Cast Away *ON HOLD*

I wake with a start, stretching my arms over my head as I sit up and pain shoots up my spine, I still until it goes away. I quickly notice Harry is missing from my side. When I leave the tent it's still light out, looks to be afternoon but who knows.

"she's awake, Harry" Candace whispers, touching Harry's shoulder. She's so cute, a shy smiles crosses my face when basically everyone looks at me. I'm quick to see Jacob is sitting by himself, leaning against a tree, his face is blue, swollen, and cut. It's hard to tell from here but he looks tied up, Shannon is sitting there talking with him.

"don't worry about him, he won't hurt you anymore" Harry is staring at me, his mouth set in a hard line but his eyes soft. "I'm so sorry this happened to you, I shouldn't have left you alone, I should have-" he is cut off by Louise.

"Oh my god Paisley, your back" she puts her hands on my shoulders to hold me still. Harry moves behind my back to look. "What?" I asked knowing it's pretty bad because it hurts a lot. " it's all blue, and purple and theres a giant goose egg in the middle with a small cut" shit.. I grab a shirt and throw it on. "It doesn't hurt" I lie.

After telling the girls what happened, I want to ask Harry what's going on with Jacob but he looks angry so I decide to ask Liam instead. I walk over to where he is sitting with Louise. "Hey how you feeling?" I sit down across from them. "Good, I just needed to ask Liam something"

"Oh I can go" she starts to get up "you don't have to go it's ok, I was just wondering what happened with Jacob when we got back?" I look to the side where Harry is watching me, Liam's eye dart there quickly too, then he smiles small.

"When we got back Harry laid with you until you fell asleep, when he came out he was furious, wanted to go another round with Jacob. We stopped him, we didn't want to tell him to leave because we were worried he would come back and do something, but we don't trust him to just walk around so we tied him to a tree... It's better than what Harry wanted to do..." I nod "ok, thanks" I smile.

I'm glad we have someone like Liam to be smart, because I would have let Harry beat him up. What kind of person takes advantage of someone else like that, he could see I was scared, he didn't care, it was like it turned him on. I don't want him anywhere near any of us, especially Olivia and Candace.

"Let's swim" El squeals, most likely just trying to cheer everyone up. I get up to my knees in the water when I hear Candace's soft voice ring out behind me. "Can I swim?" I chuckle, "of course you can swim sweetie, you don't have to ask" she begins to look around nervously. "I umm, I need help with my swim suit" her cheeks flush " oh of course, I'm sorry I'm not thinking" I go in the tent and help her change.

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The next morning were talking about what we're going to do, we need to start taking this seriously, Niall took Olivia down the beach to look for shells, rocks and anything else that catches her attention.
"I think we should start moving, sitting here day after day is accomplishing nothing" I say firmly to try to get my point across.

"what if someone comes to rescue us?" Louise says

"Yea the first place they are going to look is where the plane crashed, if we aren't here they might think no one survived" El adds, that's a good point.

"So we will leave them a note saying we went up stream, we will follow the river so if they do come they will know which was we went" Harry looks at me and I smile.

"Ok so when do we leave" Zayn tangles his fingers with Perrie and I smile at her giddiness. "Tomorrow morning" while we work out little bits of our plan, everyone stop when we hear Olivia giggling running towards me with something in her hand, she trips and falls forward throwing her hands out to break her fall, Niall is quick to get her back on her feet but she's already crying. She holds her hands out and runs for me, screaming historically now, I hold my arms out for her.

"Owie owie mommy" she jumps in to my arms, I coddle her but am frozen by the words that left her mouth. "Did she just..?" Harrys mouth drops, eyes wide with shock.

" I say just roll with it" Liam smiles small but it does nothing to ease me.

"Unless you want to explain to her that your not her mom, and her's is actually dead" Louis says it like its no big thing, El slaps his arm and send me an apologetic smile. I try to swallow the lump in my throat but I fail "I'm just going to put her down for a nap" I quickly walk away, I lay down with her, running my fingers throw her hair and she soon drifts off. I can't hold back my tears and they flow freely.

"This poor confused little girl, she has no idea what's going on, the grave loss she suffered and she doesn't even know it. She's clearly confused and has form some sort of an attachment to me, I mean I probably did that myself I assumed the role of her mother without considering what it might do to her. My heart breaks and I suddenly feel like I can't breathe,I'm race out of the tent and down the beach. I hear multiple calls of my name but I keep going. Once I feel I'm far enough I sit down bringing my knees to my chest, and staring out on the ocean.

"Hey what's wrong" Harry copies my position, beside me. I roll my eyes "nothing, go away Harry" I can see from the corner of my eye he is staring at me.

"Just tell me, obviously something is wrong"

"You think something is wrong Harry? Just something, try everything, everything is wrong! I want to go home, I miss my mom and dad, I miss my dog, and my friends. We're stuck on this stupid island and who knows if we will ever be rescued. I'm bruised, cut and just plain tired, not to mention I'm now responsible for a little girl, a child Harry I'm still a kid myself and she's depending on me to be there for her! I was attacked yesterday I was so close to being raped I have never been more scared in my life" I stop to take a breathe. I run my fingers through my hair, I'm not pacing back and fourth, tears fulling streaming down my face, I can't stop them even if I wanted to. He stands up just staring at me, eyes wide

"And then there's you Harry, you just push me past all my limits, one second your all over me and then next you won't even look at me. It's like you only want my body but then sometimes your so sweet and caring. You can't make up your mind so I'm doing it for you. I can't handle your fucking bi-polar, moody bullshit anymore so just leave me alone" I push him and storm farther down the beach. I don't bother looking back because I know he isn't following me, my heart is racing and my hands are shaking. I reach the river flowing into the ocean I cross through it and climb a giant rock, repeating my position from the beach, bring my knees to my chest, this time resting my forehead against my knees and letting everything go, sobbing uncontrollably.

I just want to go home...

Notes

So Olivia finally spoke :) what did you think of her first words?!

Let me know what you think:):) your opinions are important!

thanks for reading

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