YouTube Little Sisters

“Hey guys so sorry for not posting a regular video up this week, but since next week is the end of the month expect a huge video, but that topic is personal. Umm right now we are on our way to YouTube headquarters. It’s a long drive and I’m not ready for it.” I sighed as I vlogged. Connor, Abi, Zoe, Joe, and I are all in my range rover, but Connor said he had to drive.

“At least you have great company.” Abi said finally looking up from her phone. so far she has been constantly texting Luke and Zoe has been constantly texting Alfie. I am happy that both of them are in wonderful relationships with wonderful guys, but I’m also bitter because I wanted to have a relationship like them. Joe and Connor are talking about guy things and me, well I’m staring out the window allowing my thought to consume me.

“Totally.” I said flatly, but Abi didn’t noticed since she had went back to texting Luke. I turned off my camera and put it in my bag before looking at the empty seat in the way back. I threw my backpack back there along with my pillow and blanket. I unbuckled my seat belt and climbed over the seat while the car was moving.

“What the hell Clair?” Connor yelled after checking the rearview mirror. I just shrugged and wrapped myself in my blanket and laid down with my head on my pillow. I unlocked my phone and began to text Caspar.

To: BB Caspy
So freaking bored! Come save me please?
As I was waiting for a reply I logged into twitter and saw Tyler had tweeted a picture of the four others in the car behind us. I naturally favorite and retweet it. I scroll through my twitter feed and see a tweet from Harry that catches my eye.

@Harry_Styles: Mrs. All American I’ll show you why. You’re not gonna walk away!

“You know Harry’s tweet is about you.” Abi said looking at me.

“I know. He can try, but it’s not going to work.” I said as my phone vibrated.

From: BB Caspy
Sorry babe, but no. What’s going on though?
To: BB Caspy
In the car and kind of ignoring the others. Not fun at all :(

“Why don’t you just give him another chance? He really does care about you and has fallen hard for you.” Abi said looking back down at her phone.

“I don’t want to talk about it.” I said through my gritted teeth.

“Well you need to. I see the looks you give Zoe, Nikki, Tarah, and I when we talk about our boyfriends. Maybe you should get over whatever is wrong with you and talk to him.” Abi said pushing me to the edge. Connor and I made eye contact and he could tell shit was about to go down.

“Maybe you should get your head out of your ass and realize that I look at you like that because I am fucking happy for my best friends slash sisters. Maybe you should worry about your own relationship with Luke and stop worrying about my non-existent one with Harry. Is that too hard for you to do?” I shouted causing the whole car to get silent. For the next twenty minutes the car was silent and everyone besides Connor were on their phone. A message from Michael popped up on my screen.

From: Clifford the Big Red Dog
Hey heard you had a big blow up. Need to talk to someone about it?

To: Clifford the Big Red Dog
Yes?

I rolled onto my side so my face was facing the back of the seats I’m lying on. I put my earbuds in and continued to text Mikey. When we got to the hotel I got my bags and got out of the car without saying a word to anyone. Connor checked into the hotel he and I are sharing and I just followed him up to the room. When we got there I put my phone on its charger and took a shower. It wasn’t a short shower either, it was almost an hour long.

“I’m going out to dinner with the others. Want to come along?” Connor asked as I walked into the room with my pajamas on and my hair in two braids.

“Nope. I’ll just get room service.” I replied and he nodded his head. He walked out the room and as soon as the door closed I picked my phone up and called my mom.

“Mommy?” I asked when I heard noise.

“Hi Clair. Are you ok?” she asked with worry laced into her voice.

“I’m fine, but I have something to ask you and daddy.” I said pulling my knees into my chest. I heard my mom call my dad down and then I heard a click.

“Ok honey you’re on speaker. What do you need to talk to us about?” my mom asked and I took a deep breathe.

“I want to make a video about my depression. Not just the fact that I’m depressed, but the reason I am depressed.” I said hoping everything will go well.

“You know only the seven of us and your grandparents know why. Are you read for all your friends and the world to know why? Are you ready for the world to look at you differently?” my mom asked me sounding too unsure herself.

“I don’t want you to tell anyone.” My dad said and I sighed.

“Believe it or not dad, but this may actually help me more than it can hurt me at the moment. Everyone tells me to talk it out with someone or just talk about it and have someone listen. Well why not talk about it to my viewers and to finally let the people I love know about me and be there to support me?” I asked.

“If you do it you are no longer my daughter.” My dad said and I heard my mom gasp.

“Why? Is it because I want to get better and I want to talk about it instead of keeping it all inside?” I asked back with frustration evident in my voice.

“No it’s because you would be airing our family’s dirty laundry for the whole world to see.” My dad said.

“Well I guess you have one less daughter. I have to go.” I said hanging up my phone without waiting for a goodbye. I set it on the bedside table and laid down.
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The next thing I knew an alarm was going off. I totally forgot about the meeting at headquarters. I reach over to turn the alarm off.

“Bonnie wake up.” I groaned as I sat up with my legs dangling off the side of my bed.

“You get ready first. I’m too tired.” He said rolling over and putting a pillow over his head. I sighed and walked over to my suitcase to pick out my outfit for the day. Once I had it picked out I took another shower since I really wanted to think about things. When I was dressedand fully ready I walked out and saw Connor dressed and ready.

“Dad called me.” Connor said and I nodded my head and picked up my phone and put it in my pocket before leaning against the wall.

“He is now only your dad. I just want to go to the meeting.” I said before walking out of the room. When I got to the lobby all of the others were standing there.

“Hey babes.” Tarah said coming and giving me a hug.

“Hey Tar. Ready to go guys?” I asked avoiding eye contact with Abi.

“Can I talk to you for a second Clair?” Abi spoke up. I nodded my head and followed her to a corner to the room.

“So?” I asked waiting for her to begin.

“I’m sorry about yesterday. I know better than to push you, but I did anyways. I know he hurt you and I also know you still have feelings for him.” Abi said.

“I do, but I don’t want to get hurt more than I am.” I said.

“He won’t hurt you trust me. He cares about you way too much.” Abi said putting her arm around my shoulder.

“But what is he does?” I asked her.

“What if he doesn’t?” she asked me.

“If he breaks you don’t worry because you have all of us who have your back.” Abi said and I gave her a hug.

“I’ll text him later.” I said and she cheered before we ran out of the building to the car that was waiting for us. When we got to headquarters it was a ten minute wait until the meeting, but one it was time we were led to a big conference room.

“Good morning guys.” Adam, the tour coordinator, said as he walked into the room.

“Hi.” We all chorused.

“Ok well let’s get this meeting started. It will include all nine of you and Cimorelli will join you for the tour as well. Even though we know Connor, you quit O2L a couple months ago, but we were thinking for three of the shows the other boys come and you guys dance to the O2L song and have a little segment.” Adam said.

“I’m in to it. I’ll ask the others tonight.” Connor said and Adam nodded his head.

“Could we possibly have themes?” I asked.

“Sure. What kind of themes were you thinking?” Adam asked.

“Pajamas, costumes, and other fun things like that.” I said and he nodded his head. The rest of the meeting went well.

“So are you going to text him?” Abi asked me as we walked out the building. I nodded my head and pulled out my phone.

To: Harry
Hi

Notes

Hey guys! What do you think is going to happen for Clairry? Comment below and tell us what you think will happen.