Today was my last day here in London. I was going to miss the drizzly weather, bleak streets, and fishy smells. Most of all, I was going to miss all of my friends here. Going back to Oklahoma was not going to be nearly exciting. I was so used to being around the music industry now, that I don't know what to do outside of it. Maybe I could get a job in that field. I was about halfway packed when I heard a knock on the door and a little Irish voice outside.

Niall: Shay! Time to get up! Breakfast is ready!

I let the top of my suitcase fall closed and opened the door to see everyone over and eating. Melissa wasn't there. She had work all day and would be staying late. We had said our goodbyes last night. I walked out to be enveloped into a hug by Brooke.

Brooke: Shay! I can't believe you're really leaving!
Me: I can't believe you can squeeze so tightly.

She giggled and loosened her grip to look me in the eyes.

Brooke: Sorry, I'm just going to miss you so much.
Me: I'm going to miss all of you guys something aweful.
Rose: Hey! I'm going to miss Shay too!

She playfully pushed Brooke aside and hugged me. Niall came up behind her.

Niall: Best friend coming through!
Rose: I don't think so, sweetie.
Niall: Without me she wouldn't be here so I think so.

She backed up laughing and Niall picked me up off of the ground hugging me.

Me: Niall! I'm not leaving yet!
Liam: Hey! She's mine!
Niall: Sorry Liam. Here ya go.

With that he tossed me into Liam's arms, which caught me with ease. I smiled up at him and he lightly kissed me before getting really serious.

Liam: I'm going to miss you so much.
Me: Can we not get sad yet? I'm not leaving until midnight.
Liam: They all said the same thing. Why are you upset with me?
Me: I'm not upset. I just don't want to be sad all day. I want to enjoy all of you.
Liam: But you don't want to talk to me?
Me: Quit putting words in my mouth. Of course I want to talk to you and we can talk as much as you want today, but you aren't the only one I'm leaving here.
Liam: So I'm just another band member to you now?
Me: There you go again! I never said that!
Liam: It was implied!
Me: It was not! You imagined it! If you weren't special to me, I wouldn't be dating you!

He was silent for a moment before responding.

Liam: I'm sorry. I guess I'm just a little stressed about not having you around anymore.
Me: That's an understatement.
Liam: What is that supposed to mean?
Me: I can tell you are super stressed.
Liam: This was supposed to be an apology and now you are correcting me?
Me: I am just saying I know you are stressed. Why is all this bugging you?
Liam: I want to know why you leaving doesn't seem to bother you.
Me: It does so I don't want to focus on it.
Liam: That doesn't make it go away.
Me: Can we not do this right now? I don't want to spend my last day here upset.
Liam: Fine.

He walked towards the table to get food I just stood there, frustrated. Why was he acting like this all the time? It so isn't like him. Everyone else acted like they hadn't been listening and started up conversations of their own. Niall talked to me about some new recording deal and some ideas for their next album.

After we all finished eating, we decided to go bowling. We got our shoes and the boys all paid for us to play. We played two games, goofing off the whole time and having a blast. I SO don't want to leave. After we were done we went and grabbed a light lunch before deciding to go see a movie.

~~~~Later~~~~

It was dinnertime. I only had a small amount of packing left. We went to Nando's for one last meal together. We had fun and angered the wait staff, as usual. These were the kinds of things I was going to miss. The table races, chugging the drinks after every refill, and talking to the waitress in different accents were just a few of the fond memories I had from every time we went out to eat together.

After dinner we went back to our apartments. They were all going to come over and tell me goodbye before I left, but I wasn't ready to leave just yet. Liam came back with me to help pack and have a little alone time. Before we got to the packing, I just sat on the bed and he followed. I let out a sigh.

Me: I can't believe this is really happening.
Liam: Me either. I can't bear to see you go.
Me: I'll come visit over the holidays and we can talk whenever you are free.
Liam: Yes but that never works well.
Me: I'm just giving suggestions.
Liam: But we won't be able to talk all of the time. You will have classes and work and other things to do back home and I will be constantly recording and rehearsing and touring. We leave for our tour in 2 days!
Me: I was just trying to help. No need to be having doomsday talk right now.
Liam: You're right. I'm sorry. I just worry.
Me: I know.

I kissed him on the cheek and stood up.

Me: Come on. I need to finish packing.

He got up and we started grabbing things. For the first few minutes, he sang while we worked and it was lovely. Then, he didn't know where to put my makeup bag.

Liam: Where does this go?

I glanced up to see what he was talking about and then answered as I turned back somewhat quietly.

Me: Throw it in the top over there.
Liam: What?

I turned around and raised my voice, speaking slowly.

Me: THROW. IT. IN. THE. TOP. OVER. THERE.
Liam: No need to get an attitude.
Me: You didn't hear me so I spoke up.
Liam: All you had to do was say it again.
Me: Then you wouldn't have heard me again and we would be arguing, AGAIN. Oh wait! We already are!
Liam: At least that's one thing that is consistent with you.
Me: Excuse me?
Liam: Nothing.
Me: You can't give some snarky remark and tell me it was nothing.
Liam: Excuse me, your highness.
Me: What is with you? You have been so touchy the past few weeks! Everything I say or do starts a fight and I hate it.
Liam: Then its a good thing you won't be here any more after today.
Me: So now you want me to leave?
Liam: No I want you to stop nagging.
Me: You started it! I don't even know what you are upset about!
Liam: Everything.

My voice softened.

Me: You are upset with everything? Or just me?

He paused.

Me: Maybe this isn't going to work out after all.
Liam: What do you mean?
Me: I mean all we have done lately is fight and in a few hours I will be several thousand miles away in another country. Then you will be touring and there are millions of girls that would kill to take my place.
Liam: I'm not going to cheat on you if that is what you are implying.
Me: See there you go again making stuff up. It's like you don't want us to work out.
Liam: Of course I do.

I paused and just shook my head.

Me: I don't think continuing this relationship is a good idea.

I avoided his gaze and looked at the picture on the wall.

Liam: You're giving up?
Me: I just think it is for the best if we go our separate ways and now is as good a time as ever.
Liam: If that is what you want.

I nodded, not letting my eyes leave the wall.

Me: I can finish up. There are only a couple of things left.
Liam: Then I guess I will go back to my place.

I heard him walk to the door, but then he stopped.

Liam: Will I ever see you again?

I finally decided to look at him one last time. His eyes looked glossy as he stood there at the door. I shrugged.

Me: I'm sure I will make it back to England eventually.
Liam: Promise to come see me when you do?

I nodded.

Me: Promise.

With that he turned and was gone. I threw the last of my things into my luggage and zipped everything up. I pulled my stuff into the living room and everyone was starting to come in to tell me goodbye. I hugged each one saying goodbye. Brooke and Rose had tears threatening to fall, but they resisted. When I came to Harry it was a bit awkward, but we still hugged. He held me close like old times and whispered in my ear.

Harry: I'm sorry for everything that happened. I never meant to hurt you.
Me: I forgive you. I'm sorry I've been holding that against you all this time. I would like to be friends again.
Harry: I would like that.

We both smiled.

Me: Keep in touch?
Harry: Definitely.

I moved on and finished up with Niall. He was driving me to the airport. I waved goodbye to the others and we left. We talked to whole way and he left me at the gate that he picked me up at 3 months ago with a big hug and a kiss on the forehead. I watched him walk away before boarding.

On the plane, I sat by the window and after they finished reading off the safety information, we took off. I thought about what had happened as I stared out the small window. It reminded me of the small window in my room of Niall's apartment. I started thinking about Liam's apology song and all of the sweet things he had done for me.

The stewardess tapped my shoulder and I whipped my head around.

Me: Yes?
Lady: Would you like anything to drink?

I thought about it.

Me: Yorkshire tea please.

She nodded and left, but I would hear Liam's voice in my head saying "But you hate tea." I whispered to myself.

Me: But you don't.

The lady stopped.

Lady: Is there something else?

Me: No I'm sorry. That is all.

She nodded, satisfied, and kept going down the aisle. My mind went back to all of the fun things that Liam and I had done together. Then I replayed our breakup in my mind. I could see the saddness in his eyes as he walked out.

What had I done?