All It Takes Is One Bite

Louis p.o.v

I can’t believe what happened tonight I feel like shit right now honestly I just can’t believe I attacked Ally I mean I would literally kill anyone who attacked El even if it was one of the boys I wonder how Liam is handling this he will never want to talk to me ever again he must really hate me I mean he must want to kill me I know I would and at the same time I feel like someone is trying to play mind games with me.

Whenever something good happens something bad happens and it repeats what happens if the next person to get hurt is El or the boy’s maybe he is trying to get everyone against me so I will turn to his side. What happens if he isn’t going to leave us alone? What happens if he is going to kill Rachel this is so confusing. I really need to stop thinking but then again how can I, I just almost killed one of my best friends girlfriends.

*next morning*

I must have fell asleep but I know I thought about last night all night replaying all events especially the killing and now I have to get ready and go out there and face them.

What happens if they ignore me?

What happens if they are scared of me?

What happens if they hate me?

I need to just go out there and talk to them I went over to the wardrobe and pulled out a pair of jeans and a simple black top I walked over to the door and look in the mirror on the back of the door oh that’s right I have no reflection why do I always forget this I put my hands up to my hair and comb through it god knows what it looks like but Rachel will sort it out if it looks bad. I grabbed the door handle

“Here goes nothing.” I mumbled to myself I opened the door and walked into the sitting room I walk in and face the kitchen everyone is quite quiet I still stand there but look to my feet I don’t think I can face anyone right now

“Louis.” Rachel said very softly

“yeah.” I said I was very quiet too and upset you can probably tell in my voice.

“are you ok.” She said again very softly her voice was so comforting

“yeah I am.” I said

“Don’t lie.” She said

“Fine not at all.” I said

“Everyone wants to talk to you.” She said

“No they don’t they all just want me to go away and probably wouldn’t mind if I died

“WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU ON ABOUT YOU WOULDN’T KILL YOURSELF” I heard harry shout from the table

“I don’t know I feel like shit I have so much guilt I have no idea how long I will actually last there will be a day when I will kill myself as I won’t be able to put up with it anymore.” I said everyone crowded me I was still looking at the floor.

“We forgive you Louis.” Liam said

“You shouldn’t forgive me.” I said

“We should because it was your body not yourself. “Liam said

“But it was still me you shouldn’t forgive me ALLY ALMOST DIED BECAUSE OF ME YOU SHOULDN’T FORGIVE ME I DON’T DESERVE IT.” I yelled at them my eyes went red I think.

“Lou calm down.” Harry said

“sorry.” I looked back to the floor I realised that when I looked up the only person I didn’t see was Ally she was sitting at the table listening in and Liam was next to her.

“Liam, Ally why are you two over there?” I asked

Ally replied “I’m sorry Lou but I am still shaken up from last night and I am kind of a little bit scared to be near you I know it wasn’t you attacking me but it was your body so I am a little scared.

“And I’m just over here so she isn’t alone.” Liam said kissing her cheek

“SHIT!” I yelled

“WHAT” everyone yelled

“Isn’t EL and Perrie coming today?” I said

“Yeah they are we have to pick them up in an hour.” Zayn said

“And this place is a mess from yesterday with our incident.” Rach said

“Rach will you come with us.” I said

“No I’m having a day with ally.” She replied

“Fine should we leave Zayn?” I said

“Yeah we should.” He said and we got the car keys and walked to the car

“Are you driving?” I said

“Yeah I am I hope you don’t mind.” He said

“Ok and to be honest I don’t think I can drive at this time I’m too distracted. “I said I got in the passenger side and we drove off i looked around the car and realised the two mirrors

“shit.” I said

“What’s wrong Lou?” Zayn said

“Well there is two mirrors the rear view and the side ones and El and Perrie will see that i have no reflection.” I said

“And Perrie usually looks out of the window when we drive and she will see.” Zayn said

“What are we going to do” I said

“Distract them maybe.” He said

“For 40 minutes how?” I said

“We will have to wing it.” He said