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No Regrets

29-Meltdown

Harry’s P.O.V.
We had all just walked into our flat after the interview when Niall wanted to go see if Char was at her flat. I quickly told Niall that she had said she was at work today. He frowned but then shrugged.
“I’ll just see her after she gets out then.” He said walking to the kitchen like always. My phone started to ring and I reached over to grab it and look at who was calling. I didn’t recognize the number but answered it anyway.
“Hello?” I asked and a woman replied.
“Hello, is this Harry Styles? I’m calling about Charlotte Moren.”
“Uh, yeah that’s me.” I said as I headed to my room and closed my door and got strange looks from the lads. “Is everything alright? What’s happened?!” I asked in a worried but hushed tone.
“You were listed as an emergency contact that lived nearby. Charlotte reacted badly to the new treatment she was receiving today. She is freaking out and screaming, and we can’t seem to calm her down. We understand that only you and Zayn Malik know of her condition, and would greatly appreciate it if one of you could come down here to try and help her. We know that she has preferred for you not to see her, but this really is an emergency.” The woman said in a very rushed and worried tone.
“I’ll be there in five minutes. I’ll make sure I’m alone.” I told the woman.
“Thank you. Come to floor three when you get here. I’ll be waiting, try not to draw attention to yourself.” She said and after I agreed she hung up.
I put my beanie, a jacket and my glasses on and headed out into the living room. The lads all looked up at me and raised their eyebrows as I grabbed my keys.
“Uh I gotta go run some errands, and probably grab a drink or two. I’ll be back later.” I told them but looked directly at Zayn as I said it, hoping he would understand that it was about Jules. Zayn cocked his head and I slightly nodded my head as I headed out. The lads looked a little suspicious but didn’t do anything about it. I saw Zayn typing furiously on his phone as I walked out. I had just hopped in my car when I got a text from Zayn.
(Bold=Zayn, Italics=Harry)
Did something happen with Lottie?
Her nurse called me up and said she isn’t reacting well and wanted one of us to come down to try to calm her down
That must be the missed call I got. I didn’t know who it was so I didn’t answer it. Shit
I’ll let you know how she is, try to keep the lads away from her flat and not wonder where I am. Don’t think ill be back for a while
Ok, keep me posted. Delete these messages.
I deleted the messages as soon as I reached the hospital. I parked the car and kept my head down as I quickly walked into the building and headed to the third floor. As soon as I exited the elevator I hear a muffled scream and took off running to the receptionist, knowing that scream belonged to Jules.
“Where is she?” I asked the nurse. She looked up, said Harry, and then quickly escorted me to a room at the end of the hallway. She opened it and I saw Jules hooked up to countless needles with a nurse trying to calm her down. She had tears streaming down her face and there was blood on her hands.
“Jules…” My words caught in my throat as I sat down next to her and held her hand, not thinking about the blood. The nurse quietly left after giving my shoulder a squeeze. I moved so I was sitting next to her on the bed and gave her a gentle hug. She started crying into my shoulder as she gasped for breath. After a few minutes of me rubbing her back and doing my best to soothe her she pulled away. The screams had stopped and the tears weren’t coming as fast.
She looked down at her hands and my eyes followed hers. I gasped as I saw that the back of her hands had scratches all over them from her nails and they were bleeding. She was twisting a ring around her finger intensely and I saw that there was a bruise around her finger from where she had dug it into her skin. I looked to see the ring and saw that it was a cheetah. I quickly got up, grabbed a wet wash cloth and sat back down next to her. She was still breathing really fast as I cleaned the blood off of her hands which helped to stop the bleeding. I carefully threw away the wash cloths and gently grabbed her hands.
“Jules.” I said and she looked up at me with fear in her eyes. Her lip was trembling and there were still tears in her eyes. “I’m not going to hurt you,” I said and swallowed before talking again “But I need to know whats wrong.” A tear spilled over and I gently washed it away.
She took a sharp intake before talking. “I keep seeing…Kylie’s body. I held her in my hands…I looked her in the eyes…I watched the life drain out of her.” She spoke in short clips taking shaky breaths between each one. My eyes widened at what I was hearing. “I couldn’t saver her…My best friend…” She trailed off and a few more tears spilled through her shut eyes. “Kylie killed herself…I knew something was wrong…I found her in her bathroom…blood everywhere…pills on the floor…empty alcohol bottles…she cut her wrist deep…I keep replaying that night…May 12…I keep seeing her die. Why won’t it stop?!” She raised her voice towards the end and broke into a wave of hysteria. She was shaking and crying and screaming. I quickly wrapped her in my arms and she put her face into my chest, still sobbing. My brain was still registering what I had just heard. Her best friend—Kylie, had committed suicide. She mixed alcohol and drugs and cut herself. Jules had held her in her hands as she died. She watched her best friend die. A strange sound escaped my throat as I realized this. She dealt with all that on top of having cancer?
I felt her moving her hands and gently pulled away to see her clawing at the needles in her shoulders. I quickly grabbed her hands to stop her form hurting herself and pressed the nurse call button. She continued to struggle against me but I kept telling her that the nurses were coming. A nurse quickly walked in with a sad look on her face.
“The needles are bothering her, is there any way you can take them out?” I asked nicely but urgently. Her face turned grim and she nodded. “Jules, you gotta stay still, she’s gonna take them out but you gotta stay still.” I said and my voice cracked. I had tears in my eyes but I held them back as Jules stared into my eyes as the nurse quickly removed all the needles from her body. Jules slightly smiled once they were out, but her smile quickly faded. I pulled her onto my chest and laid down next to her on the bed, stroking her hair as she cried into my shoulder. I started to sing softly to her. She started to relax and fell asleep after about an hour. She dug her face into my chest and I wrapped my arms around her and held her as she slept.
Once I was sure she was asleep I let a few tears spill across my eyelashes. I never knew how much she had gone through, and in such a short time. She was so strong to be able to still smile after everything that has happened and is happening. Her breath was still ragged and every once and a while she would jerk and whimper and I would start to sing again and she would stop after a few minutes. My phone buzzed after she had been asleep for about an hour. I had just been lying there thinking about Jules, and how I could help her.
(Bold=Zayn Italics=Harry)
How is she?
She’s asleep right now. She was freaking out and keeps replaying the night of Kylie’s death in her head. I managed to calm her down but she’s still pretty scared
Glad to hear she’s asleep. So she told you about Kylie?
Ya…I can’t believe she had to go through that…
She’s been through a lot, she didn’t really want to open up to any of us, she didn’t want to lead us on if she were to…not make it
I’m glad she did, she needs someone to be there for her right now, but I can’t stand lying to Niall
Me neither mate, she just keeps saying we aren’t lying, we just aren’t telling him
I just think he deserves to know, seeing as they’re dating
I agree. But it’s her decision
I know, I just hate not telling him…she’s waking up, I gotta go
Take her to the beach and let her cool down a little more, I’ll keep Niall busy
Thanks mate
Jules was stirring in my arms and still trembling slightly. She opened her eyes and my heart almost broke to see all the pain and sadness hidden in them. I meagerly smiled at her and she attempted to return it but gave up on it. She slowly sat up and gingerly stretched her arms, being careful with where the needles had been.
“Harry, can we leave? This place is just making it worse.” She asked in a quiet voice. I nodded and grabbed her hand after she put her jacket back on. She looked down and it and smiled. “Thank you.” She whispered as we walked out of the room. We walked up to the desk and she checked out after getting a prescription to fill in for this treatment, seeing as she would NEVER be doing it again. I put my beanie back over my head and she put her glasses on before we headed to the parking lot and quickly got in the car. Luckily no paps knew we were there. We got in the car and I started to drive towards the beach. The whole time Jules was looking at the window with a heartbreaking sad face. But the second she saw where we were going her face lit up a little and a small sad smile played on her lips.
I parked the car and we got out, Jules immediately took off her shoes and started walking through the sand. She let the water brush over the bottom of her legs, not caring that her pants were getting wet. I was standing back a couple of feet just watching her when I heard her start to talk to herself quietly.
“Why did you have to leave me? I could’ve helped you. I didn’t know it had gotten that bad. You should have told me. I…I didn’t even get to say goodbye. After almost ten years, I can’t believe you were just gone forever. I miss you. But I bet you’re up there just strutting like you mean it.” I heard her softly chuckle as if she was saying a private joke that only they knew. “My heart aches without you hear. I miss my best friend.” With that she threw her head up to the sky and screamed. It was full of so much sadness and pain, but I knew she needed to let it out so I didn’t rush to help her. Her painful scream ended and she turned to face me. She didn’t have tears in her eyes; the scream helped her a lot. She walked over to me and gave me a hug. “Thank you, Harry. I’m sorry about this; I didn’t want you guys to see me in that hospital room.” She looked down but I just wrapped my arms around her and gave her a hug. She gladly returned it.

Notes

Hope you guys enjoy the second update for today! PLEASE COMMENT! I really appreciate theam, and they give me reasons to write faster!! Love you All!!
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Comments

@livingmylifeUKbackup
Awesome!:) and I know exactly how you feel!=]
@Khloe Styles
Thanks!! I'm trying to writ some of it right now, I already have the whole thing planned out, it just takes so long to transfer the words from my head to a page!
@livingmylifeUKbackup
You should totally right a new one!:)
your a really great author and a lot of people would read it!:)
@Khloe Styles
I'm thinking about writing a new one, I already have the whole story line down, I just dont really have any motivation to actually write it down :/ but I will definetely let you know if I write a new one!! And whenever Carry On comes on I get very emotional too! I;m happy that you can relate things to my story!! You rock!
@HopelessDream
I am the author of this story, my account wont let me log in anymore so I had to make a new one.
This link has teh last few chapters on it. http://www.harrystylesfanfiction.com/Story/8931/No-Regrets-ORIGINAL-ACCOUNT-NOT-WORKING-WILL-BE-POSTING-LAST-TWO-CHAPTERS-HERE/
Hope you enjoy!