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Something To Live Up To

Sessenta e TrĂªs


I was still mesmerized about everything Harry did for me, it was so thoughtful of him and everything looked so perfect that I felt like crying for a moment.
Despite my suspension points in the beginning I know now it was impossoble not to fall in love with him when all he does is prove that he really cares for me and that's all I've ever wanted.

"I still can't believe I'm in a yacht." I said when he came back with dessert.

"That's one of the benefits of dating me." He winked cockily.

"I can see some cons either."

"Like what?" He faked surprise.

"Your cockiness."

"Well any guy would be like me if they get you."

"You make me look like an arabian woman like the forbidden fruit or something or the golden pot everyone wishes." I said lowly.

"Because you are."

"I am what? The arabian woman, the forbidden fruit or the golden pot?"

"Funny. I don't know you're so beautiful in every way I mean when people look at you they obviously see the outside, that's what stands the most but once they see the inside it's impossible not to fall in love."

"Aww Harry..." I reached for his hands rsting on the table.

"And it took me so long to get you that I know value you more than ever."

"I have to admit it was fun." I smiled.

"Not for me. You drove me completely insane." He admited.

"That was the point."

"Can I ask you something? And please don't be mad at me." He said carefully.

"I was gonna say you can always ask me whatever you want but after that last part I'm not so sure." I raised my eyebrows but he remained serious. "Okay ask." He looked at me for a while and I could see a million thoughts going on his mind right now. It was something bad.

"Who's Filipe?"

As soon as the words came from his mouth my whole body froze, I could think about a million questions he'd ask but still I'd never ever think of this one.
Why on earth is he asking me that now!!?? How does he know about Filipe!?

"Ehm can I ask how did that name come up?" I said still a bit shaken by his question.

"Well don't be mad at me but..."

"Harry..." My eyes widened. I didn't want to get mad at him tonight but he was not making it easy and by his hestations I knew it was bad.

"A couple days ago I was entering my twitter account and I noticed you left your own opened in my computer. It was not my intention to look at anything but then I remembered that's how we started talking and felt a bit nostalgic so I opned your direct messages to see our old conversations and I saw you had DMs from a guy named Filipe Santos. For the name I assumed he's portuguese."

"What? You read the conversation?"

"Yes." He said quietly. But then I remembered....

"The conversation was in portuguese how did you..."

"Google translator."

"Oh my God Harry you had all that work to see a conversation?" I was shocked.

"I'm sorry when I realised what I was doing it was too late."

"You invaded my privacy." I tried to control my anger that was building up.

"I know I'm sorry I felt so bad about it, it consumed me but after what I read I couldn't keep this question to myself."

"That why you acted so strange lately?"


"I thought it was because I was leaving."

"It also is I mean the guy is portuguese and he seemed to be after you. Obviously I was concerned." I could no longer see calmness in his voice, he was nervous. "Who is he and what does he want from you?" His voice was now a whisper. I was slightly angry at him for checking my stuff but it was time for him to know that part of my life.

"He was someone I really cared about in the past, but not anymore." I confessed calmer now.

"Can you tell me the story?"

"Do you really want to?"

"Yes please." He said politely.

"Well..." I frowned. "Basically it all started with a bet, a very stupid bet I must say, we were in my house talking because we were friends and we were messing up with each other and he said he'd shush me with a kiss if I wouldn't shut up. He was a friend of mine, I never thought he'd do it and before I noticed we were already kissing and everything."

"Humm." Was all he said giving me the hint to continue. I sighed.

"And it felt good, we were both single so we thought well why not and started doing it more often..."


"Yeah, kissing and everything. We did it for months when I realised I was starting to get some feelings for him but I didn't say it because it was too good to ruin it but he seemed to like me too, we used to talk everyday at every hour and he wanted to be with me all the time but one day, after a year and a half he told he couldn't continue because he didn't have feeling for me and what we were doing is wrong. I later found out he was after another girl. So basically he used for that long and when another game came to the picture he just threw me out."

"So it was like friends with benefits but without the happy ending?" He asked.

"And the sex but yeah. Though it was not good for any of us you know it was too intense and sickning, we were consuming each other, it was not healthy but I was in love with him or at least I thought I was."

"When was that?" He swallowed not very confortable with everything.

"It all ended when we met. I actually went to visit my father because I needed to get away from everything back there."

"And he's after you now?"

"No. He was used to have me you know and when he realised I was not longer interested he came to me. He likes to feel like he owns things but I'm not a 'thing' so..."

"He seemed to like you." He looked deep into my eyes looking for something.

"Well if you saw the whole conversation you also noticed I was not interested at all. I no longer care for him, he hurt me."

"I can see you don't feell too confortable talking about it."

"Yes bcause it's something I really want to forget." He didn't answer. "If you think that still it affects me because I don't want to talk about it..." Still no answer. I sighed and got up circling the table in order to sit on his lap. "Harry I love you..." I cupped his face. "You, not anyone else. I'm really trying not to get angry at you because of what you did as this is a very special night so please let's enjoy it without fighting." I looked deep into his eyes making sure he gets the message. "Please?"

Without a word he kissed me with such urgence I almost fell if he wasn't holding me. I knew him enough to know he's doing this to push away all his thoughts but I kissed him back nonethless.
Without breaking the kiss he stood up and I wrapped my legs around his waist only realising where we were heading when he fell onto the bed bringing me along.
His hands started roaming along my body under my shirt making me shiver at his touch.

"It's easier if you take it off." I said inbetween kissed.

Not even a second later he removed my top and touched in every place possible. I did the same and threw his shirt on the floor tracing the pattern of his abs with my lips. He threw his head back and closed his eyes. Reaching his pants I immediatly took it off leaving him only in his calvin klein briefs.
Once he was only in his underwear he rolled me over so he was now on top and burried his face on my neck kising and sucking it making me moan. Then he removed my bra exposing my breasts that he caressed and bit. I pressed my nails against his back and he moaned. In result he took my pants off which took a while because they're tight resulting on both of us laughing a little about it.

He pressed his hips against mine allowing me to feel his enthusiasm under his pants. He was driving me so crazy I almost lost the notion of time till I was brought to reality when he was about to insert me.

"Wait." I said panting. "Let's do something new." I quickly rolled on top of him giving no chance for him to answer. I kissed his neck and his entire torso in a paintful extremely slow pass. As soon as I reached his briefs I took it off with my teeth immediatly getting the view of his lenght. I smiled and pressed a kiss to it.

"Are you sure?" He asked, his eyes twinkling with excitment. I merely nodded and skimmed my lips along his cock teasingly turning him on even more, if that's even possible. I started sucking it lightly in a normal pass, increasing it with time. "Mi-a." He moaned but it was also a warning.

"Got it." I said realising he was about to come. I reached for his mouth again and kissed it forcefully, craving for more.

"It's time for pay back." He breathed heavily turning me over. He removed my left underwear and went down on me. My tighs started contracting when I became aware of what he was about to. I gasped as soon as his lis made contact with my sensitive skin between my legs. He held my waist and placed wet kiss along my inner tighs till he reched the place. I grabbed the bed sheets as he did his work.

"Ah." I moaned arching my back. The feeling of his mouth and tongue like that was something I had never felt before.
He came back up with a grin on his face and kissed me again slidding his tongue inside my mouth.

"I think you're ready." He said putting his cock right inside me. He started thrusting me first slower and then harder. The butterflies erupted from my stomach and my entire body screamed with pleasure.
"It's okay to scream, no one can hear us here." He said after a while. These words worked like magic as I screamed loud. Fireworks exploded from my body as a sense of fulfilment came down to me.

Harry buried his face on the crook of my neck regaining his breath as we were both panting like never before.

"That was..." I said after a while speechless.

"I know." He looked up at me with peaceful eyes. I smiled and he kissed me lightly and I tugged his curls. I knew he was getting ready for round number two.

That night he gave me multiple orgasms and made me scream his name louder than ever.


I opened my eyes feeling something tickling me. I looked and noticed Harry's face burried on my neck, his breath giving me the hint that he was still sleeping. His arm were around my waist and resting on my belly, my back against his torso.
I smiled looking at his face, so quiet and beautiful. I pecked his nose and he moved it slightly. I chuckled, he looked so cute. It resulted on him opening one eye. As soon as he realised it was me a smile grew on his face.

"Morning." He said in his usual raspy voice sounding extremely sexy. That's one of the things I'd miss the most for sure. "Did you sleep well?"

"We barely slept." I stated.

"True." He laughed quietly. "I had never done it on a yacht."

"Now you did... Multiple times." I said.

"It was definitely the best sex. It seemed like the boat was having sex with us either." I looked at him strangely. "You know because it was floating at our rythm and everything." He explained.

"It's okay babe, I understand you're still recovering." I smiled fondly and he placed a kiss on my neck. We cuddled for a while longer just enjoying the feeling of eachother's company and the quietness of the ocean.


I dressed something confortable, some jeand and a top with my natural curls bouncing and got ready to leave.


The ride to the airport was very quiet, neither of us really spoke, both involved in our thoughts though my hand was on his hair playing with his curls the entire time. As soon as we reached it he took my stuff from the car and carried my bags.

I looked for my phone to see I had a text from Eleanor asking for our whereabouts. I quickly texted her back saying we were already at the airport checking in. She replied instantly confirming everyone was coming to say goodbye. I was already expecting it but I knew it would only make everything harder.

Harry and I sat on the chairs and holding hands. I rested my head on his shoulder and he kissed my head cutely.

"There you are." I heard a familiar voice. When I looked up I recognised the other four boys along with Dani and El.

"hey." I greeted everyone.

"Ready?" Liam asked.

"Not a bit." I replied.

"Why don't you stay with us for a while longer?" Zayn asked.

"It's really hard for me to leave believe me but I already spent 2 weeks here and I'm really sad to leave but as much as I loved every second I have other people back home. It's my last summer with 17 and my friends want me there and I kinda fell bad because I already miss it. Also I have some things to do with college, organize everything you know. Plus, let's be honest there's no way England can compete with Portugal when it comes to the weather."

"Yeah we understand." He said.

"July and august are the best months there, it's summer and everything looks perfect. Maybe you should go there and visit me and not the other way around." I suggested.

"Maybe in your birthday, it's soon right?" Louis asked.

"September yeah." I nodded.

"That's tempting." Niall said. "And I heard the food there is great."

"You'd get fat there believe me."

"Awesome." He said like a kid.

We kept chatting for a few more minutes when they called for my flight. A wave of sadness immediatly invaded me when I realised it was time to say goodbye. Harry released his hand that was holding my waist tightly allowing me to say goodbye to everyone.

"Take care okay." Zayn rubbed my back and kissed me on the cheek and I felt my eyes watering already. Damn it.

"Promise we'll see you soon?" Liam asked hugging me too.

"Promise." I smiled weakly. I then moved to Niall who was pouting.

"With whom am I gonna have popcorn contests?" He asked and I laughed, I tear sliding down my face at the same time.

"Come visit me and we'll do it."

"You know it's not always up to us." He said quietly and I nodded.

"I'm so glad you're finally leaving so I can have Harry for my own." Louis said hugging me too.

"You're gonna miss me." I stated.

"I really am." He admited. "I couldn't be happier about Harry's choice, your an awesome girl."

"Oh Louis." I hugged him again.

"I'm jealous." El said.

"Sorry." I said.

"Not of you, of him, it's the second hug you give him." She smiled, her own eyes watering too.

"Yeah me too." Dani nodded.

"Aww girls." I ran to them in agroup hug as they both held me tight and kissed my cheeks.

"We're gonna talk to you all the time okay?" Danielle promised.

"Of course." I said.

"You're not getting rid of us that easily." El continued.

"I don't intend too."

Tears were already streaming down my face as I moved to the last person I wanted to say goodbye too. Harry had pain written all over his face that it hurt me right in my heart. I was feeling it too. He immediatly wrapped me in his arms saying so much without even opening his mouth. I grabbed his curls and breathed his cologne in order to memorize it.

"I'm gonna call you everyday and we're gonna speak whenever we can and tell each other everything okay?" He said holding my face in his hands and looking straight into my eyes. I was already sobbing by this time. He kissed my tears, my forehead, my nose and finally my mouth envolving in such passing making me feel weak in my knees. I surrendered to the kiss and jumped to his lap circling his waist with my legs and grabbed his face with my hands kissing him back as tears were running freely. Our tongues encountered in the middle of our mouths fighting hungrily. I just wanted to kiss him forever.

"I love you so much." He said, his voice cracking too when I noticed his eyes were slightly red but he was not crying.

"I love you too." I said feeling every word and more.

"I'll see you soon okay?" He said against my mouth.

"Okay." I rested my forehead against his still in his arms when the voice from the airport came again.

"Harry she needs to go." Liam said quietly.

"okay everyone group hug." Zayn said and they all involved me in the most caring hug of my life. I turned to Harry kissing him one last time closing my eyes with such force that it hurt.

"I love you." I said turning around as he replied the same words.

I gave my ticket to the lady and looked back one last time to see both Danielle and Eleanor holding hands and sobbing while Harry was extremely quiet on the outside and Louis rubbed his back. The rest of the boys waved and smiled at me and Niall gave me a thumbs up making me smile. I waved at them and blew Harry a kiss before entering the plane.

I walked on it and looked for my seat. I was still taken aback by everything, it was a rollercoaster of emotions I couldn't even think clearly. I hate goodbyes, always did and saying goodbye to them, to Harry was one of the most paintful moments of my life and I've had many. What hurts the most was not knowing when I'd be able to kiss him again, feel his hands or even see him again. I couldn't even bare that thoughts.

I closed my eyes and let my mind run freely with everything I spent in the last couple of weeks. I was so exhauted of the wild night I had and from all the crying that soon enough I drift off to sleep.


"Ladies and gentleman welcome to Porto's airport in Portugal. Hope you had a nice flight, thank you." I opened my eyes and sighed sadly.

I walked off the plane and soon the portuguese language invaded my ears, something I was not used to lately. I collected my bags and heard my name.

"Miaa!" I looked up and saw my mum and my sister along with Ana waiting for me with big smiles. I obviously ran to them and hugged them all feeling their warmth and also noticing their tan. God, I missed this.


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Thank you!! I'm not very happy with this fic actually because I wrote it a while ago and it has toooons of mistakes like spelling and all so in the aspect I think the sequel is better and I hope you like it, I've received a lot of positive comments on the sequel... :)
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