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No Regrets

34-Bucket List

Niall's P.O.V

Cancer. Leukemia. Cancer. Leukemia. Those words kept repeating themselves in my head. I didn't say anything as she was talking. I was too ashamed that I hadn't noticed something was wrong before. When she took off her sweater tears formed in my eyes. I dropped to my knees in front of her, and gently trailed my fingers along the bruises, cuts and scars. I should have known something was up when she would always wear long sleeves. I don't think I've ever seen her wear a short sleeve more than once. How could I be so clueless?
I was on my knees in front of her as she continued. Each word tearing through my heart. All I could feel was shame. My head snapped up when she said that Zayn and Harry had known for a while. And Lou and Liam knew as well. How could she tell them before she told me? I was angry until I remembered that they had seen something and asked her. I was too blind to see what was going on. A few tears had escaped my eyes, and I was staring at the ground, head hung in shame. I looked up again when she said she had lost her hair. A mangled noise came out of my throat as I saw her slide a wig off of her head to real a bald head. My tears were starting to fall more frequently as I looked up at her. How had I not noticed?! I kept listening, letting my tears fall.
"They said I only have a 10% chance of survival, and they gave me one to two months to live." My breath caught in my throat and I heard everyone gasp and take in a breath. "That's why I was only really hanging out with my parents and Bri this week, it may be the last time I ever see them, we still aren't quite sure." The room was dead silent except for the occasional sniffles. "I didn't want to tell any of you originally because I didn't want you to feel bad for me. I had too many people who hated me in high school suddenly become my best friend when they heard I was sick." At least I knew that she hated sympathy, I was able to find that out before. "I want you to know, I'm not scared of what might happen to me. I've had the best couple of weeks I could ask for; I'm not scared to die."
"What about us. You may note scared, but I sure as hell am. I don't, I CAN'T lose you." I said, speaking for the first time, my voice full of sadness and tears.
"Niall..." She said, finally showing an emotion. She reached for my hand and I gladly let her take it. Char slid out of her seat and embraced me in a hug. My head was in her neck and I quickly wrapped my arms around her, never intending to let her go. I heard shuffling and knew that everyone was leaving. I felt hands rub against my bag but all I was focusing on was Char's arms wrapped around me. I heard the door close and knew we were alone.
"I'm sorry I didn't pay close enough attention to realize something was wrong." I said my voice thick.
"I did everything I could to make sure you didn't find out. If anyone should be apologizing it’s me. I should've told you sooner, you should've been the first to know. I'm sorry." She said her voice breaking. I finally lifted my head off her shoulder and looked her in the eye.
"It's my fault. I should've been more observant. From now on I promise I will pay more attention." Char smiled.
"But please don't treat me any differently. I don't want you go to be careful with what you do or say around me. Treat me like you always have." She said looking directly in my eyes.
"I promise."
"I'm probably going to start to get sicker, and start to look sicker, please don't change the way you look at me."
"Never." I said, brushing my fingertips along her chin. A single tear rolled down her face.
"Thank you."
"Anything for my princess." I said as I cradled her neck in my hand. I gently leaned forward and pressed my lips on hers. Fireworks exploded, making my heart flutter the way only she makes it. We broke the kiss and she wrapped her arms tighter around my neck. We sat there hugging and just enjoying being together for what felt like hours. Not saying a word and it felt perfect.

*the next day*

Charlotte's P.O.V.
My eyes fluttered open as I slowly woke up. I felt an arm wrapped around my waist, pulling me into his chest. I gently turned around so that I was facing him and took in his sleeping form. His eyes were gently closed, and his face looked so relaxed and peaceful. He wasn't wearing a shorthand I could see his chest rising. I gently started trailing my fingers across his chest, hoping not to wake him. In response he just tightened his grip around my waist and brought my body closer to his. I smiled and closed my eyes, after a few minutes I was asleep again, perfectly comfortable lying in his arms.

Niall's P.O.V.
I slowly opened my eyes and was greeted with Char's face. She was still sleeping, and she looked like an angel, even with no hair. I studied her face and all its features for what felt like hours, promising myself that I would never forget how she looked right now. Just to help myself I grabbed my phone and took a picture of her. The light was reflecting perfectly on her face and she looked absolutely beautiful. I wrapped my arm back around her and kept studying her but she felt the movement. Her eyelids gently fluttered open and she smiled at me. Stunning.
"Morning love." I said and her eyes widened a little. "What?" Said, laughing at her expression.
"Guys voices in the morning really are extremely hot. Especially Irish accents." She giggled and I chuckled.
"Glad to be of service!" I said and she laughed. “The boys and I asked for today off, what do you want to do?” I asked her and she stared at the ceiling as she thought. All of a sudden her eyes grew wide and she bolted out of my arms and went to the dresser. I groaned at her living my arms and she laughed. She pulled out a book and brought it over. She hopped back in bed and I quickly wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close. She giggled and opened the book. “What’s that?” I asked as she opened it to reveal page upon page of handwritten words.
“It’s kind of like my journal full of memories. I put all my favorite memories in here, or just use it to vent. But it also has my bucket list.” She said as she looked at me. “I want to try to do as much on it as possible in the time I have.”
“Stop.” I said and she looked at me in surprise and confusion. “Stop talking like it’s guaranteed. You can still make it.” I said and I closed my eyes. I felt her hand brush my cheek and I fluttered my eyes open.
“I’m sorry. Of course there is still hope.” She said with a sad smile on her lips. “Have you ever been skydiving?” She asked, lightening the mood.
“No I haven’t, but Liam and Lou have.” I said and she nodded and looked back at her book. I reached over and pulled the book from her grasp so that we could both read it.
Bucket List
  1. Skydiving
  2. Visit London
  3. Meet Cast of Harry Potter
  4. Go to Ireland
  5. Go to Scotland
  6. Kiss in the Rain
  7. Go To London for 18th Birthday
  8. Get as Many Photo Booth Pictures as possible
  9. Ride a Horse
  10. Go to Cedar Point with Kylie
  11. Go to Rio De Janeiro and see the Carnival
  12. Sing in Public
  13. Go Cliff Diving
  14. Bungee Jumping
  15. Go to Harry Potter World With Kylie
  16. Get a Carry On Tattoo
  17. Beat Cancer
Those were just some of the things I saw as I skimmed down the list. I smiled when I saw “Go to Ireland” Well, that just might be possible… “Come on Princess, as much as I want to lay here all day with you, we have plans.” I said and she giggled and got up.
“May I ask what those plans are?” She said as she went to the bathroom.
“Nope. It’s a surprise.” She laughed and went to put her wig on.
“You don’t have to wear that anymore if you don’t want to.” I said and she looked at me in the reflection.
“But what if the paps see us?” She said in a weak voice.
“It’s up to you if you are OK with them seeing you like this.” I said and she sighed and put away the wig. “Just know that you are absolutely gorgeous to me. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks.” I said and wrapped my arms around her waist, smiling at her reflection in the mirror.

Notes

What did you guys think of Niall's reaction?! I would LOVE to hear!!
What do you think Niall has planned?! Let me know!
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Comments

@livingmylifeUKbackup
Awesome!:) and I know exactly how you feel!=]
@Khloe Styles
Thanks!! I'm trying to writ some of it right now, I already have the whole thing planned out, it just takes so long to transfer the words from my head to a page!
@livingmylifeUKbackup
You should totally right a new one!:)
your a really great author and a lot of people would read it!:)
@Khloe Styles
I'm thinking about writing a new one, I already have the whole story line down, I just dont really have any motivation to actually write it down :/ but I will definetely let you know if I write a new one!! And whenever Carry On comes on I get very emotional too! I;m happy that you can relate things to my story!! You rock!
@HopelessDream
I am the author of this story, my account wont let me log in anymore so I had to make a new one.
This link has teh last few chapters on it. http://www.harrystylesfanfiction.com/Story/8931/No-Regrets-ORIGINAL-ACCOUNT-NOT-WORKING-WILL-BE-POSTING-LAST-TWO-CHAPTERS-HERE/
Hope you enjoy!