SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER

Libby's outfit for the date
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TWO DAYS LATER

I slid the thick, black and white bracelets over my arms, adjusting them perfectly to hid the bright red marks across my skin. I winced as I accidentally slid a finger over my wrist, staring at the reflection in the mirror.


I looked disgusting.


Dark rings had formed underneath my eyes while my skin was pale. The messages had gotten worse. Tell me to end it for once and all, and I actually started believing them. My lips were cracked, red marks all over my arms and legs from the constant scratching, voices in my head tell me to. It had only been two days of constant torture from the public and already I was on the verge of insanity.


"Libby, you ready?" A soft knock at the door and it creaked open, pulling down the sleeves of my jumper and turning to face Harry. He looked fine, but he could sense my unhappiness. I hadn't talked to any of the boys for the past few days. I had slept, ate, looked at hate comments and had become a dark and depressed teenager all over again. Harry hadn't been too good as well, the fans were giving him a hard time and you could tell, his eyes were bloodshot and he didn't have that happy vibe to him anymore.


I simply nodded before following Harry outside the bathroom and into my living area. Harry had been staying here for a while because I didn't want to go anywhere else. We were going out for lunch today, it was a thoughtful idea of Harry's that he had to plead and beg and whine about to get me to go. He was dressed in long black jeans that hung loosely at his hips, the black peacoat and light grey beanie fitting perfectly with it.


I quietly put my shoes and socks on, highly aware that Harry was intently watching me and I instinctively turned my arms away from his gaze. Once I was done, an arm was extended out, firmly grasping my hand and entwining his fingers with mine. I clung loosely to his side, my other hand tightly holding onto his arm while we walked out and over to the elevator.


The air was cold. Nipping uncomfortably at the exposed skin on my face, I snuggled deeper into the white scarf I was wearing, pressing further into Harry's side. We walked down a small pathway before turning left. Harry had said before that it was only a short walk from where I lived and the place we were going was Italian.


After about ten minutes of walking, and me complaining we should've just driven, we stepped into a small restaurant, the smell of italian food wafted into my nose and a smile instantly greeted my lips, the sound of chattering, italian music and the noise of meals being cooked were all I could hear. A tall, overly large man with a mustache greeted us at the front desk.

"Harry! My boy, how have you been?" Harry was engulfed into a hug and I was left there standing awkwardly.


"I'm fine, oh. Uncle Mauro this is Libby, she's…a friend" He turned to me with a large smile on his face, taking my arms and pulling me into a hug just as he did with Harry. I winced as the friction against my wrists started to irritate the cuts, pulling back quickly, making sure my shame was hidden.


"So! Table for two, right this way" Mauro cheered and we followed closely behind as he led us to a reserved section, pushed away from the hubbub of the restaurant where we could finally get some peace and not be harassed. I took my seat as Harry did the same, picking up the menu and looking at all the choices.


"I can't choose" Harry chuckled and I quietly agreed, his laughing was cut short at the sight of my gloom full self.


"Libby, what's wrong?" He looked up from his menu. I bite my lip to stop them from quivering, if I didn't act strong I'd burst into tears. Instead, I whipped up the best fake smile I could and said, "Nothing Harry. I'm fine." Harry didn't seem the slightest convinced but chose to let the subject go, returning back to his menu.


"I'll have the regular Spaghetti" He said.

"I'll have the same as you"

He replied with some sort of mumble before waving Mauro over.

"What can I get for you two?" He flipped over his note pad, waiting for Harry to answer.

"We'll both have the usual" He smiled at the man as Mauro jotted down the order, us saying yes to drinks and an extra dose of cheddar cheese on top, which even I had to laugh about.

****

"Um, Libby I want to ask you something…" I stared up from under my eyelashes at Harry, looking him dead in the eye as he spoke, "Do you like me?"

I froze on the spot, halting my actions, "H-Harry of course I do, why?"

"Because… I wanted to ask you something"

I raised my eyebrows for him to continue, "Well… I know it's been a few weeks, and we've really gotten close. Gosh- how do I say this? U-um" He nervously gulped, taking a huge sip of his water.

"Libby, will you be my girlfriend?" He looked at me with those Goddamn puppy dog eyes again, his big green iris' staring directly into my soul. His hands were shaking and I could feel he was bobbing his knee up and down.

We sat there in silence. I had absolutely no idea what to say? Was I ready to be his girlfriend yet? Was I ready for all the bullshit that was going to happen? Hell yes.

I genuinely grinned at him, leaning across the table and taking his hand in mine.

"Yes Harry…I'll be your girlfriend"

****

"Harry will you get some popcorn please?"

We lay on the couch, me in front of him with his arm securely wrapped around my waist.

"Sure thing chicken wing" He grinned and I giggled at his behavior.

"I have to go to the bathroom, I'll be right back" I got up from the couch and walked over to the hallway.

"Don't miss me!" Harry called from the kitchen and I laughed. I had felt weird today, really, really uncomfortable. I'd been getting cramps all day and I had no idea why. I wasn't pregnant, that's for sure, but I was worried.

I walked into the bathroom, combing a hand through my hair and desperately trying not to look at the sore red marks on my wrists. That's when I notice it. A small, red patch on my sweatpants, I gasped and quickly pulled them off. No. This can't be happening! Not now!

I nervously pulled off all my clothes, running the shower and hopping in. Scrubbing everywhere to get the blood off but slightly gasping in pain when the hot water hit my arms.

After quickly rinsing myself off, I got out of the shower and dried myself. pulling on a fresh pair of Pajamas while all at the same time trying to text Maddy.

To Maddy:
OMG Please help me! I think I got my period! D:

"Liberty are you alright?" Harry voice called from the outside of the door, my eyes widened as I thought of an explanation.

"Uh yeah! I'm fine!" My voice was weaker than expected.

"Liberty, let me in."

"I-I'm fine Harry, please, I'll be out in a sec go back to the living room!"

He sighed, "Libby you're scaring me, I'm coming in"

"N-no!" I yelled but before he could stop the door was pulled open, revealing a flustered looking Harry. He looked at me then down at the pile of clothes on the floor, then back up to me again.

"…Libby - " I cut him off with the sound of my sobs, Harry reacted immediately, rushing over to me and pulling me into his arms. Rocking us back and forth as I cried. Gosh I was so embarrassed, having to make Harry see this is just awful, and the worst part about it was that I had no idea what to do -- this was my first time.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He whispered into my hair.

"B-because it was awkward" I choked on a sob and he held me tighter.

"Lib, I've grown up with two women in my life, I'm pretty sure I'm not at all inexperienced when it comes to this type of stuff"

I laid my head against his chest, felling the thrum of his heartbeat.

"Do you want me to go get you something? Like pa-"

"No, Harry you don't have to, I won't make you go through that."

He chuckled, "Libby I can assure you it's fine, go lay down on the couch and I'll go and get something from the store" He placed a kiss to the top of my head, letting go of my body to look me in the eyes.

I went and laid back down on the couch, sending Harry a goodbye as I curled up into the mountains of blankets and pillows Harry had grabbed from the cupboard.

****

"Here, I got you some of these, I uh didn't know which ones so I bought one of each." He held up a plastic bag filled of lady products, oh God, I was going to melt into a pile of molten lava.

"I also bought some chocolate and a heating pack"

My face heated up as I walked back into the bathroom, reading the instructions because I had no idea what-so-ever on how to put these things on, and after about fifteen minutes I was finally finished.

I walked into my bedroom to see Harry sprawled out on the bed, he turned to look at me with e childish grin on his face, "You done?"

"Mhm"

"Good, because I'm tired and I need to give my girlfriend cuddles" He stretched his arms out and I laughed, falling into bed as his arms wrapped around me and I snuggled into him.

"Thank you, Harry" I looked up at him to see him staring at me.

"Anything for you" He kissed the top of my head.

"Nah, gimme a real kiss" I told him before leaning up and pressing my lips to his. Not doing anything else, just enjoying others presence.

I traced patterns against his abs, making him shiver. I smiled into the kiss as I had finally found one of his weaknesses.

We pulled apart, breathless and panting. It was only now that I had realized that something was forming in the pit of my stomach. A new sensation was pooling and I was afraid, afraid of what that could be. The hate and comments hadn't stopped, while I texted Maddy I checked Twitter, if it wasn't for the situation I was in, let's just say I wouldn't be happy right now.

We lay there in silence, peaceful silence as I remembered what I'd been through over a year ago. I told myself I wasn't going to get that way again, I wasn't going to become that person all over again, not in front of the boys, not in front of Maddy;

Not in front of Harry.

But I wouldn't be able to keep my cuts from Harry all the while longer, he was going to find out. I knew it. But for now I'll savor the moment.

Because he was mine, and I was his, and everything in the world that moment, was right.

Notes

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