Adison's POV

I should talk to Anne. I wonder if she's mad at me. Is she going to ask me to leave? Am I going to have to choose between Harry and living here? I don't want to do that. I can't stand the thought of not being with Harry, but where am I supposed to go? I don't really want to live alone. Would Harry hate me forever if I stayed and that meant us not being able to be together? How could I possible make that decision?

I can't believe Harry still thinks we're going to be okay. I don't know how we get past this, I don't know where we go from here. I should have known this would happen. Right when Harry told me that Anne wouldn't like it I should have stopped all of this. That would have been the right thing to do.

But I can't imagine not having these last few weeks with him. He has made me so happy and he's helped me so much since my mom died. What if he thinks we can still do this and I don't? I don't want to hurt him. I have no idea what to do.

I throw my blankets away from my body and go to my closet, throwing on the first shirt I find. I slide some leggings on and brush my fingers through my hair, pulling it into a braid that falls over my shoulder. With my purse in hand I open my door and walk down the hallway towards the front of the house. I slip my coat and boots on and get my car keys, surprised that it's still sort of dark outside. I didn't realize how early it was. Did I even sleep?

I shake the thought off and head out to my car. I have no idea where I'm going, but I need to get away from here.

Harry's POV

"Seriously, you haven't seen her yet?" mum asks me. I shake my head and sit up in my bed, running my hands through my hair. I just woke up and she's grilling me.

"No, mum. I just woke up if you hadn't noticed. Why?"

"I can't find her."

"What do you mean you can't find her?" I ask, standing up and sliding my joggers on. "She's home, isn't she?"

"No, that's what I meant by 'I can't find her.'"

I roll my eyes and walk past my mother and into Adie's room. Her bed is messy from her sleeping in it, but she's not in her room, closet or bathrooom. After walking through the entire house I come to the conclusion that my mother is right. She's not here. What the hell? I walk to the front window and pull back the curtain to check the driveway.

"Her car is gone," I announce. Where could she have gone? "What time is it?"

"Eight thirty," she says. She looks around in confusion. "Where could she have gone at this time on a Saturday?"

Damn it's too early for this. I rub my face with my hands a few times and try to think of some place she could be. She's obviously upset about last night...but I have no idea where she'd go. There could be a bunch of places.

"Well I should go look for her," I mumble, walking back towards my room.

"Harry, it's early. She probably just went for a drive or something. Why don't you try calling her," she suggests, following my down the hall. I get my phone from the table beside my bed and hit Adie's name. I frown when I hear her ringtone coming from her bedroom.

"Damn," I mutter, hanging up the phone. "I need to go find her."

"No, Harry. Just wait a while. I'm sure she's okay."

"If you think that then why did you wake me up to ask me if I knew where she was?"

"I thought maybe she told you when she was leaving. Anyway, we have to talk about all of this," she says, walking towards me. I go into my closet and throw on some jeans and the first shirt I get my hands on, sliding a beanie over my hair as well. I walk back into the room, dressed and ready to go and search but stopped by my mother's harsh glare.

"Don't, mum. I need to make sure she's okay."

"Im sure she's fine!"

"How do you know that? She doesn't have her phone, if there's a problem she wouldn't be able to call me."

"What makes you think she'd call you and not one of her friends?" she counters, folding her arms.

"You mean the one that told you about us? Or the one she barely speaks to?" I spit. "Trust me, I'm the one she'd call."

"Harry, you can wait a while. If she left that early she probably wanted to be alone anyway. You're over-reacting, alright? Have a seat." She nods towards the bed and I sigh, reluctantly walking towards the bed. We both sit down on the edge of the bed and she pats my leg.

"Happy birthday, by the way."

"You said that last night," I remind her blankly. I honestly don't even care about my birthday right now, I just want to make sure that Adie is okay.

"I know. Harry, were you serious about last night? What you said? Do you..."

"Love her?" I finish. She nods once and I lay down on my back. "Yeah."

"Does she know that?"

"I haven't told her."

"I don't know what I'm supposed to do here, Harry. Obviously I couldn't keep you from her before so I don't know how I could now that you're feelings are even stronger. I don't understand why you ever thought that was a good idea."

I continue to stare up at the ceiling. I don't know how to answer her questions or explain any of this to her. I knew it would be sort of a bad idea, but I couldn't help it. Adie even tried to tell me how bad it would be when my mother found out and she was right, but I still couldn't help myself.

"I guess I can't really expect you to understand. Maybe it was dumb of me and it was wrong to do it when you told me not to, but it's too late now. I've never felt this way before, mum. I know you're going to tell me to stop seeing her but I can't do that," I admit quietly. I look over at her and she's staring at the wall beside me, clearly thinking about this. I feel bad being so outrightly disobedient to my mum, since we haven't really had any issues before. But this is too important to me. Adie means too much to me.

"I wasn't going to ask you to stop seeing her," she says quietly.

"No?"

"I'm not sure what to say, Harry. But if you're this happy and in love what kind of person would I be if I took it away from you?"

"So...what are you going to do?"

"I have no idea," she says, sighing.

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"Okay, it's been a long time and Adie's still not back. I called all of our friends and none of them have seen her," I tell my mother, walking into the living room. She's reading something for work, looking up when I walk to the back of the couch.

"That's strange," she says, a puzzled expression on her face.

"I'm going to go look for her."

"Are you sure?" It's only been a few hours."

"Exactly, mum. It's almost noon and she hasn't come back or called. I'm freaking out. I need to go find her."

"Alright well, text me when you find her. Be safe."

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"I'm serious, I can't find her. I've looked everywhere, Lou. I have no idea where she is."

"Think, Harry. You've know her your entire life. Where have you looked?"

I sigh and make another pointless turn. "Her old house, the cemetery, the school, the mall, this one place she usually goes to draw. I have no idea where else to look. I've been all around town, she's not here."

"She didn't disappear, Harry. Is there somewhere her mum used to take her? An old house she used to live at? Somewhere that reminds her of her parents? Maybe a-"

"Oh! We used to go to this cabin down at the beach. If she's not there, I literally think she ran away."

He laughs. What is funny about this?

"I'm sure she just needed to think. I can't believe Tyler outed you guys, that's low."

"I know, I don't even know what I'm going to do when I see him. Probably kick his ass," I suggest happily.

"Yeah 'cuz Adie would love that," he says sarcastically. I can practically hear him rolling his eyes. "Let me know if you find her, okay?"

"Yeah I'll talk to you later." I hang up and throw my phone onto the seat next to me. I've been driving around town for almost two hours now trying to find Adie and I'm really starting to worry. I have one last place that I can think of that she might be, but I don't even know why she would be there. She never has said that she went there and it's probably a waste of time to take the forty-five minute drive out to the beach. I'm heading to the place where we used to go as kids in the summers, the place where the photo my mum gave me for christmas was taken. We haven't been there in years and I'm not sure if it's as special to her as it is to me, but it's worth a try.

When I get close my heart starts beating really fast for some reason. I'm honestly freaking out; if she's not here I have no idea where else to look. Once I get out to the beach I get out of my car and run towards the water, looking to both sides and deciding to go towards the cabins first. When I get to the rocks at the far end, there's literally no one here. Not a sould. I start walking back the other way and feel really disappointed. I can't believe I thought she would come here, I'm so stupid. I'm just wasting time. I walk a little further down the other way past my car, stopping after about ten minutes.

"This is hopeless," I groan. I bury my face in my hands and curse quietly to myself. Where the hell is she? Where in the world could she have gone? I stare out at the water for a while and review the list of places I've gone today. I can't think of anywhere else she would go. I'm so worried about her.

I look down the beach again one last time before heading back to my car. Wait a minute. I turn back around and squint to focus on a figure further down the beach. No way...

I walk quickly across the sand towards the person and when I'm close enough I realize that it is Adie. I quickly pull out my phone and text my mum and Louis to tell them I've found her before shutting it off and stuffing it back inside my pocket. She's soaking wet from the rain that's been on and off all day and she's staring blankly out at the water. When I'm really close I see a tear rolling down her cheek. It could be from the rain, but she definitely looks like she's crying. She doesn't even notice me walk up to her.

"Ads," I whisper. She doesn't hear me so I walk up beside her and sit down on the sand. My jeans are going to get wet, but who cares. As I sit down she jumps, looking frantically at my face. "Sorry, it's just me."

"You scared me," she says quietly, reaching up to wipe the tears from her face.

"Sorry."

I sit quietly with my arms resting on my knees. I look at her for a moment while she stares out at the water.

"Where did you park? I didn't see your car."

"Just down there a bit," she says, pointing to her left. Must be the public beach access parking lot. We sit in silence for a while and I wait for something to come to me. I have no idea what to say to her, how to make her feel better. I knew she was upset, but I didn't think it'd be this bad.

"What are you thinking about?" I ask quietly. She takes a while to answer me.

"I miss my mum," she whispers. My heart almost breaks in half. That's why she's so sad?

"What? Ads, why didn't you tell me that?"

She shrugs and I lift myself closer to her, putting one arm around her now shaking frame. She leans into me but doesn't say anything else. I didn't even think about this being the reason. She's been doing so well with all of that; I honestly don't even think about it much. Of course she'd still be sad about that.

"You scared me," I whisper, hugging her close to me. "You forgot your phone and we didn't know where you were."

"Sorry," she says quietly.

"It's okay, baby. Why are you so sad? Talk to me."

I rub my hand up and down her arm and wait for some kind of response. I hate seeing her this sad and I just want her to feel like she can talk to me about it. I can't guarantee that I'll be able to help, but she should be able to let it out at the very least.

"She would have been able to help me," she says finally. I have to strain to hear her voice. "I'm so lost without her. I can't do this by myself, I need my mother."

She starts crying more and I can tell she's trying really hard not to sob uncontrollably.

"I'm so sorry," I whisper against her hair. "I didn't realize you were having such a hard time. Why didn't you tell me?"

"I- I didn't want t-to think ab-about it. I was- I was trying t- to be okay. Sh-she would...would w-want me to be h-happy."

"Shh. It's okay. You're going to be okay." I blink back tears of my own and wrap both arms around her, pulling her onto my lap. I'm not sure how long we sit there for but I just continue gently rocking her back and forth while she cries against my chest. It starts raining a bit, but I don't care. She needs me and she obviously came here for a reason. I will sit here with her for as long as I need to.

- - - - - - - - -

After what must be hours I finally break the silence.

"We should get home, Ads. My mum is probably worried and you're freezing."

"I'm okay," she whispers.

"You're shaking," I inform her. She shrugs and huddles closer to my chest. "We can just take your car, okay? I'll come back for mine."

"I can drive," she says quietly.

"No way in hell I'm letting you drive," I joke. To my dismay, she doesn't even crack a smile. "I know you may not want to go home right now, but you're going to get sick."

"Okay," she agrees. I help her stand up and tuck her back under my arm while we walk back to where her car is. I don't know how to help her with this. I only have one parent, but that's because I chose to have my father out of my life. I can't imagine losing both of mine and not having the chance to ever see them again. I have no idea how to help her besides just being there for her. And I don't even know if that's going to be enough. I've never seen her this sad.

"How did you find me?" she asks quietly when I start driving back towards town.

"It was the only other place I could think of that you might be. I looked everywhere."

She's completely silent for the rest of the way home and I'm starting to get really worried. She seems completely out of it, her eyes glazed over while she stares blankly out the front window. There is no way we're going to be figuring us out any time soon. She's going to be dealing with this. Whatever this is. And I need to find some way to help her.

When we get to the house I help Adie out of the car and up to the front entryway. My mum is in the kitchen when we walk inside and she immediately comes walking towards us.

"Oh my-"

I shake my head at her and she stops, her eyes searching Adie's face. Adie makes no expression towards her and my mum instantly looks more worried than I've ever seen her. She looks at me and I give her a helpless look before turning and leading Adie to her room. I take her to the bathroom and run the bath water for her, filling the tub with hot water to help her warm up.

"Hold on." I kiss her forehead and leave her standing on the cold tile so I can go to her closet. I get her some pajamas and her mother's old Cambridge sweater for her to change into, along with some undergarments. When I go back to the bathroom Adie is in the same spot I left her, blankly staring at the water in the tub.

"Take a bath, warm up. Relax. When you're done I'll come check on you, okay?" She nods once. "Are you hungry? Do you need anything."

"No," she says hoarsely. I nod and she steps towards the tub, feeling the water and adjusting the temperature a bit.

"Okay...I'll be in my room if you need me. Here's your phone." I set it on the counter and she nods again, the movement barely noticeable. I kiss the top of her head and exit the bathroom, shutting that door and the one to her bedroom. I jump when my mum is standing to the side.

"Sorry. How is she?"

"Geez, mum. She's...I'm not sure. I've never seen her like this." I lean against the wall and rub my eyes.

"Because of me finding out?" she asks, confused.

"No," I shake my head. "Because of her mum. She seems...broken. Completely broken. I don't know how else to describe it."

"I had a feeling this might happen at some point. She's handled it so well, she was bound to break down some time."

"What do I do? How do I help her?" I ask frantically. She sighs and wraps me in a hug despite my wet clothes.

"Just be there for her. She'll get through it. Some birthday, huh?"

"Yeah."

She releases me and smiles sadly. "I have presents and cake. Do you want them?"

"Can we do it tomorrow? I'm not really in the mood for that right now."

"Sure."

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