"Start from the beginning," Harry asks of me softly, and I take a deep breath before I begin.

"I notice her when she entered, I didn't recognize her at first but then I did, she wasn't sat at my table so I just ignored her, hoping she'll stay away, but she noticed me and walked over," I stop here, since I am not sure how to go on. Should I tell him everything she said? About him being poison?

"She looked... bad," I finally tell him.

"What do you mean?" Harry's brows come together in concentration.

"Her makeup was running, and her hair was a mess, her nails were broken and she just seemed mad," I shake my head to push the image of her away.

"What happen then?" Harry questions, trying to get me to move along with the story.

"She spotted me, and she knew who I was- She knew I was with you," I whisper.

"Of course she knows," Harry said more to himself then to me.

"She said I should keep away from you, that you will do to me what you did to her, that it is just a matter of time until I bore you," I decide to share with him all she said. We should be able to tell each other the truth, not base our relationship on lies.

"Shit. You know that it is bullshit right? She's just a jealous crazy chick," He grabs my hands, making me look at him.

"I know that," Is my answer, but my voice wobbles, making me sound unsure of myself.
I watch Harry's eyes go wide in disbelief.

"I do know it," I try to assure him, but I can tell my words aren't working.

"What did I do to make you feel this way?" His face turns sad and I feel bad for making him feel this way.

"Harry... I... All my life I was sure I would be alone forever you know? I was ready for it, embracing it," I start.

"No," Harry shakes his head, refusing to hear me out.

"Yes, I had it all figured out, and I was fine with it. And then you came along, with your cocky smile and know it all vibe, and I tried to stay away, I tried to keep to my plan, but you wouldn’t let me.. You broke through my walls and made me question everything again..”

“Did you come to any knew conclusions?” He inquires in a whisper.
I nod and exhale before answering.

“After finally letting myself fall for you.. I wondered why I ever thought I would be better off alone,” I peek at him, nervous of the fact that I just confessed I fell for him. I have never said such a thing to someone before, and I was afraid of his answer.

“So your conclusion is that you’re in love with me?” He is trying to read me, to understand. I feel my face grow hot as I nod again, staring at my fingers in my lap, twisting them together.

“Cassie. Look at me,” He demands from me. But his demand is soft, inviting. I raise my head, and my eyes finally meet his.

“I’m in love with you too,” He isn’t smiling. He isn’t mocking me. He is dead serious, his green eyes glistering with warmth and love. I am having a hard time believing it is love for me, that the burn in his eyes is a burn for me to love him back. Loving someone is one thing. But being in love is a different thing all together.
You see, I love Nan, and I love Liam, and Eleanor and Perrie.. But I’m in love with Harry. Every stare, every touch, makes me yearn for him even more. I am not used to feeling this way, which scares me, making Lola’s words echo in my mind.

“Say something,” Harry asks in a begging tone.

“That scares me,” I reply.

“I just told you I’m in love with you, and it scares you?” He crinkles his forehead.

“I was never here before, this is new to me, what if you’ll break me? I have no one to help me pick up the pieces,” I explain. My words are truth, and now once I speak them out load I know they needed to be said, he needed to hear my greatest fear.

“That won’t happen to you- it won’t happen to us,” Harry squeezes my hands lightly, pulling me closer.

“What we have, is real, and much stronger then what you hear about or see on the screen,” He promises. I can see it in his eyes. He believes every word he is saying. I want to believe this too, but something is keeping me from it. Something is holding me back.

We are after all from different worlds. He is the big Race- Harry Styles, and me? I’m a nobody.
Harry touches my cheek, guiding my lips to his. He kisses me softly, and then deeply. Harry pulls me up to his lap, moving his lips to my neck, his fingers holding on to my waist.

“We are different, I will keep you whole- I promise,” He whispers between kisses.
“You’ll see, no one will ever hurt you.”

We sit that way in silence. I face Harry, his hands on my waist, forehead to forehead, and I believe him. I believe the words he says, his promises.

“I need to go,” I finally exhale and pull back, climbing off his lap, and back to the passenger seat.

“Are you coming to the race tomorrow?” Harry questions before I leave the car.

“Yes, Perrie will pick me up, so I’ll see you there?”
Harry nods, and I kiss him one last time before closing the door.

I hear the window roll down, so I turn to him.
“I love you Cass,” His voice is strong, sure of itself.

“I love you Harry,” I can’t help but smile.

I usually drive with Harry to the races, but Harry leaves for them a few hours before so he can
do some Cranio, and since I had a lot of homework to catch up on I decided to come later with Perrie.

Nan was out, so I head up to my room, and undress, getting ready for a shower.
Since Eleanor and Louis will be at the race tomorrow as well, we’ll go shopping for my dress after, letting the guys do their own thing.

After my shower I lay on my bed, ear buds in my ears, listening to Ed’s album which Harry downloaded to my phone.
I start with my homework, though I am soon finding myself day dreaming, about Lola, Harry and what they said.

I wonder if Harry did something to Lola for her to go all mad, or if she was like that and once he found out that was when he ditched her.
I have a hard time imagining Harry doing anything to Lola. He had his moments of anger and temper, shouting and coursing, but even though he has never hurt me, always trying his best to treat me right, with kindness.
I notice it is hard for him sometimes, though he does try his best…

I turn off the music, putting my phone to the side, knowing I can let these thought control me. If I do I will go just as mad as Lola.
Instead I call Liam.

“Cassie? Back from the gym I see,” He greets me.

“I am.. I was wondering.. Have you done the work we got? Do you fancy coming over? We can do it together?”

I have never invited Liam over to my house, and never been to his, so I understand the silence on the other side of the line, though I hope he would answer me already.

“Umm, sure, I’ll be over in a few moments,” He replies, and the line goes dead.
I collect my books and head down stairs, placing them on the table.

There is a knock on the door, and I pace over to open it for Liam.

“Can you believe this is my first time to your house?” Liam smiles, as I open the door.

“I know, that is terrible!” I shift back, making room for him to enter.

“I am so behind on school work it’s sad really, I don’t know why I let it get so bad,” Liam places his bag on a chair, pulling out his school books and placing them next to mine.

“Me too, between work, the gym and Harry I don’t get around to much,” I pull out a chair, and sit down.

“How is famous Styles doing?” Liam asks sitting down across from me, pulling his notebook over.

“He’s all right,” I smile, but the smile doesn’t stay long on my face, deciding maybe I should talk to Liam about Harry and Lola, since he knows a lot about Harry’s past.

“What is it?” Liam asks softly, feeling something is going on.
I glance up at him, and just like that, it all spills out. Lola at the shack, Harry’s words just before, after I told him about my fears, and the unknown I feel now deep down, the unsureness I feel.

“Look Cass.. I don’t know Harry, the only thing I know is what I have read about him, which most is probably lies, and what I have heard and seen from you. And to tell you the truth, yes, Harry had this temper about him, this hardness within him, but at the same time I have no doubt he loves you.
No guy would move his world around for a girl like Harry does for you.. and frankly, as you say you are trying to make up your mind about this all and make a choice, I think the choice has made you already… does that make any sense? You already love Harry which means you will stay with him no matter what,” Liam states, and I know he is right. It doesn’t matter what has happened to him and Lola and what has sent her over the edge. I love him and I am not Lola.

“You’re right.. Thank you Liam,” I am grateful for his answer, clearing up my thoughts as he did, making it all simple for me to grasp.

“No problem, and now that is out of the way, what do you say about some homework?”

We spend the rest of the evening catching up on our work and talking about the upcoming dance.

I came to learn another thing about myself while sitting here with Liam. When I told Harry I had no one to help pick up my broken pieces if he ever breaks my heart, I was wrong. I wasn’t alone, I had a friend to mend me, to put back the pieces of a broken heart, making sure they will stick together and stay strong in place. Yes, I did, and I don’t know why it had taken me so long to notice it but once I had, it made it easier to embrace Harry with my whole heart, and dive into this relationship heart first and head following. I had Liam and he would make sure I am safe, that if I am dropped, he knows how to put me back together again.

Notes

RIP Juan Rivers. It was so sad to hear such terrible news, she will be cherished in my heart.

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