Sad Dream

Kaya's POV

I stayed like this for hours, waiting for something to happen, but there was nothing. I usually feel empty but now I was more than usual. I started thinking about the first time I felt this empty, it was when I was 15.

Before then I was a shy girl, always quiet with good grades. I had a lot of friends, my mom loved me, my dad past when I was 9. It was the calm before the storm.

Everything began when I started hanging out with some "bad" kids, the kids your parents warned you about.

Soon after I started smoking and changing, all of my friends left me so I stayed with the bad ones and I enjoyed it. We went to parties, raves, all the time and I unfortunately started doing drugs.

First it wasn't really dangerous or often but then I became addicted to hard drugs. I lost a lot of weight. At 16 I was an anorexic drug addict, I never slept at night, I was partying. I even lost my virginity in one of those parties.

I always pictured myself with the perfect guy, in love with me, telling me that I was beautiful and that he loved me but in real life it doesn't work that way.

*Flashback*

"Take this pill" Luke told me.

I took it and smirked at him, he grinned. The music was blasting and I started to feel the pill affect my behavior.

I was dancing in a crowd of sweaty teenagers, all high on drugs. Some were almost having sex in front of everyone.

I felt hands on my hips, I turned around to see Luke. I was grinding on him when he took my hand and led me to the bathroom. He pushed me against the wall and kissed me hungrily, I kissed back. He attacked my neck, hard enough to leave a purple mark on my neck.

Some moans escaped from my mouth.

"You like that, huh?" He whispered in my ear, letting another moan come out.

His hand rubs my parts against my panties. I tried to say something but he cutted me off.

"Shh.. Babe just let go"

He took my panties off and massaged roughly my clit, my breath hitched. He took off his pants and slipped his length inside of me without warning making me yelp in pain. He continued without even caring about me but I let him, he used to treat me like shit all the time. I was used to it.

After some more thrust I started to feel the pleasure take place and the pain disappeared. It felt good but wrong. We came.

"First time wasn't it?" He asked. I nodded.

"Don't worry, babe you were great" he smirked.

I sighed, put my panties back on and left the bathroom but before I could open the door he grab my arm and kissed me harshly.

"You're mine now" Luke said.

*Flashback Ends*

It's one of my biggest regrets, losing my virginity like this, high, to him. I was stupid. I then became Luke's girl, the one who slept with him when he needed. The one who stayed behind when he was dealing drugs. The one who was getting beat by him when he was in a bad mood.

I hated him and loved him at the same time, he had a hold on me. He was the leader of a gang. The last time I saw him was 2 days before I tried to kill myself. He had beat the shit out of me for no reason and tell me he loved me.

He probably thinks I ran away, he never knew where I ended. I think he doesn't know that I tried to kill myself. I don't want him to know because he'll find me again.

Notes

So, about the "sex scene" I'm not really good at it but I'll get better promise !

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