Tongue Tied *some sexual content*

Harry's pov:

After the whole Thing with Shawn, Lindsey didn't feel like going out anymore. I don't blame her I mean she was almost raped just before I tried getting it in too. I feel awful. Down right stupid. I look at her as a little girl. I don't know why.. She ain't little though. Ugh. I just wish I knew my feelings for her. I shouldn't have any!

" Harry.. Where you been?" Louis asks as I walk through the door.

" Out.." I say setting my keys down. He stares at me.

" Out huh.. With whom?" He's cutting me at my throat fuck!

" Mum.. She wanted to cacth up." I lie. He chuckles.

" Oh.. What mum becaus I called Anne and she didn't know where you were either.. So tell me where were you?" He walks over in the kicthen blocking me from the stairs. I groan.

" Why does it matter! It's my house I can come and go as I please!" I shout throwing my hands at him attempting to push him. he doesn't budge.

" Harry. I know. Did you go to the bar.. Without me?"

" your mad because I-" I laugh a little relieved he didn't suspect I was with another girl.

" yes as a matter of fact I was.. But I didn't get any ass. If that makes you feel better." I lie again. Well it's a partial lie because it's true I didn't get any ass but I didn't go to a bar to get some.

" Damn you harry! I told you I wanted to go out and you refused just so you could go by yourself!" He yells.

" Don't get mad Louis! Sometimes I wanna be by myself!" I say in defense.

" You are so stubborn.. For real! It's your fault your not alone." He spits.

" Wait.. Exscuse me.. My fault I'm not alone. You meant to tell em you would still be with Natalie if it wasn't for me? I had nothing to do with your dysfunctional relationship." I get close to his face letting him know

I'm in command. He backs up a little running into the door. He holds put his hands.

" I'm not blaming you. All I'm saying is when I became your friend I changed.."

" changed...?" I question. He looks at me for a moment.

" Yeah! Changed! Bloody hell all I want is a good pussy and I'm set! I didn't used to be like that. Me and Nat used to be happy." I can't believe he is saying this right now.

" You chooses your own life Louis! I didn't force it on you." Is all I say then exit through the living room and sit down.

" this conversation is over." I hear him mimic me but I ignore it and check my vibrating phone.

lindsey: Hey. Alone. Bored didn't know who else to text.

me: oh well.. I'm always available:)

lindsey: good. Sorry about today and all..

me: no.. I should be the one to say sorry. I came onto you and it was wrong.:(

lindsey: I agree it was wrong but your a man and all men have hormones. Just know don't try anything funky with me again or you might end up like Shawn;)

I laugh. it's true. She put a restraining order on him and he has to spend three jail days. Damn.

me: don't worry. I won't. Lmao.

lindsey: so maybe we can find some time tomorrow?

i think what I have planned tomorrow. Three way with the Asians. Fuck. I can't ditch them. There just some girls I found on Craigslist and I don't wanna let it go. Shit. Shit. Shit.

me: yes we can. After five.. Dinner and a movie?

this gives me until three too fuck them then I can shower and get ready for the evening.

lindsey: sounds great but hey call me tomorrow I need some sleep!xx

me: night.x

i felt weird talking to a girl.. About hanging out. But i honestly didn't felt he need to have sex with her. She didn't appeal to me that way. She came off as a friendly girl and she is rubbing off on me I think. I'm not going to say she makes me not wanna have sex. I'll just get it somewhere else. But she will keep my mind off of other things. I'm willing to be her friend and nothing else. But the minute she shows a hint of going in and letting me shag her I might not be able to withstain and after sex I'll be forced to drop her like a brick. Not that she wouldn't be good at sex but I don't want to have someone claim me to be theirs.

I dont wanna be owned.

I just wanna live.

i wanna be free.

I don't need someone to help me in life.

bottom line I don't need...

Love.

Notes

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and omg omg the Brit awards yesterday! Were so funny.
harry was late bc he had to see during his award show.
you sneaky babe.
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