Crazy

I was in my room, finishing getting myself ready for the bonfire tonight. Chris had been talking about this for a while, and that he wanted me to go with him and I didn’t want to disappoint him and not go so I agreed to go with him. Plus, it was the night before the big football match, his game really. I stare at my reflection in the mirror that hung on the wall near the door of the room we shared. I smile at my reflection, I actually looked good.

I wore a pair of ripped jean shorts with a white top along with my old worn out converse that I just finished lacing up. From just taking a shower a little bit ago, my legs were smooth from shaving a while ago. My makeup was done how I liked and I think I was just about ready to go. I had also managed to cover up almost all of the visible traces of a bruise or whatever I got by Chris.

“Sid, you almost ready to go? It’s almost seven, told Payton we’d be there by then, hurry your ass up, girl!” I hear Kendall call to me from the hall. I roll my eyes and shake my head as I grab my over the shoulder purse and put the strap on my shoulder before I reach for my phone which was on the table beside the bed.

“Alright, Kenny, I’m coming!” I call back and slip my phone in the front pocket of my bag before I rush toward the door. As I hurried out the door, I make my way to where my best friend stood a small smile on her face.

Kendall wore a cute crop top; some ripped skinny jeans and some grey TOMS on her feet. I link my arm through hers as we make our way down the stairs.

“Guess Chris is already there?” Kendall asks as we walk down the stairs. I look over at her and shrug my shoulders and focus my eyes back on the stairs in front of me so I wouldn’t trip.

“Said he was meeting up with some ‘o his mates, I just told him I’ll see him when I get there even though I really don’t want to go,” I say and let out a groan.

“Well since you are going, maybe you’ll see Harry there!” she exclaims with a smile. I can’t help but roll my eyes and push her lightly as we walk out the front door of the house. She pulls her key from her pocket and locks the door.

“Maybe, I mean it’s easy to talk to him, more so than it is with Chris and when I went over a few days ago, to uh, hang out with him…” I trailed off when I realized what I was about to say.

“And? What else, Sid? Don’t leave me hanging, girl! Spill, what happened between you two?!” she questions me as we walk over to her car, a blue Mustang convertible. She unlocks the car with the press of a button and each of us get in. I take a seat on the passenger side while she was on the driver’s side.

“And he… we were talking about some pretty deep stuff and he might or might not have almost kissed me, I mean, our lips did touch for like a second until his phone started going off…” I tell her as she turns the car on. Just as those words slip from my mouth, she turns to look at me, a smile on her face.

“Ooh Sid! You fancy him, don’t you?” she asks as she turns her focus back on the road in front of her as we pull onto the street.

As I sit there and begin to think about her question, I can’t help but think about him and wonder if he was going tonight, to the bonfire. I wasn’t falling for him, was I? I think to myself as I contemplate whether I should ask him if he was going or not. I can’t, especially since still I’m dealing with Chris… I wasn’t sure if I can still put up with this, all the crap he’s put me through lately. I’ve said this too many times and I still have yet to do something about it, my whole complicated deal with Chris, but I was scared. The whole outcome scares me, if I try to leave his ass again; I know it will end up bad.

Do it, Sid, text Harry. You don’t have to abide to Chris about who you talk to, you’re your own person and you can do what you want when you please… I hear my thoughts in my mind.

“Sid? You okay, love? You were zoned out there for a few minutes,” I look over to find Kendall staring over at me. We were stalled behind a shit ton of cars that were looking for a place to park. That’s when I realize we were near where the bonfire was being held. All around us, students were standing around in their group of friends and whatnot.

“Y-yeah, I’m fine,” I tell her with a small smile.

I reach into my purse and pull out my phone. I was going to text Harry and ask if he was coming tonight out of curiosity. After I pull out my phone, I go to my messages and tap on my conversation with Harry so I could ask him.

Almost immediately I begin to type the message: Hey! Are you going tonight? To the bonfire? Hope you go - I'll be there.. :) let me know! – Sid

“C’mon Sid, Payton’s waiting for us,” I look up after I send the message to see Kendall standing next to my side of the car, a small smile on her face.

“Okay, hold up, I’m coming Ken!” I exclaim as I press the lock button on my phone and drop it in my purse. I undo my safety belt and put my bag over my shoulder before I climb out of the car. I slam the door shut and am soon drug toward where I spotted Peyton standing there with a few others, a girl and two guys, one I recognized as Kendall’s boyfriend, Jake. They all had beers in their hands and laughed about some nonsense.

“Who were you texting, Sid? Harry?!” she asks as she links her arm through mine as we walk over to where our friend and house mate stood.

She was laughing at something the bleach blonde girl said, red cup in hand. I nod my head slowly toward my best friend as we make our way over to where Peyton stood, a drink in her hand. We soon approach and I am soon enveloped into a tight hug by Peyton.

“Sidney! You’re finally here, love! What took you so long?!” she exclaims as we part from the hug. After we pull away from the hug, she hands me a red cup, a bright smile on her face. I smile and thank her as I take the cup from her and take a sip of the liquid in there, which turned out to be beer.

“Sorry, I wasn’t exactly planning on coming, you two know that,” I look at Peyton and Kendall who was sipping on her drink, well her boyfriend’s really, which she took from his hand.

Her boyfriend, Jake was now beside her, an arm around her waist after the two greeted each other with a kiss. I smile as I look at the couple beside me. They were adorable how they were with each other. Made me kind of jealous actually. I mean, yeah, I had Chris but things were shall I say, intense, and I don’t know how much longer I can put up with it. Speaking of, that’s when I feel my phone begin to go off, vibrating, most likely a new message from Harry. I grab it from my bag and press the home screen to see who it was from. It was from Harry.

I can’t help but smile a bit as I begin to read his message. Yeah, decided I’d go a little bit ago actually. I’ll meet you there at 8? See you there, love.

“Hey Sidney! Where’s Chris? Thought I saw the lad somewhere,” Jake asks looking at me, hair styled up in a quiff or whatever it’s called, and takes a sip from the cup he was now holding. I glance up from my phone as he asks me where my boyfriend was.

“I dunno, Kendall and I just got here, might look for him here in a bit if he doesn’t find his way to me first,” I mutter and take a swig of my drink. He just nods his head and turns his attention back to Kendall beside him.

For the next few minutes, I sit and talk with each of them and we drink and have a good time before I turn to see Chris coming my way. Just great… I think as I put on a fake smile as he comes closer. He wraps his arms around me and hugs me a bit tighter than I expected him to. I push him off and laugh slightly. He leans forward and presses a kiss to my lips.

“Bout time you got here; was startin’ to wonder, love,” he says and puts his arm around my waist pulling me into him.

“Well I’m here now,” I reply in a slow tone and give him a fake smile to let him know I was having a good time, when, really, I wasn’t. I wanted to get far away from Chris as possible and maybe meet up with Harry, I don’t know. I wouldn’t mind meeting up with Harry, especially since we have a lot more in common than I ever thought, and I wanted to see him.

Chris soon joins in a conversation with Jake about some nonsense and grabs the cup out of my hand. He takes a sip and hands it back to me. “Thanks for handing me back an empty cup…” I mutter as I look in the cup to see if there was any left but it was bone dry.

“Sorry, go fill it up again if you want more, then,” he snaps and rolls his eyes, crossing his strong arms over his chest, irritated that I interrupted his stupid conversation. They were going on about some stuff that went down at a party that happened a few nights ago, which I had no idea about. Apparently some girl came onto him, onto Chris, and then she puked all over him.

“Maybe I will,” I roll my eyes and begin to slowly make my way over to Kendall and Peyton who were talking with Claire, near a keg of beer. After I fill it up, I take a drink and stand there a few minutes before I mutter a soft ‘hi’.

“Chris being a dick again?” Peyton asks looking at me as I joined the three girls.

“When has he not been one?” Kendall jokes; I can’t help but force a smile on my lips and laugh a bit nervously, holding onto the cup in my grasp.

“Hmm, lemme think for a minute, I can’t think of a proper time when he was ever nice to me so yeah, he is,” I say and roll my eyes at the thought. I can’t recall a time when he ever treated me like I mattered to him at all. The first few months or so he treated me good and then he got caught up in the mess you call alcohol and going out with the guys in his Frat who were just like him, save a few who were actually pretty nice.

“What do you girls think I should do? Don’t know if I can keep up with it much longer,” I say a bit on the softer side, knowing he could hear me even though he was a little ways away from where we were. He still has damn good ears so I have to be quiet most of the time, especially when he’s around.

“Leave his ass, Sid, I know you don’t want to hear it but you really don’t deserve to be treated like that by a bastard like Chris,” Kendall tells me and rubs my shoulder softly.

I smile a bit at her remark and nod my head slowly in agreement with her. I knew she was right; I really don’t deserve it but it’s not that simple and I always have to tiptoe around him practically because he’s on my case all the damn time wherever I go. No matter if I go have a girl’s night out or want a night to myself, he always somehow knows how to ruin it making it turn to shit.

“Maybe you could get with Harry, I can totally see you two together, plus he’s hot. I mean, Sid, have you seen his dimples when he smiles?” Kendall finishes and takes another sip of her drink. I bring my cup up to my lips to take a drink and laugh slightly at her comment of me getting with Harry.

“Yeah right, Kenny. I’m still getting to know him, but yeah, the lad does have a killer smile, have to admit,” I say and feel my cheeks heat up as I mention that.

I wonder if he was here yet, I wanted to get away from Chris and maybe we could hang out a bit. As I look up, I notice Chris wasn’t there where I left him with Jake. He must’ve went off with Jake or something. I shake it off and turn back to the girls. We talk for the next few minutes before I decide to pull out my phone. It was a little after 8.

I decide to text him and ask if we could meet up somewhere. Yeah, I liked that I was spending time with the girls but I wanted to do something other than stand around and drink. I unlock my phone and go to my messages so I could ask him.

Hey – are you here at the bonfire yet? Want to meet somewhere? Want a pick me up since Chris is being his usual dick self.. and I want to get away for a bit. Let me know!

“Who you texting, girl? Harry?” Kendall asks with a small smile on her face as she looks at me.

“It might be, it’s none of your business my friend,” I joke with her and lock it before I slip my phone in the pocket of my shorts for easy access when he texts me back. The four of us laugh about random nonsense for the next few minutes. My phone soon vibrates in my pocket and I had a feeling of who it might be from. I unlock my phone so I could read the message from Harry.

Yeah, got here about fifteen min. ago. I know a place, we could meet near the history building and then we can get going... See you in a bit, love!

“Well, I’m going to meet up with him, catch up with you ladies later, promise,” I tell them with a smile and down the rest of my drink before dropping the empty cup in the nearest garbage bin I could find. I tighten my grip around my phone so I wouldn’t drop it.

“Have fun girl; give us details later, babe!” Kendall, Peyton and Claire tell me in unison.

I can’t help but laugh at them and promise I will as I slowly begin to walk off to the history building where I was meeting up with Harry. A genuine smile appears on my face as I think of where we were going. It was exciting, yet kind of annoying because Chris never did shit like this for me anymore. At least I was going to have fun, hopefully, wherever we were going.

The smile is immediately wiped off my face when I run right into Chris. “Where are you going, Sidney?” he asks as I pass him. I don’t respond or tell him anything, just ignoring his questions as I continue on my way. Soon, I am being pulled back forcefully by my left wrist to be met with his blood-shot eyes staring at me. Of course, he was drunk, and we were in a public place. Stupid bastard. I stay silent for a minute or so. When I don’t say anything, he just tightens his grip even more and I know he wasn’t going to let up until I said something.

“Going to meet up with someone, why’s it so important for you to know?” I say and try to pull my arm from his grip. He only tightens his grip even more as I try to break free of him.

“It just is, bitch,” he snaps at me in a harsh tone. Tears well up in my eyes as he yells at me but I don’t let them fall. Hell, I was used to this shit but I still didn’t like how he talked to me like this, especially when he’s drunk like this.

“I’ll just say it’s someone you don’t like too much, think you’ll know who I’m talkin’ ‘bout,” I tell him as I try to pull my wrist from his constraint. He only tightens his grip as he continues to stare me down.

“Goin’ to meet up with Styles I bet. He’s the one who gave me this,” he motions to his jaw that was red from someone punching him most likely Harry, again. I roll my eyes and struggle to free myself from his grip.

“So what if it is, you can’t tell me who I can and cannot hang out with, Chris. You aren’t my parents,” I snap and pull my wrist from his grip. After I pull my wrist from his grip, that’s when I hastily try to get far away from him as I could.

“You’re still going to get it, bitch, like always!” he calls out and I hear a half-full bottle of beer being thrown my way, crashing to the floor. Stupid prick! I think to myself. At least he didn’t hit me; he could have by accident. I didn’t even bother to look back as I make my way toward the history building where I was meeting up with Harry.

As I look around at my surroundings, I realize I was coming up to the building where I was meeting him. It was the same place where I stood just a few days ago, with Harry when he asked me for my number that I wrote on his hand. I decide to stand there for a few minutes and wait; because I was sure he’ll be here soon.

“Sidney?” I hear his deep voice and let out a sigh of relief when I turn around to see him. He stood there in a dark shirt and jeans along with white converse on his feet.

“Hey,” I tell him with a small smile and sniffle a bit.

“Ready to go?” he asks as he comes a bit closer, a smile on his lips.

“More than ready; want to get the hell out of here for a bit…” I reply a bit sharply and give him a small smile as he comes forward and takes me by the arm lightly, pulling me toward the parking lot. We soon make it to his car and are on our way to wherever we were headed.

Notes

Here's a long filler for y'all! Sorry it took so long for me to update!! Also sorry for how I ended the chapter... You'll see where they're headed in the next one ;)

Anyways, let me know what you think please! :D thanks for reading! <3