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It Takes Patience III: Stripped

Chapter 30: Fuelled by Desperation

*Harry's POV
I looked back at my mum with a scowl covering my face before I spoke.

“He stayed here?” She glances back at Robin before she looks at me. The room falls silent for too long and in it I find the answer to my question before she even speaks.

“Yes Harry, Robin stayed here. We’re," my mum hesitates looking back at Robin. He shakes his head no slightly and I quirk my eyebrow at the small exchange before she continues," we're going to be married and he’s going to be living here soon anyway.”

“You let him stay here and you know what could have happened!” I snapped taking a step forward.

“Harry, you need to calm down.” The distance between us grew but the way my brain was running right now I didn’t know if it was because she moved back. She knows my fear on this and yet she still allowed us to stay under the same roof. I could care less that I didn’t notice that he was here or not. It’s not safe.

"We all need to sit down and–"

“Harry, I’ve known you for most of your life. You know me as well. I understand your fear and frustration, but how long will you let this go on? I love your mother beyond what I thought was possible and I love you and Gemma dearly.It’s all in your head lad and the longer you hold on to it the more it will fester and grow. You're making this harder on yourself than you should. I know that it was a burden before, but you've carried it for too long already. It’s going to be alright. You’re worried for no reason.” Robin interjected before my mum could finish her sentence and I could feel myself reach my boiling point.

“Don't fucking try to act like you understand! Obviously neither of you understand shit! Its not you that I’m worried about Robbin. I’m sure that If you knew what was in my head you wouldn’t be speaking right now let alone breathing! You should honestly consider yourself lucky that I didn’t know you stayed here.”

My mum’s eyes widened at my words and so did mine. I’ve tried to bottle my feelings on the subject for a while, but this added on to the other stress that I’m dealing with concerning possible Maudsley readmission, the court date, Reagan, and now Tamsin the words flew out of my mouth, stripped of any form of filter.

“Harold, don’t ever let me hear you say that ever again.” My mum’s voice went stern in defense of her soon to be husband and it put me even more over the edge.

“It’s true! He’s lucky that I didn’t know and you’re thinking the same thing. It’s not safe for us to be staying under the same roof and you’re just as stupid as he is for allowing it to–”

Before I knew what happened, I could feel the skin on my face begin to sting. My hand went automatically on the to the spot try to ebb the blow, but I could already feel the welt of my my mum’s handprint begin to form. As I looked at her in shock, the very hand that she slapped me with covered her mouth as tears filled her eyes. Robin stood still in his place and a silence that could cut through glass filled the room again. A tear spilled from her eyes before she spoke and she reached her hand out to try to touch me but I drew away from her.

“Oh, oh my God. Harry. Harry I’m so so–”

I grabbed my keys from the counter pulling away from her touch and left the house knowing that if I stayed there all the tension that’s building up inside would have caused me to explode, leaving the mangled pieces of the relationship that I have left with my mum and Robin in ashes as I stand in the midst of the destruction with a smile on my face.

“Harry!”

“Let him go Anne. Let him cool off.”


As I drive,my grip around the steering wheel tightens. My subconscious knows where I’m going before I do and when I pull up at the house, I begin to question myself wondering why I hadn’t just done this earlier.

I get out of the car and walk to the front door hoping that she’ll be here and that I’m not interrupting anything, but this is honestly my last resort and the only thing that I can think to do. Two cars are in the front drive and I know that she has company and might be busy but at this point I’m desperate.

*Reagan’s POV*
“Stop it.” I laugh as his kisses tickle me.

His lips sponge a trail of sweet tender kisses from my neck down my spine and as I try to pull away from him, he pulls me back to his chest to start at my neck again.

“You’re not going anywhere.” He speaks and my laughs are silenced and changed into moans as his teeth graze my skin, sure to leave a red mark in his wake.

He sooths the sore spot he’s created with his tongue and then kisses the reddish purple bruise he left as if he’s proud of the primal mark that he’s made. Although I won’t admit it to him, I like it when he leaves them as well.

“Now people know that you’re mine, since you like to keep it a secret.”

“A secret?”

My smile falters at the use of his words. I would never keep him a secret. We only did that when I worked at Maudsley because we knew of the repercussions that would follow if anyone were to find out. Not that keeping it a secret helped us much anyway.

I stand from the bed and walk over to the mirror to look at the size of the damage that he’s done this time and hide my face in my hand when I see two dark quarter sized love bites on my neck. I immediately grab my concealer from my make-up bag as I laugh to myself before I speak.

“I cant keep covering this up. People are going to see it for what it is eventually.”

“Then stop trying to hide it.”

I look into the mirror in order to see him and I immediately drop the makeup. His slender frame walks up behind me as he stands from the bed and before I can move, his arms wrap around my waist holding me in place. Bright blue eyes look into the mirror at me when I was expecting to see green ones. His head tilts down as I am frozen in my spot with fear and disgust with him and myself. He picks up my make-up bag grabbing a red lipstick from it before he kisses my shoulder and the marks that he’s made. The name ‘Peyton’ is written out on the mirror and tears spill from my eyes before he speaks to me again.

“You’re mine and nothing will change that. No one will change that.”

****
“Reagan! Reagan, sweetheart!”

“Get them off of me! Please, get them off! Get it off!”

“Reagan! You’re having a bad dream! It’s okay, its just a bad dream.”

I break away from my fathers arms and walk over to the mirror to check my neck as both of my parents look at me worriedly. I check both sides of my neck wiping away at it furiously. It felt so real and I swear that I can almost feel his disgusting hot breath and saliva on my skin.

My breathing is still ragged as I try to calm myself down, but it’s not working.

“Reagan, you’re going to give yourself an anxiety attack. Where is your medicine, baby?”

“I’m okay. I’ll be okay. It was just a bad dream like you said. It was just a bad dream.” I speak in between ragged breaths trying to deter my mother from grabbing my pills but I still can’t seem to calm myself the way that I had wished to.

My father comes up behind me and gently grabs my shoulders, but the contact makes me stiffen immediately and brush him away. I haven’t had a dream like this one in days and the anger I feel towards my subconscious mind for doing this to me when I thought that I was doing so well grows with every tremor my body continues to have as I take an unsteady breath.

My mom returns into my room with a glass of water and my medication in hand and before I take it, my father wipes my cheek with the pad of his thumb. I hadn’t even realized that I was crying. I take the glass and my medicine from my mom, feeling more like a twelve year old that relies on ‘mommy and daddy’ to take care of her than an almost twenty one year old who is planning on being a clinical therapist and moving out on her own within a few months.

As I begin to calm down, I can see my father’s eyebrows knit, before he stands from my bed in my childhood room. He looks towards my mother and they share a quick expression before my mom shakes her head, turning back to look at me. It’s almost one thirty in the morning and both of them have to be up for work soon. I feel ridiculous and embarrassed but most of all annoyed with myself. I know that this will only add to the list of my mom’s growing skepticism about me.

“Are you alright, Reagan?” My mother asks and my father walks away still frowning as I hear their bedroom door close.

“I’m fine. It was just–”

“Yeah, a bad dream. I know.” She raises her eyebrows at me with a mixture of worry and sympathy in her face before she closes the door to my room.

As I sit against my headboard in the dark of my bedroom my mind begins to race. In my calmer state of mind, the reason behind this particular dream begins to come to me. I take one last deep breath before I reach to pick up my phone only to have it ring as soon as it grazes my fingertips.

Notes

HI lovess!!! I have an update because its been 6 days (WTF?!) and because my weekend started today! Gotta love Easter break! Anyway,Oh Gosh! What did you all think of this chapter? Anne got kind of fed up with Harry here didn't she? Where did Harry go? (hopefully not into the arms of another...) I know that so much is going on, but you're all in for a surprise soon :) (is that a good or a bad thing? Who knows? ;}) As always, I love you all to bits for reading! Oh and please please please Vote and Sub and of course load me up with Comments if you're reading and haven't done so yet! It only takes a second I promise and it makes me really happy when you do. ~Xx

Some of Reagan's photo gallery as promised 3 of the edits are mine lol they're shitty
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Comments

@XOXOH

Hi there lovely, I am a big fan of your books and you don't know how happy I am to see you back here. I LOVE THIS TRIOLOGY so dam much......so let me get this straight....you are not updating this story anymore on here? You are only going to continue this story on wattpad?? .....despite what decision you make I will be waiting for you because I want to know what will HAPPEN ....sorry I am weird xxx

@MACxx
No problem xx

XOXOH XOXOH
8/20/15

@polisson just added you on watt pad can't wait to see what you have in store! Starting uni daze as we speak thank you for replying to me!!! :)

MACxx MACxx
8/20/15

@MACxx
Hi love! I am XOXOH I unfortunately can't log into my account on here for whatever odd reason??? Google gives me an access denied message but it still shows me when people comment here.Anyway, I will be posting this story again on wattpad under the user polisson it's gonna be a revamp so it will probably be a bit longer and have new parts. I wish I could log in to tell everyone about it. I also have another story that you may like there called Uni Daze. I'm sorry that I can't post here anymore :(

polisson polisson
8/20/15

MISSING THIS SO BAD. My favorite book ever and ive been rereading to fill the whole in my heart! Truly miss your writing it's the only thing I have to look forward to when I get on here! Miss you hope to hear from you soon!

MACxx MACxx
8/19/15