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Breathe

Carry On

They say after loss or trauma you have good days and you have bad, today, is one of those days they would call bad.

“Please stop crying love please” Harry holds me close to his chest as I sob, letting everything out. It’s 3:30 am and I’ve had the most horrible dream, brought on by the fact Harry fell asleep on the couch and I fell asleep alone.

I can’t stop though, I had a dream I lost everything. The shivers come in and I find my self-trembling in his arms. He hugs me tighter to him, I’m cradled to him while he sits up. He hushes me, soothingly rubbing my back.

“Ca-can we go some-wher-where” I say into his shirt, which is damp from my tears. I just want to get out of this bed.

“Anything for you baby” He whispers back and I stand, sniffling in trying to contain the tears.

I walk to my suitcase as Harry goes to put pants and a shirt on, I quickly throw on a shirt and a pair of sweat pants (http://www.polyvore.com/untitled_19/set?id=104082814)

“Ready Nina?” I see Harry with his car keys in his hands, he yawns and enfolds his fingers with mine. I nod and we make our way out to the car.

“Are you okay?” He looks over at me while we drive down the freeway.

“I’m alright” I lean my head on the window

“Where are we going?” I inquire when the surroundings become countryside.

“Where I go when I’m sad” He makes a left and then smiles.

I find myself drifting off and then the car comes to an abrupt stop. I open my eyes to see we’re outside a home, a home I’ve been to before.

“We’re at your moms?” I look over at him, he leaves the drivers seat and comes to open mine.

“She helps with everything, I always leave here feeling better” He holds my hand and brings me to the front door.

“It’s 4 in the morning I don’t want to wake her” I whisper, trying to keep the level of noise down.

“She knows we’re coming don’t worry” The door opens and Anne appears in her nightgown, a smile lit across her face.


“Come in, come in” We walk through and the house is dark. Harry hugs his mom.

“Nina, how are you” She asks tenderly I look down at my hands

“I’m alright”

“Come in for tea please”

We go to the kitchen and sit at the table, Harry looks at me quizzically, as if he’s trying to read me. Anne pours tea out of a teapot into three cups. She sits down with her housecoat wrapped around her.

“Nina, tell the truth, how are you?” She asks again but with a stern undertone. I feel the lump move higher up my throat.

“Not good” I whisper and the pain enters my stomach. I let my head fall into my hands and I take a long breath. I look up at Harry whose eyes have become watery. I know this is hard for him too.

“Loosing the baby, could not be farther from your fault” She stares at me. Concerning wrinkles appearing on her forehead.

“I know but, I failed, I had one job and I couldn’t even do it” I say quietly keeping my eyes averted. Harry and Anne never once take their eyes off me.

“I know how you feel, but you need to understand that it was out of your hands, and it was not your fault what so ever” She turns her head from Harry to I.

“Have you guys talked about it, at all?” we both shake our heads, Harry’s tried to talk about it all, the kidnapping, the baby, I just don’t want to.

“Well there’s the problem, nothing can get better until you talk and trust me on that dear” She strokes my hand. She yawns and Harry intervenes

“We should go mum, you look tired, we’ll come visit during the day another time alright?” Harry sounds so sweet as he tells his mum. We stand and Anne walks us to the door. She hugs me first. “Things will get better I promise” She whispers in my ear. I smile small and walk to the car.

Harry’s P.O.V

“Don’t lose her again Harold” My mom hugs me close. I swallow.

“I wont, I swear”

“Are you guys back together officially?”

“I’m not sure, I think so. I’m never letting her out of my sight again I can assure you that” I hug her once more and then join Nina in the car.


Nina’s P.O.V


I lean my head on the window as Harry drives back home.

“I hate seeing you like this” He whispers, voice barely audible. He looks broken. I can’t help but feel horrible for doing this to him.

“I’m sorry, please I’m fine” I close my eyes

“Don’t lie to me” He shakes his head and makes a left hand turn

“Don’t worry about me please” I respond

“How can you even ask me not to worry about you, I’ll be worrying about you for the rest of my life” He speaks like I insulted him.

“I want to talk about all this Nina”

“Can we another time please I’m so tired”

“No, right now” He’s relentless, I sit up and stare at his wide green eyes.

“You can’t just bottle it all up” He touches my cheek quickly.

“What, what do you want to know? Every awful detail of that boat, how we were starved, beaten and left on a cold wet floor for god knows how long? How one of the men stabbed his knife into my ribcage? How they almost killed Wyatt? Or how they shot the man who raised me before I took a bullet for Wyatt? Or how about when they crushed the bone in my arm while trying to make me sign those fucking papers. I really don’t ever want to talk about it, I lost everything on that boat.” I feel my eyes watering as I yell at Harry. I don’t mean to yell at him but I’m so done right now I can’t help it. He stares at me like a deer in headlights then I realize we’re parked in the driveway.

“Nin-“ He starts

“Don’t” I open the door and march to the front door. Harry unlocks the door and I storm through.

“Nina stop” He follows me

“No! I don’t want to talk about the boat, I haven’t talked about it for 8 months and I don’t want to talk about it” I sob and run into the bathroom, slamming the door behind me.

“Please let me in” Harry begs from the other side.

“Just leave me alone” I slide down the door with tears streaming down my face.

“I’m not going anywhere”

---

9:00am (Nina’s P.O.V)

The sun hits my eyes and I wake up groggy. Shit I fell asleep. I stand and stretch. Harry!

I open the door and Harry falls in. Still sleeping. He slept on the door all night, or well however many hours. I sit and cross my legs and bring his head into my lap. He stirs and gets comfy grabbing my hand into his, eyes still closed. I stroke his hair on the side of his head. He looks so peaceful sleeping. I feel horrible, for how I reacted. I bend my head down and kiss his cheek. Harry turns and opens his eyes, surprised.

“Hi” I croak, he smiles small.

“Hi”

“Would you like to move off the floor?” I smile back

“No” He pulls my head down to his lips. I deepen the kiss and then I crawl over him straddle his waist he sits up and kisses me again.

“Harry” I whisper against his skin.

“Nina”

“I want you” I attach my lips to his neck and make small trails around his collarbones. He slides his hands under my shirt and takes it off my head. He attacks my chest with his mouth and I moan under his lips. He clips off my bra and throws it out the room. I glide my hands up his back taking the fabric of the shirt with me and tossing it aside. He stands up with my legs wrapped around his waist, he sets me on the bathroom counter and he slowly starts taking down my pants all the way to my feet and sliding them off. He kisses my knee all the way up my thigh and I tangle my hands in his hair. I quickly undo his button and zipper smoothly pulling down his pants and boxers as much as I can. He assists me and takes them off. We stare at each other completely naked. I take a deep breath. His look says a thousand words. “Kiss me” I whisper seductively and his lips attack mine. He uses his hand to part my legs and slowly he sinks into me. I moan in the middle of our kiss and our lips vibrate. He glides in and out of me with barely any speed, I tangle my hands in his curls and he groans against my bare chest.

“Harry please” I moan as he goes slower and slower, its unbearable pleasure. He grunts and clenches my hand with his. He looks up at me while continuing the slow torture. My body tingles, and then it all hits me.

“Oh my god Harry” I give a deep low moan

He fastens his pace and I throw my head back, tightening my legs around him.

“Fuck Nina” He squeezes my hand harder. I wrap my arms around his neck digging my fingernails into his shoulders.

“Harry!” I scream loudly as he thrust as fast as he can and then really slow again. He attaches his lips to my nipples and runs them through his teeth. I jolt my back in pleasure and Harry moans while gritting his teeth along me.

“Shit Nina” I sense his finish approaching

“Baby please” I beg for more as he grinds into me a few more times. He stills and I watch his back rise up and down as my chest does the same thing.

“Oh my” I whisper, trying to catch my breath. He pulls out of me, but doesn’t let go of me.

“I love you so much” He says into my ear. I smile.

“I love you too” He sighs in relief.

“Lets have a bath” He suggests and I nod. He backs up and helps me off the counter.

He starts the bath and drops in a few bath bombs along with bubbles. After a few minutes we slip into the hot water. I sit in front of him in-between his legs.

I lean back and rest against his chest. The water feels amazing.

“Nina I need to know something” He sounds serious my heart drops I look up at him.

“Are we back together?” His eyes are hooded, I extend my hand to his cheek and grin.

“I think so” I whisper

“I need a yes or no” He whispers back with a scared tone

“Yes” I reply and his face lights up.

“You’ll move back in with me?” He sounds like a small child at Christmas.

“I have no where else to go” I laugh

“But you want to live with me right?” He frowns

“Of course I do, but I was thinking maybe this is too quick but I wanted to start over you know? Somewhere that has no memories. I was thinking maybe we could buy a house together? I want something that we can share equally” I watch his face brighten as I talk.

“That sounds incredible, you want to get a house here in London?”

“I think so, I know that you could never leave here and I wouldn’t make you move to New York”

“I’d do it for you”

“But you wouldn’t be happy”

“If you’re there I’m happy”

“I like London allot, I’m happy here”

He kisses me softly and quickly.

-3 hours later-

Harry’s P.O.V

Nina’s eyes close and open slowly as she starts dozing off on the couch.

“Baby I have to run to my moms quickly alright? I’ll be home in half an hour, will you be okay?” I look at the woman I’m madly in love with laying on my couch in my clothes.

“Yes, tell your mom I say hi and kiss me before you go” She closes her eyes and I bend down leaving a kiss against her lips.
-

“Hey mum” I hug her quick as she lets me in.

“I’m so excited” She expresses and claps her hands together

“I’m so nervous” I sit at the table and she sits across from me

“Let me see it” She holds her hand out and I take the small black box out of my pocket, dropping it into her hand.

“My lord Harry it’s beautiful, I can’t believe that was Gran’s ring” She brings her hand up to her mouth, speechless.

“I just added a bigger diamond and we put the original diamonds in the band and we kept the original band and cut” I lean my chin on my hand as she stares at the ring.

“When are you going to do it” She looks up at me with wide eyes. I take a deep breath

“I’m don’t know, I was thinking about doing it tonight at Lou’s”

“That’s not very romantic Harry”

“Trust me, I’ll make it good, but Nina likes simple”

“Sweet, romantic, and simple” She repeats to me

I look at my watch, I’ve been gone for nearly an hour.

“Why do you want to do this”

“Because I want to spend the rest of my life with her, I don’t want us to ever be how we were with the break ups and get back togethers, I never want either of us to go through it again. I just want to wake up next to her every morning and go to sleep with her beside me” I could talk about Nina all day.

“She’s the one, but mum I have to go, please don’t forget to be at Lou’s house at 8” I kiss her cheek quick and let myself out.

My phone rings and its Lou

“Hey mate”

“Harold all this stuff is here from FedEx and all these companies for tonight what do I do?”

“I’ll be there soon, just start setting it up in the back yard and remember the plan” I hang up and hop into my car.

Notes

LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK HE'S GONNA HAVE PLANNED!

I'm so excited about these chapters coming up, so many characters are going to be in them and it's going to be fun.

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-march

Comments

@march5th
Please update again pwease!

@sav4sav
I really want the story to update

Stupid Simon, I hate him and Sarah, shes making her think he doesn't want her :(
When are you going to update?

I love it I love it I love it
☺☺☺☺☺

Oh my I am addicted to this story. Guys is there like a sequal. I am not trying to rush but this hasn't updated in 2 months. I am afraid because this is the best story ever. I thought it was gonna end with Dominic coming back and . killing them. Anyway, love the story.