Work Hard, Play Harder

~Brynn~

Our life story litterally took all day and most of the night, and by the time the boys and i returned home it was a quarter to 3. Zayn said i didn't have to go to school since Sammy wasn't going with me. The doctor said they wanted to keep her for another couple of days to run some... Tests. Hell if i know what that means. "Brynn?" Harry's voice was gentle as he followed me upstairs to my "room". It was the guest room and since Sam and i had no where to go... This was now where we stay. "Brynn." He called again when i ignored him.

i sighed "What do u want Harry?" It came out in an irritated tone, and i felt like bursting into tears.

"Are you alright love?" he whispered.

i couldn't help but laugh without humor "like any of you care? All you five care about is Sam. When will Sam get better, hows Sam? I love Sam! Just leave me be and love my sister!" I growled. I was done, i could never do anything right. I told Zayn she loved him, i just told Niall out fucked up story, i made Sammy almost kill herself. What was i good for? Nothing!

"Dont even , Brynn! Don't you dare say no one cares about you!" He growled

"tell me something then... When has any of you cared i got shot? Huh? You took me to the hospital, and then my sister gave herself to my rapist father who fucking took advantage of her! no one fucking cares!" Then with that i stormed out of the house and ran away far away. I didn't care where inwas going, all i wanted to to run away, be no where near anyone and to never come back. Its not like Sam, or harry or niall or anyone would care. I'm just a burden... Here to distroy everyones lives. As i ran i realized i had ran to our old house. Dad was no longer there, mum ran away. I could stay here. Get a job, never have to hurt anyone again. As i rushed into the bathroom i looked in the mirrior. I looked like complete and utter shit. My red hair was poofed out and looked like i just rolled out of bed, my brown eyes looked dull along with my cheeks. I looked down at the foset and turned it on, washing my face. As my hand gripped onto the sink it knocked something over and i peeked down. One of my dads razors had fallen into the sink, and all i did was watch it. I made Sam promise me not to cut herself. We made a pact... If i stop cutting so would she. She broke it, so why am i still following it? She makes it look so entising and thrilling. I toom out the sharp razor and brought it to my arm. "Here is to all the shit i dont give." Then i jerked my arm, feelingthe blade slice easily over my exposed skin. "Here is for all the lies." Another cut "the pain." Cut "the sorrow" cut "the bloody tears!" Cut "the fake love." Cut "and last but jot least... All the times i thought inwas cared for." That went deeper and i looked down at the mess i called my arm... Now looking like a canvas. I made sure notnto cut to deep... I didn't want to die. Not yet.

My face found my reflections again "we are just so functional... Arent we."

Notes

I've had a real shitty week- scratch that, i've had a real shitty month. And i just wabted to write one like this. Turns out... I might get kicked out of school. So yeah, let it sink in that i'm only a junior... And i've moved three different times. And my last school just happened to be one of the school that got shot up. Yup, i went to a school were some kid went crazy and decided to target school. Anyone heard of Arapahoe? Well yeah... Thats where i went. Soooo hope u enjoyed my morbidness, i'll try to be more postitive and hope i dont just go insain.

P.S. Beau, your perfect and i'm proud your clean! Please keep it that way... Just like in the story. U cut i cut. I love you hun... Sorry i haven't been updating.

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