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Snake Eyes (Louis Tomlinson Fan Fic)

What Makes You Truly Happy

Louis POV

Loren and I made our way around the grounds and mansion finding Alfonso, my family, Niall, and Zayn and Perrie. Everyone was in awe of Loren’s ring and she glowed when she showed it off. Personally, I felt a deep sense of pride presenting Loren wearing my ring to everyone; it felt real, genuine – which is crazy considering how this engagement came about. Loren was cute looking so embarrassed but excited at the same time. Alfonso had tears in his eyes and gave me a bear hug which made me proud that he was so pleased. Sonja and my mum both cried like two babies – actually they cried harder and louder than Ernie and Doris. My sisters all harassed Niall begging him to marry them and buy them all diamonds, which sent the little Leprechaun into hiding. As I watched my sisters embrace Loren, and so openly welcome her into our family, a deep sense of happiness and peace washed through me. Everything felt right with my world.

Eventually, we tracked down Zayn and Perrie in one of the lounges cuddled up on a couch watching a movie. Perrie’s reaction was the funniest. She playfully punched Zayn in the arm when she saw Loren’s ring, joking with him that he bought her two engagement rings and still didn’t do as well as I did. We decided to stay and visit with them awhile. So, I pulled Loren down onto the opposite couch with me and draped her legs over my lap with my arms wrapped around her. She was thwarting my attempts to kiss her in front of Zayn and Perrie and I was determined to get my lips on hers. She decided to strike up a conversation to otherwise occupy those luscious full lips of hers.

“Perrie, I am so looking forward to our trip. I text the hanger earlier and the plane will be ready to go at 9:00 am,” Loren says excitedly. I can see Perrie is about to respond, but I cut her off.

“Trip? Where are we going love?” I ask as I snuggle into her and she tries to bat me off.

“Perrie and I are going to Paris and Milan for my wardrobe makeover and new look tomorrow morning. You are staying here,” she presses her finger into my chest in an adorable attempt at being bossy. She thinks she’s leaving me, she’s crazy.

“You are NOT leaving me. I’m going with you,” I protest.

“No. Girls only, no icky boys,” Loren says jokingly with her nose crinkled up in mock disgust. I tip her backwards on the couch and crawl on top of her. She gasps and Perrie and Zayn laugh at our antics. Loren tries to push me off her, but her efforts are futile.

“You didn’t think I was icky in your bed earlier today,” I shock her and watch her face turn bright red in embarrassment.

“LOUIS!” She squeals in my face.

“It’s okay love. I’ve known Lou three years now. He’s a piece of work,” Zayn says and I shoot him a look that tells him I don’t appreciate his comment and he just shrugs his shoulders and laughs. I turn my attention back to Loren.

“Why would you want to leave me love?” I ask her and find myself really wanting to know why she isn’t bothered about leaving me when it’s bugging the hell out of me.

“So I can come back new and improved,” she admits and her answer actually hurts my heart.

“You don’t need to be improved. I was an arse. You are perfect.” I tell her and she relents enough to let me give her a peck on the lips.

“Louis! You told her she needed a makeover?!” Perrie, enraged, jumps off the couch opposite us and pulls me up by the back of my shirt.

“I- I-,” I don’t know what to say for myself. While I stutter, Loren jumps up, probably to join in on the ‘let’s bash Louis fest’.

“No Perrie! It wasn’t like that at all!” Loren defends – and basically lies for – me. God, I really don’t deserve this girl.

“What WAS it like exactly?” Perrie practically snarls.

“I know that I am going to be forced from my life of seclusion and into the limelight. The media and the fans will have a field day dissecting me. So, I want this makeover for me. I can feel good about myself and I want Louis to be proud to be seen with me.” Ouch, that hurt again and pisses me off.

“Loren, I don’t care if you go out in a paper bag, I’m going to be proud to be with you. We’re in this together for the long haul,” I wrap an arm around her, give her a squeeze, and it’s another excuse to kiss her. She must like what I had to say because she suddenly seems to have no problem giving me a proper kiss in front of our friends.

“Okay you two, enough. Let’s discuss trip plans!” Perrie bounces up and down clapping like a juvenile. Zayn reaches out and pulls her back onto his lap and wraps his arms around her. I imitate their position pulling Loren on my lap and holding her close. This time she isn’t resisting my affection.

“So, we have my usual suite at the Ritz along with the adjoining one for the designers and seamstresses to use as a studio,” Loren says and I’m impressed at her accommodations.

“Perfect.Rachel Zoe is coordinating everything. She’s contacting all her designers and pulling favors to get everything overnight to the Ritz tomorrow and she’s flying in herself to oversee everything. Trust me, if it doesn’t look perfect on you, down to your lingerie, she won’t let you get it,” Perrie is definitely into this fashion talk; I’ve never seen this side of her.

“She’s going to make me model lingerie?” Loren asks looking terrified.

“Yes, everything.”

“Oh, then I am definitely coming if Loren is modeling lingerie,” I interject.

“No, you definitely are not coming now,” Loren says.

“I don’t want you to leave me,” I know I sound like a whiny kid.

“Lou, you are stuck with me for eternity. You can survive two nights,” Loren reasons.

“Two nights?!! You are not leaving me for two whole nights! I thought you were going overnight. That was bad enough!” If I look like I sound, I am clearly freaking out.

“Man, you have got it real bad Lou. What you gonna do mate when we’re on tour and you have to leave for a long stretch?” Zayn calls me out and I know my response before it comes out of my mouth.

“Loren will be traveling with me.”

“I what? How am I going to work?” She protests.

“You don’t need to work.” I state sounding like the voice of reason.

“I just graduated from Cambridge. I want to work.”

“Can we discuss this privately and get back to the fact you are leaving me for two full nights?” I redirect.

“Jeez Lou, clingy much?” Great. Now Perrie is making fun of me.

“Shoot me for wanting to be with my fiancé,” I sass and Perrie puts her hands up to indicate defeat.

“So, back to the trip. The makeover will be first and Rachel said to expect about six hours of work done on you since you are having the works. It will be a late night by the time we fit all the designers in. The next day, Rachel scheduled two hours for any final alterations before we leave for Milan to meet with the rest of the designers there. We should make it home by bedtime.”

“Wait! You are actually leaving me three full days!” I pout. Loren grabs my face and kisses me hard. I’d like to get carried away, but we aren’t alone. We pull apart and I just stare at her, dumbfounded by her new found boldness.

“Will you please stop whining now?” She asks and all I can do is nod.

The girls finish their conversation and we hang out with Perrie and Zayn long enough to finish watching the movie with them. It’s Fast and Furious 6; I’ve seen it a dozen times so I was not disturbed missing parts of it.

Loren and I leave the lounge holding hands in search of the only person we had left to show the ring - Liam. Alfonso told us he offered Liam the use of the library as an office since he had some business calls to make. Loren and I made our way to the far wing of the house to find him. When we entered the room, which amazed me because it could serve as a proper public library with its size and stock, Liam was just finishing a call and motioned us to come over to him.

“Hey you two. I was just talking about you,” Liam says with a smile. I walk over to the loveseat beside the chair Liam is sitting and take a seat with Loren. Liam is the most proper of all the lads so I force myself to behave in front of him.

“Good things I hope mate,” I return his smile.

“Yes. I just finished about my tenth phone call with Simon today.” I visibly wince; I’ve tried not to think about how this is going to go over with Simon. In fact, I’ve made it a point to avoid dealing with Simon over my impending marriage. Thankfully, Liam might have come to my rescue.

“How did he take the news of the engagement?” I ask truly terrified of hearing the answer.

“As you can imagine, he’s not too happy with you for keeping a secret love and springing this engagement on him. You owe me big time mate for smoothing this one over for you,” Liam scolds playfully.

“Great. He’s going to hate me before he’s even met me,” Loren frets. I grab her hands and look into her eyes.

“Lor, no one who meets you could possibly hate you.” She raises an eyebrow questioning me.

“Really? You seem to forget our first few meetings.” Shit. She’s got me there, but I have to cover so Liam doesn’t get suspicious.

“Oh, victim of the Sassmaster Loren?” Liam asks bemused.

“More like I was the victim. She skewered me alive. I told Harry she was a she-devil!” I defend myself. Loren punches me.

“Nice LouBear,” Loren smirks. We both know she just put me in my place even though Liam has no clue.

“Definitely a match made in heaven. Finally someone who can keep this guy in line and put him in his place,” Liam jokes.

“Hey!!!! Why is everyone so hurtful towards me?” I pout.

“Aw is wittle Wouis feewing ganged up on?” Loren mocks me and ruffles my hair. I lean forward and whisper in her ear.

“Wittle Wouis is going to give it to you later if you don’t stop with the LousBear shit.” That shut her up. A lovely blush creeps across her cheeks and she bites her lower lip.

“So Liam, is Simon okay with the news?” Loren quickly changes topics and looks hopeful.

“Honestly, yes. I’m not going to lie to you Loren. After my first call to him this morning, he had you thoroughly investigated. He didn’t call Louis because he still was pretty mad that Louis didn’t give him the news himself. So, he called me back and given your family and that you just graduated from Cambridge at the top of the finance school, he’s extremely impressed. In fact, he’s baffled. Lou, he can’t understand what Loren could possible see in you,” Liam laughs. The more people say it, the more I am agreeing with them; she’s pretty amazing.

“Me? I can’t believe Louis isn’t repulsed by me!” Loren says wide eyed and it’s the second time in an hour she’s put herself down and it’s upsetting me more by the minute. Why doesn’t she see how lovely and special she is?

“We are not having this conversation again Lor. You are perfect. Liam is right. I’m the unworthy one.”

“You two can spat later. I have to break some news to you and I hope you take it well. Simon has a kind of penance in store for you Lou. I hope you’ll consider agreeing to it Loren because it will make Simon go a lot easier on Louis if he cooperates.”

“What exactly does he want Li?” I inquire.

“Simon wants to capitalize on the publicity he can get from your engagement to the world’s most famous gaming mogul’s daughter. Plus, Loren is the type of girl that will do your image a great deal of good. He negotiated with Rolling Stone for the two of you to be on the cover with a full spread and exclusive article. Plus, he wants an over-the-top, celebrity-riddled engagement party. The wedding and honeymoon can be private affairs, but after your return he wants Loren to accompany us on pre-tour publicity. You don’t have to answer now. Simon thinks this all has to be done right because the news is going to be a shock to the fans. It was a shock to me so I can only imagine how they will take the news. Take some time to discuss it before you decide.” Liam lays it all out calmly.

“If we agree to this, Louis won’t be in trouble?” Loren asks thoughtfully.

“Simon said he’ll forgive him, but he’ll probably still rib him for fun.” Liam posits.

“Then, we’ll do whatever Simon wants. Tell him it’s a ‘yes’,” Loren says without hesitation and I am in awe that she is willing to throw herself into the fire for me.

“Lor, do you know what you are getting yourself into by agreeing to this?” I ask her while still in disbelief she agreed so quickly.

“Yes. We got you in trouble. If I need to do this to make your life easier, I’ll gladly do it. We’re in this together. Isn’t that what you said to me earlier?”

“You absolutely amaze me love,” I lean in and kiss her and I don’t care that Liam is in the room. By far, Loren is the most incredible woman I’ve ever met.

“Well, so glad that Perrie and I are going on our little adventure tomorrow for sure now!” Again, excited to leave me.

“Let’s not bring that up again,” I sigh and she giggles at my reaction.

“I’ll call Simon back and he’ll start making arrangements.” Thank God Liam is the responsible one in this group.

“Thank you Liam. Will you ask him to call my father to make arrangements for the engagement party? He’ll give Simon his full cooperation,” Loren stands to leave and I take my cue from her.

“Thanks again mate for smoothing things over for me. We’ll see you at dinner in a bit.” Liam nods and gives a small wave as Loren and I leave the room.

We decided to take a walk outside and found my mum pushing Ernie and Doris in the double pram. She looked exhausted so Loren insisted we watch the twins for her so she could catch a nap before dinner. Again, I was amazed at how many times, in the short time I’ve known her, Loren always thinks of others and goes out of her way to help. She’s the most unselfish person I’ve ever met.

At dinner time, everyone convened in the grand dining room. We sat around for a good two hours eating, drinking, talking, and laughing. After three years of constant travel, it was wonderful to enjoy an evening with my family, the lads, and my soon-to-be family. As pleasant an evening as it was, I was looking forward to going to bed with Loren. I had a few things I wanted to talk with her about and I still was perplexed by her behavior while we were picking out rings. I’m afraid I’m falling for her hard and I don’t want my heart stomped on again. It happened to me once and I don’t think I could handle it happening again – let alone with my own future wife.

Everyone retires to the lounge, which holds the baby grand piano, after dinner. We had a few rounds of songs and more conversation. Niall convinced Loren, after much begging, to play the piano. Phoebe and Daisy demand she sing. Ever the good sport, Loren played the girls’ current favorite song, ‘Let it Go’. Idina Menzel herself has nothing on Loren’s voice. Once again, she managed to surprise me into silence.

The night continued on for a few more hours until everyone agreed it was time to retire for the evening. At bedtime, we said our goodnights and everyone went to their rooms. I escorted Loren to her door to keep up appearances with the intention of sneaking in through the secret back hallway shortly thereafter.

“I need to get something from my room and then I’ll be in love. You have five minutes to get into nothing but your ring,” I lean in and kiss her.

“Wait. That would make me naked if I wore nothing but your ring,” she protests and pouts.

“Exactly. I’ve been fantasizing all night about seeing you in nothing but that diamond,” I place light kisses on her lips and jaw line and Loren moans but then pushes me gently away from her.

“Why do you need to see me naked?” Suddenly, she’s serious.

“I’ve already seen you naked. Are you getting self-conscious on me?” I ask.

“No, I think my brain is just catching up with my hormones and I don’t understand why you seem so interested with my body.”

“Loren, you have the most beautiful body I’ve ever seen. I’d be insane not to want to see it and touch you. In fact, now that I think about it, I am excited about your trip. This new wardrobe won’t have you hidden under 20 pounds of clothes and I can admire your figure all day long. So yes, when the option is that in public you keep covered head- to-toe, when it’s just us I want you naked so I can see what I’ve been deprived of admiring all day.” She turns positively beat red at my words, but I don’t care. She needs to realize how lovely and desirable I find her.

“Okay. Just give me a few minutes to collect myself.” She sounds unsure of herself.

“Alright. I’ll be in after I check my emails and phone messages and grab my charger.” I give Loren a quick kiss and walk to my room after she disappears through the door. I vow to myself that tonight I will make sure Loren knows I think she is amazing.

I take my time because I know she could use a little time to herself. Stalling for time, I listen to Simon’s message a couple of times and decide to man up and call him. He rarely sleeps so I know I won’t disturb him. He answers on the first ring and we speak for quite some time. Thanks to Liam, the conversation was much more comfortable than I anticipated. In the end, Simon wished us happy. He was very pleased that Loren didn’t hesitate to agree with his requests. She seems to have a new fan in Simon, which makes my life much easier. I end the call telling him I needed to get back to Loren as she was leaving on her shopping trip in the morning. Like everyone else around me, he too told me I have it bad. They’re all crazy.
When I enter Loren’s room, there is only one dim light emitting a soft glow in the room. I look over to the bed and Loren is lying there covered by the comforter. A quiet laugh escape my lips as I approach the bed and stand over her with a smile on my face.

“Lor, are you naked under there?” I try not to laugh when I ask her the question.

“Yes,” she says shyly.

“Then, why are you hiding under the covers?” My smile gets bigger as she tenses and pulls the covers tighter to her body.

“You said naked. You didn’t specify my position on the bed covers.”

“Yes, but I told you wanted to see you. I see nothing but your head.” I can’t help but laugh at how ridiculous she’s being. “Now come on, lower the covers, I want to look at you.”

“No.” She says it like a little child.

“Either lower the covers or I’ll lower them myself,” I say with a raised eyebrow and I see her eyes grow big.

“You wouldn’t.”

“Yes I would. Now, please let me see you baby,” I beg and I see Loren’s eyes transform magically from nervousness to lustful as I whip off my t-shirt and stand in just my boxers.

I watch as she takes a deep breath and slowly, painstakingly slowly, begins to lower the covers. The temptation to hurry her is overwhelming, but I know this is taking all her courage to do this for me. So, I remain silent and allow my eyes to slowly travel down her body as inch-by-inch she reveals herself to me. Loren’s lying on her side slightly arched back. Her breasts finally come into view and I feel myself begin to harden at that beautiful site.

Eventually, I see the dip of her waist and curve of her hip until she stops when her arm is fully extended and she is exposed to below the knee. Loren kicks off the covers and crosses her right foot over her left one. She is stunning and I want to commit this moment to memory. Again, I wonder in disbelief at how the universe brought us together. Neither one of us say a word, we just stare at each other. Finally, Loren brings her left hand to rest on her belly and I get what I wanted – a view of her completely naked with my ring as her only accessory and I am overcome with need for her. It takes a moment for me to regain my power of speech.

“Absolutely breathtaking,” is all I manage to get out.

“Yes, it’s gorgeous,” she agrees but we’re talking about different things.

“Yes, the ring is nice, but you are breathtaking baby,” I say as I take a step towards her and I can tell she’s blushing. She stretches out her hand to me and I take it and go to lay down next to her when she stops me.”

“Sorry, this is a no clothing zone. Please pay the toll.” Oh, she thinks she’s so cute. Well, she is and I chuckle and comply with her command. Wanting to make her squirm, I take my time removing my boxers and I enjoy watching her try desperately not to stare at my exposed privates and failing miserably.

“Enjoying the show? May I join you now?” I ask full of sass and she nods while biting her lower lip and I want to bite that lip myself. I crawl into bed and pull her to me. Loren squeals and I attack her with kisses. Eventually, we settle down and are just looking into each other’s eyes and smiling. I decide now is the time to ask her about what’s been bugging me today.

“Lor, why did you insist on putting yourself down several times today?”

“What are you talking about?”

“On at least two occasions today, you commented negatively about your appearance and it upset me.”

“Oh. Well Lou, let’s face it. I am in desperate need of this makeover. I’m going to be self-conscious about being seen with you until Perrie and I get back.”

“How can you say that to me? You are so lovely, brilliant, funny, and talented. Not to mention you have a slamming body. So, how can you be so negative when it’s unfounded?” I raise my voice louder than intended and I can see I caught her off guard with this line of conversation.

“I’m sorry. I guess joking about it relieved some of my stress.”

“Well, I didn’t like it. It hurt me to think you believed those things about yourself.”

“Hurt you? Why Lou?”

“Why? Because I want you to be happy and when you say things like that it makes me feel like you being with me brings you down.” My admission stuns her.

“Brings you down? No. It’s quite the other way around.” Her words cause anger to rise inside of me. I force Loren onto her back and brace myself over top of her with my forearms on the bed on either side of her face.

“Lor, look at me.” I refuse to continue until she gives in and makes eye contact with me. “I don’t ever want to hear comments like that from you again. I’m the arse who doesn’t deserve you. All I want is for you to be happy and realize you are the special one between us. I’m just an idiot who lucked out on a bad roll of the dice.”

“Yes, so lucky to be stuck with me.”

“Don’t sass me. I’m being serious here.” For the second time in a minute, I’ve stunned Loren.

“Lor, what’s going to make you happy? I want to know what you want.”

“I’ve never really thought about it before Lou.” I can tell she’s thinking now.

“Well, you said earlier you still wanted to work in finance and not tour with me,” I remind her.

“I didn’t say that I didn’t want to tour with you. I just want to be able to work too.”

“Yes, but a job won’t allow you to leave for long periods of time.”

“True. Well, maybe I’ll have to put it off for a while.” Suddenly, an idea springs in my mind.

“I have a proposal for you Lor.”

“Another one?”

“Cute. A business proposal.”

“You want me to work for you?”

“More like work with me. I need a personal business manager. See, part of my cash flow problem is the renovations to the estate, but the other half is that I am heavily invested in a deal to buy a football team. Upon returning home, the club deal should close and I need a finance director because my partner and I plan to clean house of existing management. I’m thinking if you wanted to run my personal assets and the club, you could work and still have the freedom to travel with me. That is, if it’s something you’d be interested in; I know you were dealing with high finance at Barclay’s.” I wait for her response and I can’t read her face.

“Lou. I don’t know what to say. It sounds perfect. Are you sure you trust me to do a good job?”

“Top in your class at Cambridge? Yes, I hope you won’t be bored. Besides, you can earn me back some of the money I blew on your ring today,” I joke and she fake punches me.

“Thank you. I absolutely accept.”

“Wait. You don’t know the terms of your employment.”

“So formal?”

“Yes. You will be expected to sleep with the boss. Can you handle the sexual harassment?” We both erupt in laughter and Loren grabs me and kisses me.

“Yes. I think I can handle that.”

“Well, that’s one issue resolved. We can start going over things when you get back from your trip if you like.”

“Sounds perfect.”

“Okay, one more thing I wanted to know Lor.”

“My desired salary?” She jokes.

“No. We’ll deal with that later. Besides the career, I want to know what you really want out of life.”

“Well, definitely not monetary things. We both know money will never be an issue. I’ve never really wanted a lot. Maybe it’s because I know I can have pretty much anything I want that I don’t feel the need to actually go crazy buying stuff. That’s sounds pretty silly coming from a girl with her own jet and car and driver, I know. But if you look around my suite, you see I don’t accumulate a lot of things. I guess if I’m being completely honest, I want what most people want. I want to be loved - to give all my love to someone and raise a family.” Her honesty rips me to the core. Loren looks so vulnerable having just shared her confession with me. In this moment, it hits me like a bolt of lightning the only thing I want in life is her.

“I want to be that someone,” I blurt out without thinking through and watch Loren’s eyes practically pop out of their sockets. “Please. Love me Loren,” I practically beg her and I feel tears pooling in my eyes. It is the most real and raw moment of my life. I start to panic because she does not answer me right away.

“Yes,” she rejoins in a breathless whisper and I feel like my heart is going to explode from her response.

“Say it again,” I plead.

“Yes,” Loren returns in a much stronger and emotion-filled voice.

At this point, I can’t control myself anymore. I lower my mouth to hers and kiss her until I could pass out from a lack of oxygen. Loren wraps her arms around my neck and tangles her fingers in my hair. She gives a tug and I moan throwing my head back. She lifts up and places kisses on my neck.

“Love me baby,” I plea in a whisper and she bites down on my sensitive skin. I lower my body on top of hers so that my hands are free to roam across her figure. Loren’s timid nature seems to have evaporated because she is not restraining herself as her hands reach for my erection and she sucks violently on my sweet spot. I could cum right now between the sensations and the emotional connection I have with her. I gather my thoughts enough to roll us over and pause to catch my breath and look at her. Loren is breathless and gazes at me with a mix of lust, desperation, and confusion.

“What’s wrong?” She asks with her brow furrowed.

“You almost had me cum in 10 seconds,” I say but struggle to get the words out because of my overly aroused state. I expect her to be embarrassed, but Loren surprises me when her expression turns smug and lustful. Something has definitely changed between us in the last few minutes; there’s no denying it.

She surprises me by crashing her lips to mine and grinding down on me and I almost choke from the near ecstasy. Loren’s hands and playing with the sides of my hair. It’s only now I realize I’m so overcome with her actions, I’ve been too stunned to move as my hands still are glued to her waist. I run my hands down to her bum and knead her cheeks which causes her to grind into me again and I moan into her mouth.

My need for Loren spirals out of control. Without thinking, I hook my hands behind her knees and pull them to my waistline. I roll her onto her back and wrap her legs around my middle and rock against her. Her response spurs me on as she arches her back off the mattress and throws her head back.

“Lou. Ohhhh. We h-h-have to stop.” She struggles to get the words out in her euphoric state.

“I don’t know if I can baby. I want you so bad.” I lift my head to look at her and she sobers when she processes my words.

“We have to Lou,” Loren whispers like we’re in danger of someone hearing us, her eyes shifting left and right.

“I know,” I groan, “but I really don’t want to stop.”

“I really don’t want to be pregnant on my wedding day,” Loren says pointedly and I have to agree with her.

“We really need to talk about that too,” I say sighing.

“Great, more embarrassing conversation,” she rolls her eyes.

“We can either talk about birth control now or ask my mum for Ernie and Doris’ hand me downs,” I say with raised eyebrows.

“Fine, but can you roll off of me for this little talk?”

“No, I think it’s wholly appropriate I’m on top of you given the topic.”

‘You have no shame.”

“None at all love. So, birth control. I don’t want to wear condoms. It seems stupid when we’ll be married.”

“Stupid to you. How do I know you’re clean Lou? I’m a virgin, but you could be a walking STD.”

“I’m offended,” I scoff and pretend to be insulted. Loren raises her eyebrows questioning me.

“Seriously, management constantly tests us for everything under the sun. I’m clean and I always use protection. You will be the only one who has had me unsheathed.” I state proudly.

“Wow Lou, you really know how to make a girl feel special. First to have you unsheathed. Can we get a plaque to put over the fireplace for that one?”

“Smartass,” I say smirking at her.

“You’re a great teacher,” the little vixen winks at me.

“Oh I’ll teach you a few things right now,” I go in for the attack diving down for her chest and biting down on her breast. Loren yelps and tugs desperately on my hair to get me to release her from my mouth, but I don’t cooperate.

“Lou, uh. Oh God. Stop. Talk. We need to talk,” she’s gasping and I pull away feeling pretty pleased with myself.

“Yes, what would you care to discuss baby?” I play stupid to make her embarrassed.

“Um, birth control.”

“Yes. As I said before, I don’t want to use condoms. I don’t want anything to come between us when I sink inside you.” I say it like that on purpose because she looks so delicious when I make her squirm and she doesn’t fail to give me the response I desire from her.

“Okay, well then I guess I need to go on the pill. I’m not a fan of shots or any of those contraptions I’ve seen on commercials,” she shivers at the thought and I chuckle.

“Some of those you can go three months without a period.” Loren screws her face at my words.

“Should I be concerned you know this kind of information?” She questions me.

“No, you know my mum’s a midwife. I grew up with this kind of information all over the house. You could talk to her if it made you more comfortable,” I suggest.

“NO!! I am NOT going to talk to your mom about birth control. She doesn’t need to know about us having sex,” I can’t control my laughing at how mortified Loren is of this conversation.

“Baby, she’s had seven kids. We’re going to be married. Do you think she’s going to think we’re not having sex?” I can’t stop laughing at her reactions.

“Yes, but she doesn’t need to be reminded that I will be having sex with her son!”

“Will you please relax? We aren’t solving an international nuclear arms standoff here. Would you be more comfortable talking with Perrie?” I try to calm her down.

“I think that sounds like a good idea. Still embarrassing, but I’d be more comfortable talking with her. Maybe she’d go to the doctor with me.” Loren seems to be calming down finding a solution to the issue.

“Good. Now can we fool around if I re-promise to wait for our wedding night?” I look at her like an excited little puppy.

“No Lou. I think it’s my turn to bring up a topic of conversation.” I groan and bury my face in her neck.”

“Fine.” I mumble.

“It’s just that what you asked me earlier, about what would make me truly happy. I want to know what will make you truly happy.”

I didn’t expect her to ask me that question. Loren could have asked me a thousand questions and I could have blurted out an answer for any one of them, but this question took me by surprise. I can’t think of a time when anyone ever bothered to ask me what would make me happy and I realized she’s the first person who’s ever cared enough to ask. Loren looks at me expectantly, but I process my thoughts before I speak because I realize how important this answer actually is to my future.

“If you would have asked me this question a week ago, I would have told you singing, writing, and having the freedom to do and buy whatever I want would make me happy.” I notice a blank expression cross Loren’s face and I understand it. “But, you walked into my life – or rather were thrown into it – and you’ve changed everything. I feel the change in me already and, because of that, I know what makes me truly happy is you.” I finish with a genuine smile and I watch the tears pool in Loren’s eyes this time as a smile creeps across her lovely visage.

She reaches up and grabs the sides of my head, pulling me down into an intense kiss. This kiss is never-ending and deepens by the second until we are both gasping for air but refusing to separate. Our hands, which have been wandering over each other’s bodies, venture towards our lower halves as we lay on our sides facing each other but as close as possible. Loren grabs onto my length squeezing and pumping me and I close my eyes momentarily fantasizing that I am inside her. My fingers enter her and I curl them as I pump into her at the same pace she’s using with me. My free hand slide up the mattress and I slide it to hold her face in my hand. She reaches her free hand up to mine and holds it. The contact, for some reason, seems so intimate to me that I automatically reach my climax in her hand as she does the same on mine. After we finish riding our highs, I give her a peck and rush into the bathroom to get a wet rag for her after cleaning myself up.

I pull Loren to me on the other side of the bed and hold her. We say nothing for what seems like an eternity. We just look at each other, but there is a deep, internal conversation taking place. I can feel how profound the words are in my heart. We are almost about to drift to sleep, but I cannot rest until I speak my peace.

“I love you Lor.” I say with shallow breath and hold it while I wait for her reaction.

“I love you too Lou.”


I'm so sorry! I've been so busy. It took me forever to find time to write, but I hope this really long chapter makes up for it.

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