Rachel’s p.o.v
I looked above me to see Louis carry me and I nuzzled my head into his chest, I never once said a word, I wasn’t listening to them talking all I was listening to was Niall’s heart beat as Louis started to carry me away I heard Niall’s last heart beat and it was gone, Niall is gone how can he be gone, how could anyone hurt him, why is he gone, he can’t be I don’t want him to be.
“Rach.” The voice that said it sounded Irish I looked over at Niall who was in Harry’s arms he wasn’t moving and his heart still is gone, I looked up and it was Louis, I didn’t say a word to him, I just want to be left alone, well I don’t want to be alone I want to be with Niall. I was soon placed in the car next to Louis and Ally was next to me, but I just sat there blankly I had no emotions I didn’t feel sad or angry just emptiness,
“how can Niall be gone, h-he can’t b-be I mean he can’t.” Liam said.
“Are you sure he isn’t changing?” Zayn said and everyone looked at me and I just continued to look at the floor.
“Rach talk to us.” Ally said and I continued to look at the floor. The car journey was silent every now and again someone would wipe a tear away from their face no one wanted to believe that he was gone, no one wanted him dead.
“now how are we going to tell his family, friends, fans and management he is dead, I mean if you look at him he has a huge knife mark across his stomach he had two marks on his neck that have dried blood around I mean it’s impossible.” Zayn said.
“Niall can’t be dead.” Louis said. I just wanted to ignore them all I just want to get away but I don’t think my legs will take me anywhere even if I tried. Everyone kept crying and everyone was so upset they kept saying about what was happening and kept talking about Niall I can’t take it I crawled over Louis lap and I opened the door and ran out.
“RACHEL!” they all shouted, but I just needed to get away and be alone, how can they keep talking as if he is dead I mean it’s been like 5 minutes how do we know he isn’t alive. I ran towards the woods it was so peaceful out here and I needed time to think. I sat down at the bottom of a tree and shut my eyes and thought.
The vampire is dead that is good now we should have no problems, but Niall is dead h-how could I let this happen I was meant to protect him and help him, but I didn’t I broke my promise to him I said I would never hurt him and now he is dead! I opened my eyes again and started to cry I stood up and realised how much anger was inside of me, I ripped a tree from the ground and chucked it and screamed, thank god the vampire is dead over wise I would be wanting to kill him, I don’t know what to do. I shut my eyes again and saw Niall and all of my memories of him, from the day I met him, to our first date, when he found out about me, the first time we had sex, from all of our funniest moments, then I saw the bad ones where we had our fights till I had a moment with him then when he got his hand crushed and then the worst memory seeing him die! I must have been here for hours because it was starting to get lighter the battle went on for about two days me and Niall were in there for two days I was knocked out for one day and then the next day was when we were fighting with the vampire and his minions.
I felt someone shake me and I opened my eyes to see Zayn standing above me. But I looked back to the floor, I still didn’t want to talk, but Zayn just sat down next to me he didn’t talk he just sat there his eyes were red as if he has been crying for ages, but he put his arms out for me to hug him and I took his gesture and I cuddled myself right into him, I needed comforting and Zayn knew how to do it just to hug me and keep me company with no speaking of any sort.
“I can see why you came here.” Zayn said after about an hour of sitting in silence and I nodded.
“I also know that you don’t want to talk, but you know Niall would never leave you he will be with you in some way.” Zayn said and I thought I had no more tears to shed but I guess I was wrong because more tears fell.
“hey, let’s get you back everyone has been worrying sick about you.” Zayn said and he stood up he didn’t offer me an hand, but he picked me up and carried me bridal style back to the hotel.
“paul is going mental you know he thinks Niall is just passed out because he was ill” Zayn said and I looked to the ground I didn’t want to talk still and Zayn understood.
“we will tell him soon enough, you know if you need anything like someone to talk to or just someone to comfort you we are all here for you, you don’t need to ask just come to one of us and we will understand, this is really hard on us as well since he was a brother to all of us.” Zayn said and he let some more tears fall which made me do the same.
“he didn’t deserve to die, he was only 19 he didn’t deserve it, his life was just beginning when you think about it, at least the last 2 years he has been living his dream and he got to do that.” Zayn said. i played with the button on his checked top whilst he spoke I didn’t want to think about Niall it would only make me more upset, but I know he will never leave my mind.
“Rach, I know with what has happened that your very upset so you don’t want to talk, but please don’t go mute, don’t do it Niall wouldn’t want you to.” Zayn said. after about an hour of walking we reached the hotel and there were paparazzi outside so I tucked my head into Zayn’s chest I didn’t want them to see me with my eyes red and teary.
“Zayn, Zayn what has happened, why have you been crying, why are you carrying Rachel, where’s Niall no one has seen him, why did Louis break Niall’s hand, how did it get even more crushed?” the paparazzi shouted and I just pushed my head into Zayn’s chest more, once we reached the safety of the hotel I unburied my head from his chest, and Zayn carried me up to the hotel room where I know everyone will be waiting, I just hope no one will talk to me as Zayn can tell I am in no mood to talk to anyone.
“do you want to be put down?” Zayn said and I nodded, he placed me down and my legs almost gave way because of how long I have been sitting.
“are you ok?” Zayn said as he grabbed my waist to keep me balanced, it reminded me of the way Niall used to grip my waist when he was nervous about anything, but I pushed the tears back and I nodded Zayn opened the door and he walked in the room and I followed.
“oh my god Zayn your back and you found Rach.” Perrie said hugging Zayn tears threatened to fall again because of how that reminded me of when I would come back and Niall would be so happy for me to be back as he always thought something bad was going to happen. I walked away and went into my room and locked the door.
“Rachel don’t lock yourself away please open up and let me in.” Ally said, but I slumped myself down the back of the door and pulled my knees up, wrapped my arms around my knees and put my chin on my knees and sobbed quietly apart from I knew Louis and Harry would be able to hear me.
“Rachel, please let me in.” Louis said. i debated for a while to let him in because I didn’t want to talk to anyone, but I need someone to hug and lie with. I opened the door and pulled him in the room and locked the door again and I resumed my place on the floor.
“come here Rach.” Louis said and he sat down next to me and put his arms out I put my head on his shoulder and he wrapped his arms around me. After a while I shut my eyes and fell asleep on his shoulder.
Why did Niall have to die? That is the question I can’t stop thinking about.