No Regrets
10-Questions
Charlotte’s P.O.V
I was glad Niall didn’t ask why I got quiet during that song, but I was ready to have a good time and move on from the brief sadness. We all walked into the restaurant and were seated in the back tables so we wouldn’t be anywhere near other people.
“So Charlotte, tell us about yourself.” Liam looked at me.
“Umm, what do you want to know?” I asked in a shy voice. I was normally a pretty shy person, and public speaking, even if only in front of a few people, was not my favorite thing to do.
“Ok, how about we all get to ask you two questions each, and you get to ask each of us two questions so that you get to know us as well.” Liam stated.
I smiled, I liked that idea. “Sounds good to me!”
“Me first!!!” Louis said excitedly. He rubbed his hands together while pretending to think long and hard about a question. “Okay, out of the five of us, who is your favorite?” He grinned.
Crap. “Well, since I don’t know you guys personally yet this is based on your music and interviews, but…Niall was always my favorite.” I blushed deeply as all the boys exchanged looks while Niall looked at me and smiled. Louis raised his eyebrows
“I hope I will still prove to be your favorite once you get to know us love!” My heart almost melted when he called me love, it was so sweet! I smiled at him, and blushed even deeper.
“My turn!” Zayn said as he looked at me. “Why did you move to London?” His eyes were questioning as he stared at me. I hesitated, I didn’t want to tell them I had cancer and then be their charity case, no I don’t think I’m going to tell them, maybe when we become closer, but I don’t want them to feel bad for me.
“Well, I’ve always wanted to live here, and I was offered an opportunity to live here while I went to college here, and I wanted to move on from some things that happened earlier this year, and moving here was a way of doing that.” I finished, only slightly hinting about all the crap I’ve gone through, but the other reasons were true as well. I could tell that Zayn had noticed my hesitation, Niall as well, but luckily neither of them asked about it.
“Hmmm, let’s see…” Liam said, rubbing his chin, “How long are you going to be in London for?”
“At least a year, maybe more.” I replied quickly, glad it was an easy question.
“Okay, I have to ask, single or taken?” Harry asked raising his eyebrows.
“Single,” I replied “For my whole life actually.” I mumbled the last part under my breath so they wouldn’t hear and luckily no one did.
“What are your top five favorite things to do?” Niall asked with curiosity.
“Well I LOVE to read…swim…go to an amusement park…watch movies…and…go boating.” I listed them off on my fingers, as I listed the first things that popped into my head.
“Can I get you anything to eat?” The waiter had finally found the time to come get our orders. He looked bored until he saw me, his eyes scanned my body and he put on a huge smile. “Anything I can get for you cupcake?” He asked in a voice that was trying very hard to be seductive. Ugh! I looked over at the boys and they all had their mouths open, but Niall was looking at the guy like he wanted to punch him. I rolled my eyes and replied with a short “Not from you.” I said with annoyance in my voice, he noticed and smirked.
The rest of the guys ordered a few things except for Niall who ordered practically everything on the menu. Niall looked at me like I was crazy when I said I didn’t want anything, but I told him I just didn’t want to talk to that guy anymore. He whispered in my ear “Don’t worry; you can have some of mine if you want.” I smiled at him, gracious of his offer.
“Okay my turn again! Describe your first snog.” Louis grinned widely.
My face started to turn a slight red color as I answered “Well, if I’m being honest, I’ve never been kissed before.”
I looked at all the boys and all their mouths were hanging wide open.
“A catch like you? I find that hard to believe.” Harry told me and I looked down and smiled at the compliment. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Niall glaring at Harry and he just shrugged.
“Ya I know its lame, but it’s true.” I looked to the side; this was so embarrassing, telling them I’ve never kissed anybody, ugh!! The waiter brought out the food just then and again gave me a seductive smile. I wanted to laugh in his face but didn’t want to be rude so I just rolled my eyes and looked away as he said “I brought some water out for you cupcake, enjoy it!” I groaned as he walked away.
“Some guys just can’t take a hint!” I whispered to the table.
I heard my phone ring a short tune and buzz. I pulled it out of my bag and the screen said
New Message: Mommy
I clicked view and her message popped into view.
Hey sweetie! Just wanted to remind you that you have your first appointment with the doctors today. They want to do the first round of the new treatment today, take some more tests, and just get all your info in the system so it will probably be a lot of needles. Im sorry, they said it will take at least 5 hours to get everything done. The appointment is at 4:00 your time, so don’t be late! Love you, let me know how it goes!
I felt my heart sink. I looked up to see Niall glancing at my phone and I quickly locked the screen, hoping he hadn’t seen too much. He turned away, knowing that I had seen him. I looked at the clock—it was already 3:40! Crap I have to go. The guys had seemed to notice I had gotten sad because they were all looking at me.
“Umm, I have to go; my mom arranged an appointment for me to meet up with my doctor, just to get all my medical stuff down for when I get sick. I’m sorry, but I should go, it was nice to meet all of you!” I started to get up when Zayn piped up.
“No hug goodbye?” He asked in a fake hurt voice. I laughed and went to give them all hugs when he talked again. “Or we could just give you a ride and you could give us hugs when we get there?” I didn’t really want them to know that I was going to the hospital, but I also didn’t know how to get there yet. Maybe they could drive me just this once so that I could learn my way there. I knew it was only about a ten minute walk from my apartment, but I knew I would get lost.
I hesitated while I was thinking it over but eventually said “Sure, thanks.”
Niall’s P.O.V
I saw her reach to grab her phone and glanced over to see that she had a text from her mom. I didn’t mean to pry but my eyes had become glued to the screen.
Hey sweetie! Just wanted to remind you that you have your first appointment with the doctors today. They want to do the first round of the new treatment today was all I caught, she had tilted her screen slightly away from me, just enough so that I couldn’t see. Treatment? Why would she need treatment? Is she sick? What was wrong? A billion questions ran through my head as I continued to stare at her phone. She looked up and caught me staring. She quickly locked her phone and I blushed while I turned my head away. Damn she caught me. I glanced back at her face to see that she looked fairly upset.
“Umm, I have to go; my mom arranged an appointment for me to meet up with my doctor, just to get all my medical stuff down for when I get sick. I’m sorry, but I should go, it was nice to meet all of you!” What? She was leaving? She couldn’t leave! I didn’t even have her number! I started to protest when she got up but Zayn beat me to the punch.
“No hug goodbye?” He asked her trying to sound hurt. Damn him. She quietly laughed and was about to hug Harry when he spoke again. “Or we could just give you a ride and you could give us hugs when we get there?” I saw her debating his offer in her head until she finally gave in.
“Sure, thanks.” Was her response. We all got up to leave and I was the last out. I held Zayn back a bit and looked at him seriously.
“Dude, I wanted to say those things! You didn’t even give me a chance!”
“Shit, sorry, I just didn’t want her to leave without giving us a proper good bye. But why do you care so much?”
“I don’t know,” I mumbled “she seems like a really nice girl, and I want to get to know her better.” Zayn smirked, knowing that I wanted to get to know her as possibly more than just friends.
“Sorry mate, I’ll let you get to know her more, just don’t hog her!” He replied with a smirk. We reached the front of the restaurant and when we reached the car I was sad to see that she was already in the car. I frowned to myself; I wanted to open the door for her.
Charlotte’s P.O.V
“So, where are we going?” Harry asked me.
“Ummm, well…the hospital…” I trailed off, not wanting them all to gawk at me. They all had surprised looks on their faces but quickly recovered as Harry started the car. Louis did a really good job of making the car ride less awkward and it was a really fun ride even though it only lasted about three minutes. I turned around and gave them all a hug, I lingered for a little bit longer in Niall’s arms and he didn’t seem to mind. His hug calmed me down, I was freaking out, this would be my first chemo treatment in London. I sadly let go of Niall and started to get out of the car.
“How are you getting home?” Niall asked in a worried tone.
“I was planning on walking; it’s only a few minutes from here.” I replied, but even those few minutes would be hard for me. I always got very tired and weak after treatment and darkness certainly didn’t help, and I knew it would be fairly late by the time I would be allowed to go home.
“No way, we will pick you up.” He replied in a firm voice. I smiled at how thoughtful he was being.
“Its fine, you don’t have to do that.”
“But I want to.” He didn’t seem like he was going to budge.
“Thank you, just so you know it will probably be around 9 by the time I get out.”
“Okay, here put your number in my phone and text me when you are through.” He said as he handed me his phone. I typed in my number and saved it as Char <3 xx. I handed it back to him before I got scared from my boldness.
“Thank you guys so much for lunch, and for the ride. I will see you tonight!” I opened my door and walked to the building I walked inside and turned around. The window was down and Niall’s head was sticking out of it, making sure I got in safely. I felt a buzz in my pocket and looked at the new text.
Hey its Niall, is it ok if we talk while you are there? Or is that bad since it’s a hospital… xx
I smiled at his text and quickly replied.
I would actually really like it if we talked! I need a way to pass the time by and talking to you is the perfect way to do that! Xx
I took a deep breath as I walked up to the receptionist and she led me up a few flights to the cancer ward. The doctor led me to the room I would be in for the day and introduced himself and talked about everything for a few minutes. He drew three pints of blood which hurt a lot because he kept having to move spots because he couldn’t find a good blood flow and then hooked me up to three different IV needle drips for the chemo. There was one in each elbow and then another on the inside of my left wrist. This was part of the new treatment, more drips, each putting something different in my bloodstream. When he left the room to go and test the blood I grabbed my phone in my right hand, trying not to move the needles. I had a new text.
From Niall xx <3 xx
Glad to hear that! Hows it goin?
Sorry, the doctor was talking to me, its painful, I had to get some blood drawn and I absolutely HATE needles. I still freak out and hide under the seat sometimes J
Niall’s P.O.V
I looked down at my phone; it had been fifteen minute since I texted her. Why wasn’t she texting me back? I felt my phone buzz and scrambled to view the text
Sorry, the doctor was talking to me, its painful, I had to get some blood drawn and I absolutely HATE needles. I still freak out and hide under the seat sometimes J
She was in pain, that much was clear, and all I wanted was to be there to take it away or at least hold her hand.
Hang in there! Its only that one needle right? No more?
There are a few more, they have a lot of tests to run
Why do they need to do so many tests? Does this have anything to do with “treatment” im sorry I saw the beginning of the text from your mom
It took her a little bit longer to respond, and I knew that I had touched a sensitive subject.
Oh, and its fine, I just didn’t really want to dump my life story on you guys only hours after I met you. And its kinda hard to explain over text.
I understand, but im here for you when you need it, just know that, ok?
Thanks, and I will tell you guys, but can this just be between us right now?
Course, I understand, and tell us when you are ready don’t feel pressured.
Thanks for understanding
Always. You up for playin 20 questions?
Sure! But first thing, do you know what movie the quote “Always” is from? Its based off a huge book series that were written by a british woman, can you guess the movie?
Shit. “Hey lads, do you know what famous movie has the famous line of “always”?” I yelled. We were all at Harry and Lou’s flat hanging out and playing videogames.
“HARRY POTTER” Zayn shouted. “Why?”
“I was texting Char and I said always, so she asked if I knew what move that was from.”
The game paused as everyone turned to stare at me. “CHAR?” They all screamed, “YOU ALREADY GAVE HER A NICKNAME?” I blushed deeply before sticking my tongue out.
“Fuck off.” They all crowded around me as I responded to her text.
Is it by chance Harry Potter?
I looked up from my phone to see Harrys face about an inch from mine. “Jesus! You scared me!” I yelled as I jumped back. They all looked at me expectantly. “What?” I acted innocent.
“So, whats up with you and Char?” Lou asked with a smirk.
“Al’right lads, she seems like a really awesome girl, and I really want to get to know her better, I’ve only known her a few hours.” I said, but in my head I was thinking of getting to know her as more than just a friend, and I already knew her better than the other lads, which was a start.
“Ooohhkkaayyy…” Liam dragged on the word, knowing there was more than what I was saying. I just smirked and looked at the text I just received.
CORRECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have no idea how happy I am you got that right!
I smiled as the lads started to back off, going back to their game while I kept texting Char. Char. I liked the sound of that.
I was glad Niall didn’t ask why I got quiet during that song, but I was ready to have a good time and move on from the brief sadness. We all walked into the restaurant and were seated in the back tables so we wouldn’t be anywhere near other people.
“So Charlotte, tell us about yourself.” Liam looked at me.
“Umm, what do you want to know?” I asked in a shy voice. I was normally a pretty shy person, and public speaking, even if only in front of a few people, was not my favorite thing to do.
“Ok, how about we all get to ask you two questions each, and you get to ask each of us two questions so that you get to know us as well.” Liam stated.
I smiled, I liked that idea. “Sounds good to me!”
“Me first!!!” Louis said excitedly. He rubbed his hands together while pretending to think long and hard about a question. “Okay, out of the five of us, who is your favorite?” He grinned.
Crap. “Well, since I don’t know you guys personally yet this is based on your music and interviews, but…Niall was always my favorite.” I blushed deeply as all the boys exchanged looks while Niall looked at me and smiled. Louis raised his eyebrows
“I hope I will still prove to be your favorite once you get to know us love!” My heart almost melted when he called me love, it was so sweet! I smiled at him, and blushed even deeper.
“My turn!” Zayn said as he looked at me. “Why did you move to London?” His eyes were questioning as he stared at me. I hesitated, I didn’t want to tell them I had cancer and then be their charity case, no I don’t think I’m going to tell them, maybe when we become closer, but I don’t want them to feel bad for me.
“Well, I’ve always wanted to live here, and I was offered an opportunity to live here while I went to college here, and I wanted to move on from some things that happened earlier this year, and moving here was a way of doing that.” I finished, only slightly hinting about all the crap I’ve gone through, but the other reasons were true as well. I could tell that Zayn had noticed my hesitation, Niall as well, but luckily neither of them asked about it.
“Hmmm, let’s see…” Liam said, rubbing his chin, “How long are you going to be in London for?”
“At least a year, maybe more.” I replied quickly, glad it was an easy question.
“Okay, I have to ask, single or taken?” Harry asked raising his eyebrows.
“Single,” I replied “For my whole life actually.” I mumbled the last part under my breath so they wouldn’t hear and luckily no one did.
“What are your top five favorite things to do?” Niall asked with curiosity.
“Well I LOVE to read…swim…go to an amusement park…watch movies…and…go boating.” I listed them off on my fingers, as I listed the first things that popped into my head.
“Can I get you anything to eat?” The waiter had finally found the time to come get our orders. He looked bored until he saw me, his eyes scanned my body and he put on a huge smile. “Anything I can get for you cupcake?” He asked in a voice that was trying very hard to be seductive. Ugh! I looked over at the boys and they all had their mouths open, but Niall was looking at the guy like he wanted to punch him. I rolled my eyes and replied with a short “Not from you.” I said with annoyance in my voice, he noticed and smirked.
The rest of the guys ordered a few things except for Niall who ordered practically everything on the menu. Niall looked at me like I was crazy when I said I didn’t want anything, but I told him I just didn’t want to talk to that guy anymore. He whispered in my ear “Don’t worry; you can have some of mine if you want.” I smiled at him, gracious of his offer.
“Okay my turn again! Describe your first snog.” Louis grinned widely.
My face started to turn a slight red color as I answered “Well, if I’m being honest, I’ve never been kissed before.”
I looked at all the boys and all their mouths were hanging wide open.
“A catch like you? I find that hard to believe.” Harry told me and I looked down and smiled at the compliment. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Niall glaring at Harry and he just shrugged.
“Ya I know its lame, but it’s true.” I looked to the side; this was so embarrassing, telling them I’ve never kissed anybody, ugh!! The waiter brought out the food just then and again gave me a seductive smile. I wanted to laugh in his face but didn’t want to be rude so I just rolled my eyes and looked away as he said “I brought some water out for you cupcake, enjoy it!” I groaned as he walked away.
“Some guys just can’t take a hint!” I whispered to the table.
I heard my phone ring a short tune and buzz. I pulled it out of my bag and the screen said
New Message: Mommy
I clicked view and her message popped into view.
Hey sweetie! Just wanted to remind you that you have your first appointment with the doctors today. They want to do the first round of the new treatment today, take some more tests, and just get all your info in the system so it will probably be a lot of needles. Im sorry, they said it will take at least 5 hours to get everything done. The appointment is at 4:00 your time, so don’t be late! Love you, let me know how it goes!
I felt my heart sink. I looked up to see Niall glancing at my phone and I quickly locked the screen, hoping he hadn’t seen too much. He turned away, knowing that I had seen him. I looked at the clock—it was already 3:40! Crap I have to go. The guys had seemed to notice I had gotten sad because they were all looking at me.
“Umm, I have to go; my mom arranged an appointment for me to meet up with my doctor, just to get all my medical stuff down for when I get sick. I’m sorry, but I should go, it was nice to meet all of you!” I started to get up when Zayn piped up.
“No hug goodbye?” He asked in a fake hurt voice. I laughed and went to give them all hugs when he talked again. “Or we could just give you a ride and you could give us hugs when we get there?” I didn’t really want them to know that I was going to the hospital, but I also didn’t know how to get there yet. Maybe they could drive me just this once so that I could learn my way there. I knew it was only about a ten minute walk from my apartment, but I knew I would get lost.
I hesitated while I was thinking it over but eventually said “Sure, thanks.”
Niall’s P.O.V
I saw her reach to grab her phone and glanced over to see that she had a text from her mom. I didn’t mean to pry but my eyes had become glued to the screen.
Hey sweetie! Just wanted to remind you that you have your first appointment with the doctors today. They want to do the first round of the new treatment today was all I caught, she had tilted her screen slightly away from me, just enough so that I couldn’t see. Treatment? Why would she need treatment? Is she sick? What was wrong? A billion questions ran through my head as I continued to stare at her phone. She looked up and caught me staring. She quickly locked her phone and I blushed while I turned my head away. Damn she caught me. I glanced back at her face to see that she looked fairly upset.
“Umm, I have to go; my mom arranged an appointment for me to meet up with my doctor, just to get all my medical stuff down for when I get sick. I’m sorry, but I should go, it was nice to meet all of you!” What? She was leaving? She couldn’t leave! I didn’t even have her number! I started to protest when she got up but Zayn beat me to the punch.
“No hug goodbye?” He asked her trying to sound hurt. Damn him. She quietly laughed and was about to hug Harry when he spoke again. “Or we could just give you a ride and you could give us hugs when we get there?” I saw her debating his offer in her head until she finally gave in.
“Sure, thanks.” Was her response. We all got up to leave and I was the last out. I held Zayn back a bit and looked at him seriously.
“Dude, I wanted to say those things! You didn’t even give me a chance!”
“Shit, sorry, I just didn’t want her to leave without giving us a proper good bye. But why do you care so much?”
“I don’t know,” I mumbled “she seems like a really nice girl, and I want to get to know her better.” Zayn smirked, knowing that I wanted to get to know her as possibly more than just friends.
“Sorry mate, I’ll let you get to know her more, just don’t hog her!” He replied with a smirk. We reached the front of the restaurant and when we reached the car I was sad to see that she was already in the car. I frowned to myself; I wanted to open the door for her.
Charlotte’s P.O.V
“So, where are we going?” Harry asked me.
“Ummm, well…the hospital…” I trailed off, not wanting them all to gawk at me. They all had surprised looks on their faces but quickly recovered as Harry started the car. Louis did a really good job of making the car ride less awkward and it was a really fun ride even though it only lasted about three minutes. I turned around and gave them all a hug, I lingered for a little bit longer in Niall’s arms and he didn’t seem to mind. His hug calmed me down, I was freaking out, this would be my first chemo treatment in London. I sadly let go of Niall and started to get out of the car.
“How are you getting home?” Niall asked in a worried tone.
“I was planning on walking; it’s only a few minutes from here.” I replied, but even those few minutes would be hard for me. I always got very tired and weak after treatment and darkness certainly didn’t help, and I knew it would be fairly late by the time I would be allowed to go home.
“No way, we will pick you up.” He replied in a firm voice. I smiled at how thoughtful he was being.
“Its fine, you don’t have to do that.”
“But I want to.” He didn’t seem like he was going to budge.
“Thank you, just so you know it will probably be around 9 by the time I get out.”
“Okay, here put your number in my phone and text me when you are through.” He said as he handed me his phone. I typed in my number and saved it as Char <3 xx. I handed it back to him before I got scared from my boldness.
“Thank you guys so much for lunch, and for the ride. I will see you tonight!” I opened my door and walked to the building I walked inside and turned around. The window was down and Niall’s head was sticking out of it, making sure I got in safely. I felt a buzz in my pocket and looked at the new text.
Hey its Niall, is it ok if we talk while you are there? Or is that bad since it’s a hospital… xx
I smiled at his text and quickly replied.
I would actually really like it if we talked! I need a way to pass the time by and talking to you is the perfect way to do that! Xx
I took a deep breath as I walked up to the receptionist and she led me up a few flights to the cancer ward. The doctor led me to the room I would be in for the day and introduced himself and talked about everything for a few minutes. He drew three pints of blood which hurt a lot because he kept having to move spots because he couldn’t find a good blood flow and then hooked me up to three different IV needle drips for the chemo. There was one in each elbow and then another on the inside of my left wrist. This was part of the new treatment, more drips, each putting something different in my bloodstream. When he left the room to go and test the blood I grabbed my phone in my right hand, trying not to move the needles. I had a new text.
From Niall xx <3 xx
Glad to hear that! Hows it goin?
Sorry, the doctor was talking to me, its painful, I had to get some blood drawn and I absolutely HATE needles. I still freak out and hide under the seat sometimes J
Niall’s P.O.V
I looked down at my phone; it had been fifteen minute since I texted her. Why wasn’t she texting me back? I felt my phone buzz and scrambled to view the text
Sorry, the doctor was talking to me, its painful, I had to get some blood drawn and I absolutely HATE needles. I still freak out and hide under the seat sometimes J
She was in pain, that much was clear, and all I wanted was to be there to take it away or at least hold her hand.
Hang in there! Its only that one needle right? No more?
There are a few more, they have a lot of tests to run
Why do they need to do so many tests? Does this have anything to do with “treatment” im sorry I saw the beginning of the text from your mom
It took her a little bit longer to respond, and I knew that I had touched a sensitive subject.
Oh, and its fine, I just didn’t really want to dump my life story on you guys only hours after I met you. And its kinda hard to explain over text.
I understand, but im here for you when you need it, just know that, ok?
Thanks, and I will tell you guys, but can this just be between us right now?
Course, I understand, and tell us when you are ready don’t feel pressured.
Thanks for understanding
Always. You up for playin 20 questions?
Sure! But first thing, do you know what movie the quote “Always” is from? Its based off a huge book series that were written by a british woman, can you guess the movie?
Shit. “Hey lads, do you know what famous movie has the famous line of “always”?” I yelled. We were all at Harry and Lou’s flat hanging out and playing videogames.
“HARRY POTTER” Zayn shouted. “Why?”
“I was texting Char and I said always, so she asked if I knew what move that was from.”
The game paused as everyone turned to stare at me. “CHAR?” They all screamed, “YOU ALREADY GAVE HER A NICKNAME?” I blushed deeply before sticking my tongue out.
“Fuck off.” They all crowded around me as I responded to her text.
Is it by chance Harry Potter?
I looked up from my phone to see Harrys face about an inch from mine. “Jesus! You scared me!” I yelled as I jumped back. They all looked at me expectantly. “What?” I acted innocent.
“So, whats up with you and Char?” Lou asked with a smirk.
“Al’right lads, she seems like a really awesome girl, and I really want to get to know her better, I’ve only known her a few hours.” I said, but in my head I was thinking of getting to know her as more than just a friend, and I already knew her better than the other lads, which was a start.
“Ooohhkkaayyy…” Liam dragged on the word, knowing there was more than what I was saying. I just smirked and looked at the text I just received.
CORRECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have no idea how happy I am you got that right!
I smiled as the lads started to back off, going back to their game while I kept texting Char. Char. I liked the sound of that.
Awesome!:) and I know exactly how you feel!=]
7/21/13