No Regrets
2-Explain
Charlotte’s P.O.V.
We sat there for what felt like hours but was actually only about a half hour. By then I had run out of tears and was just staring at the wall. I couldn’t think, all I felt was numb.
Every once and a while I would feel something wet hit my head and knew that Kylie was crying. She didn’t even know the whole reason but she had understood what I said.
Kylie looked at the clock and it was only a few minutes until school was over. She gently helped me up “The bell is about to ring, let’s get you somewhere more private.” She took me to an empty classroom and I decided I needed to tell her everything. We both sat down and I cleared my throat so it wouldn’t sound so weak.
“I got called out of class to the office,” I said very quietly. Kylie nodded encouragingly. “The counselor left and my mom told me that when I was at the doctors last week-because I was sick- they found something. My mom said I have Chronic Lymphocytic…” Kylie looked confused until I said the last word “…Leukemia. Or CLL. It is a type of leukemia that is very rare in children and teens. It normally occurs after middle age, which means that it isn’t a good sign that I got it so young. It could be pretty serious. I will have to start chemotherapy right away so that the cancer will slow down.” I finished; fresh tears in my eyes. Kylie removed her hand from her mouth and took my hand and looked at me, she didn’t say that she was sorry, or that everything would be okay. And I greatly appreciated that; I didn’t want her or anyone else’s sympathy.
After a few minutes she helped me up and we walked to our classes to get our stuff-the bell had rung when I was explaining and everyone was gone. I was in no fit state to drive so she drove me home. I hugged her and thanked her for helping me. She smiled “any time.” I was about to get out of the car when she grabbed my wrist. I turned and looked at her.
“Just know that I love you, okay?” She said, her voice cracking. I could tell that she was trying to hold it together for me. I nodded, smiled and left the car. I opened the front door and watched her drive away.
Kylie’s P.O.V.
“Just know that I love you, okay?” She smiled and left. As soon as she reached the door I hit the gas and drove away, letting the tears fall. I didn’t let her see me cry, knowing that it would upset her, but I was freaking out. Not because I was selfish and wouldn’t be able to stand it if she died (even though I wouldn’t), but because she had such a good future. It can’t be ruined, she had, no has so much potential.
I got to my house and luckily no one was home. I went to my bedroom and fell on my bed sobbing my heart out.
Charlotte’s P.O.V
I walked inside to see my parents and brother sitting at the table, all with sad and worried looks on their faces.
C.J.!” I ran to my brother and gave him a big hug since I hadn’t seen him for a few months because of college. He hugged me back tightly.
“Hey Lottie!” He said with a sad smile on his face and tears in his eyes. He looked at me questioningly, silently asking how I was. I took a deep breath.
“I’m shocked, scared and nervous,” I said slowly, “But I’m better. Kylie was with me and helped me a lot.” C.J. smiled, knowing I was telling the truth, I smiled too, knowing that I had accepted my condition. Whoa, when did that happen?
“I’m glad sweetie, but we still need to talk.” My mom said.
I sighed, but took a deep breath and nodded.
“We found out about the cancer sooner rather than later, but still not as soon as we would have liked. SO we scheduled a chemotherapy session for tomorrow. Is that okay?”
“Yes…can Kylie come? I’m gonna need her.”
“Of course,” Mom said, “Just know that she is upset about this too.”
“I know…I’m tired, I’m going to head up to bed okay? What time is the appointment?”
“10 o’clock.”
“At least I have to miss school.” I smiled; I wasn’t ready to face everyone yet.
“I figured you wouldn’t want to go tomorrow.” Mom smiled. She knew me so well. “Goodnight!”
“’Night!” I headed upstairs with fresh tears in my eyes, I had accepted my sickness, but I was still shocked and scared. I grabbed my phone and texted Kylie.
Hey my mom is taking me to my first chemo session tomorrow and I’m freaking out, Will u come with me?
From: Chu Chi <3
Of course I will come don’t freak out, take a deep breath. I LOVE YOU! What time?
This is what I love about Kylie. She didn’t say don’t freak out because everything is going to be okay, because she couldn’t guarantee that.
Thank you so much *deep breath* im a little calmer now and 10 so we get to skip school. Whoo
From: Chu Chi <3
I’m glad you can at least sort of joke right now! And yippee! J go to bed now I know you are scared but you need sleep. Night!
She always made me smile. I changed into my P.J’s- a gray sweater with white polka dots, and black sweatpants that said Mrs. Niall Horan on them. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=74405312 These pants always cheered me up because Kylie had gotten me them. I liked One Direction, but I wasn’t a die-hard fan.
I fell into my bed and let my tears fall as I slowly drifted to sleep.
We sat there for what felt like hours but was actually only about a half hour. By then I had run out of tears and was just staring at the wall. I couldn’t think, all I felt was numb.
Every once and a while I would feel something wet hit my head and knew that Kylie was crying. She didn’t even know the whole reason but she had understood what I said.
Kylie looked at the clock and it was only a few minutes until school was over. She gently helped me up “The bell is about to ring, let’s get you somewhere more private.” She took me to an empty classroom and I decided I needed to tell her everything. We both sat down and I cleared my throat so it wouldn’t sound so weak.
“I got called out of class to the office,” I said very quietly. Kylie nodded encouragingly. “The counselor left and my mom told me that when I was at the doctors last week-because I was sick- they found something. My mom said I have Chronic Lymphocytic…” Kylie looked confused until I said the last word “…Leukemia. Or CLL. It is a type of leukemia that is very rare in children and teens. It normally occurs after middle age, which means that it isn’t a good sign that I got it so young. It could be pretty serious. I will have to start chemotherapy right away so that the cancer will slow down.” I finished; fresh tears in my eyes. Kylie removed her hand from her mouth and took my hand and looked at me, she didn’t say that she was sorry, or that everything would be okay. And I greatly appreciated that; I didn’t want her or anyone else’s sympathy.
After a few minutes she helped me up and we walked to our classes to get our stuff-the bell had rung when I was explaining and everyone was gone. I was in no fit state to drive so she drove me home. I hugged her and thanked her for helping me. She smiled “any time.” I was about to get out of the car when she grabbed my wrist. I turned and looked at her.
“Just know that I love you, okay?” She said, her voice cracking. I could tell that she was trying to hold it together for me. I nodded, smiled and left the car. I opened the front door and watched her drive away.
Kylie’s P.O.V.
“Just know that I love you, okay?” She smiled and left. As soon as she reached the door I hit the gas and drove away, letting the tears fall. I didn’t let her see me cry, knowing that it would upset her, but I was freaking out. Not because I was selfish and wouldn’t be able to stand it if she died (even though I wouldn’t), but because she had such a good future. It can’t be ruined, she had, no has so much potential.
I got to my house and luckily no one was home. I went to my bedroom and fell on my bed sobbing my heart out.
Charlotte’s P.O.V
I walked inside to see my parents and brother sitting at the table, all with sad and worried looks on their faces.
C.J.!” I ran to my brother and gave him a big hug since I hadn’t seen him for a few months because of college. He hugged me back tightly.
“Hey Lottie!” He said with a sad smile on his face and tears in his eyes. He looked at me questioningly, silently asking how I was. I took a deep breath.
“I’m shocked, scared and nervous,” I said slowly, “But I’m better. Kylie was with me and helped me a lot.” C.J. smiled, knowing I was telling the truth, I smiled too, knowing that I had accepted my condition. Whoa, when did that happen?
“I’m glad sweetie, but we still need to talk.” My mom said.
I sighed, but took a deep breath and nodded.
“We found out about the cancer sooner rather than later, but still not as soon as we would have liked. SO we scheduled a chemotherapy session for tomorrow. Is that okay?”
“Yes…can Kylie come? I’m gonna need her.”
“Of course,” Mom said, “Just know that she is upset about this too.”
“I know…I’m tired, I’m going to head up to bed okay? What time is the appointment?”
“10 o’clock.”
“At least I have to miss school.” I smiled; I wasn’t ready to face everyone yet.
“I figured you wouldn’t want to go tomorrow.” Mom smiled. She knew me so well. “Goodnight!”
“’Night!” I headed upstairs with fresh tears in my eyes, I had accepted my sickness, but I was still shocked and scared. I grabbed my phone and texted Kylie.
Hey my mom is taking me to my first chemo session tomorrow and I’m freaking out, Will u come with me?
From: Chu Chi <3
Of course I will come don’t freak out, take a deep breath. I LOVE YOU! What time?
This is what I love about Kylie. She didn’t say don’t freak out because everything is going to be okay, because she couldn’t guarantee that.
Thank you so much *deep breath* im a little calmer now and 10 so we get to skip school. Whoo
From: Chu Chi <3
I’m glad you can at least sort of joke right now! And yippee! J go to bed now I know you are scared but you need sleep. Night!
She always made me smile. I changed into my P.J’s- a gray sweater with white polka dots, and black sweatpants that said Mrs. Niall Horan on them. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=74405312 These pants always cheered me up because Kylie had gotten me them. I liked One Direction, but I wasn’t a die-hard fan.
I fell into my bed and let my tears fall as I slowly drifted to sleep.
Awesome!:) and I know exactly how you feel!=]
7/21/13