Mirrors (A Harry Styles Fanfic)

Christmas Eve is tomorrow, I promised Nan I would help her out with the groceries but Bella hasn't left my apartment. Niall came yesterday and they had a fight, I had to ask a sad little blonde to leave otherwise Bella would start crying as well.

Harry came back yesterday but I haven't seen him, he's leaving to Holmes Chapel this morning so I highly doubt I'll see him.

I've managed to stay away from the social media since I came back from the States, I don't want to see anything about Harry with Kendall, it makes my stomach hurt, and not the good kind like the one Harry gives me when he says nice things. I guess those are butterflies.

I get up from my couch and head to my room, Bella has been asleep but I really need to change from my pajamas. I put on some blue washed high waisted jeans, a white t shirt and a white jumper with light blue palm trees all over it. I grab the swallow earnings Harry gave me, just put on my shoes and head over to my desk. As I'm about to write Bella a note, she wakes up, she heads to the bathroom as she argues that she'll accompany me with Nan. As she's in the bathroom I decide to grab my waves of hair and make it into a braid. I see the ring I took from Harry on the desk and put it on, I can't help but smile at the memory.

We're walking around the store, Nan has turkey and other things that I have no idea what she will use for. She send Bella to get biscuit ingredients, I have no idea how she can make them from scratch, they sound difficult to make.

"Isabella has been gone long, why don't you go looking for her Piper?" She says as she puts a carton of milk in the cart, she grabs some ice cream buckets and I get excited

"What are those for?" She smiles and shooes me with her hand

"Go look for Bella!" I roll my eyes playfully and head to look for my friend. I find her getting some food coloring

"What do you need that for?" I ask her as I approach

"Oh" she smiles at me, what idea has she got now, "thought we could make some macaroons for the party tomorrow" I'd forgotten Nan invited them over for tomorrow. Oh shit Nan invited them for tomorrow!

"Erm, Bella?"

"What? Hey hold this yeah" she hands me a basket and adds things to it, this shit is heavy.

"I kind of invited Niall.." she drops the green coloring, I'm glad it didn't spill, looking at me wide eyed I'm afraid she'll punch me or something

"W-Why?"

"Well, because of the snow and stuff he couldn't fly over to Ireland and he was very upset and I told him he could come over since all of the boys are with their family and I forgot Nan invited you guys and I'm sorry" I'm out breath, I've fucked up. I don't want Bella to be uncomfortable on Christmas Eve.

"Erm, it's fine" she walks over to the end of the isle and I follow her, "It's your party"

"Not really, I'm sorry Bella" she puts a large jar of nutella on the basket, damn it's heavy!

"It's okay, just keep him away from me" I don't know why she's being so harsh towards Niall. I can tell he really likes her but I don't know what her problem is, she won't tell me.

"Why won't you give him a chance?" I ask once we are walking back to look for my Nan. I'm afraid of her getting upset because of my question but she just sights

"Pie, I won't tell you because you will think I'm an absolute bitch, which maybe I am"

"Of course I won't," why would she ever think that? She's my best girl friend, I would never think wrong of her, "I've know you for years Bells" she stops in her tracks and turns towards me.

"He's a celebrity Pipes, it's too much for me. All the traveling, so little time, all the annoying girls, all the stupid cameras, the rumors that just don't stop, all this fancy shit and fancy people I don't really care about," I know being in the public eye can be hard, I mean look at Harry, but I feel she's being too harsh, "how he thinks he's so cool, he'll probably end up cheating on me or something, I don't trust famous people okay?"

"Is that why you were so harsh on Harry whenever I talked about him?" She was so protective, when I decided to fly to L.A. she tried to convince me not go

"He's going to hurt you Piper, more than he already has" despite her sad expression, I'm angry and have an urge to defend Harry from her judgmental words

"Bella, Ha-"

"There you two are!" Nan shouts from the end of the isle, "Come on, I have to go pay"

I haven't spoken a word to Bella the whole ride home. She's judging Niall too soon, and being very negative about the whole relationship, but I guess maybe she doesn't actually like him. Plus I can't make her trust him. Still, she's being too rough on Harry and I don't like it. How am I supposed to feel if my best girl friend and my... well my- I don't know! The point is; I don't want her to be so negative about Harry and I.

I help Bella get the groceries from the boot of the car once Nan pulls the car into the apartment building lot. I wave to my grandmother and then walk inside the building, the guy who usually sits by the lobby desk isn't there, I figured he went home early. I've never actually spoken to anyone in the building, I've been so busy with work, family and Harry (and now Bella) that I forgot to meet the people around me. Then again, no one came over to welcome me either so maybe they're not the friendly kind, at least not on my floor. Once inside the apartment I headed over to the bathroom, I need a shower.

"I'll start on the macaroons while you shower, I think we should put some ice cream and nutella inside rather than making something from scratch," she says as she walks into the kitchen, "it would take too long"

"Sure."

Once out I put on my grey sweats and burgundy jumper, I put some warm socks on, let my hair down so it dries and grab my phone. It's four pm, I wonder what Harry's doing? As if he can read my brain from all the way over there his ringtone starts playing. I answer immediately

"Hey" I smile, I haven't heard his voice in a while.

"Hey baby" his nickname makes my stomach turn, his voice is raspier than usual

"Were you sleeping?" I walk over to my bed and sit with my back on the head board.

"Yeah I was taking a nap"

The door to my bedroom creeks open and Bella's head pops in

"Hey are you- Oh" I point to my phone, "Is it Harry?" She whispers and I nod. She closes the door.

"Was that Bella?"

"Yeah," I grab one of the pillows on my bed and start running my fingers along the flower print, "she's been here for a couple of days"

"Oh, right, Niall told me" I have a feeling Harry is holding a little grudge on Bella but I can't blame him, he's not friends with her. On the other hand, I'm in the middle of this because I care about both Niall and Bella.

"Can we not talk about them?" the last thing I want is a fight with him.

"Of course baby," I can't help the grin on my face, "how are you?"

"Okay, missing you." I can't help but wonder if whatever happened with Kendall is over already, but I'm afraid to bring it up. "How are Anne, Robin and Gemma?"

"Great, Gemma and mum went out for some last minute shopping and Robin, I think he's outside"

"Speaking of shopping, I've got your Christmas present waiting by Nan's tree" he laughs, it's a beautiful laugh and I miss experiencing it in person.

"I have yours at my apartment" he laughs, he gets quiet suddenly. It's a nice silence but he finally says "I miss you so much" his voice quiet and hurt, I want his arms around me, I want my head buried in his neck and my lips against his skin.

"I miss you" I say

"I'm trying really hard not to get up and drive over there right now"

I giggle, "Don't, we'll have time for everything soon, okay?"

"Yeah" his unenthusiastic "yeah" isn't convincing.

"What happened?"

"What do you mean?"

"Harry please, don't try and hide it from me"

"Piper, they haven't officially made us break up, the story won't go up until February" what... what? February?

"What do you mean?" I get up from my bed

"If I'm seen with anyone they will think that I'm cheating on her"

He's telling me we can't be together yet, maybe this is a sign, maybe we shouldn't even try to change this. The odds haven't been on our side and I doubt they will anymore.

"Harry, this means something" I begin

"No, it means nothing okay? Pipes please don't do this to me, I know you said you won't be my girl while I have to pretend to date Kendall but please don't just throw me away"

"Harry I'm not throwing you away! I can't do this, what if right after you 'break up' with Kendall you have to date some other celebrity? I can't just wait for you forever"

"You won't I promise you that, and this time I will keep that promise, just please don't let me go?" his breaking me, I don't want to just say no to him because I don't think I have enough will power to deny him, but I have to. Maybe Bella was right... I walk over to my desk, hanging on the back wall are the pictures Harry and I took at the This Is Us after party. The way he looks at me; he won't hurt me, I know he won't.

"Harry?"

"Yes baby?"

"Merry Christmas" I pull my phone away from my ear and hang up.

I can't trouble myself with Harry and Kendall right now or I will go insane. I don't understand his motives for this but I know in my heart that he wants to be with me. and I know in my heart that I want to be with him. Either I wait for him until we can be together or I say goodbye to him, because we can't just be friends anymore. It would be too painful for the both of us. I hold back the tears teasing to escape, grab my phone which doesn't stop ringing, toss it on my bed and walk out to help Bella. I find her in the kitchen putting ice cream on green macaroons. I grab the nutella jar, a spoon and some of the small red macaroons.

"So what happened?"

"Nothing" I really don't want to talk about my troubles with Harry with Bella, not after the way she feels about him.

"Piper, he-"

"No Bella!" I put the butter knife down on the counter, "I don't want to hear it okay, you don't know what Harry is going through okay?"

"Do you? Does he know what you're going through? Because I do, and I don't like it Pie" she puts down the ice cream scooper, "What is he doing? Why is he pretending to date Kendall when he 'wants to be with you'? He's playing with you Piper"

"No he's not Bella" how could she say that? "I've known him longer, I know it in my heart that he won't hurt me"

"Piper he's already hurting you!"

"Just stop! Don't judge Harry, you don't know anything about him, I do! So please just keep your comments and opinions to yourself"

She puts the lid on the ice cream and puts the macaroons she did on a plate.

"I'll call my mum to pick me up" she says and walks out to the living room.

I love Bella, but I don't want her brainwashing me and putting me against Harry. I have to trust Harry, more than I ever have, but I also need him to open up to me otherwise it will make me even more confused about his actions.

I finish the nutella macaroons and place them on top of the rest and place the plate in the fridge. Bella's head pops in

"See you tomorrow" she takes the plate out and takes it with her.

"Bye"

I walk out to the living room and flop on the couch. I'm reluctant to turn on the telly afraid to come to some news about Hendall. I turn it on anyway and search through the film channels. I see they're showing The Time Traveler's Wife. I love that book it's one of my favorites, it's romantic and tragic. I press enter and watch it. I can't help but compare myself to Clare, waiting for Henry, but I just hope that I don't have to wait my whole life for Harry.

A huge crashing sound wakes me up, my eyes adjust to the light; I fell asleep while watching Clare indulge herself in her depression. Some action film was playing now, I turn it off and get up from the couch and head to my room. I run my fingers through my hair and it's an absolute mess. I grab my phone, I have ten missing calls from Harry, I toss it back on the bed. It's eight am, Nan invited everyone at six but I wanted to go over and help her. As I grab my towel my phone starts ringing again. It's Niall so I answer

"Hey Niall"

"Hey Piper, I was wondering at what time you want me over" his Irish accent is thicker with his morning voice

"Well Nan invited everyone at six but I'm going over maybe like at twelve to help her"

"Does that everyone include Bella Davies?" Oh ooh

"Erm, maybe?"

"Alright then, can I join you to help your grandmother, I feel bad enough just showing up?"

"Yeah of course, and don't feel bad, hey can you pick me up so I don't have to take the bus?"

"Yeah sure"

I take a shower and put something simple on while I make myself some breakfast. I make a bacon, onion, pepper and tomato egg omelet and it actually tastes good. Once I'm done I go to my room to finish drying my hair. I ponder on what to wear, I end up grabbing my red parachute pants, a cropped flower print top. I put some foundation on, a thin line of eyeliner with the little flick at the end, mascara and red lipstick on. I grab a red headband I purchased recently and grab the cat ring Markie gave me along with Harry's ring and some knuckle rings to finish off. I get a text from Niall saying he's almost here so I grab my red jacket and the black pumps dad gave me. While I wait for Niall I connect my curling wand and curl the ends of my hair.

I walk out of the apartment once Niall texts me that he's downstairs. When I walk out the front door there's some girls screaming, I see Niall waving at me to run over to his car, they notice and some start running over to me. I take a step back a little startled but then start walking over to the Range Rover.

"Hi Piper!"

"Omg Piper have you seen Harry lately?"

"Can I get a picture?"

"Can you say hi to the camera?"

"I love what you're wearing!"

"Can you date Harry already?"

I'm overwhelmed and start walking faster, a blonde girl grabs my arm and asks for a picture, I smile and she snaps it

"Sorry girls I have to go, hope you have a Merry Christmas" I reach the other girls screaming for Niall, they see me and step away from the car, "Careful guys" I say as I step into the car. We take off at full speed.

"That was insane! I didn't know that many girls lived there?" the fact that this is what the boys go through everyday it's insane. How do they even do normal things? No wonder Harry escapes to Los Angeles, where for some reason he can do a lot more normal things than in London.

"I doubt they all live there" Niall says.

The night goes by in a blur; Niall right behind me trying to avoid Bella, and whenever she was talking to me he'd go talk to Markie. Nan and Mrs Davies talking to Jane about the baby. Mrs Davies isn't so fond of Jane but you could see she was warming up. Mr Davies and my father talking about cars. I have no idea how much food I had. Niall leaves around nine pm, he looked so upset but I don't know if it was just his family or Bella as well.

It's about eleven and the little wine I had is making me sleepy. I sit by the tree on granddaddy's seat. I can see Mark in the kitchen getting his second cup of wine, trying to hide it as pop. Bella walks over to me and extents her arms

"Merry Christmas best friend" I stand up and hug her. "I'm sorry for being a bitch"

"You're not a bitch babe"

"I want to sleep," she says as she pulls away, "want to come sleep over?"

"Yeah sure, my dad and Jane are staying here so that would give them more space" I say goodnight to everyone and wish them Merry Christmas.

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"Piper! Piper!"

"Hu?" I rub my eyes, they sting as Mark opens the window drapes to let in the light, the bloody hell is wrong with him?

"You need to get home now!" he says excitedly as he shakes me by my elbows

"Mark! Stop" I wine

"Mark, get the fuck out!" Bella throws a pillow at him from beside me. I bury my face on my pillow

"Piper!" he pulls me by my arm and I fall to the ground. Bella bursts out laughing and I kick my brother

"What do you want!"

"Dad got you a car!"

"What!" What? I get up and run downstairs. I'm wearing one of Bella's pajamas and no shoes, I hear her running behind me.

Right there, outside Nan's driveway is a convertible, a mini Cooper! Dad walks out with keys in his hands.

"Dad, I told you I didn't want anything from you" I didn't mean it to sound harsh but he looked hurt.

"It's used Piper, it's your Christmas gift, please take it? You need it" he stretches his hand out
I really do need it, but I don't want to depend on my father... but I really want it, it's a grey cute used car!

I take the keys and for the first time I take my father by surprise by hugging him. I thank him and run inside to thank Jane. I say goodbye to everyone, takes me a while to convince Nan to let me go but she finally gives me the presents by the tree that belong to me and I get into my not so new but awesome car.

Once I'm home I get into the shower and get dressed before I change my mind. I put on grey skinny jeans, a red jumper, put on my converse and put my hair in a ponytail. I grab a black purse and put an extra outfit in there and some toiletries. Grab my phone and wallet and stuff it in. I grab the bag, I grab the present by the pile and head out.

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I knock on the door, I hope It isn't rude that I'm here. Seconds later the door swings open and a wide eyed Gemma is on the other side of the door

"Piper!" she smiles

"Merry Christmas!" She pulls me into a hug

"You have no idea how happy I am that you're here" oh, well that's unexpected...

"Is Harry in?"

"Erm, yeah, come on in" she closes the door behind me. There's wrapping paper all over the floor, I guess they all opened their presents. "Harry!"

"What?" I hear a door close upstairs, I turn to Gemma and bring my finger up to my lips and head for the stairs.

His face when he sees me is priceless, he walks quickly towards me and almost knocks the air out of my chest when he embraces me, making me drop the present on the floor. I wrap my arms around him as his face buries in my neck.

"You haven't answered my calls baby" my stomach turns at his soothing sad whisper

"Merry Christmas Harry" he pulls away and takes my face in his hands

"Piper, I'm so sorry" his eyebrows furrow

"It's not entirely your fault that you have to do this" I stand on my tiptoes and crash my lips to his. I've missed this, so much. I wrap my arms around his torso.

"Harry- oh" a girl says from behind.

He pulls away and looks at me in the eyes. I look down and grab the present, I hand it to him.

"Merry Christmas Kendall"

"Merry Christmas? I'm guessing you're Pi-"

"Piper!" Harry calls as I run down the stairs and out the door.

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