The Love Countdown
twelve;
Kissing Harry was one of the best experiences of my fourteen years of existence.
Now, I am no expert in the art of kissing, but Harry didn't seem to mind which made me feel at least little better.
What frustrated me was the fact that he had the audacity to talk about the tour with me. He knows that yes, of course I would be going on tour with them so why would he bother to ask? I don't like being alone. There, I'm just going to come out and say it. Being alone in other experiences hasn't gone as well as I'd hoped.
I have anxiety, which means I worry about everything. I still do worry about things; like how I don't think I'm good enough for Harry, even though he's told me time and time again that I am.
He was being severely weird these past few weeks, he'd been staring at my thighs overtime I wore a pair of short shorts and whenever it came to touching my legs he would gently skim over the skin. He was bugging me, I wish he'd tell me.
"There's a beach party tonight" Harry mumbled into my neck. We were currently sitting on the floor in Niall and Zayn's apartment, watching the other boys playing the Nintendo, vigorously shouting at each other I may add.
"Mmm" I smiled and he nuzzled his nose into my neck, God. This boy was going to make me melt like butter.
"Do you wanna go? The boys and the other girls are going, there'll be a bonfire"
I grunted in response, telling Harry that I would like to go. "What time is it?" I whispered, like we were having our own secret conversation, between no one else, just us.
"It starts at 8, finishes whenever,?"
"Okay" I smiled up at him.
Harry rested his chin on my shoulder, tightly wrapping his arms around my waist while I was positioned in between his legs. I was feeling self-conscious, showing my legs in public was a bit nerve wracking, the scars were still noticeable, and I silently prayed that there was heaps of light around the party so no one would see my legs.
****
"Louis hurry up!" Liam groaned.
We were waiting in the car for over twenty minutes, everyone was ready except for Louis. He sauntered his way out of the front door and over to the car.
"What took you so long?" I asked.
"I was applying sunscreen" He grinned to himself and rubbed his hands over his arms.
"Louis it is night time, what are you going to do? Get moon burnt?" I rolled my eyes as he gasped, "Hey! I looked that up on the internet and apparently that it's real! I'm not taking risks!"
This time, every one in the car groaned at the same time while Louis scoffed.
****
"We're here!" Harry cheered excitedly.
"Thank God"
"Finally"
"I hope there's food"
We piled out of the car, helping take things like chairs, eskys, towels and blankets. Harry stood beside be the whole time we walked to the party, I could already here the music and people talking from a few hundred meters away.
"There's a lot of people I'd like you to meet" Harry whispered in my ear, such a simple gesture had my knees weakening. The slight minty smell of breath sending chills down my spine, his breath fanning the back of my neck.
As we entered the party, a chorus of 'Heeyyys' could be heard from everywhere. Geez, when Harry said a lot of people he really meant a lot of people.
There was huge bonfire in the middle, people sat in a circle around it just talking, laughing and genuinely having a good time. I pulled out one of the beach chairs and placed it in the sand, I grabbed a can of lemonade and sat back down on the chair. I listened in on the conversation the group was having, I didn't really know any of these people so it was really awkward.
"So, are you Harry's girlfriend?" A girl with dark red hair asked.
I gulped nervously as they all stared at me, "U-um, not yet, but he's kissed me before"
A chorus of 'Awws' erupted from the girls in the group while the boys just scoffed, thank heavens Harry wasn't here or he'd be going into great detail of our kiss.
"I'm Sarah, this is Charlie, and over there next to the boys is Leah" I red head introduced all the girls and they greeted me with smiles.
"You seem younger than Harry?"
I nodded, "I'm fourteen"
Sarah almost choked on her drink, I blushed and played with the straw in my drink, "Wow" One of the girls muttered and I scrunched my eyebrows in frustration.
"What's so bad about me being younger than him?"
Sarah looked at me like it was the most obvious thing in the world, "You're still a kid"
I stood up from my seat, crushing the can in my hand and throwing it into the bin, "So what? Age is a number, it doesn't mean shit" I spat, I was really pissed off with these girls, who cares if I'm younger than Harry? It wasn't my choice to be with him. Fate brought us together.
"Now if you'll excuse me, I'll be going because I'd rather hang out with the boys than judgemental bitches like you"
A gasp tumbled from Sarah's lips, her lips frowning as I stormed out of the circle and over to where Niall and Zayn were.
"Where's Harry, Liam and Louis?"
The looked at me nervously, looking anywhere but my eyes, "U-um"
****
"LIberrtttyyyy baby" Harry's husky voice slurred from beside me, he wobbled up to my side and wrapping an arm around waist. His breath reeked of alcohol, his eyes were red an bloodshot and glazed over.
"Harry are you drunk?!"
"No" He giggled and leaned into me more, making me almost trip over if it wasn't for Niall standing beside me. Just then Louis and Liam came stumbling out of the pathway where we entered before. Liam didn't seem drunk but Louis looked as if he was going to throw up any minute, he was singing loudly, I have no idea what he was singing about but he seemed so into it that I didn't bother to ask.
"Are you all drunk!?!" I hissed.
"Where'd you guys go? You were gone for like an hour" Niall groaned.
"Can we go now?" I tugged on Harrys shirt as Liam nodded, I pulled Harry along with me, walking past the bonfire and moving up towards the car, Niall, Liam and Zayn had collected the beach chairs and towels and we scrambled into the car, I gently placed Harry into the seat and pulled his seatbelt over, leaning over him to click the belt in.
"Woah Liberty if you wanted to do that you could've just asked" I shooed him away, not dealing with his drunken state right now.
****
"I'll see you guys tomorrow" I said goodnight to the boys and dragged Harry to his bedroom, he was still drunk and weighed a tonne.
I put him down on his bed and he rolled over to face me, smiling like the drunk idiot he was as I walked into his wardrobe, grabbing the sweat pants and sweat shirt he first gave me to where when I first met him, "Turn around" I said to Harry, he pouted and rolled over to the other side of the bed, I stripped down into my underwear before pulling the sweatshirt over my head and pulling up the sweatpants. I turned around to walk over to the other die of the bed to seeing Harry looking at me, the biggest fucking smirk on his face, I'm guessing he decided to be a twat and turn around while I was changing.
"Harry!" I squealed and slipped underneath the covers, moving as close to the edge as I could. Before I could do anything, arms snaked around my waist pulling back and colliding with the owners chest, Harry leaned his head in the crook of my neck, planting kisses to the side of my neck, "Go to sleep, Harry" I murmured and tried to pry his hands off me but it didn't seem to work, only making him more determined.
"Stop" I breathed, his hand trailed down to the waistband of my sweatpants, tracing the band causing me to shiver, I felt his smile into my neck, knowing I was going to cave in.
It took all my courage and conscious to break free from him, he looked at me wearingly, his face fell and he slumped into the pillows.
"Harry, you're drunk" I sighed.
"Can you at least let me hold you?" His voice was small, quiet like a lost child. I felt sorry for him, so I moved closer to him again and he placed his hands around my waist, I kissed his forehead and hovered my lips over his ear, making him shudder,
"Good Night Harry."
Now, I am no expert in the art of kissing, but Harry didn't seem to mind which made me feel at least little better.
What frustrated me was the fact that he had the audacity to talk about the tour with me. He knows that yes, of course I would be going on tour with them so why would he bother to ask? I don't like being alone. There, I'm just going to come out and say it. Being alone in other experiences hasn't gone as well as I'd hoped.
I have anxiety, which means I worry about everything. I still do worry about things; like how I don't think I'm good enough for Harry, even though he's told me time and time again that I am.
He was being severely weird these past few weeks, he'd been staring at my thighs overtime I wore a pair of short shorts and whenever it came to touching my legs he would gently skim over the skin. He was bugging me, I wish he'd tell me.
"There's a beach party tonight" Harry mumbled into my neck. We were currently sitting on the floor in Niall and Zayn's apartment, watching the other boys playing the Nintendo, vigorously shouting at each other I may add.
"Mmm" I smiled and he nuzzled his nose into my neck, God. This boy was going to make me melt like butter.
"Do you wanna go? The boys and the other girls are going, there'll be a bonfire"
I grunted in response, telling Harry that I would like to go. "What time is it?" I whispered, like we were having our own secret conversation, between no one else, just us.
"It starts at 8, finishes whenever,?"
"Okay" I smiled up at him.
Harry rested his chin on my shoulder, tightly wrapping his arms around my waist while I was positioned in between his legs. I was feeling self-conscious, showing my legs in public was a bit nerve wracking, the scars were still noticeable, and I silently prayed that there was heaps of light around the party so no one would see my legs.
****
"Louis hurry up!" Liam groaned.
We were waiting in the car for over twenty minutes, everyone was ready except for Louis. He sauntered his way out of the front door and over to the car.
"What took you so long?" I asked.
"I was applying sunscreen" He grinned to himself and rubbed his hands over his arms.
"Louis it is night time, what are you going to do? Get moon burnt?" I rolled my eyes as he gasped, "Hey! I looked that up on the internet and apparently that it's real! I'm not taking risks!"
This time, every one in the car groaned at the same time while Louis scoffed.
****
"We're here!" Harry cheered excitedly.
"Thank God"
"Finally"
"I hope there's food"
We piled out of the car, helping take things like chairs, eskys, towels and blankets. Harry stood beside be the whole time we walked to the party, I could already here the music and people talking from a few hundred meters away.
"There's a lot of people I'd like you to meet" Harry whispered in my ear, such a simple gesture had my knees weakening. The slight minty smell of breath sending chills down my spine, his breath fanning the back of my neck.
As we entered the party, a chorus of 'Heeyyys' could be heard from everywhere. Geez, when Harry said a lot of people he really meant a lot of people.
There was huge bonfire in the middle, people sat in a circle around it just talking, laughing and genuinely having a good time. I pulled out one of the beach chairs and placed it in the sand, I grabbed a can of lemonade and sat back down on the chair. I listened in on the conversation the group was having, I didn't really know any of these people so it was really awkward.
"So, are you Harry's girlfriend?" A girl with dark red hair asked.
I gulped nervously as they all stared at me, "U-um, not yet, but he's kissed me before"
A chorus of 'Awws' erupted from the girls in the group while the boys just scoffed, thank heavens Harry wasn't here or he'd be going into great detail of our kiss.
"I'm Sarah, this is Charlie, and over there next to the boys is Leah" I red head introduced all the girls and they greeted me with smiles.
"You seem younger than Harry?"
I nodded, "I'm fourteen"
Sarah almost choked on her drink, I blushed and played with the straw in my drink, "Wow" One of the girls muttered and I scrunched my eyebrows in frustration.
"What's so bad about me being younger than him?"
Sarah looked at me like it was the most obvious thing in the world, "You're still a kid"
I stood up from my seat, crushing the can in my hand and throwing it into the bin, "So what? Age is a number, it doesn't mean shit" I spat, I was really pissed off with these girls, who cares if I'm younger than Harry? It wasn't my choice to be with him. Fate brought us together.
"Now if you'll excuse me, I'll be going because I'd rather hang out with the boys than judgemental bitches like you"
A gasp tumbled from Sarah's lips, her lips frowning as I stormed out of the circle and over to where Niall and Zayn were.
"Where's Harry, Liam and Louis?"
The looked at me nervously, looking anywhere but my eyes, "U-um"
****
"LIberrtttyyyy baby" Harry's husky voice slurred from beside me, he wobbled up to my side and wrapping an arm around waist. His breath reeked of alcohol, his eyes were red an bloodshot and glazed over.
"Harry are you drunk?!"
"No" He giggled and leaned into me more, making me almost trip over if it wasn't for Niall standing beside me. Just then Louis and Liam came stumbling out of the pathway where we entered before. Liam didn't seem drunk but Louis looked as if he was going to throw up any minute, he was singing loudly, I have no idea what he was singing about but he seemed so into it that I didn't bother to ask.
"Are you all drunk!?!" I hissed.
"Where'd you guys go? You were gone for like an hour" Niall groaned.
"Can we go now?" I tugged on Harrys shirt as Liam nodded, I pulled Harry along with me, walking past the bonfire and moving up towards the car, Niall, Liam and Zayn had collected the beach chairs and towels and we scrambled into the car, I gently placed Harry into the seat and pulled his seatbelt over, leaning over him to click the belt in.
"Woah Liberty if you wanted to do that you could've just asked" I shooed him away, not dealing with his drunken state right now.
****
"I'll see you guys tomorrow" I said goodnight to the boys and dragged Harry to his bedroom, he was still drunk and weighed a tonne.
I put him down on his bed and he rolled over to face me, smiling like the drunk idiot he was as I walked into his wardrobe, grabbing the sweat pants and sweat shirt he first gave me to where when I first met him, "Turn around" I said to Harry, he pouted and rolled over to the other side of the bed, I stripped down into my underwear before pulling the sweatshirt over my head and pulling up the sweatpants. I turned around to walk over to the other die of the bed to seeing Harry looking at me, the biggest fucking smirk on his face, I'm guessing he decided to be a twat and turn around while I was changing.
"Harry!" I squealed and slipped underneath the covers, moving as close to the edge as I could. Before I could do anything, arms snaked around my waist pulling back and colliding with the owners chest, Harry leaned his head in the crook of my neck, planting kisses to the side of my neck, "Go to sleep, Harry" I murmured and tried to pry his hands off me but it didn't seem to work, only making him more determined.
"Stop" I breathed, his hand trailed down to the waistband of my sweatpants, tracing the band causing me to shiver, I felt his smile into my neck, knowing I was going to cave in.
It took all my courage and conscious to break free from him, he looked at me wearingly, his face fell and he slumped into the pillows.
"Harry, you're drunk" I sighed.
"Can you at least let me hold you?" His voice was small, quiet like a lost child. I felt sorry for him, so I moved closer to him again and he placed his hands around my waist, I kissed his forehead and hovered my lips over his ear, making him shudder,
"Good Night Harry."
Notes
Aw I thought the ending was cute <33Anyways, I'm sorry I didn't update Wednesday like I said :( I had an assignment to finish and totally forgot about updating.
omg I changed the rating to 'R' because smut you feel me.
And for the people who have no idea what an esky is, it's like a drink cooler or however Americans say it, it's like where you put drinks and other stuff so yeah ignore my Australian slang it's really weird I know
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So whenever the chapter has like smut or what ever I'm putting a little '**' in the chapter name so if you don't like smut then don't read it, but I'll most likely put '++' when there's a smut scene and I'll put one at the end of the scene so you don't have to read it and just scroll down to the other part of the chapter yeah? yeah? no? ok
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P.S I WAS WRITING THIS CHAPTER AND BEST SONG EVER CAME ON
Yaaaass! I can't wait for the sequel! Congrats on the seats! Have fun at the concert!
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