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LOST AND STILL FINDING(larry stylinson)

chapter 20*

Louis’ p.o.v
My life wasyou'ret unexpected the way it turned out in the last month. Ending up here with a greek god who not only lets me live here for free but also has offered me a job which is too much and I couldn’t have ever dreamt it all my life.

Luxury, which was something I only had in my dreams was given to me just first hand. But I’m sure I’m not gonna be a dick and live here for free. If harry has been so kind to do such great things for me being a stranger when he barely knew me and he trusted me from the time he kind of just heard my voice, I guess. So I was paying off for what he had done for me.

Though now I had observed it seems like he will probably kill himself one day and that thought that crosses me every time I think of him, him lying in a pool of blood. It shivers my spine everytime. And I think that its much more than time I guessed it would take. I thought maybe I would be interfering if I asked him what was going on with him or maybe one day he would come up to me and tell me about it. I know I sometimes did talk to him about it but he just told me not to worry. Huh. I think its time.

Harry’s p.o.v
That smile. Really gets me thinking everytime how is he even able to be so high all the time. I mean how does he even remain so chill and cool all the time. Though I sorta kind of sometimes think for a while maybe he was gay. But I really want him to be.

how is he even still happy on such a place where the society doesn’t give a damn about people like me? Yeah they do, but only when they want to like beat up somebody, insult them, harass them, assault them, fuck them, do all bad things they could think of. When they wish to do such things, they think of me.

But if I really had to talk about somebody right now it would be Louis. I know thre’s something he’s hiding inside him. I see that scare every time behind those deep sea blue eyes. There’s some deep hurt that he’s hiding. I know it. But he’s just perfect at hiding it. He never ever lets me know . but I know. Behind that every curve that turns up on his face he knows he’s just letting it go.

So after almost spending 2 and a half weeks with him I guess I should ask him about it. Though I should not do that but he really attracts me. He is just so lovely to fall for. Those plum lips make me nervous every time but I just cant ignore the beauty that come’s up with him is just wonderful to stare at.

And I’m really glad about the whole job thingy I offered him. Now I can totally stare at him 24 x 7.

Who could be more luckier than me?

Okay brushing this whole love inside me that’s heating up everyday I think its time I should plan something up for his b’Day. Today is 22nd dec and his b’day is tomorrow midnight.

But I barely know him to gift him something he really likes.

A difficult task altogether.

Louis’ p.o.v
I was lying down on my bed staring at the ceiling in the middle of the night. Uh oh. I suddenly remembered I wont be there at my home celebrating Christmas. Oh gosh..i was missing my family too much right now!! I mean I ran from home not because they were bad.

So I was nearly bored to death right now. I didn’t have anything to do. What else cud I even do when its 1 in the night.

What if harry’s still awake.?

But he’s royal, he wud’ve slept like at 10 and will wake up at dot 6. Phew, why do I even live with such a guy? Who I cant even talk to in the night , If I get bored?

My head wanted to do something. So I pick up my phone from the night stand.

“Hey harry, you up. Sorry if u were sleeping but now that you’re awake reading the text can we go for a walk?
Louxx”
I m already sending him kisses?

I know I was acting really stupid right now but c’mon man he should come for a walk. I’m bored.i waited for a minute and I got a reply.

“seriously? Its chilling outside. Go to sleep.
Hazxx” he's sending me kisses too.

“harry cmon I’m waiting for you at the door. Get up. We’re going for a walk.
Louxx”

“lou we’re not.
Hazxx”

“I’m waiting down.
Louxx”

“bitch.
Hazxx”

He was so rude. But never mind I’ll talk to him. Atleast he came down.

“still waiting.
Louxx”

“coming. Stay.
Hazxx”

“that sounds weird though. Haha.
Louxx”

“keep those thoughts in your head. That’s never going to happen with you mister.
Hazxx”

This sounded that I pissed him off really, but I’ll cheer him up at the walk.

“not even dreaming about it. Be here in two.
Louxx”

“I’m here boo.
Hazxx”

And he taps me on my shoulder from behind as I stood there on the footpath in the snow.
I turn around and he starts to ramble, “Seriously lou. What in the world made you think I would come up here in the snow for a walk in the middle of the night?”

“I think that I thought right” I say.

“what made you think that you were thinking correct” he raises his eye brows in anger as he spits those words and places his hands on his waist. And he bends down to look me in the eyes.

That made me scared for a while coz I could actually see the anger in his eyes, “u know what made me think? C’mon you’re standing right here beside me and you still think I thought wrong that you wont come for a walk”

And as I finished my sentence he actually started to think over again as to why was he so angry coz he was really standing there beside me for a walk. The frown on his face actually turned into a smile, a wide one when he actually understood the whole thing.

“Are we up then?” he asks me smiling though sounding apologizing.

“I already was” I say as I started to walk in front as I left him behind thinking.

He ran and covered up as we were now silently walking to somewhere on the endless road.
I had my hands behind my back as I usually did though he had shoved them in his pocket.
We walked silently for some time when I finally broke the silence.


“do you feel good?” I said.

“umm. As in?” he asks as he looks down at me.

“as in what? Just a question I mean.”

“so am-am I supposed to answer that?”

“Nope. Okay answer this. Have you ever had a girlfriend? I know that’s stupid coz you’re gay. I hope you don’t mind me talking about all this. Like-like if you do..i’m real sorry –“

“no no. I’m just fine. You don’t have to be so conserved all the time with me with your words…u know can ask me anything”

“I know I know..sorry..mind answering my question?” I ask him kind of stuttering with my thoughts all over.

"Umm yeah I did when I was in school. She was lovely, very pretty. You know when I saw her for the first time she was totally it. But u know we stayed together till school and then even at the university and the we broke up…”

I just kept listening to what he had to say but then his voice just then suddenly cracks at the end an that got me tensed, “are you okay harry?” I ask him as I look up at him concerned.

“yeah I am…and the reason was that I figured out too late that there was something wrong in me”

“something wrong? Like what wrong..i’m sure you’re not a psychopath killer like or you have something spirit inside that you turn into a ghost everynite after 12…though I’m hinting you’re not a ghost right now, now coz its two by my watch?” I ask him doubting as we walked and walked and kicked leaves and especially the snow which seemed to be really chill.

“the reason wrong with me was that I’m gay. She left me when one of my beloved friends broke out the news in the university.”

That sentence really got me thinking that he thought being gay was something wrong.

“what? Wh-wh-what? Being ‘g-a-y’ is wrong? Who said that. Not even god . I guess”

“yeah. The society told me it was all wrong if you’re gay…and it treats the way you’re supposed to be” he says as he looks at me shrugging as he found a bench to sit on.

U know if I had to believe in every word he said right now, and believe the tone and with which every word escaped his mouth, I’m sure you would’ve believed this guy. But whatever he said just didn’t hit me and I couldn’t buy his words.

“ why would you think that way. There’s nothing wrong with being GAY”

“The whole thing is wrong” he says looking at me in the eye directly as he turned towards me.

“that really didn’t make sense, what ever that shit was” I tell him turning towards him as we were seated on the bench.

“that is shit..i know and believe me if you ever got to know what it feels like to be gay, in a society that justs like laughing at people like me, I wonder you’d be still here hoping something good could happen to you some day” he tells me nodding.

“you shouldn’t be that selfish haz.. u know hope is the only thing that stays”

“its just kind of a therapy, u know hope, I dont think hopes end up into something. Ever.”

“but believe me they do. And till the time you believe in something that you could get it you surely would and should not give up hope of getting it” I tell him.

Suddenly he smiles at me and asks “are you a philosopher?”

“no surely not”

“coz those really seemed to impress me but seriously not interested in another philosophy”
He immediately gets up and walks vaguely out of the way.

“I’m going back. You coming?” he yells.

“nope, not turned on really” I get up as I ran up to him to cover the distance.

“will you ever be over your yuck and ew jokes?” he asks me so pissed off.

“don’t you think they’re cool?” I ask him.

“nope. Seriously not. just yuck?!!!”

“nooo. They just chill up the mood. Its fun atleast.”

“shut up”

“and c’mon there is a lot of other things to care about, rather than just dancing around with your sadness”

“are you aiming me now?”

“not really. Its sad if you thought so…”

“oh really?” he asks me so confused.

“hell yeah! You know..being always so grumpy wont take you far” by now we were almost near our building and just had to walk up inside it.

“thank you” he says as he runs off to the building and in to the elevator as it was already waiting but I got a little late and the doors closed before I cud get in.

“bye” I waved as I took the stairs to reach there exactly at the same time as he did.

“hi” I waved again and he smiled at me ending up in fits of laughter.

He said things in between laughs and I could barely understand what he wanted to say but I
was just glad I could make him smile again.

when we were finally inside our house and harry still didn’t seem to get normal.

“seems really nice that you're laughing but is that normal?” I ask him totally surprised.

“gudnite dude. I’m finally sleepy” I tell him as I ignored his laughter now and headed towards my room.
But I heard him still into his laughing process and I guess he’s going to continue this all nite.

I turned around and ask him still a bit confused, “are you drunk?”

“certainly not. But really want to.”

“really??? Its Friday”

“so what? Its Friday? Is there some philosophy for this too?” he asks me standing there near the kitchen while I was in the hallway.

“no no. was just reminding myself. Ignore it dude. Let’s just drink!!”

He was happy right now and that certainly made me happy too. Idk why but something, always wants to see those dimples on his cheeks. I made him smile and that was it, it made me happy too..

“but. HARRY..i was wondering where would you get the drinks from?” I ask him scratching my head.

He rushes towards the kitchen and asks me with a smirk, “whats my name?”
“erm …HARRY STYLES”

“and--?? What else do you call me ??”

“uh ho, HARRY STYLES-THE RICHIE RICH” I say making sure and I knew what was in his head.

“once again!” he shouts as he went and stood near the fridge.

“harry styles – the richie rich” I repeated.

He starts off smirking evily as he opens the fridge door, making weird noises, “so…that ha thatha..here it is, the one that you can only dream of…”

“it okay harry I understand, u can be normal again..”

He takes out to beer bottles from the fridge and walks to the hall and keeps them on the table as he walks to the radio and plays it loud, loud enough for us.

He finally sits down at the couch as he opens the beer bottles though I was just so surprised with his behavior right now. this was not the harry I saw full of manners and royal richness. This harry was something different and I was liking it.

I walk over to the hall and seat myself at the couch, “is this a totally new harry I’m meeting??”

“idk, I’m the same harry!!” he shrugs as he picks up the bottle and sticks it to his lips tossing the liquid inside him as he just slouched back on the couch.

I picked up mine too and opened it and started drinking mine.

The radio had some random song I hadn’t heard but after a while when the next song came I was so glad. It was ‘rather be- clean bandit.’

“you up for a dance?” harry got thrilled and asked me as he got up stumbling.

“why not?” I answer as I got up but before I could do anything harry started doing some disgusting dance moves which really made him act like a jerk.

He was really high now but atleast he was enjoying himself and I liked it, so I too started doing something until harry looked at me and started laughing again.

He says in his drunken state,“is this how you dance? Look at me, I’m so good”

“really, you think so?”

“yup” he nods.

“then teach me some” I ask him to.

He hands me his bottle of beer and tells me keep it on the table as he pulls me closer to him,
“come here close to me”

And I did as he told me.

“Keep your hands on my waist shorty, you won't reach my shoulders” he giggles again but that was the truth.

So I did wrap my hands around his waist and he wraps around his hands on my neck as he
looked down at me.

“just go with the tune, and it’ll be easy, watch my footsteps” he commands seriously like a teacher. I just stared at the beauty right now. he was so delicate. U know if I had a choice to fall in love with somebody I’d choose him but rather I couldn’t choose because he wasn’t an option for me. It was impossible for me to ever be his type. So I’d better enjoy this moment. I’d stared up at his face and then slowly into his green emeralds. Down his nose to his lips and my eyes would watch the way his lips moved as he taught me how to dance.

“ouch, concentrate Louis”
I accidently stepped at his feet, “sorry. Can we start again?”

“ok fine. See one step back, one step side, hands closer tightly, one step front and then repeat..” those sounds didn’t seem to reach my head as his beauty had took over me and I was totally into him and out of control. My head had started imaging all sorts of things, all weird dirty stuff, which could turn me on any moment. But I’d rather control myself now. I took a deep breath and shifted my glare to the ground but then in no time I was staring at him again.

“harry?” I whispered as I scooted myself closer to him and wrapped my hands so tightly around his waist.

“mm hmm” he hums as his glare shifted to me.

“what is the best thing you could do for a person?”
I know I got him thinking and he thought hard. “I don’t really know but –okay but what would you do?”

“me? Um—first thing is care and second maybe love them till the last, what about you?”


“I would certainly do things t make them happy and lots of other things and things and things and things….”

We kept moving to the tune perfectly and slowly till the time I couldn’t resist and I raised my self on my peep toes and kissed harry. This kiss was not because I was drunk. It was just because I had fallen for star. A shooting star.it could have been nobody else but him. Only my greek god. My Richie rich. Though giving him “my” title sounded too soon. But for me he was just mine.

I pull away from the kiss and stared at him into his eyes, deeply regretting that I wish I hadn’t kissed him. I wished I did not hurt him with that. Those pretty eyes stared into my soul and before I could say anything harry bended down a bit as he kissed me back. A passionate one.

I stood up again on my peep toes kissing him back tasting his beer on his lips.

We dropped down onto the couch not really caring for where did we fall. This wasn’t some two
people making love. This was just new found love. A true new found love.

We went on kissing each other passionately like two some –idk, somebody. But it was just us.

On a single couch harry on top of me and between my leg kissing me like a beast.

I was so glad we met.



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