On The Cross

Well firstly this would not be a public thing obviously, I don’t want something like this getting out, I have tried hard to keep this part of my life a secret. I’m guessing though that you wouldn’t exactly go shouting it from the roof tops?” he laughed, “god no, I would want this to be a secret as much as you do” I said. “Good then we’re on the same wave length. Well each sub/dom relationship is different; some submissives are always a sub no matter where they are, it’s like a 24 hour relationship. Some are only submissive in the bedroom and some are submissive when behind closed doors. I never normally tie myself down so to speak with one sub, but I want this to be different, I want to teach you about the lifestyle but I also want to see if that type of relationship would work out for us. I would ask of you to be submissive to me whenever we are behind closed doors alone, I would never expect you to be in the sub role when we were out or with friends. You will always have freedom to your own views and opinions but I ask that when we are in the sub/dom role your respect my wishes and try to please me. I will never force you to do something that you’re uncomfortable with, of course I would prefer you try something before saying no, but I’m not a dick I respect the word no. I don’t get off on inflicting pain, I will however try and push you, you have to let me know if I ever try and push you too far. I will expect obedience, when I ask you to do something I expect you to do it to the best of your ability, if you don’t do something to my liking I will punish you though. As I said I respect the word no, so if you are seriously against doing something then say. I don’t really have a preference as to what you call me, some doms like to be called sir or master, I Prefer Harry, but at times I may ask you to address me a sir. Preferably I would ask that you moved in with me so that we can establish a proper sub/dom relationship, I respect your work and would expect you to clearly go, just like I obviously have commitments and need to go to work as well. Um…what else, that’s probably enough for now, do you have any questions Holly?” he said, wow I was still taking in all the information.

“Um ye actually I do, so I get it I’m a sub behind closed doors but what am I outside of those doors?” I asked, “good question, that depends on you really, we can start off as friends and see where it leads. The media like to complicate things though so to them you would be a friend, unless that status was to change” he said, “right ok, so basically I get a say but I have to try and please you, I will be punished if I mess up, I can always say no, and you want me to move in?” I checked, “ye basically, we can discuss anything else at a later date if necessary” he said smiling, “ok, well um yes” I said nervously. “Yes what? Yes you agree to those things, yes you want to be my sub?” he asked studying my face, “yes I agree to those things, and yes I want to be your sub. But I’m still really nervous about this whole thing, I mean I still don’t know if I’m even into this” I said, “it’s ok Holly I know, I know what I’m doing, I would never hurt you intentionally, you must promise me though to tell me how your feeling, you need to trust me, and I need to trust you, this is a relationship built on mutual respect, even though in theory I am the one in charge there is no hierarchy, I will take on your ideas and views.” He said gently. “Ok, I do trust you, I wouldn’t do this if I didn’t, but I get the fact that that trust needs to grow so that I know you have my best interest at heart” I said. “Of course, same for me I trust you, but clearly that trust will grow”.

“Ok so now what?” I asked, “that depends on you, you can go home and come back tomorrow, or I can show you something tonight?” he said as he got closer to me. I could feel his warm breath against my face, “show me something….as in…” I asked, “yep”. “I think I’d like for you to show me something” I said nervously. “Hmm good, follow me” he said. Harry led me through his large house, we stopped outside what I’m assuming was his bedroom.

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