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THE DEATH OF ME

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In the past fortnight I had a flow of visitors, Eleanor and Perrie who came every day to keep me company, and make sure I have something better to eat then the hospital food. Louis was over a lot and so was Niall, Demi and Ed. Liam came a few times with school work, and kept me up to date with what was going on in school. Sam would pop in his head when he would get in every day and say goodbye before leaving. When I would go sit by Nan he would leave the room giving some space, though other than that we had little to do with each other which was fine with me.

I still have so many questions to ask him but for now I keep quiet, not wanting to get Harry all worked up over it. Harry. He can't stand Sam. He gets all tensed when Sam's around, and when I asked him about it he just shrugs it off saying he doesn't trust him one bit.

"Is she a good witch or a bad witch then?" Harry questions me. We are laying on my hospital bed a laptop on Harry’s lap while watching Frozen.
"She isn't a witch- she just happens to have magic," I explain.
"So she is a witch," Harry claims of Elsa.
"No," I sigh and snuggle up to him. Today we will find out if I can go home later or if I need to stay another day.
"You're not even watching- you're falling asleep so how would you know?" Harry taunts.
"Am not! And I've seen this already so I know, it’s just like unicorns have special powers right? Are they witches then too?" I playfully swat at his arm.
"Wait- With who did you watch this?" Harry looks down at me raising a brow.
"Nan," I mumble. It is hard going on with life while knowing Nan is here, not moving, not anything.
She isn’t breathing on her own yet and being monitored, the doctors aren't too hopeful of her waking up. Even though I won’t hear of it. Anytime Dr. Dean comes around to talk to me about getting her off life support I push him away. Thankfully Sam keeps quiet and doesn’t try to reason, leaving it all up to me.
There is a knock on the door and both Harry and I look up.

"What the fuck do you think you are doing here?!" Harry growls.
"Chill Styles, I just came to return your keys to you," Ben takes a step into the room.
"Keys? What?" I glance from Harry to Ben in confusion.
"Why? You won them fair and square," Harry answers ignoring me.
"No! I won because you forfeited- and know that I heard the reason I want to reschedule," Ben demands.
"What's this?" I sit up, wincing, which makes Harry turn and touch my back for support.
"You haven't told her?" Ben scoffs.
"No point," Harry shrugs.
"Rematch Styles," Ben says tossing the keys onto the bed.
"And Cassie, I hope you feel better," He tells me before walking out of the room. The movie was still playing in the background but we weren't paying attention.

"Is this what I think it is?" I point at the keys that Harry retrieved.
"Let it go Cass," Harry warns me.
"No- Tell me! Why did Ben have your keys," I demand to know.
"I don't want to talk about it!" Harry snaps getting of the bed and walking to the door.
"You lost your car because of me? Because of the accident?! Why? You should have raced and then come rushing!" I try to reason.
"What's the fucking point of talking about it now? I got the car back didn't I? Why can't you fucking let it go?" Harry shouts at me.
"I guess this isn't a good time to let you know you are free to go home as soon as your uncle signs the forms?" Dr. Dean peeks into the room.

"I can finally take her home?" Harry turns to glance at him seeming to forget all about our argument.
"Yes indeed, I must say you will be missed," He smiles at me.
"What about Nan?" I question, not wanting to go home without her.
"I'm afraid she'll have to stay here with us," The Doctor replies, eyeing me.
"So I reckon you'll be seeing more of me then," I sigh.
"Be sure to stop by and say hello when you're over," He beams.
I don't want to leave Nan at the hospital alone, but I know I have no choice, since Olivia will be over at my house to make sure I am indeed staying there and keeping up a normal life, not one of sitting by Nan’s bed all day.
"I'm going to find Sam, make sure he will be signing those forms," Harry steps out, a phone to his ear already.

I stay in my room alone, and finally shut the movie playing. I am much better. The bruises are fading and the scratches are less noticeable. I get out of bed slowly since I'm still in pain, taking my pills every so often to settle the ache.
I start to collect my things around the room. My phone and school things Liam brought over. I look around and it registers I have no clothes to go home in. The first day Eleanor came over she brought with her pajamas she picked up from the mall so I won't need to spend my days here in the hospital gown, but now I had nothing normal to change into.
"Tell me how much you love me!" Eleanor bursts through the door just then a Zara bag in her hand.
"Is that? Did you? I love you to the moon and back," I smile widely, as she kissed my cheek careful not to hug me so she doesn't cause me pain.
"I got you this last week! It was waiting for you to get released, and Harry just called me as I got off of work," She smiles.
Eleanor helps me change into the new jeans she got and a comfy sweater.
"No pal, I'm taking her home," I hear Harry growl at someone. Eleanor furrows her brows at me as we waited for him to walk through the door. Sure enough he does, followed by Sam.
"You get to go home today, excited?" He shoves his hands into his pockets.
"Guess so, though I need to go say goodbye to Nan," I tell him, walking passed him and Harry slowly and towards Nan's room down the hall.

I know how I sound. Like a two year old that is sure Nan will wake up like the sleeping beauty and come home and we'll live happily ever after. I know what everyone is saying, I do hear them but I just can't let it sink in right now, I can't let her go just yet, I need more time.

"Nan," I whisper as I take my seat by her bedside and hold her hand.
"I get to go home today, and it will be weird not having you there.. I don't want to leave you here but I don't really have a choice, because that Olivia woman will be up and about my busyness. Sam will be at home, which is why you have to get better and come home soon, I really am not sure how much more of him I can take.. Eleanor brought me new ‘going home’ clothes which was extremely nice of her.. I'll be back tomorrow to see how you are.. I love you," I sigh and bend slowly to kiss her cheek. Then, I walk slowly out, shutting the door after me.

"Are you ready?" Sam asks.
"Harry will drive me home," I let him know, noticing Harry's smirk.
"Fine, I'll be following," He pouts and lets Eleanor and I pass him so we can walk with Harry.
Eleanor had her own car with her, so she'll be following us in it too.
I walk slowly making sure not to move my middle part more than necessary.
"Is it time for another pill?" Harry questions, looking concerned. I nod and once in the car take one.
Harry starts the car, but doesn't put it in drive before leaning over and kissing my lips.
"How are you feeling?" He asks in a low voice.
"I'll be alright," I hope.
We start driving and I grip the door of the car trying to push the images of my last drive out of my head. Harry who I reckon noticed tries his best in driving safely and in the speed limit.
"Err you missed the turn to my house," I note.
"I know we need to detour for a moment," He answers. Soon I understand where we are headed.

When I step out the car, Eleanor is already parked and waiting for me patiently.
"Why are we here?" I question my voice stern remembering my last time here.
"Because Ed has a gig which we promised to stop by, and Demi, Niall and everyone want to see you," Eleanor explains in a cheery voice linking our arms together. We step inside followed by Harry.
Ed is in the middle of the song he performed on ‘The chatty man’. When Harry catches his eye he sluts him and Ed winks, sending attention our way.
"Cassie!" Perrie and Zayn notice me first, and they both pace over to welcome me back. Soon after, the rest of the gang comes over.
"I'm so glad you're out," Demi hugs me softly.
"When you think you'll be back at work? I miss you," Niall kisses my cheek.
"I don't know.. I'll need to see," I sigh. I notice Sam walk in looking for me through the crowd.
"What the hell Cassie? You are supposed to go home!" He tells me off.
"Chill mate, have a beer," Louis pulls him over to the bar.
"No, I'm taking her home!" He states, but I am no longer listening to him since Ed demands our attention.
"So this is a new song I wrote about my best friend, and I would love you to be the first to share it with," Ed says into his microphone. Harry steps behind me, wrapping his arms gently around my middle, and resting his chine on the top of my head.

"Loving can heart..
Loving can hurt sometimes, but it's the only thing that I know.." He starts to sing. The melody is beautiful but something about the lyrics felt familiar.
"So you can keep me inside the pocket of your ripped jeans,
Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet, you won't ever be alone..
Wait for me to come home.."
"Is this.. it can't be can it?" I ask Harry.
"Shhh just listen," He kisses my cheek.
"Loving can heal.. Loving can mend your soul.."
It is.. It’s that conversation Harry and I had- that fight- Ed put it into his song!
"When I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost back on Sixth street
Hearing you whisper through the phone,
Wait for me to come home."

"That is about us!" I exclaim turning to face Harry.
"It is," He smiles down at me, his dimples glowing in the shacks light.
"Our lamp post- gosh that was beautiful," I gush.
"Can we go now?" Sam sounds irritated.
"Yes, after I thank Ed," I tell him, making my way slowly over to him.

“Cassie!” Ed beams when he sees me making my way to him. He hurries to my side stopping a man from pushing into me with his arm.
“Thanks- gosh Ed that was just lovely!” I gush.
“You liked it then?” He grins.
“Sixth Street? I love it!!! Thank you,” I hug him tightly.
“Watch it Cassie, you might hurt yourself,” Harry’s voice is sound in back of me.
“I’m happy you’re out,” Ed says.
“Yeah.. Come visit me tomorrow will you? At home? I’ll be waiting,” I yell as Harry pulls me away waving goodbye to Ed and promising to call him later.

Sam was waiting by the door looking cross, but I didn’t care, I was overwhelmed by my wonderful friends and their warm ‘welcome home’ greetings.
I’ve waited all my life for family members to come and take part of the tinny family Nan and I made up together, so now Sam can wait for me.

Notes

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Comments

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