THE DEATH OF ME

On the way home Harry had to stop twice, letting me out of the car so I don't get sick inside. By the time we get home to Nan I am a wreck and am ready for a hot shower and bed. Harry has his palm on the small of my back as we step into my house.

"Nan," He calls out to her.

"Harry? Is that you love? Where is Cassie?" She walks over to meet us.

"Oh dear, what is the matter?" Nan touches my cheek.

"A friend didn't know I am allergic to milk products, and I forgot to check if my drink had milk in it," I explain.

"Oh Cassie, I'll get the kettle.. You should sip on some tea," Nan rushes into the kitchen.

"I'm going to take a quick shower, I'll be right back," I promise Harry. He walks with me to the stairs and watches as I climb them slowly.

I stay true to my word, and join him and Nan a short while later at the kitchen.

"Don't feel bad Harry dear, it's not the first time or the last this will happen, I don't keep dairy in the house, and Cassie tends to forget that other people do," Nan explains.

"I won't die from it if it makes you feel any better," I take the seat next to him.

"I won't lie, you gave me a fright," Harry sighs, and Nan gets up to make me some tea.
We chat for a while until it is late, and then Harry gets up to leave since after all it is a school night.

"Oh Harry, are you going to the school dance with Cassie?" Nan questions before he exits the kitchen. My eyes go wide, and jump sharply to Harry's.

"I'm afraid Cassie doesn't want to go," He replies in a sorry tone.

"Is that so? I'm sorry, but she will be going, so better get a suit ready," Nan beams at him. Harry nods slightly before wishing us goodnight.

"Nan what was that all about?! I don't do dances, Harry already knows I don't want to go," I whine.

"You will be attending that dance young lady! This is your last year before you leave to college, and I'll be damned if I don't get to see you go to at least one dance," She says in a final tone.

"But Nan," I try, though I already know there is no use.

"Listen to me Cassandra, you finally have a boy to go with, a boy that loves you and who will keep you company and make sure you enjoy yourself, so why not go? I want to see you in a pretty dress and I want a photo to frame and place by the fire place, would you really deprive me from that?"

"Alright, you win," I sigh, not able to tell her no. I make myself a mental note, to ask Eleanor to shop with me for a dress, as I kiss Nan's cheek and head to bed.


"I can't believe all it took was for your Nan to ask you to go for you to agree," Liam was amazed.

"She didn't ask- She demanded! I really had no choice, but Harry is ecstatic about it," I shake my head in defeat.

Last night I got a phone call from Harry a few moments after going up to my room. I could hear his dimples popping as he smiled on the other side of the call, asking what kind and what colour dress I'll be wearing.

I still haven't contacted Eleanor to go dress shopping, but I will be seeing her and Perrie today at the gym as it is, so I'll just ask her there.

"Maybe go with Sophia shopping," Liam suggested.

"I'm not sure.. I don't know her, and I have plans to go with Eleanor," I hurry to say. It is kind of a lie, since Eleanor doesn't know about the plan yet, but she will soon enough so I don't let myself feel bad about it.

"To bad, I thought maybe you'll get to know each other," Liam sounded disappointed.

"Well, I will at the dance, look at it this way, do you really think we would have fun shopping together without knowing each other at all?" I raise my brows.

"You're probably right," He finally agrees.


When school was done for the day, I rush out so I can make it on time to the gym. I wasn't sure if Harry would be waiting for me out side to drive me, or I'll be walking. Truth is I hope he isn't since we still haven't spoken about what happened with Lola, and I knew he will bring it up, wanting to know everything.

To my relief, there was no sign of Harry outside of school, and no Dafni or Luke to pick on me.
I walk out to the street and start heading towards the gym when a car stops next to me and beeps.

"Cassie! Get in," I hear Eleanor's voice call me.
I was relived it was only here, and smile while I open the door and slide in.

"What are you doing here?" I question, as she leans over to hug me and kiss my cheek.

"I couldn't let you walk in this cold," She winks.

"Harry sent you didn't he?" I already know he did. It was too good to be true he would let me walk the short distance by myself.

"He had something he had to do, and he asked me to get you since he doesn't want you to get sick walking," Eleanor rolls her eyes. She too knew how controlling Harry can get, and makes fun of it every chance she has.

"Thank's El," I laugh lightly. I'm Happy we became friends since she gets the whole madness of Harry and takes it lightly, taunting him about it every chance she has.

"So I heard we have some shopping to do," Eleanor changes the subject.

"Did you now?" I giggle, and she joins in.

"I must say, I never thought Harry would be willing to go to a high school dance, let alone be the one to push to go," Eleanor says once we calm done.

"Me neither," I agree.

"He must really love you," She remarks, making me blush.

We get to the gym and Eleanor parks the car.
"Cassie, I um.. I heard what happen the other day at the shack," she tells me.

"Yeah.. Harry told you that too?" I question. I am a little hurt that he feels the need to tell Eleanor everything that is going on with me, I know they are good friends, but he should leave things between us, I mean, he doesn't see me telling Liam about everything.

"No, Louis.. Demi told him she had to give a free round after the screaming that went on."

"Oh," Is the only thing I manage to say. I just got cross with Harry for no reason.

"Did Demi also tell him about me being sick?" I inquire, blushing.

"You got sick? She might have, but he didn't tell me about it," Eleanor opens the door to get out of the car.

"I did. She made me a drink, to make me feel better about what happened, it was my fault though, since I should have made sure there is no milk in it."

"Wow, so what happened?" We start walking towards the gym.

"I was really ill, and was on the floor in front of the loo getting sick, and then Harry showed up," I smirk.

"Of course he did- did someone call him- or did he just come?"

"He came slightly early to take me home, which for once was a good thing, I felt so bad for Demi though, since she didn't notice I wasn't well, and Harry was so cross, shouting at her, when it wasn't her fault at all," I shake my head.

"Well, you know how Harry gets, he probably got scared, not knowing what was going on," Eleanor stated.

"Hi girls!" Perrie greets us.

"Hello love," Eleanor kisses her cheek.

"It got colder today didn't it? I can feel it in my bones," Perrie sings, hugging me.

"Perrie, Eleanor and I are going dress shopping for a school dance later this week, do you feel like joining?" I offer her suddenly, thinking it would be fun going the three of us.

"So you gave in?" Perrie laughs.

"To Nan's demands, yes.. Would you like to come then?"

"Who would have thought a day in which Cassie Price would offer to go shopping would come?! Sure thing love, count me in."

Today we take a Pilates class, and by the end of it I can't move. My body is in so much pain I can barely stand up straight.

"Pure evil that was!" Perrie tries to straighten up.

"That was wonderful," Eleanor smiles, "I feel whole again,"

"You are mad! I am broken- far from whole," Perrie whines.

I feel broken as well, muscles I didn't even know I have ached terribly, however, I understand what Eleanor is saying. The pain it terrible and wonderful at the same time.
When we exit the Gym it is raining.

I am ready to ask Eleanor or Perrie for a ride home, not feeling like walking the short distance to my house, in the cold rain while my body hurts so badly.

"You all look like a car just hit you," Harry appears in front of us.

"Hello to you too sunshine," Eleanor mocks him playfully.

"Are you ready to go home then?" He turns to me, pulling me in for a side hug. I wince in pain, my body sore from the class.

"Watch it big guy, you're hurting your princess," Perrie states. Harry lets go of me right away, a worried look on his face.

"It's supposed to feel that way after a class, let it be," I assure him.

"Well Cassie let me know what day is a good shopping day for you," Eleanor reminds me. We say our goodbyes and I head after Harry to his car.

"Give me your bag," He orders taking it out my hand. I let him get away with his demands since it was heavy with all my school books.
We drive in silence, me waiting for him to start asking questions about what happened with Lola.

"Harry?" I decide to speak up first.

"Mm?" He makes a sound letting me know he is listening.

"What is it Niall has, that makes him half blind?" I wanted to ask this for a while now, and decided this is a good time to get an answer.

"Macular degeneration" He answers.
I wait for him to continue but he doesn't.

"Which is?" I push, not letting him leave me hanging

“It results in a loss of vision in the center of the visual field because of damage to the retina,” He answers.

“Which means?” Sometimes Harry can be aggravating with his lack of communication.

“God Cassie, just google it ok? I don’t feel like explaining it, he won’t go blind all the way- if that is what’s bothering you,” He snaps at me. I am hurt and satisfied at the same time, since even though he was just harsh with me, I now know Niall will be alright.

“What brought this on anyway?” He asks in a calmer voice.
“Lola.”

Notes

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