A life of Payne
So I understand that it's been a really really long time and I am extremely sorry but things haven't been the best at the moment.
So at first I wasn't updating because my end of semester exams were on and they are getting shit harder every year and it freaking sucks and I wish I could go back to high school :(
then I was getting ready to travel to Auckland for the 5SOS concert (which btw was the most amazing thing I've ever seen!)
But of course that had to be ruined some how, my best friend for 16 fucking years who was meant to be coming with me, called the day before we were set to leave saying she would rather spend time with her family than me and then just hung up and hasn't spoken a word to me since. I got my ten year old sister to come with me in the end but what Amy did still hurts like a bitch right now and it's been just over a month and I still haven't got an apology.
Calum brought his nine year old cousin on stage by the way and he was so adorable and I told my sister she should get his number but she didn't like that idea. LOL
I guess the whole best friend thing took a toll on me a lot more than I really noticed at first and now with semester two starting and loosing my job as the business I worked for shut down, everything just seems to be adding up and I feel like crap.
I really don't know how or if I will get out of this to be perfectly honest. It just constantly feels like I have the worlds heaviest weights on shoulders and even at times I'm finding it to just breathe.
Anyway I'm not just writing this to complain about my suck filled life but to say that I'm very sorry and will do my best to update everything soon...