Fix Me (Liam Payne Fanfic)
I can't believe I did that, can't believe I just got up and walked out as if I saw a damn ghost or something. I don't think I've ever left anywhere so fast before. Why didn't I want to be around him? Most important, why was I so scared to be around him.
I went back to my room and did nothing but write down everything I was feeling in my book.
"I'm scared, I admit it I'm scared he will come make me feel alive for about two seconds and. Then walk out. What am I even talking about, I haven't even said one word to the guy! Ugh. I hate this."
I look up and see Callie walk into the room, "What was all that about?"
I just said nothing but stare at her and shrug. I didn't know what to say to her, as much as I love her and consider her my sister, there are just some things that I won't ever tell anyone. that's just me.
"Sorry, I had to go do something." I said to her. That was a really bad lie. Really bad lie.
"I doubt that, but whatever you missed out. He was so dreamy and the way he talked, did I mention he has a British accent?" she said gushing over him.
I shook my head and looked at her,
"no you didn't, but now you did"
"you have got to stop being such a….such a–"
"weirdo, freak, Antisocial?? Thanks for the help Cal but I'm okay." I said back to her, getting a little angry.
I hate that she says stuff like that, she doesn't know that not everyone is like her and that not everyday of my life is the best like hers is, I'm being serious her life is great and she brags about it as well. Everyone wonders why I'm even friends with her but the truth is, no matter how annoying she may be she is still there for me when I need her and that is what counts to me.
I got up and told her I'm going for a walk then left, she could tell I was angry but said nothing because she didn't want to set me off.
I walked out the room and went down to my favorite spot on campus, it was a part of a hiking trail that no one goes to anymore. I go there to think and to escape from everyone and everything. I sat down and put my headphones in, turned them on full blast and looked out at the view.
As I'm sitting there, I felt someone standing behind me, I turned around and looked up at this tall figure staring down at me.
"Oh um….Hi?" , how did he find me and why was he even here, what sucks is that I just got those damn butterflies again when I saw his face.
"I'm Liam." he said in a soft tone of voice
"I'm Skylar" I said back and turned my head back to the view and lowering the volume on my iPod.
"what are you listening to?"
"oh.." I look down at my iPod and then back at him, "Skinny love by Bon Iver"
He got a little smile on his face and nodded, "that's a good song". I find know what to say so I just faked a smile at him.
It seemed as if he was attempting to make small talk, but I clearly didn't know how to do that so we just sat there for about 20 minutes in awkward silence until I said something, since it was my fault we were in this awkward silence because I don't know how to talk to anyone.
"How did you find this place?" I said, looking at him.
"I saw you walking here."
"so you stalked me here?"
"I wouldn't call it stalking, it's more admiring the view" he said laughing a little.
I shook my head and smiled a little, a real smile which is not normally what I do. I stood up and cleaned my pants,
"I have to get going…it was nice sharing my spot with you" as I said that he got up and put his hands in his pockets,
"let me walk you back?"
"I don't need a babysitter"
"I didn't say you did, I thought you could use some company."
"thanks but it's alright, I like being alone. I'm used to it. Well, Bye." I walked away and headed back to my room, when I got there Callie was no where to be found, just a note on her bed. "Going out with some of the girls, if you want to come call me! Love you!." she did that a lot, left for hours and came back at 4am even on days she had class. Callie is a party girl and had a lot of confidence, sometimes I wish I was like her then maybe I wouldn't be so afraid to speak my mind or tell anyone what happened to me. But then again, I rather keep that to myself.
I turned my laptop on and watched old movies, not the black and white type but the ones from the 80s and 90s, back when movies made sense as every movie sort of had a meaning unlike now days.
I hear my phone beeping and I look to see Callie's name, she sent me a photo. When I open it who do I see? None other than Liam and her caption was "I'm going to get him tonight ;)", like I said before Callie got what she wanted about 90% of the time and when she said that, I felt my heart sink into my chest and knew now I'd never even have a chance, which shouldn't really bother me because we didn't talk much anyways and he doesn't know me but also he doesn't know her either.
"Haha, Awesome" I replied back and turned my phone off knowing she would say something else that would make me jealous that it wasn't me.
I don't get it, I don't understand how and why I feel this way about a guy I barely know an have had a half an hour conversation with I don't know him well enough to even give a damn about what he does and who he is with, so im done caring as of now, I am done caring about someone I don’t even know.
At least that's what I kept telling myself.