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On The Cross

chapter 49

I woke up feeling like shit, not only did I have a massive hangover but I think I did something stupid last night. I vaguely remember waking up next to Liam in the middle of the night…I don’t think anything happened….I hope not anyway. I rolled out of bed and threw on one of Harry’s shirts over my leopard print panties, I snuck downstairs, Harry, Louis and Niall were asleep in the living room, Zayn and Liam were in the kitchen making breakfast, “breakfast?” Zayn whispered, I shook my head, god the thought of food made me feel sick. I crept outside and sat on the front step of the porch. I needed to talk to someone.

I dialled Lisa’s number. “Hey Holly…you ok?” she said, “no not really, I fucked up!” I sighed, “what happened?” Lisa asked worried. “I slept with Liam” I whispered, “what? Are you serious?” “ye… we didn’t have sex, I literally just slept with him” I clarified, Lisa sighed “oh well what’s the problem then, you didn’t have sex” “that’s not the point though…I wanted to, and I may have tried to seduce him, I feel kind of guilty, I knew how he felt about me and I used it to try and get what I wanted…I’m a complete bitch!” I groaned. “You know how he feels about you? How does he feel about you?” she asked “he told me that he wants me, I’m so confused, I’m with Harry… I love Harry, but I do have these feelings towards Liam, I care for him and don’t want to hurt him, but I feel that the stunt I pulled last night just fucked everything up! I don’t know what to do” I sighed frustrated. “Holly you’re normally the one with all the answers… just talk to Liam, explain that what you did was shit and your sorry, he’s a great guy he’ll understand…maybe talk to Harry about it? I don’t really know babe, it’s not as if you actually cheated on Harry, so I guess it could be worse. Just talk to him and let me know how it goes, I’m here if you need a chat.” Lisa said, “thanks, I guess I should talk to him and not avoid him, I’ll speak to you later” I said as I hung up. I guess I should face Liam as soon as possible.

I crept back into the house, Liam was still in the kitchen, I approached him “hey can we talk?” I asked sheepishly, he gave me a funny look but followed me out of the kitchen. I led Liam to the music room; we wouldn’t be disturbed in here. I closed the door behind us “I feel like shit….” I started “that’s what you get for drinking too much” Liam laughed lightly, “…that’s not what I mean, I feel shit about what I did last night, I was a complete bitch to you, it was totally unfair to pull a stunt like that and I can promise you it won’t happen again, I do truly care about you Liam I don’t want to hurt you and I’m sorry that I did…” Liam pulled me to him “Holly don’t beat yourself up, I could have easily just left last night, I knew that you weren’t exactly thinking straight but I happily joined in with your little game…if you must know I left as soon as you fell asleep, no harm done…” he said calmly. “Ye but harm was done… I’m so confused at the moment, I wanted to have sex with you Liam, when I see you I imagine you fucking me, I’m with Harry so that obviously isn’t going to happen. I know me and Harry don’t exactly have a conventional relationship but I’m not a cheat, I couldn’t do that to him….but I’m also not a liar….I need to tell Harry. I guess I wanted to give you a heads up.” I said. Liam just agreed.

As I made my way downstairs Harry was finally awake, he looked as bad as I felt. “Harry can I talk to you…privately?” I asked, he frowned “ye course”. We made our way upstairs, I sat on the bed nervously, “what’s wrong?” Harry asked, “I did something stupid…I slept with Liam” I said quickly, Harry looked slightly shocked, “when?” “last night….we didn’t have sex he literally just slept next to me….” Harry laughed, “well in that case then babe I slept with Louis and Niall last night” “that’s not the point I’m getting at though Harry, I wanted to have sex with Liam….I love you Harry, you know that, but I think I’m also developing feelings for Liam, I’m really sorry….if you want me to leave I will…” I said as I stood up, Harry pulled me back down onto the bed. “I love you too Holly, you also know that. I can’t say I’m surprised, I guess this is partially my fault for encouraging you to have sex with Liam…I was hoping that it wouldn’t change anything but I guess deep down I had a feeling that it probably would. I’m glad that you felt that you needed to tell me….” Harry seemed so calm “so where do we go from here?” I asked, “well that depends on you Holly…what do you want?” he asked, “I don’t know, I want you Harry, I always will…” I said “but you also want Liam?” Harry interrupted, “I don’t know!” I sighed “I don’t know how I feel, I feel really confused, I love you Harry, but I also care for Liam….your my best friend and boyfriend and he is like my brother.” “Brother that you want to have sex with?” Harry asked.

Harry’s POV

God this conversation wasn’t one that I needed at 10 o’clock in the morning with a massive hangover. I know what you’re thinking ‘Holly wants to have sex with your best friend…dump her’ but I feel kind of responsible for her confusion, I guess I have been pushing Liam upon her without really realising. I love Holly and I don’t want to lose her, I also trust and need Liam in my life. I don’t really know how I feel now…could I let Holly be with Liam as well? I’m not going to lie I did like the idea of Holly being with Liam that time before….I don’t quite know how to explain it.

Holly’s POV

“I suppose….this is a really full on conversation” I said “I know…ok I guess these are our options….oddly I’m ok with it” I cut in “ok with what?” “you and Liam, I encouraged it in the first place, so oddly I’m ok with you wanting to have sex with Liam, I know how well you two get on and I know he fancies the pants off you…that’s obvious. I obviously want you to choose me but I will respect your choice…” “fucking hell Harry I’m not choosing anyone, I’m with you and if you still want me then I intend to stay with you, I just wanted to let you know because I don’t want to lie to anyone…or myself.” Harry nodded, “I know, just think about what you want, longs you always come back to me I’m ok with it.” I nodded, was Harry serious? Ok ye he did kind of encourage me to have sex with Liam in the first place and knowing that Harry is ok with it would make me feel less guilty, but I can’t be with Harry and have sex with Liam as well….can I? NO! I feel like I’m playing with fire and am about to get burnt!

Notes

Ahhhh don't hate me if it's crap!

I kind of wanted Harry to be ok with the fact that Holly and Liam want each other as I didn't want to break the friendship. It is completely unrealistic I know....but Harry did encourage Holly to have a threesome in the first place so clearly he mustn't be that against it!

I was thinking to let the scenario play out and see what happens/develops between the three of them. Harry, Liam and Holly could be an interesting combination xxx

Let me know what you think x

Comments

Any chance you'd a sequel now???

Woah....

Rosegarden Rosegarden
3/23/15

Yeah i noticed.....hahaah

Haha lol my submit button stuck

babe262 babe262
7/20/14

@mcalanna22
I'd happily read your sequel if you did one and give you any advice if you needed . Unfortunately being a full time teacher now I wouldn't have time to help write anything though. Xxxxx

babe262 babe262
7/20/14