Mirrors (A Harry Styles Fanfic)

"What are we doing Harry" I say, I take his hand from my cheek and place it in the mattress, "we said we wouldn't jeopardize our friendship yet we don't go on having other relationships. We stay in this place full of misery, just stuck in the middle" I say, he sighs at my words. He looks down and takes my hands in his

"I'd much rather be miserable than date someone who isn't you"

His green, gorgeous eyes are looking intensely into mine, I'm out of words. He wants me,me....and I want him. I do. But I am terrified beyond belief, this could end up bad, look at his life Piper! He doesn't have time for something serious!I don't want some small little fling, this is Harry and he's extremely important to me.He kissed me! HOLY SHIT WE KISSED.My mind goes back to his soft lips against mine, his tounge brushing mine in the most beautiful manner ever... his soft hair under my fingers and his hands on my body. He brings me back to the present as he caresses my cheeks with his thumbs as his hands hold my face to look at him. I hadn't realized I was blushing until I look at him in the eyes again and my cheeks become warmer.

"I can't stop thinking about it either" he grins, his thumb runs over my lower lip and I have to stop myself from whimpering because of his touch, "I never stop thinking about you Piper, I wake up and ask myself 'I wonder how Piper's night was'" I look down at my hands as I smile. "Say something, please"

I look back at him, I try to say something but I'm breathless; his expression has changed, his eyebrows have furrowed, the creases on his forehead are visible, and his lips are parted in desperation. I bite my lip, I stop fiddling with my fingers and grasp the hem of his black shirt and pull it. He scoots closer to me and I stiffen a bit, "Don't kiss me" I whisper as I play with his shirt. I want him to, I do, but I feel like it will only confuse me more.

"I won't unless you ask" he whispers back, he leans his forehead on mine, "Piper?"

"Hmm?"

"Promise me one thing, yeah?" I nod, I look up at him and his expression hasn't changed, "Think about it, please?"

"Think about what?" he lets go of my face and starts playing with my hair, he looks at me and smiles lightly,

"Us" I feel like I have butterflies in my stomach, us... us?

"Yes" I manage to whisper. I want to think about us, I really do but I'm terrified of what I will decide. "But can you promise me one thing as well?"

"Anything Piper" he takes my face in his hands again and searches for my eyes

"Let's never deprive ourselves of each other"

"Never" he kisses my forehead, I smile and stand.
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"Piper?" Bella and Niall scream from the living room, they've just managed to set up my new flat screen in the living room but I was having trouble with the speakers I got for my laptop.

"What?" I scream from my bedroom door

"You might want to watch this babe" Niall says, I walk out and as I approach the couch I hear a lady mention Harry, he's in Los Angeles right now and I'm sure is some bullshit. I don't know why Niall would want me to see, unless he wants me to laugh along with him.

I sit in between them and look at them questionably, "What?" I ask annoyed,

"It's in commercials, just wait" Bella eyed Niall and he looks sad.What the fuck happened to Harry?

The lady speaking earlier comes back on the screen, a picture appears on the screen behind her; a couple holding hands and wearing cute skiing gear, "Harry Styles and Kendall Jenner spotted out in a romantic getaway" the American lady says, I look at Niall hoping he'll tell me it's a rumor but it downs on me that it might not, "holding hands and laughing, fans aren't happy and have taken Twitter to leave some nasty messages to the Kardashian's little sister. You all remember Harry was rumored to be dating Piper Harris, I guess he got tired of her and moved on to the next victim, let's just hope this last for what some callHendall"The lady leaves and another guy comes out talking about Lindsey Lohan, I grab the remote from Bella and turn of the telly.

He went on a trip with her, he lied to me so he could go do some publicity stunt with this girl he barely knows after our conversation last week, just when I thought..... no. I'm obviously out of my fucking mind if I think that Harry can have a serious relationship right now, because that's what I want, that's what I need from him; I need to know that this is worth it and that I won't get hurt, that our relationship won't get hurt.

I get up and walk into the kitchen, I pour myself a cup of water and start pacing, I want to call him but if I do we will end up arguing.

"Pie?" Bella whispers as she joins me in the kitchen, "Are you okay?"

"No" I say, I'm angry, I can hear it in my voice.

"Maybe you should call him"

"I can't listen to another excuse, he said he wouldn't fucking let them" I set the cup rather harshly on the counter.Why? Why does he do this, what is he earning from this? Does he really fucking think that this will help the band?This isn't going to help us,whatever us means. I hear Niall join us, he walks over to me and pulls me into his arms, he hugs me as if I'm crying. I start to cry. I feel this wall break and I suddenly feel vulnerable, like if anything could hurt me. If he walked through that door I'd be hurt, if I see his face it will hurt, if I see her face it will hurt, if I see them together it will hurt.What if he does like her? What if when he saw her again he realized how beautiful she was and that's why they went skiing, what if he was lying to me? He couldn't have, this is Harry. My Harry wouldn't do this.Is he my Harry still? Of course he is.... He's mine more than he ever was, that kiss brought us more together.

I wipe my tears and thank Niall, I walk past him and go to my room, I grab my purse, put on my brown boots and a burgundy sweatshirt and walk out the door. I know Bella won't follow me, and she will make sure Niall doesn't, I need some time to think. I make my way down the street and into the little coffee shop I've come to love. I order a caramel tea, buy some macaroons and sit at a booth in the corner. Some girls are watching me intently, I notice they have their phones out and I try to ignore the fact that I'm not wearing any make up, my hair is in a messy ponytail and the fact that I will end up on the internet looking like proper shit. They smile at me when we make eye contact and I wave, they snicker and scream a little, I have no idea why but I get back to my tea. I feel my phone vibrate and I panic, I want to ignore it in hopes that it might be Harry but I can't. I take it out and yep, it's him

"Piper?" I don't want to say anything because I might scream.

"Hmm"

"Piper I'm so sorry that you had to find out this way" fucking Niall.

"Find out what?" I say harshly but hoping he isn't going to say he's dating her...

"That I had to do that" he whispers, I feel like he's keeping something but I let it go immediately

"Why didn't you tell me Harry?" I feel like something's stuck in my throat and I fear that I'll start crying again, why does he make me cry? "Do you realize how hurt and angry I am?" I feel more angry than hurt at this moment.

"I'm so sorry beautiful, I want to see you please"Are you crazy!"Come, get on a plane and come"

"No Harry, I'm too angry with you to see you" I want to see him but it will just lead to us fighting.

"Pipes, I miss you" I miss you. "Just come, please I beg of you" he sounds desperate and I just want to jump on a plane and go

"I have work"

"Talk to Nick, I'll talk to him if I have to, but please I need you here. I need to talk to you I-" he stops, my chest aches for him,is he really this miserable? "Baby, please?" there's that word again, my stomach turns at the way he called me. I groan

"Okay" he sights, always manages to get his way.

"Thank you!" I smile, I look around and see the girls staring at me again, I hope they didn't hear me mention his name, "Pipes I have to go" to her?

"Wait, one thing, don't pick me up I'm going to stay in a hotel when I do get there please"

"What, no, I'm bringing you to my place Pipes" he says

"No Harry, I need some time to think okay, please"

"I'll get us a room" there's no winning with him

"I need to be alone" he argues with me a while longer, there's no winning with him at all!

I call Nick at noon and ask for a couple of days, he was reluctant because it was my last week before my Christmas holiday started but I told him Harry would bother him if he didn't let me take the days. He laughed and agreed. I packed quickly and surprisingly Niall got me a ticket for a plane leaving in two hours.

I rub my eyes, they sting from the light exerted from the lamp on the side table, next to the bed. My head is throbbing from lack of sleep and I'm unsure if me getting up after only four hours is a good idea, specially for my mood. After Harry said he wanted me to fly over to Los Angeles my anger had subsided, but nonetheless my subconscious wants to slap him across that pretty little face. I told him not to pick me up at the airport yesterday because I knew I wasn't ready to see him, but his bedroom is across the hall and it just makes me anxious and builds up the pressure occupying my head right now. He refused to stay at his house and made sure he got a room on the same floor as me once I pressed to stay in a hotel. I didn't think staying at his place would be a good idea right now. All the texts he send me saying that he and Kendall weren't happening just kept my hope alive, and him calling me here just made me a little happy, but yesterday he went out with her and today I'm here and I have no idea what he's playing at. I just want to protect the friendship, and maybe a little distance will do that.

Harry is supposed to be my best friend, not the love interest who keeps me up at night and makes me cry. I pushed those feelings towards him for so long and I hoped that someday they would be gone and he and I would laugh at them, but when he opened his mouth and pressed for me to take him, making those feelings popped up from under the table, ending the hide and seek game. He could've just put them aside but he's Harry and he doesn't like to hide his feelings from someone, I almost hope that that someone wasn't me but the thought of him with anyone now just fuels that jealousy that has been building up since he said he only wanted me.Why do you have to say those things Harry?

I try to get up carefully and make my way to the bathroom. Thirty minutes later I'm showered, dressed and ready to go wherever he said he'd take me. I don't really care at this point, I want to see him but I don't know which words to say; the angry ones, the sad ones, or the happy ones. I have a feeling he will only let me say one and try to change my mood. He said he'd call so I decide to take a little nap since there is no sign of any missing phone calls.

···Harry's POV···

I press the call symbol next to Pipes' name and wait impatiently for her to answer. I haven't seen her in like a week and I think I'm going crazy. When she said I couldn't pick her up yesterday I nearly started throwing shit; I know she's mad at me because of the asshole thing I did but I thought we were passed the whole "depriving each other of each other", her damn exact words. I know I need to apologize and explain myself but I need to see her and wrap my arms around her, just the thought of it makes me feel like my arms are around her. Fuck, I've missed her

"Hello" her voice deep and weak like she just woke up

"Sorry, did I wake you?"

"Sort of" she yawns and I can't help but smile, "I was taking a nap"

"Can I see you already?" I didn't mean it to sound so desperate but I knew it was, please say yes

"Yeah, sure" she doesn't sound excited and my stomach hurts. What if she's really angry at me? What if all of this made her realize that maybe I'm not good enough for her? But I think we're perfect, I'm such a dumbarse, letting people tell me what to do...

I cross the hall and knock on her door quickly, it swings open seconds later. A long brown haired, sleepy, beautiful Piper stands in front of me and I forget what to do. She's wearing those black sweat pants she loves and that 1975 jumper I got her at the concert

*

"Thanks for coming Pipes" I drop my arm around her as she, Gemma and I make our way out of the arena. She smiles up at me and its the most beautiful sight, I know she had fun tonight. I had fun just looking at her jumping up and down to the 1975.

"Thanks for inviting me Ponyboy" three days ago,three,I asked her to think about us and I feel like she's leaning towards the answer I want, the answer I need from her. Gemma heads to the restroom and I pull Piper towards the merchandise. We stand in line for about five minutes before someone comes over, I look at her

"What do you want?"

"What?" Please don't give me the whole 'don't spend money on me Harry' thing because I'll scream.She raises a brow, I mirror her action and she sights, "The jumper is cool" I get her that and grab a shirt for Gemma and one for myself.

Gemma gets a different can from us and I'm glad for that. I sit in the back with Piper next to me, I lean and kiss her temple, she smiles up at me. I wrap my arm around her waist and pull her towards me, I bury my my nose in her hair, she grabs my left hand and starts outlining my tattoos with her finger. This moment is perfect... I want a hundred of these, all the ones I can get.

*

My figure towers over her, I always loved that; that I could just wrap my arms around her, and when I pulled her close to me her head would be right on the crook of my neck where her lips would part and her breath would fan over the skin. She smiles and her eyes close like they do when I grin at her, I guess I'm grinning. She looks down at her shoes and parts her lips for a second, then closes them again so quickly that if I wasn't already staring at them I wouldn't have noticed.

"I have missed you" her brown eyes look at me, wide and happy at my words, "so much Pipes" she nods and my body aches. Why is she being so distant? "Piper, come here" my arms part and my brow raises expectantly, she looks up and bites her bottom lip. My tongue brushes mine at the memory of her lips against mine and I try really hard to keep me from taking her face in my hands and kissing her. She smiles lightly and she steps closer to me, I take another step and wrap my arms around her. Her warmth is soothing and aching, I've missed her cinnamon sent so much I'd actually bought some candles like the ones her Nan has, but even them wouldn't do the job right, nothing beats Piper's sent in the flesh. I hide my face in her hair as I try to find her neck.

"I've missed you too" she says into my neck, her lips brush my skin and I feel goosebumps all over. I pull her closer and she finally wraps her arms around me, her small hands on my lower back, slightly rubbing in that soothing manner she does. I want to stay like this forever but I know at some point I have to pull away, and her anger towards me leads her to be the one to break the warm embrace. My index finger finds her chin and I make her look up at me, her eyes are sad and I don't like it. I hate it it when she's sad, and I hate it when it's something that I did.

"Please, just tell me" I plead. She pulls me inside by my shirt and I'm uncertain to why she doesn't want to touch me. I close the door behind me and wait for her to speak.

"Why?" She finally says, her back is to me as she looks out the window, the sun is not high at noon yet and the shadows in the room are long and sad. I don't want to cause her any pain but I don't want her to ignore me.

"They told me I-"

"They told you?" She says angrily, she's looking at me now and I'm glad there are no tears visible, "You said you wouldn't let them control you anymore, and you come over and go skiing with the girl, alone, you go on a dinner date after all the things you said to me that night?" The memory plays through my head; the kiss, the promise and the plead I made her to think about us.

"You probably don't believe me but I meant all of that Piper," I step closer to her and she brings her palm up in the air, gesturing for me to stop, "I want you, I don't care about Kendall. Yes, she's a nice girl and all but it's just a publicity stunt" I walk closer and take her hand, she isn't looking at me but she tries to pull away. I bring her hand up to the middle of my chest, I grab her waist with my free hand and pull her closer to me.

"Look at me?" I plea, all I do is plea. She looks up and her eyes find mine. "You're so beautiful" my eyes trace over her thick furrowed eyebrows, follow down her nose all the way to her lips; puckered in anger and teasing me like they do on a daily basis. "I've talked to her about you" her expression softens and it immediately phases to confusion.

"What? Why?" She tries to pull away but I hold her in place. I lower my face and rest my forehead with hers.

"She asked if there was anyone special and I said my best friend" her hand starts playing with my shirt and I smile at her shyness.

"You're still going to date her" she states in a hush tone. It hurts me to know that she's right.

"I have to for a couple more days but I won't let it go far, please stay here with me?" I hope she agrees but part of me knows she won't

"I won't be your secret girlfriend Harry, I don't think I can be your girlfriend at all. We shouldn't risk this"

"Its a little to late for that" I let go of her waist and take her other hand, I bring both of her hands towards my lips and start kissing her knuckles and fingers. Her eyes close, and her teeth bite over her bottom lip. "Your lips have touched mine and I cannot forget that, no matter how much I try Piper" I whisper in between kisses and long for her to let me see her eyes.

Her chest moves up and down faster and I can't help but smile at the effect I have on her. I stop the touch between our foreheads and pull my head back so I can see her face properly as my lips continue to do what they've been doing. She opens her eyes, the milk chocolate beauties stare at my lips and her hands. I stop what I'm doing and let go of her left hand, I proceed to pull her close to me. Her empty hand wraps around my waist as the other is taken back to my chest. I kiss her temple, she starts drawing circles with her index finger on my chest and I stare at the simple loving gesture. My fingers caresses her hand, her movements stop and I trace her eyes to where they're looking. She spotted the not-so-easy-to-hide tattoo.

"You covered up your 'I can't change' tattoo?" She frowns, she looks up at me and I smile

"Remember that first time you went over to my house and we talked about all these things"

"Your family, your job" she says

"You said to me that it was okay to change, you made me realize that I have, but it doesn't necessarily have to be a bad thing" she smiles lightly as her eyes stare into mine, "That all that matters is staying true to the people you care about, and keep myself grounded. I have changed since this job so it was time I realized it, and it was time for me to cover up the lie inked on my body so I got an anchor. It represents my family, the boys, the fans, you. The people who keep this ship, traveling on this crazy sea, grounded and true" her eyes are glassy and it makes me happy to know that they're happy tears

"That's beautiful" I smile at her words; most of my tattoos don't have much of a deep meaning but this one does. 'I can't change' was something I was holding on to for so long and it wasn't helping me, when she told me those words it opened my eyes to the real meaning of the word change. She truly reflects the best in me.

"Harry?" She says, her eyes haven't left mine.

"Yes baby?" She inhaled quickly at my words,

"Kiss me" she whispers, I feel my heart do a back flip! I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her towards me, I press my lips to hers and I'm in heaven. She's kissing me back, more than the first time,she wants me to kiss her, and I am.My tongue and hers connect and I'm out of breath, her hands are on my head, pulling my hair and pulling me more towards her as if we could make our lips closer together. I'm ecstatic, I smile into the kiss and she giggles. I bite her bottom lip as we come up for air and I can't stop grinning, and she can't stop grinning, and it's 2/∞

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