A life of Payne
My eyes began to flicker open and closed again as I screeched out my arms.
I don't understand how I fell asleep again when we got on the plane because I was completely awake after we had to push through crowds at the airport for a good twenty minutes. I managed to stick next to Calum the whole time and didn't get hurt once.
This whole proving I'm not a porcelain doll thing was going to be easier then I thought.
I felt someone's arm tighten around my shoulders as a blurred voice talked through out the air plane. It sounded like something to do with landing soon, damn I slept through the whole plane ride!
"You should really wake Katie up." I could hear Michael talking from the other side of me since I was sitting inbewteen him and Calum.
"You're the one that fucking gave her a sleeping pill in her water! She has asthma Michael and she's a nervous flyer but that was still low!" A freaking sleeping pill?!
God damn it I should be pissed but I slept amazing and it didn't really hurt me I guess. It did save me from freaking out like when I moved to London, that shit was scary.
I wasn't sure how Calum knew I had asthma since I have done a good job at hiding it, mainly because it's really bad to smoke when you're asthmatic but my life isn't exactly easy and that's the quickest form of stress relief I know of.
I didn't really want to move, or wake up fully because I was happy cuddled up with Calum. His arms moved from my shoulders to my waist and I was remind with the fact that I was still in pajamas because I could barely feel his touch.
I knew I should change before we got off the plane but these pajamas were the most comfortable thing I had worn in months. I hated the idea of dressing nicely all the time when I first became a Payne but still made no effort with my hair and make up since Liam was always hiding me in his side. It started to get worse when I started my own music career, the thought of being caught out in public not looking perfect now just scares me. I hate that other people's opinions got to me but what was I meant to do? Dress like a hobo? I don't think so.
I rubbed my eyes to try and get the sleep out of them faster and when I could finally open my eyes properly I saw all four boys looking at me.
I felt awkward. they were all just watching me like if they took their eyes of me for more then a few seconds then Liam would beat them to a pulp for not watching me. it was ridiculous.
"Excuse me. I'm going to change." I pulled away from Calum's grip he had on me before standing and reaching above us to grab my carry on bag.
As I walked down the isle of the plane, there was a sudden turbulence that made me gasp and grab onto the closet seat I could sink my nails into. Calum was behind me in literally seconds and held onto my waist and I was thankful but embarrassed at the same time.
"You alright?" I stood up straighter before giving a quick nod and pulling away from him again to continue my way to the bathroom.
Once I had finally made it to the small and germ filled room, I quickly locked the door and leaned against it. I was scared out of my brain right now but this was nearly over.
I finally felt my breathing return to normal and began to change into a decent outfit.
Around halfway through fixing my hair the turbulence returned and I pushed my hands onto either side of the small bathroom walls to steady myself. My unsteady breathing returned and I felt as if my throat was closing and the simple task of in-and-out breathing was becoming difficult. I knew I needed my inhaler but it was in my handbag which I left by my seat.
I finished in record time before stumbling as fast as I could back to my seat. when I finally arrived back Calum was already holding my inhaler, he was staring down at it seeming very focused as he fiddled with it in his hands. placing my carry on away as quickly as I could I practically fell onto his lap and tried to grab my inhaler but he pulled it away from my reach before taking the cap off for me and holding it to my lips.
I placed my lips around the edge while keeping my eyes locked on his. He pressed the small metallic button on the top letting the calming fumes work their magic while he used his other hand to rub smooth circles on my back.
"I'm sorry I put you through this baby." Calum whispered while keeping his gaze on me. I felt my body start to relax again so I pulled away from the inhaler and placed my head on his shoulder.
"It's okay." My voice didn't sound normal at all. It sounded horrible.
Calum tensed and wrapped his arms around me while clutching onto the inhaler in his hand. The panicked look on his face made me think that he was refusing to put the inhaler down in case I needed it again. He was scared for me but I was scared that this would make him look at me differently. Like he was babysitting me, that's not at all how I feel for him so I hope that's not what he starts looking at me like after this.
"No it's not. It's not okay Katie."
I didn't listen to him instead I pulled him down and connected his lips with mine, proving to him that I was okay.
"Every time you walk in the room
You got all eyes on you
And you know it, know it, know it"
I sat on top of the un-used stage speaker as the boys practiced their set list for tonight. We had only got off the plane a few hours ago and were already at the venue for the gig tonight. It was really cool to watch them prepare but for the past ten minutes I've been staring down at my phone screen trying to decode the meaning of the text message I received.
I miss you.
No it's not from Liam, or Ashley.
It's from Niall.
The longer I stared at the message, the clearer it became that there was things about him I missed too.
Those amazing ocean blue eyes, his voice that you could recognize from miles away and the smile he always seamed to wear even if sometimes it didn't reach his eyes it was still there.
I lifted my fingers from the edge of my phone and as if they had a mind of their own, they started typing before I even knew what I wanted to say.
I miss you too.
I hovered my thumb over the send button. Is it really a good idea to reply? I could just be making more of a mess for myself.
"Katie! Come sing for us!" I jumped and accidentally hit the send button.
Oh my freaking shit!!!
'Message failed to send'
I have never been happier in my life to see those four words. I deleted the message before it had a chance to resend and let out a sigh of relief while looking up at the boys.
"I don't have anything new for you to hear." I shrugged my shoulders and watched as a smug smile appeared on Ashton's face.
He started to jump up and down happily which just made me confused.
"Yes! she talked to one of us beside Calum! Luke you owe me ten bucks!" I rolled my eyes as Calum walked towards me. I locked my phone and placed it back in my pocket, I can over think the message more later.
"C'mon Katie show us something." Calum dragged me in the direction of his microphone and I panicked because I really didn't know what they wanted from me right now.
"I really don't have anything to sing for you guys."
Luke laughed slightly before talking.
"Just make something up on the spot."
I looked at him confused as to how he expected me to literally make something up on the spot.
"Oh give it a go Katie! Make it about Calum." After Luke said that I looked over at Calum and saw him smiling. How the hell do I put what I feel for him into a song?
"I don't know..." I was so blank right now.
"How did you feel about Calum the first time you met him?" Well that's an easy question.
"I wanted to give him my number and tell him to call me. But obviously I didn't actually do it." They all laughed at me and Michael walked over to the table that held the sound control.
"That's a good start. Now I will put on a tune and just sing whatever comes to mind as you think about the first time you and Calum met." Michael smiled and I nodded telling to start the music.
This isn't really a bad idea, I mean it's good inspiration and who knows my next song could come out of this.
"I threw a wish in the well
Don't ask me I'll never tell
I looked at you as it fell
And now you're in my way..."
They all stared at me wide eyed. Calum motioned his hand in a way to tell me to continue so I took a deep breathe before singing the next thing that came to my mind.
"I trade my soul for a wish
Pennies and dimes for a kiss
I wasn't looking for this
But now you're in my way"
I smiled as they looked at me amazed.
"Damn Katie if that's off the top of your head then I want to hear more!"
I laughed as the all stared at me waiting for me to make another verse. I held my gaze with Calum's as I began to sing again.
"Your stare was holding
Skin was showing
Wind was blowing
Where you think you're going baby?"
'One more' Calum mouthed his words to me while the others clapped. One more verse can't hurt since this whole off the top off my head thing is working so well.
"Hey I just met you
And this is crazy
But here's my number
So call me maybe
It's hard to look right at you baby
But here's my number
So call me maybe"
I held onto the edges of my skirt as I bowed and stepped away from the microphone.
Calum wrapped his arms around me and placed a soft kiss to my temple.
"You are definately Liams' sister."
Sighing I stood up and walked out of the boring, quiet lounge room and towards the kitchen to feed Fefe.
As soon as I walked in I noticed that the smell of Katie's raspberry coffee she loved so much was starting to fade now that she wasn't here to make it everyday. I never understood how she liked coffee but stuck her nose up at tea, I guess no matter how much I want to forget the fact that she grew in New Zealand there will always be things about her that are different to normal British people. Like the fact the she is British but sounds like a kiwi, you think that her accent would start to drift but it hasn't at all. She stil sounds like a cute little kiwi.
God I miss her voice.
I miss her.
But she needed to have some fun and all I seem to do lately is hurt her and that's why she's with Calum and not me. I need to remember that she is still quite young and I've been pushing her to hard. I act like her dad not her brother!
Katie is having fun and that's what I wanted so I took her advice and decided to live a little while she's away, I don't like the idea of going out or getting way to drunk when Katie is around even though I have failed at that sometimes. As much as I try to be a fun big brother, I will always put her needs before myself and so while she's not here the lads and myself agreed to all go to the club and just have a good night out together before our tour starts but the thing is I might not even leave the apartment.
I was suppose to met the builder here at my apartment around three hours ago but they never showed up. If they don't get here soon then I'm just going to leave.
As if on cue the doorbell rang and I put down the small puppy that I had been cuddling before making my way to the door.
Once I opened the front door I wasn't met with my normal builder but a much younger looking guy. He had rather cold brown eyes and dirty brown hair, his tattoos seemed to stick out from the edge of his short sleeve overalls he had on. I was certain I had seen him somewhere before but couldn't put my finger on where.
"Have we met before?" My arms crossed over my chest in an attempt to look intimidating.
"I don't think so sir." He was blank. He showed no emotion and I still couldn't figure out where I had seen him.
"Where's my normal builder? Carl? He already knows what renovations I wanted to do to my sisters room." It's true I'm redoing Katie's room as a surprise for when she gets back but I had already explained it all to Carl and didn't want to have to go through it all again.
"He is out sick today but don't worry he gave me the blue prints."
I bearly believed him but slowly made my way to the couch and sat down to look at the blue prints that were in his hand.
He talked for a good ten minutes with me listening but after a while my eyes travelled down to his name tag to see if his name could help me figure out where I've seen him before but it didn't help at all, the only thing that came from looking at that name tag was learn his unfamiliar five lettered name.
Woop woop! Chapter freaking 50! Did you guys like that little sliver of hope I put in for Katie and Niall fans? Lets just call them Natie shippers for now since I haven't thought of an actual cool sounding ship name for them.
Okay so on a more serious note.
I had a review done for this story which I don't usually do because it makes me feel bad if I don't take their advice into consideration but anyway one thing she pointed out in her review was that she thinks the one direction boys should all have one description like I did for the 5sos boys and I was going to do it but then I thought about it and realised that all the one direction boys play a important role in this story so I feel they all need their own description but at the same time I'm not going to add sentences or anything to their descriptions because I feel that if you do that for every single character then it gives to much away!
Also who likes my hair now that I've finally got all the blonde out of it :D so glad to have my brown hair fully back!
Okay enjoy the first actual chapter since I got back and please tell me what you think xoxo (:
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