream of you . May i have the honor of meeting you today at the park at the 8:00 pm ? " - Luke -
Luke ...............Luke .............Who the hell is Luke!?
"Who's Luke " Sabrina asked me . Oi did i read that out loud !? Now i just have to think who is Luke . It reminds me of someone but i just cant figure out who . Luke ....Wait that Luke ? How the hell does he know where i live !? I need to have a talk with that guy . I barely even know him and he sends me ...well this . I turn around to see Sabrina . To my surprise she had a glare towards me .
"What ?" i asked her .
"You are cheating on Niall !? " she yelled that part . Ph yeah c'mon Angie invent another lie because to her you and Niall are "dating" .
"Listen i don't even know this guy I've only meet him once but i'm going to meet with him to tell him to stop " i looked at her . It's true though i will meet with him . I watched Sabrina sighting as she relaxed . I went to her to give her a hug which she gladly accepted .
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Why now ! Who are all these people ! Harry and Niall had *punch* to *punch* come *punch* and *punch* ruin * punch* my *punch* life!* punch *
"Whoa hold on tiger " i stooped hitting the punch bag i had in front of me to to look at Harry smirking at me . I just glared at him before i went to hit the bag again ..only more harder . Harry looked at me confused as he came behind the punching bag holding it while i started to punch it faster .
"Are you OK ? " he asked removing the bag from me . Just when he released it i p[punched it harder that it almost flew . I turned around to face him .
"I hate my life ! " i yelled at him . He looked taken back from my reaction .
"Just *punch* leave * punch* me *punch* alone *punch* "
"Hey calm down " he said coming behind me to stop my actions .
"Harry stop acting like you care ! Seriously what are you doing here ! " i said punching him a little in his chest .
"Seriously Ang you need to calm down "
" I was fine before you and your friends came to my life ! " i yelled going to punch him again but he quickly dodged it . I tried to hit his chest again but he came behind me grabbing my hands and placing them behind my back . I started to kick my legs onto the air .
"Shh just relax " he whispered in my ear . With that i felt myself relaxing more as i cached my breath .
"Better ? " he said releasing my arms but just as he left i shoved him . Harry just chuckled at my reaction .
I started to hit the bag once more . It hurt like crazy especially since i wasn't wearing my boxing gloves . My life is like a window crack . Just when i think of how much it has changed since i meet Harry .
Why had he to come in my life !? In my heart ?
"You are feisty but you will get hurt if you continue like that " i heard Harry saying behind me . I just ignored him as i started to hit more . That was until i heard a cracking noise . I stooped punching as i released a screaming . I looked at my hand to see that it was all red .
"Here let me see " Harry's hands came to grab mine but i avoided .
"It's fine just a little scratch " i said avoiding eye contact with him . It's not fair . One minute mine's and Sabrina's life are easy and we are having fun and the next minute she and i were at a hospital .
"C'mon give me your hand " he said grabbing my hand . I released a long sigh as i relaxed myself and watched him examining my hand . I watched him intensly . How come one minute i wanna kill him and the next one i wanna kiss him so badly . No ! No ! No ! You are not like that . You don't do that to friends so close like Sabrina .
"It will get better , you feeling better ?" he said massaging them softly . I only nodded unable to speak so i just closed my mouth and my eyes and held my head down . Soon after i felt a hand on my cheek bringing my head up . I look up to meet with his green eyes . We stayed there like that and i didn't understand that we were both leading in .
"Uhem guys ?" We both looked away to see Sabrina looking at us . I quickly removed myself from Harry .
"Y-yeah ? " Wow Harry stutter .
" Um Harry i need to talk to you , now " she said before she left the room . Moments past and Harry was still in with me .
"Lis-"
"You'r girlfriend needs you so go " i said still not facing him . I didn't heard anything more just his steps that signalized me that he left the room .
Groaning i looked up at the clock . Shit i'm late !
Notes
i am boreeeeeeeed , you too ? Welcome to the club . I am so so so so so so so happy i updated and to you Puppy-Lowe ........2477 words , ya know i can write a lot when i want to ..i'm just a lazy person sometimes .
All of those questions are literally what I wanted to ask! I need answers! :'(
4/15/15