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THE DEATH OF ME

Can't help but HOpe

Harry’s POV

I followed Cassie without her knowing, making sure she gets home alright. Once she enters her home I go back to my car and drive back to my flat. I so wanted to go back to that dance and show Ben a good beating, but I knew if I would the papers would have a field day. Not feeling up for the shack and Louis’ two sense I went back to the only person who truly understands me best. Ed.
Though once I got to the flat he wasn’t in. So I sat down on the sofa, taking out the photo Eleanor had handed to me and studied Cassie and I.
This is our only photo together, never thinking of snapping one ourselves.
She was stunning today, absolutely breath taking, and I wish now I would have taken her home with me or someplace else, just to spend some more time together, not ending the night on such a note.
Why do I always need to fuck up our time together? Why the fuck did I Let Ben get to me? I should fucking know better.
I sit and stare at the photo feeling ill with myself. When I finally decide to call Ed to see where the hell he is at, the front door opens.

“Harry? What are you doing home? Aren’t you at prom or something?” Ed strides into view with a goofy smile on his face.
“It was winter formal and it was a disaster,” I pout, “Where the fuck have you been?! I’m waiting for you to show for ages,” I snap.
“How was I supposed to know you would screw this outing up? What happen?” Ed sits down beside me.
“Ben,” I sigh. The photo was still in my hand and I am still staring at it.
“Fuck,” Is all Ed says.
“Yes! Fuck! He was some chick’s date, and he got what he wanted, he managed to take the piss out of me, making Cassie want to leave and getting us both in a huge fucking fight.”
“I want to see the photo, hand it over.”
I am reluctant, but give it to him even so. I can’t help it, but for some reason the photo- Cassie’s smiling face just calms me, and helps me remember what is truly important, putting everything else in prospective.

“She cleans up well, pretty little thing she is,” Ed gives it back to me.
“I don’t know what it is about her but I am going crazy.. I mean, she is infuriating, and stubborn and she talks back, not giving a fucking shit about the outcome of what out of her mouth but she is everything to me, I mean I was so fucking pissed, she makes me scream things I don’t mean, and still I couldn’t let her go off by herself scared out of my wits something might happen to her.”
“So what did you do?”
“I followed her.. made sure she got home safe before coming back to look for you.. And I was really pissed, my eyes saw red man.. But then I got home and looked at her smiling face and for the life of me I can’t remember why the fuck I was so pissed in the first place- I mean yeah shitface Ben was there but why do I care? I have Cassie.”
“You are in love with her mate that's why,” Ed explains to me making it sound so simple.
“She hates me now.”
“No she doesn’t, keep her photo on you though, I think it will only do you good,” Ed chuckles.

My phone rings and I answer it.
“Styles.. You might want to get over here mate,” Zayn’s voice travels to me through the phone.
“What is it?”
“Cassie.”
He doesn’t need to add anything else. Fuck!!! I jump to my feet, shoving the photo back into my pocket.
“Come on Ed,” I beckon him, taking the car key off the table.

I drive like a fucking maniac, which gets us to the shack in 10 minutes. Zayn is standing his hands folded watching the dance floor which is in full swing.
“What’s up?” Ed and I stand next to him, and I scan the floor.
“I don’t know what you did to her, but she got home so upset that Perrie and El decided to bring her here, and with a few drinks this is what you get,” Zayn points to where they are though I already spotted them in the middle of the crowd. You couldn’t miss them. Three beautiful girls. I have never seen Cassie this way before. So loose and free. She changed her shoes back to her trusty Dr. Martins but she was still in her dress and the most beautiful creature in the room. People were watching them, eyeing the three with lust and admiration, making me both jealous and proud as fuck.
“I’ve been pulling guys off them all night,” Zayn notes.
“Thanks man,” I pet his back.
“She is wasted,” Ed points out. He is right, and still there was something so pretty in it.
Perrie spots us and comes over.
“You need to leave,” She tells me.
“I’m staying,” I say in such a tone she doesn’t speak again, instead she pulls Zayn to dance.

“Yeah man the blonde,” I hear someone next to me shout and turn to see a bloke making his way over to Cassie.
I grab his arm and yank it making him turn sharply, anger in his eyes.
“You don’t speak, look or touch that blonde,” I warn.
“Didn’t realize she belonged to you mate,” He holds up his hands.
“She does, so spread the word she and the girl that is with her are off limits to all of you.”
The guy nods and turns away.
I spot Niall join Cassie and Eleanor as they dance. I walk over the bar, knowing Cassie is safe with Niall. Ed follows and we take a seat.
“Do the girls know you’re here?” Louis asks, placing a beer in front of us.
“Perrie does.. Zayn called me,” I shrug.
“Never seen her so wasted before.. never seen her like this before period,” Louis corrects himself, making Ed laugh.
“I’m going to let her have a little more fun before taking her home,” I sip my beer.
“I hope she lets you mate, she is pissed with you.”
“Everyone keeps reminding me.”
“Harry, I think Cassie should call it a day,” Ed points to the dance floor. She was turning in place arms spread to her sides face tilted up and eyes closed. I nod and excuse myself. I pace over to where Cassie and Eleanor are and stop Cassie, hands on her shoulders. She opens her eyes, and when she finally understands I am really in front of her the smile fades and a frown takes its place.
“Go away,” She tries to push me. Her words are slurred.
“I think we should call it a night and take you home,” I sigh, taking hold of her wrists.
“You called it a night when you screwed up the dance,” She is smiling now, though her eyes are sad and I feel my heart break. I made her like this. This is my fault.
“Let me make it up to you then,” I tell her.
“No- I want you gone,” She turns to me, and faces a guy that was standing in back of her.
He smiles down at her, but when he notices me his smile fades and he backs away.
“Fine, I guess I’m stuck with you then,” She turns back to me, placing her hands on my chest, running them up and down. What would I give to be alone with her, to touch her the way I crave to touch her, to feel her, to be one with her, however I know better, I grab her wrists softly “Cassie come on lets go,” I sigh.
“NO! If you don’t want me I’ll find someone that does,” She pouts and tries to break free. I catch Ed and Louis looking at me, I roll my eyes and pick Cassie up, throwing her over my shoulder and heading out of the bar, Ed can get a ride with Louis.
“Put me down! Harry you put me down at once!” Cassie demands kicking and hitting my back with her fists. I let her go when we reach my car and push her into the passenger seat.
When I take my place she has her arms folded and she is looking the other way.

“Cassie, I’m sorry I spoiled you dance, I really am,” I whisper to her.
When she turns to look at me, she has tears glinting in her eyes, but knowing Cassie she won't let them fall down her face.
“Are you? Are you really? Because it seems to me that anything nice we do together ends with a fight, ends up with something going wrong, ends up with me crying or screaming! I can’t do it anymore Harry, I’m washed out,” She whispers.
“Cassie, you don’t really mean that you’re drunk, you’re not thinking straight,” I say, feeling my pulse quicken by the fear of her words.
“Maybe.. But right now all I know is I don’t want to be anywhere near you,” She wipes at her eyes, making sure no tears are running free.
“I’m taking you home,” I sigh and start the car.
She is quiet, refusing to talk or look at me, so I let Ed’s CD I had in the car play on low and by the time we reach her house she is asleep.

I know her Nan is asleep, and where the key is left. I get out and walk around to Cassie’s side, unbuckling the seatbelt and lifting her up into my arms gently, not wanting to wake her.
I unlock the door, and stride in quietly, climbing up the stairs slowly. I place Cassie down on her bed and then move to undo her shoes and slip them off. I am about to change her clothes too but then rethink that, knowing she might be even more pissed once she wakes up and learns I undressed her, so I pull the duvet over her instead. I go then back downstairs to get her some water and pills for when she wakes up with the hangover she’ll have in the morning. I place them on the bed stand next to the photo of her parents.
“I know you’re cross with me right now, and I know you said some things out of hurt, and I know we fight a lot, but I love you, I really do.. We are good for each other.. I’ll prove it to you, I promise.”
Then, I lean down to kiss her forehead and step out of the room.

“Harry.”
I am startled by Nan standing with a robe at the end of the corridor.
“Sorry, she fell asleep and I didn’t have the heart to wake her, so I just tucked her in.. I’ll leave now,” I mumble, to chicken to look Nan in the eye.
“I know something happened that made Cassie come home early, and by the smell of the smoke and alcohol-“
“I went to get her the moment I was notified about her whereabouts- and she is like this, it was my fault so please don’t be cross with her.. I placed water and some pills by her bed.”
“What ever happened.. Harry.. you’re a good boy, she is lucky to have you,” Her Nan assures me.
“Sometimes I’m not so sure of that,” I sigh.
“That is why I am here, to tell you so, you keep looking after my Cassie for me love.. Goodnight,” She smiles up at me and I can’t help but hope she is right.

Notes

Comments

@Allie Miller
Wow! Thank you for reading poppet! you're the best!
Hope you're enjoying it xx

@raylee
I finished it and starting sequel yay

@Allie Miller
Glad you're enjoying it xx there is a sequl out too when you're ready =))

Oh Em Gee!!! Absolutely love this

I'm only on chapter 2 and already loving it!!!!