Until Next Time (Liam Payne)

I arrive in Germany on a beautiful day. I am put up in a quaint bed and breakfast that is so cute and done in the old Germany style. I really like this set up. It has all the modern conveniences just has that 'old world look'. I get settled and give Liam a call to let him know I made it and am settled. He's been in the studio all day and is stoked, hyper to be exact. He's so excited, hes telling me everything and all at once. I just sit and listen, I love to hear him happy. I tell him about the B&B and how romantic it is. He plans on joining me on Friday. I hang up because I have so much to do to get ready for the morning.
Thankfully everyone can speak English. I was some what worried there would be a language barrier and it would slow things down. Everyone is on board with the changes so this should be a very smooth week.
There is so much to see in Germany, I just don't think I can cover the entire country in a matter of 2 days max. There are museums, castles and gardens that I'd like to visit. This is one place I'd love to come back to on vacation.
The work week flies by. I haven't been home in going on my third week, and as excited as I am about seeing Liam, I cant wait to get home and be able to sleep in my bed.
Alone.
I try not to think about it, just think about seeing him. I get a ride to the airport to pick him up and am beside my self when I see him. I can honestly say he gets better looking and sexier every time I see him. He smiles when he sees me and as soon as I can, I run towards him I am so happy to see him! We have a Hollywood moment, you know the one where she runs into his arms and he swings her around . . . well, that was us. I wish I could have had someone there to get a picture. We get back in the cab and head out to find something to eat. The cab driver tells us of a quaint restaurant that has all the best of German food and beer. I order some kraut and bratwurst and wine, Liam a different sausage and a German beer. A little different by delicious! The B&B wasn't too far away so we decide we would walk and enjoy seeing the shops on the way.
Were both tired from the week. He's been in the studio and is beaming telling me about what all he was able accomplish and the sound he was hoping to accomplish was a success. I sit on the bed and listen as he is getting out of the shower. I decide I'll get ready for bed and go to look for something to put on.
"What are you doing?" he turns and asks as hes brushing his teeth.
"Getting ready for bed, getting some night clothes." I say kind of questioning, since it is rather obvious what I'm doing.
"You'll not be needing those, well, right now anyway." and he spits in the sink. Very romantic.
He saunters over to where I am with a towel wrapped around him and starts kissing my neck. He unfastens my bra and places one hand on my breast while moving my hair out of the way on my neck. He knows how to get me every time. I'm like putty in his hands. I turn around and loosen his towel so it drops, manhood at full attention. We lay on the bed and kiss and touch each other. Its like we havent seen each other in years. I cant keep my hands off his chest. I believe he has kissed every part of my body and lingered in other places til I thought I couldn't stand it any more. We stop and he just look into my eyes. I love his eyes, you can see the care and tenderness in them. He moves over on top of me and we make love so passionately. We've had some good sex but this was on a different level. Slow and easy with every feeling and fiber in your body. It was so intense when I came, a tear slid out of my eye. Thankfully he didn't see the tear. I have never been one to let others see my emotions or wear them out on my sleeve but this man has me doing and experiencing things, I never thought possible.
We awake Saturday morning to rain. I really don't feel like sight seeing today. I just want to stay in and he agrees. We get dressed and go down for breakfast. After a very filling meal we go back up to the room.
He has a very serious look on his face. "We need to talk"
I'm not liking the look of this. "OK, what about?"
"About us."
My heart drops to my stomach. Where did this come from?
"We need to be honest with each other and ourselves, are we going to continue seeing each other like this. You understand my career and I understand yours. Would either one of us give theirs up for the other? For one, I cant, I'm under contract. We just need to decide this before too much more is invested in this. So much has been invested already and were both going to be hurt no matter what happens."
I'm so taken back, I cant even cry. Somehow I knew this was going to happen. All the great things must come to an end, but he is right. How can we continue seeing each other every other weekend, on a good month, and especially since he will be on the other side of the world in a few months for a few months.
"I completely I agree" and I start crying.
"I knew you would, but I wish you wouldn't cry" He says as he pulls me close.
"There really is no other way around it" I say as he holds me tight.
"I've come to love your company and you."
"And I you" I pull back some and look at him, his eyes are glassy.
He wipes the tears off my cheek. "I have enjoyed every moment of every day spent with you. I don't want you to think ever, that I haven't."
"I know you have because I have too. But if we are to be honest with ourselves, we both know that this will be for the best," I say agreeing with him.
"Lets do this, we spend the rest of the day inside with each other. When we leave tomorrow it will be as every other time, just longer. I cant bear to tell you good bye or you, me."
I agree with him and lay my head on his chest. I can hear the rain hitting the panes of the window. What fitting weather. He holds me there. I lay there not wanting to move. We slide down onto the pillows and lay there facing each other kissing. I want this moment to last forever. I rest my head on his chest and slide into sleep, him holding me.
I don't know how long I slept, I was emotionally spent. I woke up to him still holding me, he had nodded off also.
Our flights were to leave that evening.
"I guess we'd better pack" its all I know to say.
He agrees and starts packing.
I believe this is the saddest part of my life up til now. Were both sad. We don't really know what to say.
"Please tell me I'm not going to see a tabloid write up that you were seeing someone on the side."
"Never. Ever." he says.
After we are both finished packing he hugs me and have a final kiss. I will miss his lips. I trace them one last time and kiss them. He smiles back and kisses me again.
"Shall we go?"
He head downstairs to the waiting car. The drive to the airport is silent. We hold hands the entire time. In the airport its time for us to split up, a quick kiss, I turn and walk away. I cant turn and look at him or I'll loose it.
The flight back I sleep, its my way of shutting everything off so I don't dwell on it or deal with it right now, especially in public. It will have to wait til I get home.
I make my way into my condo and everything is the same. It feels like I haven't been home in years. The familiarity is what I need now. My comfort zone. I take my things to the bedroom. and start unpacking. I almost feel numb, just going through the motions. I throw my clothes in the washer and notice something isn't mine. One of his t shirts. I pick it up and put it to my nose. That smell in the elevator. I am instantly back there, that night. Do I wash it ? I decide not to . I will when I'm ready. I am then reminded of the cocktail dress from Vegas. No, will not go smell it, tonight anyways. My phone chimes letting me know I have a text. I open it.
Just wanting to make sure you made it in
I smile and answer,
Yep made it in and you
Same here, still thinking of you
and Dont you forget about me - LOL
LOL, bye love
I smile and put my phone down.
Monday morning I am awakened by my alarm clock and decide to call Human Resources.
"Did I use all my time when I was out with my accident?"
"No you didn't. You've accumulated quite a bit actually."
"Good, can you put me down off for this week and next. I need to emotionally unwind."
"Gotcha down"
I sigh a sigh of relief. and just sit there. I need to be by myself for a little while and collect myself.
All day Monday I watch Netflix in bed.
Tuesday I sleep in and am awakened by my door bell ringing. I peek through the blinds and its a UPS man. I open the door and sign for a medium sized package. I put it on the table and open it. There's a smaller box inside with Cartier written on it. Inside a beautiful watch. No note inside. I look at the watch and notice an inscription.
Until next time - Liam

Notes

Yes, I know, it came on suddenly, but isnt that the way life is . . . .? We dont know what tomorrow holds or how its going to hit us square in the face. Yet, we get up and move on.
BUT - this is only part A. Part B is coming. A has been in the works for months now, B is still in my head.
I will start on B tomorrow.
Thank you @not_any_maryjane and all you others for your positive comments.
This is not the end ;)