I Want to be Loved by You
The next day, I decided to take a walk. I needed more time for myself after last night. Sometimes I enjoy it, but not all the time. My mind doesn't always help me when I need it to.
As much as I would love to be with Kyrie, I can't think straight. I have to have a clear mind before I talk to her again. Like she promised, she called me last night, but I was already sleeping. I wish I was awake to talk to her, but I probably wouldn't have been able to anyways. I guess it's better that I didn't answer her.
I was so lost in my thoughts, that I didn't even know where I was going. I didn't really care either, as long as I found my way back home. I want to be walking with Kyrie, without having to worry about where we're going, or to not even care about things. I want to hold her when she starts to get cold, and give her my jacket once she begins to shiver.
I just want her to see how much I love and care for her. I wish she looked at me the same way I looked at her. She just [i]has[/i] to be with Harry, doesn't she? She could've been with anyone. Why him? Why hurt me with my best friend?
Well, it's not like she knows what she's doing. Neither does Harry. I never told him how I felt about her, but now I regret it. Then again, he never told me he liked her either. I had no idea until I found out about them. That was the day my world crumbled right before me. I should've told him before, but I didn't think anything like that would happen. I was so stupid to think that.
Why can't she open her eyes and see that I'm the one she needs? I guess she'll just keep them closed for now.
After the party at Zayn's, I called Louis like I said I would. He didn't answer, so I left him a voicemail asking him why he was acting the way he was. It really concerned me, but I know he'll get over whatever it was. He's not the type of guy to get upset over something for very long. But this seemed different, and I couldn't quite figure out what it was. He seemed really hurt by something.
Maybe it was nothing and I'm looking too far into this. That's probably it. But why would he avoid me so much? He and I have known each other for the longest time, and he's never acted that way towards me. It was very strange.
I went to bed feeling very uneasy that night. I hope he's all right. I don't want him to be hurting, I want to be there for him and make him feel better however I can. Maybe I'll go check on him.
I got up to the kitchen, and saw Harry making breakfast. He noticed me, but he didn't say a word. Instead he just smiled at me and planted a soft, tender kiss on my lips. I love the way his lips feel on mine, they fit perfectly together.
"Did you sleep okay, love?" He asked me so sweetly that I almost melted right there on the floor.
I mentally sighed before I answered with, "Kind of, I kept thinking about Louis. I don't know what's going on with him. I hope he's all right."
"You should talk to him soon. This may be out of the blue, but do you think he might have feelings for you? It really seemed like he did last night."
"No, I don't think so. We're nothing but friends, I doubt he likes me." What was he talking about? That's impossible, Louis doesn't like me. I would've known by now. Harry doesn't know what he's talking about.
He shrugged. "I don't know, I kind of find that hard to believe. I've seen the way he looks at you. Ky, he's my best friend and I think he might like you."
I shook my head. "I would know if he did."
"Yes, of course I would."
He nodded, but he was hesitant when he spoke. "All right...I believe you." I could tell he didn't believe me, but I didn't want to get into it with him. That's when I heard my phone ringing. Harry smiled and said I could answer it. For all I know, it might be Louis, so I should talk to him if it was.
I answered to hear that it was my friend Rune. She's Zayn's girlfriend and recently became a close friend of mine. It's been a while since I've had a friend that was a girl. For a long time my only friend was Louis.
"Hey, Kyrie, wanna grab a coffee or something?" She asked softly over the phone.
"Yeah, that sounds nice, actually. Want to meet up in like an hour or so?"
"Okay, I'll see you then, bye." Then she hung up.
"Was that Louis?" Harry asked.
I shook my head. "No, it was Rune. We're gonna grab a cup of coffee later."
He nodded. "Can I have you before you leave?"
I couldn't hold back the smile as I said, "Yes, Harry. You can have me before I go." Then he took me into the bedroom, and we had some fun.
Rune texted me saying that she was still at Zayn's house after last night. I drove over to Zayn's and when I got out of my car, I felt a warm breeze hit me. It made me feel free, and happy.
I walked up to the door and knocked three times. The door flew open, and the person who answered was Zayn. He gave me a big smile then said, "Hey! Come on in, Rune's in the living room." I smiled at him, then I walked inside.
I found Rune sitting on the couch watching TV and drinking water. "Hey, are you ready to go?" I asked, smiling at her.
She turned to face me, then said, "Yeah, let's go." She gave Zayn a quick peck on the cheek, we walked out the door and left in my car.