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A life of Payne

Chapter 60

Katie's POV

"You what?!" Liam yelled again as he walked closer to me and I cowered behind Zayn.

Suddenly the amount of alcohol in my system was forgotten as I try so desperately to look around for a way out of here.

"Don't ignore me Katie, and please tell me you weren't serious."

"I slept with Calum. So what?" I shrugged and tried to play this whole thing off to be not important but Liam wasn't having any of that and Niall was just glaring at me.

"So what? You spend your whole high school life being a borderline skank but yet never sleeping with anyone but as soon as some punk rock idiot comes along, you suddenly drop at your knees for him?"

I gasped and stumbled away from them all as my eyes brimmed with tears.

"Don't talk about Calum like that."

Liam's eyes softened and he tried to take a step towards me but I moved away even further.

"You really like him, don't you?" He whispered and didn't seem angry at all but I'm not stupid enough to fall for his nice brother act.

"I... I love him." I stated rather confidently since it was the first time I had ever said it.

Liam smiled but Niall suddenly stormed closer to me.

"NO! You can't love him, you're meant to love me! Only me!"

I whimpered at his harsh tone making Liam rush to my side.

"Mate calm down, she's still my sister and I don't like you talking to her like that." Liam piped up and I inwardly sighed knowing that he hadn't disowned me or anything like that.

"Are you kidding me?! One minute you were yelling at her and know your sticking up for her?"

I didn't want to hear any more of what they had to say about my choices so I grabbed the closest bottle of vodka I could find and made a run for it.

Deciding it was best to be away from all of them right now, I stumbled my way back down to my hotel room and once in went straight to the balcony.

I sat down at one of the deck chairs and sighed loudly as I looked up at the stars.

Why the hell did they react like that?

I thought they would be happy that I finally found love but obviously not.

I twisted off the cap from the vodka bottle and took a large gulp but instantly cringed when I realized it was cherry flavoured.

A little bit too sweet for me but I still drank it since all I wanted was something to take my mind off things.

After about an hour or two the bottle was completely empty and I was completely wasted to the point where I could only just remember where I was.

The sound of loud knocking on the hotel door startled me and I tried my hardest to walk to the door without tripping over anything.

I pulled open the door and almost fell over in the process to find a much calmer looking Niall.

"A-are you still angry at me." I hiccuped and gripped the door again to hold myself up.

"That depends... Can you remember why?"

I tried really hard to remember what the yelling was all about but my head was spinning so fast I couldn't think clearly. I brought one hand up to my forehead and shook my head no which made him nod and take a step closer.

"How much have you had to drink Katie?" He got closer and closer with each word until his hands were resting on my hips.

"I don't know." I shrugged and he pulled me out of my hotel room and shut the door before pushing me against it.

His lips instantly found mine and for a second I kissed back, but my brain kept telling me this was wrong so I pushed at his chest trying to get him to stop but he just pinned my hands above my head.

I have to admit that I was so turned on by this but it still felt weird.

"My room." He mumbled as he pulled his lips away from mine but I shook my head no.

"That wasn't a question." He smirked and before I knew what was going on he grabbed my hand and pulled me down the hall.

I can’t believe I'm doing this.

Every bone in my body was telling me not to go ahead with this but his bone begged to differ.

What the hell have I got myself into?

Every few seconds my head would spin as a constant reminder of all the alcohol I've had tonight, I slowly made my way to Niall's bed without making eye contact with him. I sat myself on the edge of the bed and tried to take a few breaths.

This is so absolutely wrong but yet I can’t remember why.

Niall, who was still standing by the door watching me, slowly made his way to the other side of the room. He was now on the side of the room that was behind me and I had no motivation to turn around and see what he was doing so I just stared blankly at the wall in front of me.

It was quiet. And not in a good way.

I felt the bed dip from behind me but still made no effort to move.

Niall started to move closer behind me and rested his ever wondering hands on my shoulders. I could easily tell from his actions that he was kneeling behind me.

He snaked one arm around my waist with no objection from me and used his other hand to reach for the two shot glasses that were neatly placed on his bedside table. Almost like he had prepared them earlier. Pouring vodka in both, he downed one before handing me the other and using both his hands to wrap me in a hug from behind while he waited for me to take the shot.

And against my better judgement I did.

After I placed the shot glass down Niall tightened his grip around me while he nuzzled his head into the crook of my neck.

This was wrong.

But it felt so right.

Is there somewhere else I was supposed to be? Maybe someone else I'm supposed to be with? I can’t think clearly right now and the drifting smell of cologne and hair products in this room is really intoxicating me, well not that I am not already intoxicated from the amount of alcohol Niall kept pushing at me tonight.

“You’re thinking too much baby.” Niall swept my long hair over my left shoulder and began to leave a trail of light feather like kisses down my neck.

Baby… has someone else called me that recently?

How can this feel bad and good at the same time?

I wonder if Niall remembers the person that I can’t seem to but even if he did I doubt he’d tell me. But still it could be worth a shot right.

“You’re still thinking.” His hands moved from my waist as he slid them up my sides completely taking my shirt with him and lifting it straight over my head with ease since I barely made an attempt to stop him.

I tilted my head ever so slightly as Niall returned to his short little kisses he was leaving on my neck.

Slowly I started to let go of my thoughts on how right this felt and tried really hard to remember what was making this so wrong.

“I can’t believe I pulled this off.” Niall mumbled his words while brushing the shoulder straps of my bra down my arm, then leaving kisses there too.

His kisses were just as intoxicating as the smells in the room and found that it took me a few seconds to reply to his statement.

“Pulled what off? My shirt?”

“Don’t worry about it sweetheart. Just lay down and let me do what I've wanted to do for so long.” There was a certain huskiness to his voice and even though he had drunk the equivalent as I had, I knew his Irish blood had granted him with a very large alcohol tolerance. His steady and low voice was extremely hard to resist all of the sudden and I found myself laying down while holding his gaze with my own. He steadily crawled on top of me and even though it was quite dark I could easily see the smirk on his face.

I felt a wave of guilt flash over me but yet still couldn't seem to understand why. I was single… wasn't I?

To block my own thoughts out I reached up and grabbed both sides of Niall's face with my small hands while he stared down at me, I pulled his lips to mine without even thinking about what I was doing and I could tell Niall wasn't that shocked by my actions as he roughly yet somehow gently at the same time, kissed me back like he knew exactly what he was doing which was a big change compared to me. I am so confused right now yet I don’t want him to stop.

Niall pulled away to remove his own shirt and I just numbly laid there for a moment and watched him. Either I'm way to drunk or actually find him attractive right now or maybe I'm way to drunk and that’s why I find him attractive.

My eyelids began to feel tremendously heavier as I felt my alcohol fuelled buzz start to wear off.

“No, no, no. Baby stay awake please. I want you so bad right now. You can’t leave me hanging.” I groaned but sat up and straddled him as he was now sitting next to me. I thought it might help me stay awake but it didn't really do much.

“But I’ll barely remember this in the morning.” I whined while I placed my spinning head onto his shoulder and he wrapped his arms around my torso.

“I don’t care if you barely remember this Katie. I want you so bad, I need you baby.”

"Fine." I whispered and blacked out my thoughts once again.

If I'm doing this then I want to have fun doing it.

I leaned down again and connected our lips before Niall flipped us over so he was once again hovering over me.

The kiss grew more heated before he pulled away and retrieved one of his ties from his suit case next to the bed. I took this chance to place his large shirt over my small body as I didn't feel comfortable with such little clothing on.

Once he turned back to me he gave me a confused look because of the shirt but eventually smirked and pushed me back down on the bed.

"Can't have my little princess squirming around." He lowly spoke and held my gaze as he gently grabbed both my hands and lifted them above my head.

I felt the material of the tie being placed around both of my wrists before being connected to the headboard.

My breath caught in my throat as I was unfamiliar with what I was doing and Niall knew that.

"Don't worry I'm going to make you feel good. You will enjoy this I promise."

I nodded at his words before his hands found my waist and he rubbed his thumbs right above my leggings I had on before slowly slipping them down my legs.

A low growl left his lips as he took in the sight of my white panties.

If I knew this was going to happen then I would have worn something a little more sexy but I didn't imagine this to take place.

A moan escaped my mouth as Niall softly rubbed circles over my clit with his thumb.

"Just relax." He said as I arched my back in anticipation.

He ran his fingertips down my thighs before back up again to remove my panties. I wanted to touch him so bad so I tired to wriggle my hands out of their restrains but Niall shook his head and mumbled a quiet 'no baby'.

His head dipped as he placed soft kisses on both my thighs before he ran his tongue over my clit making gasp and arch my back even more.

"God you're beautiful."

His breath fanned over me as he spoke making me want him even more.

Finally he stopped teasing me and licked right from the bottom of my slit to the top, making sure to linger at my clit. As he repeated this process he added his fingers inside me making a moan slip through my lips.

I gave in to the pleasure that was building and tipped my head back as my hands gripped tighter onto the headboard that they were still tied too.

"I'm..." I tried to talk but my breathing was becoming irregular and short.

"Let it go baby." Niall mumbled and that was enough to send me over the edge as my body shook in pleasure.

He crawled on top of me and placed his fingers into his mouth making me blush.

"You taste so good princess."

"I-I want to touch you." I begged and he finally gave in and untied my hands.

Within seconds I had pushed him onto his back as I straddled him and ran my hands down his naked and toned chest.

I looked up into his eyes to see them still filled with lust and leaned down to kiss his neck. I heard him breathlessly say my name as I bit down on the same area I had sucked on.

"I will get you back for that." Just as his words left his mouth, he flipped us over making me giggle.

"You have such pretty eyes. Like the sea!" I laughed at my own words and he kissed me again to make me shut up.

"I want you Katie."

I didn't respond as I pulled him down to kiss me again.

I fumbled with his belt for a few seconds before he took over and stood up to remove his jeans and boxers all in one go.

He was on top of me again straight away and distracted me with more mind blowing kisses as he aligned himself with my entrance.

Without any verbal warning he entered me making a gasp leave my mouth out of surprise and pain.

"Are you okay?" He hurriedly asked and I sniffled a little before answering him.

"Just give me a second."

Once the pain had passed, I let out a sigh and gripped onto Niall arms.

"Can I move now?"

I nodded and he sighed as well.

"You feel bloody amazing." He whispered as he intertwined one of his hands with mine and brought it above our heads, his other hand held tightly onto my waist as if it was to stop me from moving too much.

I hooked my free hand around the back of his neck and tugged on his hair slightly making him moan again.

"I can't last long." I managed to choke out in between pants as Niall nuzzled his head into my neck.

"Neither will I baby."

After a few more thrust I felt my walls tighten as my orgasm hit me again, I felt Niall release at the same time before he pulled out of me and I whimpered at the now empty feeling.

He flopped down beside me as he tried to calm his breathing and I did the same.

"Who do you love now huh?" He hotly spoke into my ear and a small squeak left my mouth and I sat up fast.

My mind suddenly became clear as I brought my hand up to my mouth.

All I could think of now was the one person that should have been on my mind that whole time but sadly he wasn't.



Ahhh! Did anyone see that coming?



A special shout out to @ohhboybands because she made me realise that I was being a bitch for taking soooo long AND she was also the 400th comment on this story so I love you long time!


Thank you xo

This is really good!

Thank you sweetheart! xx

I only really come on this site to see if you updated. You have the best fanfictions ever

Thanks darling ♡ I'm really not okay with it but I can't put my life on hold forever so I think I'm ready to get the last few chapters done then onto the sequel! (: