I hadn't talked to Harry for about two day's, he was worried and I knew it. He came by the house with a key he borrowed from his Grandmother, but I hid. Like a cowered I fucking hid. He searched for me, and I watched him cold heartedly threw the crack in my closet. My life was a tragic mess, and Harry had no idea what he had gotten himself into. I was scared to break up with him, not because I was scared of him doing something to hurt me. Not that at all. I'm scared he'll stroke my cheek, kiss me, and beg me to stay with him. His voice had always been my beckon, calling for me. I had yet to figure out to to reject it. Like a drug, he was my drug, and I had slapped myself a couple of times to keep me from calling him and telling him how much I needed his touch, he love, his care. I was pathetic, just as Robert had said I was. The only thing I had to keep myself sain, was a couple voicemail's Harry had left me the day he had asked me to become his girlfriend. "Your all mine now. No one can take you away. You may think your to bad, or I'm to good, but just keep your feeling at bay. Your my treasure, your my find, nothing else, can keep you bind." He sang the words, making me feel somewhat whole again. Now all I feel is emptiness. Did Robert know what he was doing to me? What a stupid question... of course he did. He knew very well the power he had over me, how frightened I was of him. I had a day to break up with Harry, and a day to go meet Robert. He wanted to meet at Elitches, which means people will be htere. A lot of people, it's a theme park. No harm can come to me when someone is there to see it... right?

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I took in a deep breath, and entered to Aquarium. This was it. This was the end of Harry and I. This was probably the end of me as well. After this, I was going to Elitches, and my death wish was coming fast. Sid and Harry were sitting by the Shark Tank, both looked worried and stressed out. Sid had her fingers in her mouth, chewing on her small little numbs she called fingernails, and Harry ran his hand threw his hair at least ten times. I shifted my bag on my other shoulder, which let out a rustling sound, and both Harry and Sidney lifted their heads in surprise. Harry's green eyes grew wide and Sid looked pissed off as all hell. "I am so mad at you." She growled.

I offered her a small smile "I'm sorry." It was a genuine apology. I was sorry for making them worried.

Harry slowly stood up and made his way to me, wrapping his arms around my middle, hugging me close. Usually I would have just dropped everything and hugged him back with as much might as I could.... but I just couldn't bring myself to do it anymore. If I was going to end it... I needed to keep my distance. But his embrace made that almost impossible. "God Laney, I've been so worried. What happened after you left from the barn? You didn't go to my gig, you didn't call, you didn't give me anything that told me you were alright. I went by your house... nothing." He sounded like he was on the verge of tears, and for once I felt the strong urge to just hold him, like he had done to me.

"I need to talk to you." I said in a small voice. Grabbing a hold of his arms and prying them away from me.

Now he looked worried, his green eyes looking dull from maybe the lack of sleep? I had no clue. "Laney, please tell me you aren't doing what I think you are."

"I'm sorry Harry... I can't anymore." I shook my head "It hurts me to much to do this. Your so much more than me, and all i'm doing is holding you back." Now I was crying. I had promised myself I would stay strong, but it was like a weight was being pushed down on me and I couldn't help it.

"Stop, stop saying that. It's not true!"

"Yes it is Harry." I sniffed up my tears "It's very true... and that's why I need to let you go."

"Stop it Laney. I know you don't really feel that way." His hand gripped tightly onto mine, like he was scared if he let go I would be gone forever. And yes, infact that was the case. I was a lost cause, and all he was doing was wasting his time.

I chuckloed without humor and wiped away my tears from my cheek "How the hell would you know what I feel? Huh?"

"Because." His hand was now cupping the back of my neck, and my face was forced to his in a deep and meaningful kiss. It was like the world around us had stopped moving for about three whole minutes, and it was just us. "If you really felt that way... you wouldn't have kissed me back." He whispered against my lips.

My eyes met his "That's not true. I never said I wouldn't still have feelings for you... all I said is I need to let go." I then pulled away and grabbed up my bag "And that's what I plan on doing." I wiped my eyes again and started to walk away, calling ever so gently "Good bye Harry." Over my shoulder. I was a goner, if Robert wasn't going to kill me himself... I was going to do it. I wasn't going to go back to that life, I refused. Killing myself was the only way to go. And was it bad that I was okay with that?

Notes

So I may or may not be in a reallllyyyy morbid mood today xD I dunno. Hahahaha soooo any predictions on what's gonna happen? Honestly I'm not even sure what's gonna go down :P I have an idea, but I want the next chapter to be suuuupppeeeerrrrr good ya know? THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE PEOPLE WHO COMMENTED! It made me feel really happy that you all are injoying my story. I want more poeple to comment their feed back!

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