On The Cross

I jumped when I got a text.

Jessie: have you said yes yet? Do it or else I will for you!!!!

Holly: no I haven’t, I can’t stop thinking about it though, I don’t honestly know what to do.

Jessie: common what have you got to lose?

Holly: my pride, self-respect, independence….shall I go on?

Jessie: ok well what would you gain?

Holly: I don’t know…pleasure, fun, letting lose for once, being looked after for once, not having the final decision in every bloody thing I do, feeling cared for, being desired…..ok I get it there are more good points than bad, but I’m scared

Jessie: exactly! Well talk to him then, he’s a nice guy he will surely understand your feelings!!

Holly: fine! I’ll text him, but only cause I can’t think straight, I can’t even do my job properly xxx

I took a deep breath; I can do this it’s only one text!

I looked at the time, it was 9pm, it’s not as if he’ll be asleep is it, he won’t mind if I text…will he? Oh god I’m already thinking as a submissive and not wanting to upset my dom, fuck I’m screwed!

Holly: can’t believe I’m saying this (well texting it). I have been thinking about your offer, maybe a bit too much, I can’t even do my job properly! I have no idea what I’m doing or what I want, I guess I just want to know what you would expect of me if I was to say yes. Because I guess I’m saying yes! just like you though I don’t want people to know, my parents would probably send me away to a convent if they found out haha, ok I’m blabbing now in text….um get back to me I guess x Holly

Well I sent it…do I regret it? I’m not sure. I sat waiting by the phone…but nothing, he’s busy…or he has changed his mind!

I sat back and watched TV to distract me.

Suddenly my phone beeped.

Harry: hey sorry I was on stage x I’m glad you have thought about it, come to mine tomorrow we can talk about it properly. I’m cooking be here for 7pm. I’ll send you text with address in, look forward to seeing you tomorrow x H

Oh my god I actually didn’t expect a text back, crap he wants me to go to his. I suddenly got another text with his address in. Shit what do I do?

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